merlin's sake

— all i do is try, try, try

[aprilsrant]

ANNOUNCEMENT:

Recently, I’ve been having lots of good ideas but I can’t see myself writing them, not into fanfics at least. I still don’t know if I want them to turn into short or long stories, poetry or novels, but what I do know is that I’ll get to them one day even if I’m not sure about posting them.

I love fanfiction, but I don’t think writing it brings me joy anymore, not as much as it did a couple of months ago. It has become a kind of weight on my shoulders and instead of helping me with my mental health, like it did for some time, it no longer has that “effect” on me. My anxiety over likes, comments and general validation worsened and I want to stop before it ruins writing and the liberation I feel whenever I do it. I’ve seen posts of other writers talking about how this feels like a job and I think I’m getting there. That’s exactly what I want to stop. I know I have to work on these issues and I hope to do it soon.

Even though I haven’t had this blog for long, I’ve met incredible people, writers and not, that showed me a whole new place to express myself. Tumblr is not new to me (I joined with a different blog when I was 13 or 14), but this side of making friends on the internet and bonding over shared interests, is completely new and something I don’t regret.

I’m sorry for everyone waiting on the Greek Mythology series, I was so excited to write it. Maybe I’ll do it one day but not in the form of fanfiction.

I will continue to use this blog, so you’ll still see me around making shitposts or reblogging or whatever I do. I also don’t want to lose contact with the people I met here. I don’t know if I want to delete my fics, but for now I’ll leave them on my blog.

I made a new blog, not a sideblog because you can’t do anything there, to post the new stuff I write if I ever decide to. You can follow me there: @thewords-of-muses. 

Tagging some mutuals and people on my taglist so they don’t miss this I guess: @vivianweasley @feetoffthetablee @gcdric @shadowsinger11 @thisismynerdyself @cappsikle @idont-knowrn @theweasleysredhair @aesthetically-hailey @slytherinsunrise @bannerbubble @lilac-wrists @storyisnotover @alyssamalfoy (I'm sure I forgot several mutuals so sorry for that)

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my god i haven't been here in literal agessss

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yeaaaa i think i'm going to leave this blog

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bodyguards!au >>>>>> anything

[dumdumsun]

Playlist Tag Game

Thanks for the tag @call-me-starstorm 💕

Rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. Put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs then tag ten people!

People - Mi-Sex

Burn Baby Burn - Stud Cole

Sanctified - Nine Inch Nails

Cut Your Nails - Girlpool

I’m Not Like Everybody Else - The Kinks

Scar Tissue - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Run - Joji

Sugar, We’re Going Down - Fall Out Boy

Prune, You Talk Funny - Gus Dapperton

Blitzkrieg Bop - The Ramones

@sapphicsyn @youcandalekmyballs @moatsnow (*insert 7 other ppl who want to do this*)

[moatsnow]

It's legit always so interesting to see what other people listen to, thanks for the tag @dumdumsun

1. Why Do You Feel So Down - Declan McKenna

2. Hey Lover! - Wabie

3. A Painting in Paris - Arrested Youth

4. New Flesh - Current Joys

5. The Fall - half•alive

6. Welcome to Paradise // Outro - grandson

7. Land of All - Woodkid

8. too many feeling - Ruel

9. Float - Call Me Karizma

10. I'm Okay Now - badly

(I have so few mutuals because ewwww social interaction, so sorry if I'm bothering anyone by tagging anyone)

@aprilsrant @melinda-hargreeves @ds-mfg @kenobi-baby *and any one else who wants to participate!*

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Thanks for the tag! I really enjoyed this one!

Cocoon by Catfish and the Bottlemen.

Love by Lana del Rey.

Angel of Small Death & The Codeine Scene by Hozier.

In My Feelings by Lana del Rey.

Stay by Miley Cyrus.

Summer Bummer by Lana del Rey.

8TEEN by Khalid.

Love Story cover by Sarah Cothran.

Junk Of The Heart (Happy) by The Kooks.

Scary Love by The Neighbourhood.

This is kind of a mess but it’s from “the songs you liked” playlist that spotify mades because I’m too indecisive and can’t choose a favourite playlist.

I’m not tagging anyone (sorry?), but if you want to, you can and should do it.

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SHE WON ALBUM OF THE YEAR GOD I'M

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Like really????? Watermelon Sugar over Cardigan???

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I'm so fucking pissed. WHY ISN'T TAYLOR WINNING ANYTHING

[andromeddog]

the world caves in

[pansydaisy]

new uquiz lovelies; would you be accepted into my coven? (where we feast on the burned flesh of men and dance naked with the trees, etc) have fun <3

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i got "welcome to the coven", nice,,, ;)

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how can you attack women, throw eggs at them, in a protest in their day, and then call yourself a feminist?

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i think i'm going to leave this blog..

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"Not all men", yes all men. ALL of them.

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after watching the last episode of wandavision and reading a couple of spoilers of aot, i can't stop crying

[mi-vida-entre-hojas]

[soc-ck]

here have this

[unreachedgalaxy]

i can’t believe i’m going to see my emotional support criminals on screen in less than 2 months