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20 | she/her | INFP | med student | bisexual

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it’s hard to describe what i feel these days. is it emptiness, loneliness, sadness, depression, boredom or something else?

i can’t tell you myself. i feel like i’m just existing, without any drive, without any motivation, getting nowhere in life. sometimes i wonder if life will always be like this and it’s scary. i haven’t accomplished anything in life so far and although there are things that i want to achieve in the future, it’s hard to get up and push myself everyday because nothing seems worth anything. it’s the same day everyday. i ask myself, how long is it going to be like this? i wish i knew the answer.

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only a skims pr package can heal me now

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watching chiropractor videos all day long and telling myself : you wish that was you huh

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told a guy i started watching "formula 1 : drive to survive" on netflix and he said "aww, but you don't have to do that for me" like bitch please sit back down i'm doing it for max and carlos

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andrew garfield being a leo makes so much sense

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everytime it rains or the weather gets a little colder i start sneezing and coughing so when i was younger my mother used to make me wear socks and sweatshirts so that i become warm, but now i live in another city cause of uni and mom's not here to make me wear socks and a sweatshirt and i have to do it by myself and that makes me realise childhood is over and it makes me so sad. so whenever i go back home for the holidays and it gets cold, i wait till my mom notices that i'm cold and screams at me to wear a sweatshirt or hoodie and my heart smiles cause it's just like old times and i get to live a part of my childhood again.

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every little inconvenience in my life calls for a little women (2019) rewatch

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yesterday i thought of romanticising my life a little bit. so i sat down by my window, it was raining, cool air was brushing against my skin, i was reading a book, the weather was perfect, everything was nice, main character vibes but then an hour later i caught cold and now i've been sneezing and coughing since yesterday like FUCK MY IMMUNE SYSTEM won't even let me have a moment of peace in my life

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getting my back cracked by someone would solve atleast 73 of my problems

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you know the feeling when you're crying while listening to music and nothing new plays and phoebe sings "how long will it be cute, all this crying in my room" and you start crying more? yeah!

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just because i told you my nickname, that doesn't means i want you to call me by it

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was normally going about my day then remembered we're never getting the second season of THE SOCIETY. day ruined.

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the mean girly inside me who wants to say "wish i could say the same about you" every time someone gives me a compliment

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saying no to studies and calling it my reputation era

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happy pride to all you cuties!! y'all are so valid and sexy. cheek kisses for y'all

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"how long have you been staring at the picture zendaya posted for tom's birthday?"

me : YES

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i'm gonna fail (i wasted all my time scrolling through stupid tiktoks just cause this exam's marks won't be counted in the final result)