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Formerly blacklyeverafter

[jussanother]

[arayofsunlight]

I used to dream of his gap toothed babies. I have struggled to see a future family for myself since he left. I’m in a long term relationship and have never dreamt of having this man’s babies. I’m wondering if it’s because my first love left or is it society or is it both or neither?

[happyheidi]

𝚁. 𝙻. 𝚆𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚜 𝙿𝚘𝚜𝚝𝚌𝚊𝚛𝚍 𝟷𝟿𝟶𝟶𝚜

[auntymurda]

grillz by dusaint duvel.

[imightdroppit-deactivated202508]

Buy her flowers and cum inside her

[arayofsunlight]

Confused as to why when I have flashes to my future with children I’m imagining you by my side instead of him? Umm…brain fix it….

[arayofsunlight]

Am I…

[arayofsunlight]

Confused as to why when I have flashes to my future with children I’m imagining you by my side instead of him? Umm…brain fix it….

[arayofsunlight]

After gramps died it shattered my family unity. Then a couple years later my dad divorced and my sense of home was kind of broken. My boyfriend at the time felt like home for me though, but then he cheated after almost three years together.

Haven’t felt a sense of belonging or a feeling of being “at home” since. I feel safe in my new relationship but as far as “home”…that never appeared…Idk what that means.

[angel-b-torture]

[sweetfridays]

♡ DAMSON IDRIS this morning

[imyselfamthesun]

[titsay]

movie night with friends

[raqualswonderfunblog]

[arayofsunlight]

My thoughts are swirling down a never ending pit so forgive me.

Today I had the realization that I struggle to view myself In happy moments. Succeeding. Being okay. My biggest goal in life is to reach Happiness/Contentment but I can’t even visualize that for me.

I show myself I’m capable of doing hard things every week and refuse to believe it’s me that did it. I overcome challenges thrown my way and adapt. When I’m left to my own devices, however, I feel completely disconnected from that person. I feel like it wasn’t me?? Fully can’t realize that I am a functional human being.

I don’t get it and idk where to start in changing that.

[arayofsunlight]

Logically I understand my friends are busy with their lives and responding for some people cause immense anxiety and overwhelm.

Emotionally I feel left behind and saddened because I am always prioritizing the people I love most in my life.

I know that if my behavior changed and I stopped reaching out they just wouldn’t notice nor care.

I know I matter to these people but I don’t think they know how much they matter to me. I notice the changes in them but why don’t people notice the changes in me. It sometimes reinforces the reoccurring thoughts in my head that people would be better without me. That I’m not worth certain things.

Whole time they are just busy.

[arayofsunlight]

I’m always surprised with myself Friday evenings because lately I spend every Sunday night crying and unsure how I’m going to make it through the week.

[hismami]