eddie munson/reader how to lose a guy in 10 days au
summary: you get an unexpected visit from eddie after an argument with your father. you invite him to come to a party, and end up somewhere else. this project could be, easy?
warnings: no use of y/n, ab*se, drugs/alcohol
You woke up to your father banging something in the kitchen, and you prayed it wasnât out of anger.Â
You moaned in exhaustion from the little sleep you had last night, spending most of your evening and well past your bedtime doing homework for English class.Â
The hunt to track down Eddie Munson started today; thatâs what you told Nancy over the phone. You probably should have started on Monday, but fear got the best of you.Â
Actually doing it was horrifying. You wanted to find a way to talk to him, but hopefully not publicly, you tried to do anything to preserve a small amount of social image. But, you knew once the word got out, you were done for.Â
âDad, what the hell are you doing?!â You shouted from under the covers. Although you were in your shut bedroom, the noise always managed to push past your door which was practically cardboard with fake wood panelling stuck to it.Â
He ignored you, or just didnât hear you, and continued on from the other room.Â
You slugged yourself off of your mattress, walking on the shitty carpet into the kitchen of your two bedroom house.
âItâs like, six in the morning,â you complained, rubbing your eyes.Â
Your father had a pickle jar in his hand, and continued to slam the rim against the countertop. âWell, unless you can open these fuckersâ you can go back to sleep.âÂ
He wasnât a morning person either, but his job made him wake up every day at five A.M. He was a truck driver, so most days he wasnât even home, and when he was it was miserable. The rumors of an absent father bothered you more so because they were partially true.Â
Thatâs why you were stuck in the hellhole of your home, and another reason why you refused to tell anyone where you lived. It was far past the actual town, and about a five minute drive from the trailer park that only old schmucks that retired early lived in.Â
âI canât sleep with all that fuckinâ noise,â you said, squeezing past him to open the fridge.Â
He stopped momentarily, putting the jar down, âLanguage.âÂ
You shrugged him off absently, searching for the milk in the refrigerator door.Â
You grabbed it, poured yourself a cup, and sat down at the small circular table that had three chairsânever used besides anyone but you and your father. You always wondered what the third one would be for.Â
âCan I take the Chevy? Do you need it today?â You asked about the truck sitting parked in the grass.Â
He had succeeded in opening the lid, âI need it. Bossâs got me doinâ something important today, just hitch a ride from that Wheeler girl.âÂ
You let your head droop into your arms as you sat. âFuck.âÂ
This was your natural state in front of your fatherâno lipgloss, nice shoes, just a tanktop, underwear and an inclined urge to talk like you were stationed in Iraq.Â
âSheâs busy today, I donât think sheâs got her car.â You told him, still slumped.Â
He took a pickle and dangled it into his mouth, âTough luck kiddo,â he said, crunching with his mouth open, âIâve got business.âÂ
You knew youâd have to walk down the highway for a good twenty minutes until you could make it to the bus stop in time. The thought of it annoyed youâactually doing it was even more irritating.Â
âHowâs school goinâ?â He pestered, stomping past you into his own bedroom, looking for his work shirt.Â
You took a sip of your drink, âFine.âÂ
His tone darkened, âDonât lie to me.â You knew he had found something out.
You licked the milk off your lip, âIâm not.âÂ
A loud thud came from a shoe slamming it against the wall. It was yours that had managed to make it in the middle of the hallway.Â
This is what he did when he was frustrated.Â
âI said, donât fucking lie,â He emerged with his collared shirt on and the matching shoe in his hand. He waved it like it was his pointer finger, âyou lying?âÂ
You shook your head, silent, knowing you were.Â
The thought of everything you hadnât told him raced through your mind as you were being threatened with an item of clothing. There were a multitude of things you had done, cut class, missed homework assignments, you accidentally slept through Biology multiple times.Â
âThen explain why I got a goddamn call from the principal tellinâ me you missed your English class for the fifth time this month?â He wound his arm.Â
Then, he took the small loafer that looked like a doll's shoe in his hand, and threw it right past your head, slamming against the picture frame on the wall. It missed your head by two inches.Â
A black eye was the last thing you needed on a Monday morning. Â
Your heart skipped a beat, shit, probably even two, and you cowered in fear as he stood over you. âI donât know!â You huffed, bracing for any more flying objects.Â
He slammed his fist against the table, rattling the single glass in front of you,âBullshit.â His words echoed against the wooden walls.Â
He moved his gaze from you to the front door looking for his work boots. His burly arm grabbed the keys, his work bag, and tied his boots to his feet.Â
âYou lie again, you can kiss the Wheelers' house goodbye. Donât ever lie to me again girl.â He pointed with his keys in his hand.Â
He ducked underneath the doorframe to get outside, slamming the door shut, not bothering to close the screen. He sped away in the truck, the dust of the gravel road collecting into a cloud.Â
âFuck me.â You mumbled to yourself, picking up the shoes that had been flung. Now, the house had a stale air to it. It was more patient, more kind.Â
You wished your mother was still around to hear how he treated you, but she was sent away months ago to a local insane asylum. Something about her bipolar. Not that you got to witness any of itâshe wasnât present even when she was with you.Â
The radio buzzed as you turned it onto 94.6, the jazz station. You didnât like jazz, you didnât care about it either. But the way it ties back to the zoot suit riots was intriguing, and you always found a way to find something to do.Â
You spun your finger around the phone cord, listening to it ring.Â
âNancy?â You asked, hearing someone pick up the phone.Â
A male voice came through instead, âItâs Mike. Sheâs not awake.âÂ
It was awkward between you and him. He didnât hate youâhe didnât hate anybody really, but the fact that his friend who he admired to the point where it was almost parasocial, was trying to date you made it all the more worse.Â
You didnât know that thoughâ assuming he was just as clueless as everybody else.Â
âCan you uh⊠can you wake her up?â You asked stiffly.Â
He gave you a sardonic sure, and you heard a muffled yell for her to pick up the phone.Â
âWhatâs up?â Her voice was groggly.Â
You made a âpshhhâ sound, âWhat isnât? My dad took the truck, any chance you could swing by?â You prayed for a yes, and realised you hadnât masked your speech to the Hawkins lingo. âI mean, heâs being like, super annoying.âÂ
âSure,â she said. âIâll pick you up at like, eightâis that fine?â She rubbed her eyes, laying back in her bed.Â
âYouâre a lifesaver.â you praised.Â
You heard her hang up the phone, meaning you had all the time in the world to do whatever the fuck until eight. Your routine only took about thirty minutes, straighten your naturally very frizzy, curly hair, put on light makeup, and your dress-up clothes for the day to impress the masses.Â
Itâs not that you had a real issue with who you basically pretended to be, it meant that you werenât a target.Â
The flowers in the front of your house were dying from the heat over the weekend, and you knew your dad âforgotâ to water them. (In reality, he just couldnât care less,)
So, you made your way outside shivering from the morning air. You were never out this early, but nothing good besides the weather was on TV, so you decided to use some time wisely.Â
You adorned your tanktop and underwear, knowing that the neighbors on both sides of you were about two acres away, and thick trees between it. So it really didnât matter to you what you were wearing.Â
âHoly shit,â You cursed from the cold as you saw your breath in the air.Â
The garden hose was wrapped neatly on the side of the house, and you slowly turned the nozzle to get the water flowing.Â
You stood, mind absent of anything until your peace was disturbed by a loud car on the dirt road hummed past.Â
Turning, you figured youâd see one of the familiar trucks or Volvoâs the old folks from the trailer park drove, and instead you turned to see an all too recognizable van.Â
You realised Eddie Munson, better known as your research project, unknowingly drove past your house. Your suspicions that it was him were especially confirmed when you heard the loud metal music from so far away.Â
You wondered what he was doing out so early, because everybody knew he wasnât going to school at six in the morning. He couldnât be extremely⊠motivated to go to school.Â
You muttered a âwhat the fuck?â to yourself as he drove by, but continued to water the roses that were probably too late to save.Â
There was a certain aroma to where you lived compared to school. Your house was secluded, and although there was a big grass yard from you and the road, there was no garden. It didnât smell like faux cheese from PrezleRama in the mall, it didnât smell like the Wheelers flower potpourri, it smelled good. It smelled real.Â
You headed inside and grabbed your cup of milk, to sit yourself down on the cement doorstep that had a small flower pot with nothing but dried dirt.Â
Your thighs were freezing to the touch against the ground, but you enjoyed the refreshing air.Â
The radio continued to buzz, you had brought it outside with you. Morning ambience could only distract you for so long.Â
You heard a familiar sound of well, metal music, although this one had more guitar you noted, and stuck your head out to see.Â
He hummed to himself on his tape that was playing, noting the absence of the car in the driveway of what he thought was the Old Manâs house, and saw a small girl sitting on the front step.Â
There was one thing running through his mind: God, sheâs hot.Â
âWhat the fuck?â You noticed the car slowing down, and you stood yourself up placing the empty glass on the ground.Â
A million thoughts were racing through your head, while data collection was important, it was almost more important nobody knew where you lived. Especially not him.Â
Then, the music stopped. And the van.Â
You stood like a deer in headlights. If a deer were wearing underwear from the Gap.Â
You watched as he slowly rolled down the window, and he shouted something, but the thousand feet between you echoed all his words into a jumbled mess.Â
âWhat?!â You shouted, knowing at least something would go through.Â
You squinted as he flung himself back into his seat in annoyance, and he turned his key to start the engine. He turned sharp into your driveway, and you considered all methods of suicide right then and there. The first real interaction with him, and you were wearing practically nothing.Â
He parked over the grass, paying little regard to what he was driving over, and you analysed as he turned his van off again, and stepped out.Â
âI said, what are you doing?â He huffed, swinging the door shut. He brushed a small amount of hair out of his face, even though he had so much.Â
You watched as his chest rose and fell, his leather jacket that you doubt kept him warm. His shirt underneath clung to his chest in a way you hadnât seen before. Maybe it was an old shirt.Â
âWouldnât you like to know?â You leaned back on your heels, before straightening your body again. You knew you were showing off what you had, and you knew he would look too.Â
He stepped towards you, letting his arms hang as he shifted his weight to his hips. âYeah, I, uhâ I wouldâ Thatâs why I asked, sweetheart.âÂ
Maybe getting him to date you wouldnât be that difficult.Â
You moved yourself towards him, his eyes dressing you as you stepped down. You knew you had to close the gap. Even if he smelled like gasoline from his car.Â
He noticed your painted toenails, matching your fingers, and slowly grazed his sight over your body, outfit, and your expression. He could tell how cold you were from the pink on your knees, cheeks, fingers.Â
âSo,â he crossed his arms, mimicking you intentionally, âare you gonna explain why youâre sitting in front of this⊠old geezers house?âÂ
You felt your face flush, even though your assumption was he was going to ask. You weighed your options. Should you beg him not to tell anybody? Or, more dignified, threaten him to not?Â
âCareful what you say about my daddy.â Is all you came up with.
He grinned like he did this often, âYâknow, for a girl like you, I wouldnât expect you to live out in the gutters.âÂ
You tossed your hands at your side, looking away from him, seemingly at something else, âwell, here I am. You better not tell anybody.â It sounded like a dirty secret.Â
You seemed to realise over the years that flirting was actually easy, you just had to play the right cards.Â
There was something about your voice that really struck him. Maybe it was the small amount of southern it had that he hadnât heard before, or maybe it was the fact you looked like a model, and you were entertaining his stupidity.Â
The bet was still on. Gareth wasnât getting a lick of anything.Â
âI wonât.â He managed to blurt out while you pointed your finger at him.Â
âWhatâre you doing out so early?â You questioned his presence. âI mean, I know youâre not going to school at six A.M, so you have to have some reason.âÂ
âOuch,â he said, wounded, putting his hand to his chest, âI am very academically inclined, thank you very much.âÂ
âYou didnât answer.âÂ
He swung his arms, taking a step back, looking at the sky searching for an answer before recontaining eye contact with his brown eyes that sort of make you nauseous. âOh yâknow,â he paused. âErrands.âÂ
âRight⊠and what errands exactly? The grocery stores open from 7-9 on weekdays.âÂ
He noticed the way your teeth grazed your bottom lip.
He really did find you attractive, (at least your appearance,) but he didnât feel like dating some stuck-up chick from the paper. But, as long as the bet was still on, heâd shove that thought away even if you made the hair on his head fall off. He couldnât afford to replace anything he had.Â
And, although it was against his will to play a girl like this, make her fall in love, was probably completely messed up, he didnât really put it past anything. He knew that if he actually let up in front of you, heâd have the entire football team crawling up his ass.Â
He needed to play this game now, his entire life depended on it.Â
âOkay, okay, I surrender,â He narrowed the gap of distance between you too. One step closer and you would have been pressed against him.Â
You could smell the toothpaste on his breath. You hadnât been this close to a boy in a long time.Â
Lifting your chin to look him in the eyes, you asked, âSo?âÂ
âI had to uh⊠go pick up some stuff. Nothing like youâd see in your princess life.â He rubbed his cheek, internally assessing every feature of your face. He wondered if you were wearing makeup or if you just looked like that.Â
You rolled your eyes at his assumption. âDrugs?!âÂ
It shook his eardrums as you pretended to be shocked, putting your hands on your cheeks and bending your knees.Â
âEddie Munson? You were buyingâŠâ you whisper shouted, âmarijuana? How could my⊠princess' life comprehend that?âÂ
Guys liked when you pulled their chain a little bit. And you knew it made his ears ring to hear his own name.
âJust tell everybody, why not?â He muttered to himself.Â
âListen, if youâre like, into thatâŠâ you continued, reeling yourself back into him, âbecause I know you are, you should come to Anna Lishmaâs house. Sheâs throwing tonight, and yâknow⊠thereâll be customers. Iâll be there.âÂ
The offer would have been irresistible in your eyes, but to him? Not so much. A bunch of nepo-baby popular kids in one house, bad music, and itâs a Thursday to boot. Not that he cared about making it to school on time, but it wasnât helping.Â
But, if you were going to be there, and if he wanted to keep you wrapped around his finger like he thought you could be, he knew he didnât have a choice.Â
âYou gonna buy something?â He laughed. âI donât know if thatâs a smart idea. I wanna get to know youâŠâ He dragged out a slow smile, â...not deal.âÂ
His forwardness brought hope, and it clicked in your brain that this project was going to be an ace. Real research, straight from the source. Youâd have all the evidence to back up the article too.Â
You lifted yourself on your tip-toes, and you spoke inches from his lips. âAre you gonna be there?âÂ
He imagined you doing this to other guys and the thought triggered his acid reflux. Fuck.Â
âYou said itâs going to be big?â He spoke low.Â
Maintaining the small gap from kissing him and not, you answered softly, âI didnât. But it will be.âÂ
He let you sit in the tension of silence for a brief moment. You almost let yourself get distracted by the wind of the trees.Â
âIâll be there,â he slipped a small note of paper into your hand, the warmth made you lose all focus, you had to look down and drop your heels. âCall me, tell me the address.âÂ
It almost hurt to put on this face for him. The âcoolâ guy. What he really wanted to do was pick you up in his car, force you to listen to bad music, and spill every thought on his mind. But, he stuck to what he knew would work, small, short answers. No personality. Pretend to be like Steve the hair Harrington.Â
You stepped back, you loosened the grip you had on his mind as you tucked the paper into your waistband on your hips, â5893 NE 93rd. Right between the Qwick-Stop and the Mall. Iâll call if you forget it.âÂ
He watched as you turned away from him, leaving an imaginary trail of heat between the two of you as he stood stiff.Â
Even if it were all fake, you were good at this. So was he.Â
When you managed to pull yourself out of the mental chess you had just played you realised what had been set in stone.Â
Not only did you have to go to the party Nancy was practically begging you to go to, you had to see Eddie there.Â
He had well driven off by now, and the clock dawned near eight when you heard Nancy pull into the driveway.Â
âThank God you are here!â You shouted, your teeth showing as you ran out the door with your school bag.Â
She smiled from the driver's seat and unlocked the door for you, âYouâre in a good mood.âÂ
âBetter.â You squealed. âBetter than good.âÂ
âOh do tell.â She backed out of the long driveway, turning down the station she had been listening to.Â
You told her about the interaction with all the joy in the world. The plan, make him fall for you and in a couple days youâd launch your mission. You left out the fact it almost sickened you the fact that you might possibly consider him attractive.Â
âAnd,â you told her, âget thisâheâs going to Lishmaâs.âÂ
She screamed out of excitement. âThis is insane, youâre crazy!âÂ
You said anything to get Dishmen to give you a column.Â
âWell, thatâs good! At least things are going good for you,â she groaned, putting her hand to her temple.Â
You inquired, âelaborate?âÂ
She blew air out, puffing her cheeks, âSteve called.âÂ
âYes,â she passed her eyes over to you, then back to the road, âlast night. Called to tell me he would be at Annaâs, actually. He is such a dick! I donât know why I entertain him anymore.âÂ
You shrugged, âMaybe he feels bad.âÂ
He didnât feel bad. There was not a world where he felt bad. You knew he really missed getting under her bra, and at the party, he definitely would.Â
You swallowed that thought for her sanity.Â
When you made it to school, you sat through the grueling hours of class time. You were smart, especially when it came to literature, but math? Itâd be easier to learn fluent Latin in a week than understand whatever the hell that was.Â
The teacher droned until she passed out the papers from last classâ quiz, and you dreaded what would sit in front of you.Â
A big, fat, red F adorned your paper.Â
You could feel your ears turn a bright pink and you hid the paper in between your arms. This was one of the least pleasant things about being prettyâit couldnât hide stupid. For the longest time, you were a straight A student, until you started partying, your mom was gone, and your dad was getting angrier, things started to slip.Â
For Nancy, it seemed like her life was easy, her biggest issue was a shitty boyfriend, not someone you would ever be forced around. But, to everybody else that was your life tooâjust as simplistic as every other normal hot girl. Unfortunately, you didnât have the luxury of being miserable over a boy.
School was not entertaining, not until you made it to Journalism.Â
Dishmen sat as the students across the class frantically made it to their desks to prepare.Â
You felt a small spark of confidence and walked up to your teacher.Â
âMr. Dishmen?â You held your backpack straps like a kindergartener. At this moment, you felt just as small too.Â
He looked up from his desk at you through his glasses, âShoot kid.âÂ
âI heard that article went missing and uhmâŠâ You shifted, âIâm working on one.âÂ
There was a sigh that followed from your proposition. âListen, I know you want to write about that whole âthe devil is fakeâ thing, but câmon, nobody is going to read that. Iâd have parents crawling up my⊠yâknow.âÂ
âNo, itâs not that,â you insisted. âItâs differentâItâsâIâm working on a piece on like, relationships.â The words stumbled out less gracefully than intended, and you cursed internally for saying âlikeâ to a teacher.Â
He gave you a questioning look.Â
You continued your pitch, âOK, admit it, you hear stuff around these hallways, all the drama, right? Every single guy and girl out there are struggling, and I know we need an article. So, Iâm getting real, live, data for it tooâ itâs everything, not to do.âÂ
His look wasnât budging, and you knew you had to switch perspectives.Â
âItâll be funny. A good comedy piece.â You continued, âNo more, satanic panicâitâs lightheartedâ itâs fun.âÂ
You paused, âand⊠itâll get a lot of readers? Itâs nothing like I usually write. I promise. I can get you a draft in two weeks, you can look it over.â You pleaded internally.Â
âYâknow,â he clasped his hands together, âis your father a business man?âÂ
âSomething like that.âÂ
He sighed, admitting defeat, âyou drive a hard bargain. If you can get me a finalâI mean finalâ draft by the Saturday after next, Iâll get someone to review it. I canât promise anything. Donât get your hopes up.âÂ
Internally, you did a victory dance, instead, you said a hasty, âThank you so much.âÂ
âTen days,â he said. âYou have ten days. Okay?âÂ
You nodded, and got to work writing. You wouldnât have let it slip through your fingers for anything; except you had no evidence yet.Â
However, Eddie was finding a hard time distracting himself as well.Â
In statistics, (which was the third retake, youâd think heâd learn something right?) He rested his chin on his palm while he considered his options on what to do at the party.Â
He could get business done, sell some, and leave. But, the alternative, which was more likely needed to win his stupid game, heâd have to pull out all the stops.Â
In reality, he didnât actually mind doing that. Even if he didnât like you because you were just as shallow as he thought you were. Just the act of bringing flowers to a girl made his hands shake, he hadnât had a chance in a long time. Hopefully, once the bet was over, he could go out with a girl he actually⊠liked.Â
Once youâre denounced as the freak, itâs hard to get girls to like you. Hell, itâs hard to get anybody to.
Sometimes, (most times,) you sat back and watched your peers as they struggled with every day highschool. You watched them scatter their brains over the simplicity of a school paperâbut you were no better. You wanted it just as bad as them, if not more.Â
The paper was something unsurprisingly, something important to you. It was one small way to show people what you were thinking. There were opinions digging at you, constantly, but you knew how to keep your lips zipped.Â
Being a âpopularâ girl was one thing, being a bitch was another. If you said every thought that came to your mind, you would have been titled the biggest one of all a long time ago.Â
Your mind wandered to your new assignment: Munson. The strange public figure in a way. His outbursts were nothing like how he treated you that morning. The rumors you had heard about him snorting something in the bathroom wasnât completely out of his range of psychotic behaviors, but part of you doubted it. But you didnât know if that was because you wanted to at least tolerate the guy.Â
He was strange, but that was definite. Like a calorie label. You weren't.Â
There was an odd line you were stuck on constantly. Nancy Wheelerâs hot friend. Quiet chick from the paper. Old geezers daughter. Poor, rich, it all applied somehow, and it exhausted you to no avail.Â
There was always a small moment of a daydream where you just let go of it allâyou were friends with more than just one girl, and you were complete and honest. You wore your clothes, spoke with your fathers dialect, and drove your Chevy to school, and you didnât park it blocks away to avoid being seen.Â
Pipe dreams, is what you told yourself.Â
Manage another year of this shitshow that you call life and youâd move to New York and write there.Â
Annaâs house was thick with noise.Â
You hadnât been to a party in a while, your father had been home the past week or two, and you were on thin ice as far as you were concerned. But, tonight, you knew he wouldnât call when he was on his business trip.Â
You didnât really know what to wear, you decided to dress well, especially if he was going to be there. Even if you didnât realise you were irresistible in whatever you chose.Â
Merging your way past the crowd of teenagers, you found the table of drinks. Handles and handles of Smirnoff, Jack, Everclear, and lots of mixers.Â
You managed to get a spot at the table, where you poured yourself a drink consisting of pure vodka, and a small amount of sparkling water.Â
There had been a switch in your life where drinking wasnât hard. You werenât thirteen sneaking wine anymore, having to plug your nose during every sip. Maybe you had just fried your tongue off by nowâbut now mixers were just a barrier between you and getting drunk.
It could have been the late nights after your dad went to bed, and the realization you probably shouldnât be drinking before your bio quiz, but some nights he was particularly angry.
âI love your top!â A girl with an unrecognised face shouted across the table at you.Â
You gave a thank you, then muttered under your breath, âbitch.â
An unspoken social rule girls your age liked to play: pretend. Her compliment directly translated to, âyour top is ugly, but Iâm going to lie to you to seem nice.âÂ
Not that you would prefer her to tell it to your face, but saying nothing was better.Â
You scanned the area, which was hard to overlook with how many people were in it, searching for any form of familiarity. Nancy, was nowhere to be found, and you realised that one drink from your cup had emptied it by half.Â
At a random peer's house, shots werenât a measurement. It was a challenge, and you rarely failed.Â
You spotted Steve looking like a lost kitten in the kitchen, so you swallowed your pride to speak to him. There was a certain swagger he carried with him at all times, a sickening confidence.Â
âHave you seen Nance?â You shouted in his ear over the noise.Â
He shook his head, âNo!â He leaned against the granite countertop, âI was hoping youâd know!âÂ
You buzzed your lips, throwing your head back, âThanks.â
Trying to see where she was, you stood on your tiptoes in an attempt but to no avail yet again.Â
âHey!â He grabbed your attention before you could leave.Â
The kitchen was no use, and youâd rather die than spend another second with him, but he kept you there anyways.Â
He looked down in his cup, then to you, âCan you do me a favor?âÂ
âTell her Iâm sorry.â He ran his other hand through his hair, âShe doesnât believe meâbut sheâsâdifferent now.â He paused and really considered his words. That, or he was too drunk to form a sentence, and it took all the effort. âSheâs lessâŠfuck. I donât knowâforget it.âÂ
He attempted to tell you how he felt without any true vulnerability.Â
âI get it.â You didnât. âSheâs my best friend though. Donât fuck her over, please.âÂ
You were telling the truth to him, one of the few times in your whole life. Although you had an obvious disdain for her on-and-off boyfriend, (he could feel your hostility before you even walked in,) he made her happy. Most of the time. But, thatâs all you wanted for her, even if he was a complete and total idiot.Â
âPlease.â You tagged on for extra emphasis.Â
He looked at everything but you as he spoke, âYeah, yeah I know.âÂ
âI knowââ you sighed. âI know we donât really⊠jive like that. But sheâs like, really important to me. I donât want her to get fucked over. She likes youâ okay? Even if sheâs likeâŠa lot.âÂ
He laughed at the truth of what you said. You were more worried about the fact you said âjiveâ like your father, and you probably wanted to choose a word more like, âmessâ or âget alongâÂ
But you said âjiveâ like a hippie from the 70âs.Â
There was a small brief moment of pause in your conversation, and your attention was stolen by the figure of a jean jacket brushing past the crowd of people and exiting out the backyard.Â
You rushed out of the kitchen without another word from Steve, and you hoped heâd listen, but God knows. But, you left him lingering, thinking.Â
You caught Eddie in the corner, lurking like his normal tendencies.Â
âHey,â You walked up to him, ignoring your underwear riding up underneath your dress.Â
He leaned towards you, waiting for more.Â
You held your solo cup in your hand, âI didnât think youâd show.âÂ
âWhatâs that?â he motioned, asking about your drink.Â
âThe best medicine in the world,â you told him, taking a drink from it, making sure to leave traces of your lipgloss on the rim.Â
There were less people outside, which was good for you to preserve your social dignity. You didnât want to admit it, but the brashness of the contrast that Eddie had in the party drew you towards him. Even though it was just for the project.Â
He held his hand out for the cup, âCan I get some then?âÂ
You pulled it away from his reach, making sure he followed, âThereâs some in the kitchen, Iâm sure you could get your own, youâre pretty autonomous.âÂ
He moved towards you, standing above you again, âYou think I wanna go back in that sardine tin of a house?âÂ
You pretended to hesitate letting him take it out of your hand and take a small sip.Â
âShit, princess, this is not good.â He winced, handing it back to you. The thought you could hold your drinks made him like you even moreâor maybe less, thatâd mean you went to these events often.Â
Princess? That made you completely and utterly sick to your stomach.Â
âMedicine doesnât taste good, stupid.â You leaned your face in towards his.Â
Keep close. Thatâs what you knew worked.Â
âSo, you gonna sell any tonight?â You looked around the backyard and towards the house, âgot any buyers?âÂ
He let out a small chuckle, âI already told you, I'm not selling to you. Not unless youâre yâknow⊠really desperate.âÂ
You realised this needed to be taken to the next step. A different level. You werenât going to sleep with him, but the deal needed to be closed. Kissing, not kissing, whatever, but something needed a spark. There was a catalyst. You needed a catalyst.Â
âTwenty for an ounce.â He reached in his jacket pocket, rolling his eyes, âLess or more?âÂ
You grabbed his shoulder, coincidentally checking the surroundings for anybody you knew, âNot⊠that.â You whispered in his ear, making sure to let your cheek graze his.Â
He felt every hair on his body stand up.Â
âIf youâre looking for something stronger, I donât have it on me.âÂ
You let down from him quickly, finishing your drink, probably for your own sake, âLike what?âÂ
âCanât say here.â He motioned to the party behind him.Â
Nancy was lurking around somewhere, and you told her youâd be here. But Steve was too, and maybe your words of wisdom helped. You knew sheâd understand you had to get your grade from a D to a B in approximately two weeks. Sheâd get it. Right?
He didnât make you wait outside.Â
You took off your heels, maybe his trailer was a shoes-off household.Â
âGive me a second,â His voice was all business.Â
You stood, as he left you in the living room of a trailer you thought an old man lived in. It looked like your house. It was tight, the wooden panels were chipping, there were empty pint glasses that decorated a small table.Â
He came out after the rustling from a kitchen cabinet stopped, and he held a small bag of white powder in his hand.Â
âThis,â he said, âthis will fuck you up. Are you sure you want to?âÂ
You didnât know what to say. You definitely didnât want it though.Â
He saw the hesitation like a lost child, âWe donât have to do this,â he tucked it in his jacket again. âWe can⊠we can leave. Iâm not going to make you do this.âÂ
Your brain buffered at his sincerity.Â
âUhmâŠâ you thought of your father and his habits. âNoâIâ I donât know.â You held your clutch in your hand, swinging it around as you spoke.Â
âItâs fine,â He paused. âI promise.âÂ
â...Do you do that?âÂ
You knew he used, smoked, drank, all the above. But hard drugs? That was something you hadnât considered. It felt like everything in your life led you back to this: shitty houses and illegality.Â
âMe?â He pointed to himself with both hands, âNo⊠no. I just uh, I need the cash. I know you probably havenât been in that situationâI donât use. I know I have a pretty scary appearance, but Iâm not like that. Devil hasnât gotten me that bad.âÂ
He sat himself down in one of the kitchen chairs, you thought it was funny that you were standing above him now.Â
He looked you up and down, your scared stance, your beautiful dress. He probably fucked up by offering a girl cocaine, and the absence of a response from you made embarrassment wash over him in a way he couldnât describe.Â
âLook,â He put his hand to his forehead and winced, âforget it.âÂ
You walked towards him, noticing the particular chill of the floor on your feet, âCan I sit?âÂ
He waved his hand to the chair next to him.Â
âWhatâs a girl gotta do to get you to talk to her?â You turned the tables. There wasnât anything that could stop you from writing.Â
He made eyes at you like you just asked for his whole supply.Â
You rested your elbows on the table, âI mean, I see you over at the Wheelerâs and you never even say hi, whatâs up with that?âÂ
âMaybe I was scared of youâŠâ he whispered.Â
He let out a soft âmhmâ, and before you could blink, he stood up and yelled, âWhy would I⊠The King of the Dipshits, talk to you?!âÂ
His loud outburst made you laugh for the first time all night.Â
âPlus,â He sat back down gentler, swiveling his chair backwards, âyou couldâa said somethinâ too yâknow⊠Iâm not that⊠dangerous.âÂ
You leaned back with a genuine smile, âyou just tried selling me coke!âÂ
âYou asked!â He argued. âAndâ you never called.âÂ
You shrugged in defeat. You werenât even thinking about where you were, what the party was happening, what Nancy was dealing with. You were liberated for one brief moment.Â
âYouâve got me there Munson⊠You got me there.âÂ
He leaned back in fake disgust, âDonât call me thatâŠâ he explained, âonly my uncle calls me that, thatâs not what I want you to be calling me.âÂ
You grabbed the back of the chair that faced you, almost holding his collar, âwhat should I call you then Eddie? Eds? Freak?âÂ
âYeah I bet you like that one,â he scoffed, leaning away.Â
You thought of all the times you heard it in passing. All the times you said it, all the times your friend said it, Steve, Nancy, your father, it was his public figure.Â
âWhatâs that implyinâ?âÂ
He looked up in thought, âOh, yâknow, you and your little friends, your teachers, they all know me.âÂ
Guilt was written all over your face whether you liked it or not.Â
He knew what you thought of him, and he told you that too.Â
But, you deflected. âYeah, yeah, save me some. Everybody hates you, everyoneâs scared of you, blah, blah, blah.âÂ
He couldnât help but notice your difference. You werenât soft spoken like at Mikes, there were no gentle glances, or mean giggles with your friend that were definitely targeted. You were sitting still, after drinking enough liquor to kill a baby, in front of him. The air was thick inside, there was a heat that surrounded you in an encapsulating way.Â
âOK, OK, â he moved the chair back around, knees against yours, âWellâitâs not easy. Iâm not beautiful. Iâm notâfuckâIâm not smart, Iâm not rich, Iâm notâ whatever.â He cut himself off. He didnât need to be spilling his guts out, he hardly even knows you.Â
You look at him with a stifle from what he said, and even though to him, you donât know what thatâs like, you knew.
But, in vague acts to dissuade anyone from finding out you pretended like that was a really funny joke someone could make because of the lack of truth.Â
âNeither am I,â You laughed off his comment. âI mean, Iâm Nancy Wheelerâs friend. Iâm failing the paper because Dishmen doesnât like what I write.âÂ
He quickly pushed down whatever self-loathing thought he had, âNo way. You? Failing? Am I having a stroke? Check my pulseâseriouslyâcheck it.â He held out his wrist.Â
You pressed against the inside of his wrist with two fingers, feeling his heartbeat, giggling. âMaybe youâre dreaming, Munson.âÂ
He pulled his sleeve back over his arm as you let go.Â
This wouldnât be as hard as you thought it would be.Â