[apostlewithapomegranate]

emailed dastak but they haven't responded yet. might send them a whatsapp if that's possible... feeling a bit hopeless but good things can also happen to the hopeless and defeatist... i hope. recently had this epiphany that i'm always trying to figure out things and control outcomes on my own but that's not possible. only idk where to start cause of the Isolation(tm)

[apostlewithapomegranate]

they responded to me & said they can accommodate me for a few days until i find somewhere else to move!! idk what i will do after but at least something is working out. it's all i wanted 😭

if it all goes to shit i decided i will just sleep in a church like my sufi brethren usayfir who hates muslims and has pee as white as milk. maybe i will convert too while i'm at it & that will probably legally cut me off from my family 🙏 thank you to isa and napirisha only

[apostlewithapomegranate]

emailed dastak but they haven't responded yet. might send them a whatsapp if that's possible... feeling a bit hopeless but good things can also happen to the hopeless and defeatist... i hope. recently had this epiphany that i'm always trying to figure out things and control outcomes on my own but that's not possible. only idk where to start cause of the Isolation(tm)

[apostlewithapomegranate]

[image description: In the center, Mary holds baby Jesus in her arms in a white swaddle. On her right stands Joseph, and on her left, the archangel Gabriel. Behind them is a gradient purple backdrop. Stars spread above them and, atop Mary's head, the Star of Wonder shines.

Mary's hair is in two plaits, one falling over her shoulder while the other falls behind her. She's is in a pink Balochi dress with bird motifs done in Palestinian tatreez. She's wearing silver jewelry, while a clove is placed in her nose piercing. Her forehead is decorated with multicolored dots following the arch of her brows.

Joseph has one hand atop Mary's head and the other holding Gabriel's hand. Joseph is dressed in a dark bisht and a white turban with gold embellishment. Gabriel is in a dark purple dress with a green shawl wrapped around him, and a gold pectoral plate. The pectoral is detailed with a floral design and ornamented with multicolored gemstones.

Gabriel has one wing folded and the other is extended behind Mary and Joseph. The colors and the form of his wings resemble that of a Macaw. While both Joseph and Mary gaze down at their baby with smiles, Gabriel's face is marked with tears. /end description]

[apostlewithapomegranate]

looking thro blog now that i'm back n woah. not 2.5 years since i (f)Arted™️

[apostlewithapomegranate]

hai guys... long time no see. updates of danish lore from like. past 3 years:

survived arranged marriage(s) (it just never ends)

got a job (hence why i stopped begging for art comms... also lost the ability to draw tbf & starting from scratch)

was hoping to be transferred to a work sponsorship so i can leave home but that never happened cause my job grade is too low or whatever weird khaleeji legalities

after saving up for a year, now planning to return to parkistan so i can escape my family/the gulf/kafala system - esp. since i will be threatened with my family sponsor visa being cut off and being deported to pakistan if i retaliate and go against my family, so it's like. might as well risk it myself

i'm thinking of relocating to lahore cause 1. i've only lived in the countryside of karachi outside of my village in balochistan and it's too family-oriented (i.e. snooping, gossiping aunties) + full of fellow baloch people for my comfort, 2. the more upstate areas in karachi are expensive as hell, & islamabad is pretty much the same from what i can tell.

those are the only areas i'm familiar with/can find any info on. i'm looking for anyone who is in lahore & can be my guide/support when i relocate cause i'm #scwared. if you're outside of lahore, i appreciate any help + i don't mind staying elsewhere too, if it is possible for me.

atm, i'm looking for joabs & accomodations + figuring out how to transfer my funds. so any info on pakistani banking systems and help with housing search (or maybe able to give me shelter for a month or two?) would be appreciated.

[apostlewithapomegranate]

danish's commission info

new commission post since the old one doesn't apply. reblog this instead!

[pricing & details under cut]

depending on the amount of rendering it involves, my rates range from $28 to $68. simple pieces, similar to the above two examples, start at $28 & increase with crispier rendering, heavier details, complex backgrounds or additional characters etc. with the two examples below being in the $68 range.

will do:

complex designs/outfits

historical, religious or cultural motifs (refs would be appreciated but i'm willing to do my own research)

nsfw of original + fictional characters who are 21+, at my own discretion, and you have to be 21+ as well

won't do:

anthro/stylized animals

weird fetish stuff

celebs & most fanart

notes:

turnaround time can be between a week to a month depending on the complexity.

50% payment upfront when you receive a sketch and are happy with it and the rest before i send you the finished work.

you'll recieve a 3000x3000px (3000x4500px for portrait and 4500x3000px for landscape) png with 300 dpi.

only accept payment thro p4yp4l or k0-fi.

[apostlewithapomegranate]

hewwo. coming out of the woodworks because my life is falling apart and i need help (again), so i'm doing commissions (again). please share/boost, it helps a lot.

i'm still unemployed after so many years of trying to find stable work

my initial tooth problem got solved but my oral health keeps declining & accumulating

i have multiple disabled family members, both here and in balochistan, who need help & i was hoping to find some work to support them.

i was already hoping to finish my degree to get more job opportunities, but the problem is i need a job... to get the $$$ needed for a degree... that'll help me get a job. but i recently found out my residency might not be renewed & it's even more dire for me to get on a student visa now.

i have a fundraiser on my ko-fi if anyone wants to support, or you can commission me instead so i can afford a wheelchair for my sister, my dentist appointments etc. etc.

[apostlewithapomegranate]

danish's commission info

new commission post since the old one doesn't apply. reblog this instead!

[pricing & details under cut]

depending on the amount of rendering it involves, my rates range from $28 to $68. simple pieces, similar to the above two examples, start at $28 & increase with crispier rendering, heavier details, complex backgrounds or additional characters etc. with the two examples below being in the $68 range.

will do:

complex designs/outfits

historical, religious or cultural motifs (refs would be appreciated but i'm willing to do my own research)

nsfw of original + fictional characters who are 21+, at my own discretion, and you have to be 21+ as well

won't do:

anthro/stylized animals

weird fetish stuff

celebs & most fanart

notes:

turnaround time can be between a week to a month depending on the complexity.

50% payment upfront when you receive a sketch and are happy with it and the rest before i send you the finished work.

you'll recieve a 3000x3000px (3000x4500px for portrait and 4500x3000px for landscape) png with 300 dpi.

only accept payment thro p4yp4l or k0-fi.

[apostlewithapomegranate]

hewwo. coming out of the woodworks because my life is falling apart and i need help (again), so i'm doing commissions (again). please share/boost, it helps a lot.

i'm still unemployed after so many years of trying to find stable work

my initial tooth problem got solved but my oral health keeps declining & accumulating

i have multiple disabled family members, both here and in balochistan, who need help & i was hoping to find some work to support them.

i was already hoping to finish my degree to get more job opportunities, but the problem is i need a job... to get the $$$ needed for a degree... that'll help me get a job. but i recently found out my residency might not be renewed & it's even more dire for me to get on a student visa now.

i have a fundraiser on my ko-fi if anyone wants to support, or you can commission me instead so i can afford a wheelchair for my sister, my dentist appointments etc. etc.

[dualdeixis]

[Image description: A digital drawing of Kagamine Rin and Len as myrrhbearers and Hatsune Miku as an angel. Rin and Len are dressed in yellow and white robes with orange sashes and loose gray pants. They each carry a gray bottle and look with deep shock at Miku, who is dressed in white robes and carries a teal staff topped with a globus cruciger. She sits on a boulder and gestures invitingly towards the empty tomb before them. All three characters have orange haloes, and there are clouds of orange scribbles drawn across the white background. End image description.]

happy birthday @apostlewithapomegranate <3

[apostlewithapomegranate]

not able to talk abt chinese complicity wrt drc 🤝 not able to talk abt arab/muslim complicity wrt palestine

[artemis-pendragon]

Queering the Map in Gaza and the West Bank

[homoidiotic]

Tracy Chapman

[tamarrud]

Israel is disgusting.

Did you see the video that shows where the ambulance that went to rescue 6 year old Hind was from the car she was trapped in?

Mere meters! Meters! The paramedics would have been able to see the car from where the ambulance was before it was struck by Israel.

The paramedics were there. Hind was moments away from being rescued. Israel is fucking monstrous. They lured paramedics in so they can kill them before killing the child.

There are no words to describe how inhumane Israel is. Fuck Israel.

[apostlewithapomegranate]

motaz seems to be going thro survivor's guilt and i worry that'll culminate into something drastic, which is more worrisome for the fact that q*t*r is not equipped to deal with war survivors

[batmanego]

anyway all that to say that if you’re a dropout if you have shit grades if you go to an alt school and are looked down on for it if you’re in your 5th or 6th or whatever year of high school if you’re still getting your GED if you’re taking night classes if you missed out on “universal” high school experiences if you were abused by your peers (because make no mistake, that’s what bullying is) if you were expelled if you were truant every single year if you were homeschooled and got sick of the jokes if you never attended a full week if the whole world treats you like the scum of the earth all because of your high school experience or lackthereof you’re not alone. there’s so many of us that have been beaten down and broken by the school systems we’re subject to and the hostility they breed and the abusive environments they foster. some day we won’t have to be treated like objects of pity or contempt to be swept aside but until then we have each other

[batmanego]

all of this goes doubly for special ed students + people with ieps + people with 504 plans + every disabled or delayed student btw i love you all

[batmanego]

btw if anyone gets on this post and adds "and gifted kids who burnt out!!!" im gonna kill you. speaking as someone who was a ""gifted kid"" in elementary + early middle school and burnt out by 7th grade, Literally every conversation about academic difficulties gets dominated by the "burnt out gifted kid" narrative and nine times out of ten its gifted kids that burned out in the last year/two years of highschool/the first year of college and rarely people like me who had a "strong start" and then failed before even getting to highschool and theres NEVER any space for people who never had a strong start, people who didn't even have a decent start. people who have been "problems" since the second they set foot in an academic institution. this post is for everyone that struggled with the school system but its especially for people who failed early and especially for people who never had a chance.

[paxamericana]

Escaping Gaza, for fun: Israelis take to 'escape rooms' that mimic war

As Israel battles Hamas in Gaza, some Israelis are spending their leisure time at escape rooms that mimic the realities of war.

[tartrazeen]

Jesus FUCKING christ!!!!

Seriously??!! Are we still doing the "If you put this in a book, editors would take it out for being too on-the-nose" thing?!?!

[apoemaday]

February

by Margaret Atwood

Winter. Time to eat fat and watch hockey. In the pewter mornings, the cat, a black fur sausage with yellow Houdini eyes, jumps up on the bed and tries to get onto my head. It’s his way of telling whether or not I’m dead. If I’m not, he wants to be scratched; if I am He’ll think of something. He settles on my chest, breathing his breath of burped-up meat and musty sofas, purring like a washboard. Some other tomcat, not yet a capon, has been spraying our front door, declaring war. It’s all about sex and territory, which are what will finish us off in the long run. Some cat owners around here should snip a few testicles. If we wise hominids were sensible, we’d do that too, or eat our young, like sharks. But it’s love that does us in. Over and over again, He shoots, he scores! and famine crouches in the bedsheets, ambushing the pulsing eiderdown, and the windchill factor hits thirty below, and pollution pours out of our chimneys to keep us warm. February, month of despair, with a skewered heart in the centre. I think dire thoughts, and lust for French fries with a splash of vinegar. Cat, enough of your greedy whining and your small pink bumhole. Off my face! You’re the life principle, more or less, so get going on a little optimism around here. Get rid of death. Celebrate increase. Make it be spring.

[magz]

Support Links: pay pal. ko-fi. about donations.

If want to: please help with Magz Weekly Supplies and Groceries. Am a disabled non-speaking blk person in ""third world"" etc etc.

Can also accept 1 art commission for the month on Ko-Fi (delivery in ~2 weeks), DM with inquiries. Also have an optional monthly Ko-Fi "membership" for support.

Goal: $90. Will turn off post when get, update in replies.

(February 13, 2024)

[magz]

$58.89 / 90 - mwah

[sayruq]

[tamarrud]

Seeing this right after seeing this Palestinian father break down in tears talking about how his son died due to malnutrition has enraged me beyond measure. Fuck Israel and fuck Israelis and fuck Zionists and fuck everything. Fucking monsters rejoicing in blocking essential aid to dying children, death to you all.