Words and Worlds

Hello. I'm Aretice (meaning explained in the last four lines, which you may skip to if that's all you care about). I am currently a 22-year-old college student, but I only include that because I assume other people care about it - it is only partially relevant to the internal aspects of my existence. Things I do/am that I find more relevant include music composition, game design, writing fiction, and thinking/contemplative, introspective, thoughtful, curious, defiant, disorganized, and doubtful. I do not care to delve into things at present that are both a state of being and a state of doing (unusual to think of inaction as a verb, but I digress). If you care about those psychological test things, I have tested as INTP (89/88/11/59), 5w4. I score slightly above average on narcissism tests but lower than actual narcissists (if you know enough about me you will come to understand fairly quickly as to why this is). I am allergic to ignorant communication of ideas and will not speak about anything I do not consider myself at least a little bit knowledgeable about assuming it has any prior grounding in anything at all and exists as something other than speculation (which basically means I am free to say pretty much anything I want about dark energy). I am often (what could be seen as) unnecessarily verbose. I like to think of it as caring very much about precision of language, since I am terrible at it in speech (by comparison, at least, and that's not to say that I'm good at it here) -- I find written communication much simpler. I assume most people have given up reading by this point. If you haven't, we would probably get along at least somewhat. I wonder if the reason that I have "Hello. I'm Aretice." as my introduction as opposed to "Hello, I'm Aretice." as my introduction is because it subconsciously speaks volumes of the compartmentalization of my thoughts -- an indication that a first greeting and an introduction are not necessarily linked or synonymous or anything like that. Divergent thinking. Yay (from a societal standpoint, I imagine they would be -- primarily convergent thinkers, I imagine, would consider there to be a link). The name of my blog as well as my online name are explained as follows - "Reticent" means something along the lines of "loath to speak up", with the "a-" prefix I indicate a lack of a thing, and then "horizon" is a word often used to indicate future potential. Effectively, a future where we can say what needs to be said.

[areticenthorizon]

i really do not appreciate being bombarded with ignorant misconceptions of reality, and being expected to not only tolerate them, but ENCOURAGE them. being wrong is only a good thing when there is an opportunity for correction, in which case it is one of the best things.

[areticenthorizon]

This...place...?

Tumblr is somewhat of a strange bird. It's a safe place except it's not a safe place, that is, it tries to be something and does a really good job of being an illusion of that thing, but it isn't actually that thing, except it kind of is that thing. Having a community of decent human beings does not in any way change the fact that this is the internet, but I imagine the relative safety of Tumblr as opposed to other social media is that the majority of people make one for the same purpose -- self-expression, but in the declarative sense. "I am." You can be whoever you want to be, and nobody's going to say otherwise. It's almost like a modern counterculture, and I think that is really beautiful.

[areticenthorizon]

Mr. Bear

Well, Mr. Bear, I am now primed to offer you my REBUTTAL. Did it ever occur to you, Mr. Bear, that you might, in fact, be a TRIANGLE? A three-sided, two-dimensional object of CORRUPTION. My client suggests that perhaps you were unaware of your geometry, your overall flatness of character...your TRIANGULARITY, so to speak. He has long pondered the idea of dropping charges. No, the only charges being dropped today are the depth charges of JUSTICE upon the evil that is THREE-SIDED-SHAPES. I am going to ensure, Mr. Bear, that you receive your due punishment, as soon as possible. Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, WHAT SAY YOU? Should Mr. Bear be allowed to roam free, his three pointy corners a constant threat to the safety of our families? His bizarre, perplexing properties are an assault on the minds of our young people! And just look at how many eyes and ears he has! His very appearance is threatening! What kind of creature worthy of pity could possibly look like this?!

[areticenthorizon]

As soon as I became aware that people do not see the things I do, I in some way made it my lifelong mission to illuminate these things for them. I am unsure where exactly this will take me, though I have some ideas...

[areticenthorizon]

I find it amusing how often I speak, think, or type as if I had an audience. I am unsure as to exactly why I do so -- perhaps it is the "potential" for listening, that is, since things on the internet tend to linger for the foreseeable future.

[areticenthorizon]

I don't think enough people stop to think about the meanings of things they say and do. Taken at face value, such a statement would seem almost banal, yes, but it's something deeper than that. Existence in my eyes is a sort of pattern, a series of overlaid patterns, all interacting with eachother on countless levels. Many people do not stop to think about the effects of their words or actions, and end up facing consequences they should never have to, or perhaps worse, bring similar avalanches down on the heads of others. It's saddening.