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[loveridden1999]

― F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Sensible Thing

[unapologetically-human]

“Sitting with the truth that skill and effort do not guarantee success can be terrifying and demoralizing, but if there’s one piece of comfort I can offer you, it’s the reminder that all of the people before you who tried and failed – they survived and found their way. - Maybe not immediately. Maybe it took months or years. Maybe it took trying and failing ten or twenty more times. Maybe they never found their way and are still wandering. But wherever they ended up, they’re okay. - The rejection that seemed like a death sentence in the moment didn’t prevent them from finding a new path or person. - The failure that seemed like a road block, that made them convinced they would be stuck forever, DIDN’T stop them from being able to pursue the things closest to their heart. - When you try your hardest and still lose, it won’t stop you either. It won’t be the end of you. Life is unpredictable and resilient. YOU are resilient. And when doors close and people leave, it means you can open new doors. It means you have room for new people and new ways of being. - No misstep or loss is strong enough to make or break your life.” 💌 #daniellkoepke - ➡️ There are people who drop out of college or don’t make it there at all and STILL manage to create successful and fulfilling lives for themselves. - ➡️ There are people who don’t make it as entertainers or doctors or writers and either find a way to incorporate their passion into a life with an alternate career, or discover a new passion altogether. - ➡️ There are people who don’t recover from their physical or mental illnesses or addictions who STILL find ways to experience joy and love and laughter - who still find ways to make their lives meaningful and worthwhile. - ✅There are NO failures. Only lessons, opportunities for growth, and different ways of being and navigating the world 💛

[unapologetically-human]

It’s easy to feel like you’re failing at life when the only snap shots you get of other people are positive ones. But it’s so important to remember that you’re only seeing a small piece of the entire picture of a person’s life - pieces that are often filtered or embellished, or sometimes completely falsified, to paint the appearance that everything is okay. But these people you’re comparing yourself to who seem to have their life together, who are living enviable lives and have smiling photos and celebratory status updates and blog posts showcasing their adventures - their lives are not as easy or perfect as they might seem. Yes, there may be moments of happiness and laughter and accomplishment, but there are also moments of heartbreak and loss and loneliness. There are days when they feel painfully inadequate or invisible or defeated. Days when they’re drowning in shame or self-doubt or fear. They aren’t the paragons of success and happiness that you’ve built them up to be. Because the truth is that NO ONE has everything figured out. No one’s life is easy and without struggle. It’s human and it’s normal. And it’s OKAY. It’s okay to struggle. It’s okay to feel lost and unsure and overwhelmed. It’s okay to not have it together every minute of every day. It’s okay to be exactly where you are and feel all the things you feel. You don’t have to have all the answers or do things perfectly. You just have to show up and try. You have to trust that you can struggle and lose your way and still end up where you need and want to be. That you can not have it together and still live a meaningful and accomplished life.

Daniell Koepke  (via internal-acceptance-movement)

[bealightinthedark]

There will be nights when you can’t fall asleep because of the ache in your heart. It hurts. Those are the only words floating inside your soul. The tears you’ve been holding in finally break through. You can’t sleep. You are in pain. You are heavy. You are burdened. You are lonely. You are hurting. You don’t know how to deal with everything you are feeling. So you just lie there as the tears slip out. You close your eyes and try to just breathe. Even though it’s painful, there is healing happening. There is release in crying. There is freedom in processing your pain. There is hope in admitting you are not okay. In those twilight hours of restlessness you are mending yourself. You are letting go of control and being vulnerable with the most important person – yourself. I know tonight is hard. I know the world feels overwhelming. I know you are having a rough time. Hang on. Keep breathing. The only way over this is going through it.  No more running. No more hiding. Feel it all. There is healing happening inside of you. It’s uncomfortable. It’s really painful but you need it. You deserve it. You are worthy of it. Healing is possible for you. And if you need someone to hold your hand, don’t be afraid to ask them to. If you need someone to hug you through the pain, reach for their embrace. Healing doesn’t have to happen on your own. Remember there will be nights when you won’t ache like you do now. There will be nights when you rush to fall asleep dreaming of tomorrow. Remember that and hold on.

With love,

Dele

(via bealightinthedark)

[humansofnewyork]

“I don’t remember deciding that I didn’t want kids. I just always knew. I expected to have a solitary and philosophical life. It had nothing to do with the noise or the responsibility or the diapers, I just didn’t feel qualified. I couldn’t figure out my own life. How was I supposed to be responsible for someone else’s happiness and sense of self-worth? I pictured fatherhood as a quiet living room where everyone was unhappy and nobody knew why. But I was wrong. They made me so much happier, and it was so much easier than I thought. I didn’t realize how much of being a father is just about doing things together and being where they are.”

[diamond-unicorns]

[aprilecadag]

If you believe that you have something inside of you, and you feel it's about time you gave it a shot, honor that calling in some small way —today. If you feel a knot in your stomach because you can see the enormous distance between your dreams and your daily reality, do one thing to tighten your grip on what you want —today. If you've been peering down the road to must but can't quite make the choice, dig a little deeper and find out what's stopping you —today. Because there is a recurring choice in life, and it occurs at the intersection of two roads. We arrive at this place again and again.

Elle Luna, The Crossroads of Should and Must

[aprilecadag]

I took Alexa to the playground today, and she surprised me with her bravery. Alexa is full of bold spirit. She thinks no obstacles are hard to conquer. When she wants to climb the stairs, she'll get something to step on so she could reach on to it. She likes to kiss and hug little kids. She is also delightful to strangers. She just loves to explore and have fun. I know a few children outgrow this kind of personality as they become exposed to the world, but I hope Alexa could take her courage and confidence from adolescent years to womanhood. Seeing her a while ago in the playground makes me wonder, how could she become fearless at a very early age? Also, I was thinking, this is how I should live. Alexa sees everything as an adventure, and maybe she's telling me that I should do the same. Through her, I will start embracing the world without fear. She is my hope.

[aprilecadag]

Two years and four months

I’m writing you this letter because I want to remind you that every 19th of the month, I look back on the first day we exchanged words about falling in love and finding someone not to complete you but someone to accept you completely. It was the beginning of my happiest days until now.

Over the years, I have seen us through our struggles and reconciliations. I have seen us at our individual breaking points. I have seen us at our weakest. I have seen us give our all for this relationship. I have seen the self sacrifice love.

Some days, we seem like giggly teenagers and other days, we seem like the aged ones.

We never gave up, despite of everything has happened. We got through the countless break ups, third parties, family issues, non sense fights and long distance.

These walls that keep us apart will never ever be a hindrance. We’ll keep going and stay firm.

I love you, and always will be. Wish we’re celebrating 19th of July together.

[aprilecadag]

Swim date on a weekend with this little duckie. Finally had the chance to take her out , just the two of us. I've always wanted to bring her in a safe and healthy environment where she can just run, play and enjoy the sun. These are the moments I live for.

[aprilecadag]

This has been the nicest thing I've read in a while. It's like this person knew what I'm going through. Thank you so much, anonymous stranger. You made me smile.

[aprilecadag]

Losing your way isn't about failing

As always, I tend to write when midnight starts. I don't know why but everytime I go to bed, my thoughts just run randomly and it is becoming a habit. People say, I am having self-esteem issues or trying to run away from all the situations happening in reality. Guess they're right. I just got hired in my first "serious" job and I have no idea what it is and what I'm going to do. Being in a banking company is far from what I've dreamt of. You know me, I'm more of the artsy type. But who knows, this could be something that could strengthen me, or give me growth or maturity. I also read a statement in an article that you may have lost your way temporarily, but do no lose sight of what matters most, on your journey back to happiness. So if you're going through the same thing, take note of that. Never lose hope.

[aprilecadag]

2:00

Remember when I told you I’ve been having a reversed sleeping pattern for days? It’s not because I’m turning my body clock in your time zone but the reason behind it is I feel worthless again. I feel mistreated, and unappreciated. I just want to sleep for a while so I won’t feel the pain or just run away from the struggle life is giving me. But no matter how I try to escape from hurting, I see it in my dreams. I see moments, feelings, everything you did those days when you hurt me from the past and suddenly, I woke up afraid and crying… I’m being haunted, I’m stuck in between. I couldn’t do anything. I’m alone. I begin to wonder, my mind is swimming in the thoughts of my emotions and I am still in pain. I need to rise above the water. I need to be healed.

[aprilecadag]

Happy Anniversary to this quick-tempered human being! Couldn’t have asked for someone better to share this life with. 2 years down, rest of our lives to go, and I can’t wait! Everything gets absolutely beautiful between us. I love you.

[aprilecadag]

Caught the sunset today with one of the most genuine and beautiful people I know, @unfathomablesentiments. Sometimes, you just gotta be happy with what you have right now. Because a little bit of something is better than a whole lot of nothing. Be grateful.

[aprilecadag]

To whoever wrote this on my Tumblr Ask, thank you and I appreciate it. You made me smile.

[aprilecadag]

Hi, it’s been a long time

Wow. It has been a long while since I've last written here. For what I remember, I started using this blog when I was 17. I would post anything and everything about my life. How did I become so blunt over the internet?

Well, I didn't know how I ended up here to be honest. Since I couldn’t go back to bed, I just thought of checking this account to visit my past and see how far I've become in the present. Surprisingly, it was all worth it. I'm very happy for what I've seen, and because of that, I'm inspired to write again. To continue on sharing, and inspiring others. It’s good to be back.

Cheers, have a good weekend.