Since there's been a bit of confusion from multiple parties: I appreciate the excitement, and even though I tend to wonder into possibly just wanting it to be a hiatus, I am not coming back to this blog.
It's been a long time coming, I'll admit it. It's been what.. three months I've thought about disappearing? Only exponentially getting worse and worse from a month ago until now. It really didn't need to be, either. I've talked to others that felt the same way as I do, and really it comes down to this:
I AM NOT ADAM. I am a human being behind this account- and I'm tired of being used as I guess what's called a content mill. Only to be discarded by the drop of a hat. The fact that this whole situation even happened and how many just sit/sat idly while it happened because "Oh but this person roleplays" with me is really disappointing to me. I'm glad to know where ones true intentions lie in the long run, I suppose.
I appreciate those that checked up on me, those that tried to provide insight or possible alternatives to try to work around this. Even attempted to apply them, by literally making this blog. Only for my girlfriend to be dragged into a situation she has no control over or involvement in under the guise I was stirring the pot more apparently when... I wasn't even here? I was on a break according to my therapist's wishes. But whatever, I guess.
If you're still reading this: I'm sorry, in the long run I truly am. I can't do it. I tried. Tried the best that I know how. I spent so much time doomscrolling on this app instead of working on things I owe because I can't muster this muse any longer. I've enjoyed the year I've been here, I really have, up until August. Unfortunately, I am a very fragile individual with thoughts and feelings that people just tend to not understand. I appreciate the sentiment and the initial warm welcome I was given from the community back in July of 2024.
But for the sake of heartbreak, I must move on.
I'll leave my discord for anyone that still wants to communicate.
I'm sorry for everything that went unanswered. I had such big plans for this blog, and it seemed right when I had a plan to keep everything together- it all just fell apart. I'm sorry for the disappointment this has all been.
I'm leaving the blogs up just as a memorial piece, but by all means- feel free to unfollow. No hard feelings.
Take care of yourselves. This world's pretty tough out there. But you're tougher.
Goodbye.
