#april rambles

[drmellking]

this comment about eddie took me OUT JDJDKDJDKJDJDJDJ

[borderlinereminders]

My anxiety has been extra lately, and I’ve been too anxious to look at the notes in my activity feed.

I’m anxious about everything.

Either way, I had to do labs today because it is abnormal the extent to which it’s happening and the brain fog. Mixed with me being exhausted and unable to warm up and constantly sick.

Someone in my life thought it was awful that I said I hope something turns up on the labs, but those who get it will get it.

I already experienced the symptoms. I want an explanation. And with that, hopefully something to help.

Either way, my book has been delayed because my anxiety has made me anxious to publish it and that it’s awful and I’m going to embarrass myself putting it out there. I’ve had an ask asking about it and I do still plan to publish it. It’s just been hard fighting my brain.

[aprilisadingusdongus]

Whoever took this depop photo I just want to talk and compliment you for being a person of culture with giving us sonadow content

[april-barnes]

My folks finally had Lil Ben!!

Guess who now has to help baby sit-

WEH

[pallanophblargh]

“Do it for her.”

In this cursed timeline we all have been cruelly subjected to, I can admit that this lil lady is the primary reason I get up in the morning. I owe her so much and it’s really not an exaggeration.

We’ve been working on training and working through leash reactivity (she’s a frustrated greeter so her crime is “too much excitement”) but she’s so smart and willing to please, and it’s more me being trained than anything. She has days when she can’t focus or listen, but that’s the same for me. And that’s ok.

She takes up a fair chunk of my free time (easily 85% of it) so commissions and daily tasks are taking a hit, but she’s helped me with my mental health so much in the aftermath of my serious illness so that’s a net positive. I will learn how to balance better in the future I hope.

Love you to the moon and back, Raclette!

[violetsareblue-selfships]

i get so defensive when people say that vi doesn't shower // like she definitely does

[mraprilfools]

SORRY FOR THE RADIOSILENCE(HAH GET IT)

I have been kinda taking a break, focused on some other things and haven't really written for fics in a bit. But I am still dead set on finishing my main project and I think at this point I need engagement to find that inspiration to keep going. So-- I'm announcing it here for those who are still fans of my writing! The Story is called: Les Fleurs du Mal It is a MUTUAL RadioStatic story that does get romantic but it's a very slow, slowburn. It's over 100k for even a kiss. As of right now it is over 200k with 44 chapters currently written that will be updated weekly. It's a Dual-Timeline story where in the post-canon timeline Alastor manages to kill Vox once and for all and goes through the cycles of grief-- which isn't always quite a straight line. Through some memento's left behind by Vox, he follows the trails of clues to answer some questions that leave him wondering how well he truly knew his former best friend. The Pre-canon explores the nature of their relationship before the show becoming partners, friends, and something that bleeds the line becoming something once supportive then co-dependent that leads to their inevitable falling out. I'm saying this now for two reasons! If this sound interesting to keep an eye out on my blog or even follow me to learn when I post it! And... I have had offers for beta-readers but since I've been so quiet I don't want to assume. If you would still like to, please do get back to me! Ideally I'd like to post the Prologue sooooon.

[gothicfantasydream]

On violet April nights, I lay awake, and for you my feelings ache on my tongue. The world feels as if it's over but also, like it's just begun.