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[aretainerfortwo]

It’s um...It’s my dad’s birthday today, so happy birthday to him! I hope he likes what I made him...

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So I went back inside to go see if I could find out who I might’ve helped and um. When I walked into the library, the book that turned out I needed just. Um. Flew off the shelves. Literally.

I do know who I helped though! A deity by the name of Byzariin. Who um. According to the book is a minor karma deity...?

[aretainerfortwo]

You just?? Helped an ANIMAL from HELL without a second thought??? Wild animals on earth are dangerous enough, you're lucky you didn't get your face clawed off or something!

I know, that was kind of not really smart of me?? I remember the name now though of what I thought that was; I read that flocous are completely harmless though, even to humans like me, so I thought it'd be fine! And it was really hurt too...to be honest, I didn't think it would make it if I didn't help.

[aretainerfortwo]

Um...so I might have kind of accidentally helped out some kind of...mmmmaybe minor deity? I think??

[aretainerfortwo]

//just as a heads up, I'm gonna be making Samuel's portrayal where he's taken in by Cervus his main portrayal on the blog, so I won't be tagging it as AU Related anymore. I'll probably go back and tag his posts from his original portrayal as "Origins" or something - and take out the au related tag unless it involves Venus or the altmod or something fjebdnf

[aretainerfortwo]

So um, I've been thinking about playing The Sims 4? I already play the third one, and its fun - though that was after SHII and Cervus helped me install a bunch of mods. I...um. I'd have to do the same here, right?

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The new year is coming up, isn't it? It's weird to think that I'm not counting it towards my age this time, since Cervus found out my actual birthday.

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Name your favorite human world candy, top 3 if you can't pick one

I....um.....I can't decide either. They all taste too good for me to pick...

[outofyourmindseye]

How does this go again...right!

TIL what an updog is!

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....what is updog?

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3 & 8

I'll be answering these with the au of him being taken in by Cervus - if we were talking about the main portrayal, while quite a lot of things could potentially be triggers for him, he wouldn't know - and the extent of his reaction would be dissociation at best, completely losing time and memories at the worst.

3. what triggers does your muse have from their childhood?

He has less now than he did before, though that comes with the trade-off of properly reacting to his triggers (where before, he'd simply force himself through it). Loud, sudden noises (especially yelling) is a major one, as well as the word "training" - depending on if he's having a bad day or not. Being told that he's useless, or really any degradation is one as well if said degradation goes on for long enough.

7. how does your muse react to being triggered? ( disassociates, becomes angry, etc. )

Samuel ends up going into a panic attack, and they're typically really bad ones. By the end of them, he'll have gone nonverbal and is going to be spending the rest of the day staying quiet if not staying in his room.

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q’s for muses who had a…  r o u g h   childhood 

( tw’s for trauma, child abuse, child neglect, and violence toward children )

does your muse blame themselves for their trauma?

does your muse suffer with nightmares of their trauma?

what triggers does your muse have from their childhood?

who in their life was most responsible for your muse’s trauma?

has your muse ever been officially diagnosed with ptsd, c-ptsd?

what was the worst / most traumatic moment in their childhood? 

how old was your muse when they realized they had childhood trauma?

how does your muse react to being triggered? ( disassociates, becomes angry, etc. )

what coping methods  ( healthy or unhealthy )  did your muse learn during their childhood? 

does your muse want their abuser(s) to face consequences? Or would they rather forget any of it happened? 

was there anyone who was a shining light for your muse? Ie. was there any adult who they could genuinely rely on / trust? 

[aretainerfortwo]

Samuel, your dad kills people, just because! Doesn't that scare you??

...um....well, there's two things about that actually. One...I've never known Dad to kill anyone without a good reason for it.

And two....I used to kill people. In my old world. So that's not really....y e ah...

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Send me ✪ and my muse will tell you what they’d like to do to/with yours.

One  ✦ = They don’t want to do this at all. Five  ✦ = They would die to be doing this! (Zero  ✦  = “Wat?!”) My muse would like too… ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  dance with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  sing for your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  ask your muse out on a date. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  take a bath with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  hold your muse tight. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  lean onto your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  kiss your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  sleep with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  marry your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  watch your muse sleep. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  cuddle your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  go to a party with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  watch a movie with your muse ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  play video games with your muse ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  steal horses with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  cook together with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  support your muse’s hobbies. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  get drunk with your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  watch your muse cry. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  send your muse away. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  make your muse trip. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  deny your muse’s existence. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  slap your muse. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  crush your muse’s dreams ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  set your muse’s home on fire. ✦ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧  kill your muse.

[aretainerfortwo]

📝 (@drops-of-bronze)

send me   📝  and my muse will answer all applicable questions below

-what color reminds your muse of mine?

“Truthfully, it’s green that reminds me a lot of Cervus. It reminds me of the palace gardens. Sometimes we spend time taking care of the plants together.

-what song reminds your muse of mine?

“I don’t quite remember who originally sang it, but there is a song Cervus plays on his guitar during rainy days. It’s very calming to listen to, and those days of listening to him play are very peaceful. I believe the song is called Windmills? Unfortunately, I can’t quite remember the name...”

-what scent reminds your muse of mine?

“The scent of well-worn books in a library you continue to return to, or perhaps the scent of flowers and other various plants growing together in harmony.”

-what meme reminds your muse of mine?

“I...don’t know very memes, unfortunately. Um, there’s this one - I believe it’s something along the lines of “You know what? Fuck you *ungrills your cheese*”? It seems like it fits? I’m sorry, I don’t know too many memes...”

-what sound reminds your muse of mine?

“The sound of a guitar gently strumming as the rain pours outside, or the quiet noises made by the bugs late in the evening.”

-what setting reminds your muse of mine?

"A warm home - somewhere cozy that you can take a good, long rest."

-what fashion style reminds your muse of mine?

"To be honest, it's casual clothing that comes to mind. Something you'd wear on a simple day out, if that makes sense."

-what feeling does your muse associate with mine?

"The feeling of being cared for and loved."

-what animal does your muse associate with mine?

"Well, this isn't really an animal...but leilykas! They're a species that lives here in Hell, and they're known to be extremely smart, like Cervus! They can also be extremely dangerous if provoked or attacked which...is also like Cervus, hehe..."

-what holiday does your muse associate with mine?

"I wouldn't actually know...I'm not very well-versed in holidays here. The only holiday I can really think of is what was called Relations Day, which was a day meant to celebrate bonds between people, no matter the type. I...haven't thought about it in quite a while - I never got to celebrate it in my old world. But that's in the past, and I suppose I don't need a holiday to be grateful about my bond with Cervus."

-what season does your muse associate with mine?

[aretainerfortwo]

repost and BOLD all that apply to your muse — health edition

gets colds easily - has a chronic condition - has had major surgery - has had minor surgery -suffers from spring allergies - has broken a bone - has a sensitive stomach - gets headaches easily - has anxiety - has depression - is prone to panic attacks - bruises easily - has had a major health scare - has lost a loved one to health issues - pushes themselves when sick - is a poor patient - is a good patient - ignores signs of poor health in themselves - is a hypochondriac - has undiagnosed health issues - isn’t bothered by medical settings - hates medical settings

[rpmemes-galore]

send me   📝  and my muse will answer all applicable questions below: 

what color reminds your muse of mine?

what song reminds your muse of mine? 

what scent reminds your muse of mine? 

what meme reminds your muse of mine? 

what sound reminds your muse of mine? 

what setting reminds your muse of mine? 

what fashion style reminds your muse of mine? 

what feeling does your muse associate with mine?

what animal does your muse associate with mine?

what holiday does your muse associate with mine?

what season does your muse associate with mine?

[aretainerfortwo]

What's it like having a little sister? And what do you two even do when you're hanging out together or whatever?

To be honest, I actually enjoy being a big brother a lot! I don’t think I’m being biased when I say Venus is an adorable and an amazing baby sister, hehe...

Lately, she’s been joining me while drawing, actually. She was watching me draw on my tablet, so I offered to show her how to draw with it. She’s run off to show our dads the things we’ve drawn many times before, and I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of how excited she gets when she goes to get them. 

Though before that, she’d be having me play games with her. Not just video games, though she’s had fun just seeing my Animal Crossing character run around the island. Venus loves playing hide and seek - her favorite hiding spots were underneath Lunarius’s cloak, or behind Cervus. 

All in all...I love my little sister, she’s just so fun and, well, loveable that I can’t help it. And I wanna do my best to be the best big brother I could possibly be for her.