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[arlooooo]

The unmarried wife

Last night, we attended a bridal shower together with our son. I can’t help but think why everyone is getting married and yet until now I am not. Lots of things are running into my mind while looking to the future grooms and brides. I asked myself if these couples are really ready? If they really love each other? If they’re willing to give up and sacrifice everything for their partner? Then I realized, maybe they really are. They would not asked their partners to get married if not. Then I looked and asked my partner “what do you think they are feeling right now? Maybe they’re all so excited and so happy” and I got no answer from him.

Sometimes, I wonder why God gave me someone who still not yet over with his past. I wonder how can I marry someone who didn’t even imagine his life with me, who never planned his future with me, who can never be loyal and faithful with me, who never feels proud of having me,never sees me as the most beautiful girl in his life, never loved me as much as I love him. Sometimes, I wanna ask God if he is really the one for me? If he is the right one for me?

I’ve been hurt for so many times, been fooled and played and left for no reason. Still, I am here praying and hoping that one day someone will come along wipe my tears away and will love me. He will just love me. And yes, until now I am with that person who keeps on hurting and breaking me and until now I dont know why I am staying.

Love and life is truly ironic. God knows i’m longing for love so He gave me my son. I don’t know His plans for me but I believe it’s always the best. But sadly I don’t believe in marriage now. 😔

[arlooooo]

Indonesia 2015 I'm so stunned and blessed for we were able to see the beauty of this private island located in Bintan, Indonesia.

[arlooooo]

Singapore trip 2015

[arlooooo]

Sometimes, what we all need is a little amount of appreciation..

[arlooooo]

Day 2: March 13, 2015 WHANG OD!

Yay! After almost 4hrs of butt numbing adventure on a rough rocky road obstacle and an hour of trek yipeeee finally! We reached Buscalan in order to meet and have a tattoo with Whang Od, (the famous tattoo maker and the oldest and last mambabatok in their tribe according to researchers).

When we reached Apo’s place we found her doing a tattoo to a great artist from Belgium, Marion (who made our tattoo designs) I’m so amazed on how Apo does the traditional pangbabatok and I am more challenged to experience one. Unfortunately, we were not able to have a tatt on the day we got there for Apo was a bit exhausted already so we decided to have it on the next day.

We stayed at Grace’s house, Apo’s grand daughter and is also a mangbabatok. We’re lucky enough to have stayed there because we were able to talk to Her and to her family, bond and have dinner with them. Words cannot express how happy I am to experience their simple life. I appreciate every single hospitable act they’re doing and offering to us. They’re simply the best. I realized that I am still very fortunate to have this kind of opportunity which I will treasure forever. <\p>

[arlooooo]

Day 2: March 13, 2015 TOPLOADING!!

Ok, this is one of the best highlights of this trip! The top load experience though it’s not my first time to ride on the top of the jeepney but still it always give me the happiness i get from doing it for the first time. Still the same fun, excitement and enthusiasm! Instead of sitting comfortably inside the jeepney, we preferred to stay at the top of the jeepney to experience what locals normally do. It is a great experience because you will able to clearly see the view, take pictures of it, enjoy the rough roads, and the bonding moments you can make while traveling. What makes the top loading more fun? It is the butt-numbing adventure. Haha the top loading experience wouldn’t be complete if after the trip your butt didn’t hurt or you wasn’t able to say “ouch! Aray!” While passing the rough roads! LOL!

[arlooooo]

Traveling will always be my thing whether I’m with my friends, family or even when I’m alone. What makes it so memorable?! It’s the travel itself. You will able to see the real beauty of nature, you will meet different people and know their wonderful culture, taste different foods which makes one place worth a visit. So let’s start my Kalinga adventure! Day 1 March 12, 2015 I travel to Tuguegarao from Manila to meet my friend/co-STC nurse and my ex-boyfriend there. It is actually my first time to travel alone in the Philippines which I am really thankful for because I was able to see God’s wonderful creations. I really enjoyed the sceneries. I feel like I’m a kid who’s very excited to get a chocolate bar and that’s what exactly I feel when I saw the view from the plane. Exactly 1:30pm when I arrived to Tuguegarao and went straight to CVMC where I will meet Jan and Adrian. Another blessing I considered to finally see and meet again my batch mate/co-STC nurse, Jan. After a few minutes of catching up we decided to go and start our trip to Kalinga since it will take an hour to get to Tabuk, Kalinga where we will stay for a night.

[chrissee-girl]

[arlooooo]

I crave.. 😔

[justyole]

Dear Cutie-Pie,

Recently, your mother and I were searching for an answer on Google. Halfway through entering the question, Google returned a list of the most popular searches in the world. Perched at the top of the list was “How to keep him interested.”

It startled me. I scanned several of the countless articles about how to be sexy and sexual, when to bring him a beer versus a sandwich, and the ways to make him feel smart and superior.

And I got angry.

Little One, it is not, has never been, and never will be your job to “keep him interested.”

Little One, your only task is to know deeply in your soul—in that unshakeable place that isn’t rattled by rejection and loss and ego—that you are worthy of interest. (If you can remember that everyone else is worthy of interest also, the battle of your life will be mostly won. But that is a letter for another day.)

If you can trust your worth in this way, you will be attractive in the most important sense of the word: you will attract a boy who is both capable of interest and who wants to spend his one life investing all of his interest in you.

Little One, I want to tell you about the boy who doesn’t need to be keptinterested, because he knows you are interesting:

I don’t care if he puts his elbows on the dinner table—as long as he puts his eyes on the way your nose scrunches when you smile. And then can’t stop looking.

I don’t care if he can’t play a bit of golf with me—as long as he can play with the children you give him and revel in all the glorious and frustrating ways they are just like you.

I don’t care if he doesn’t follow his wallet—as long as he follows his heart and it always leads him back to you.

I don’t care if he is strong—as long as he gives you the space to exercise the strength that is in your heart.

I couldn’t care less how he votes—as long as he wakes up every morning and daily elects you to a place of honor in your home and a place of reverence in his heart.

I don’t care about the color of his skin—as long as he paints the canvas of your lives with brushstrokes of patience, and sacrifice, and vulnerability, and tenderness.

I don’t care if he was raised in this religion or that religion or no religion—as long as he was raised to value the sacred and to know every moment of life, and every moment of life with you, is deeply sacred.

In the end, Little One, if you stumble across a man like that and he and I have nothing else in common, we will have the most important thing in common:

You.

Because in the end, Little One, the only thing you should have to do to “keep him interested” is to be you.

Your eternally interested guy,

Daddy

Happy International Women’s Day

[ihondurican-deactivated20181111]

This is so beautiful. I almost cried.

[adventuresinhousewifery]

And yet the letter starts with a reference to his daughter’s looks.

[thebutterflytales]

Cutie-pie doesn’t necessarily mean it’s referring to her looks. You can be cute in more ways than just your looks. Just saying. 

[littledepressionproblem]

[arlooooo]

When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change your feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares.

[arlooooo]

Life's so weird, sometimes you fall in love with the person you least expected.

[arlooooo]

A person who truly loves you will never let you go or give up on you, no matter how hard the situation is.

[arlooooo]

HOPE

I wonder how happy people maintain their happiness? I wonder why every time I feel completely happy it feels like the whole world is taking it away from me? I was once broken from a wrong love. I chose to be single for a long time to be better and to bring back everything I needed to be whole again. I promised to myself that the next person I will choose to love would be the last and be the person I will spend my life with. After years of being single, there's one person whom I unexpectedly fell in love with. I don't know if destiny or fate brought us together. We started as rough as you could possibly imagine, there were lots of unfinished business, fights and misunderstandings. But we were able to surpass it and we stayed strong together. As we go on, we're able to handle things responsibly. Maybe things haven't been so easy for us. But I believe that if you really love the person you won't give up no matter what. Because I know and I have faith that eventually things will get better, things will fall into right places, people will forgive. And I know God will never let us face these problems alone.

[arlooooo]

😘❤

[californianbeach]

[arlooooo]

“Would you just stay with me?”

“Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we’re already fighting.”

“Well that’s what we do. We fight. You tell me when I’m being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you’re being a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a two-second rebound rate then you’re back doing the next pain in the ass thing.”

“So what?”

“So it’s not gonna be easy, it’s gonna be really hard, and we’re gonna have to work at this everyday but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday.”

[everniam]

“I don’t even remember a time when he wasn’t my boyfriend. No one knows me better than Cory. No one knows what it’s been like to go through this more than he does. Feeling like you have that net underneath you allows you to jump higher and go farther. He makes me feel like I can do anything. For the first time in my life, I feel really, really settled and happy. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world."  - Lea Michele.

[thawne]

That just made me cry so hard, RIP

[arlooooo]

:(