✩ari✩

“How long O simple ones, will you love being simple?”

[snoopysupe]

tower fics are so back baby

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[tall]

[actually-mentally-ill]

finding out making up whole detailed scenarios with fictional characters in your head is a “sign of mental illness”

[arigalleta]

We Will Never

We will never kiss, never taste the unspoken words lingering on each other’s lips.

We will never hold hands, never feel the silent promises resting in the warmth of touch.

We will never embrace— no arms, no solace, no soft collision of two bodies searching for refuge in each other.

We will never.

We will never make love, because I do not love myself enough to offer anything to you— not my skin, not the soul I buried beneath layers of shame.

Because I am a coward, hiding behind fear, too proud, too broken, to give what you ask.

The Lord says do not deny one another, but what if I am made of denial? What if my very existence is withholding?

I will never be the woman you dream of. I will not carry your children, or share the warmth of your bed, or hold your hand as we watch our family grow.

I will not sit beside you and admire the life you built, because I will not let you see what I am.

It would be cruel to subject you to it.

And I know cruelty well. It hums in my reflection, festers in the marrow of my being. I am its child, its creation.

The sight of myself sickens me. I hate what I am with a violence that roars beneath my quiet.

I bury my anger in the cracks of my foundation, hide my rage beneath obedient shame. I swallow it whole.

You will never touch me, because you will not want to.

We will never truly know each other— not in the way souls intertwine.

But our eyes, our eyes will rebel.

They will undress what I keep hidden. They will touch where my hands refuse. They will hold each other in a silent, endless dance—

a private rebellion against the disgust I built.

-ari

A message for you🫵:

thank you for reading, remember you are beautiful.

[hobipowers]

j-hope ♡ | SWIM Live Clip I. (Sunhyewon ver.)

[feral-ballad]

Carrie Fountain, from Burn Lake; “Experience”

[taes-kook]

TAEHYUNG - Swim Performance Video (cr. soowoozoooo)

[arigalleta]

You need to shave your armpits

Don’t you know that not crying can lead to drowning

Sometimes it feels necessary 

Sometimes not crying can feel like trying to fly

If you don’t shave them hair will knot and tangle

Sometimes hollow objects can produce the loudest of noises 

You need to shave your armpits 

And sometimes the absence of canned beans can be devastating 

You need to stop shaving your armpits 

Rigid stances and hose nozzles thrown

If you shave them too much they might itch 

Whispered words and scared cats tell too many lies

You need to stop shaving your armpits 

Projectors don’t hurt but they remember 

Razor burns and regrowing hair rub against skin 

You need to stop shaving your armpits or what should thrive will snarl

-ari

[jung-koook]

so fine ♡

[arigalleta]

Quizá el amor de mi vida si es Jeon Jungkook

[arigalleta]

"I am angry that I starved my brain and I sat shivering in my bed at night instead of dancing or reading poetry or eating ice cream or kissing a boy or maybe a girl with gentle lips and strong hands." -Laurie Halse Anderson, Wintergirls

[arigalleta]

"Habiamos sido victimas de los juegos y los experimentos que se hacen con un material tan impredecible y voluble con el ser humano" -Camilo, Eva Lasting

Siento que todo lo que seré en la vida es víctima. Víctima de lo que he hecho, de lo que estoy haciendo y de lo que haré. Víctima del libre albedrío. Desde la decisión que tomó Dios al formar el universo hasta la decisión que tomo hoy al elegir qué comer. Víctima de la decisión fatal y, al mismo tiempo, vital que tomaron Eva y Adán al probar el pecado. Soy víctima de todo y de nada. Hay veces en las que creo que soy víctima del amor de Dios. Al ser creada, fui condenada a pecar ilimitadamente, a nunca ser suficiente, a esforzarme por la perfección pero nunca alcanzarla; a siempre sentir y vivir esa verdad, pero al mismo tiempo ser amada incondicionalmente. Quiero dejar de ser víctima, pero ¿cómo dejo de ser algo con lo que nací? Quiero ser más de lo que soy, pero hay demasiados peros. Lo único que puedo hacer es esperar y confiar en que algún día voy a dejar de ser este cuento trágico.

[moonlitmartyr]

I hate ruminating on what could have been. Out here thinking "if only I locked in when I was 13" are we serious

[my-dailydreams]

[star-dust-fairy]

I can never meet ateez. they would know about my little crush on them all and I can't be having that

[arigalleta]

As a christian wth?

Ignorance really is death because tell me why my friend tole me that this girl he knows (she's christian btw) told him that her, along with her entire family, would send him to a CONCENTRATION CAMP because he's gay. LIKE HELLO? The crazier thing is that he started defending her saying that it wasn't her fault because that's how she was raised. This isn't just how "someone was raised" it's violent and dehumanizing. There's a responsibility that falls onto us the moment we decide to follow something/someone. People like her choose to remain ignorant and naive by not picking up their bible and reading. They don't make sure to have all the facts about everything they're being taught. They don't know if it's actually biblical. Like maybe what my parents said about gay people being sent to concentration camps just because they're gay isn't what Jesus taught. I'm not saying that you should rebel against your parents or point fingers, all I'm saying is to QUESTION, INVESTIGATE, AND LEARN. Don't just give something or someone your blind devotion and follow them like sheep. You'll find that Jesus' teachings are completely different to what some of these modern day ted talkers are now "preaching". This also applied to these outdated opinions that some people have like saying that women can't or shouldn't be pastors. Like it slowly builds up until ignorance becomes death and we're sending everything we don't understand to hell. So please, be curious, be wary of things, you won't loose faith by learning; if anything you'll gain something from it.

-ari

I know this isn't my usual post but this REALLY threw me off, like how do you say that to someone and go on about your day?