A Letter For All Of My Loved Ones
( Upon reading this, I assume you know I'm already dead. This will be my last message to you, I will be beyond repair. )
( I want to say a few things, to those who made my life more tolerable- made me hate living so much less. )
[ Small pieces of the paper were thinner and wrinkled- as though little drops of tears fell down onto it. ]
( Reactor, my first friend here. I want to thank you for being such great company, being there every time I needed you. You are so amazing, full of life and talent- and I'm sorry to say I won't be here to accompany you anymore. I'll miss our movie nights, your jokes- you entirely. You mean so much to me, and I pray and hope you only get the best. )
( Kerrie, my daughter, I'm sorry I won't be here anymore. You've always been so incredibly strong, I cry seeing you persist through things I would crumple other. You are an incredible young woman, you are loving- sweet and passionate- you're even a singer and guitar player. You have so much going for you, and I ask just one thing- keep doing all of that. Keep doing what makes you happy- keep chasing your dreams. You'll get whatever you want, I know you will- just keep going. )
( And I ask this part only to be read to Sunky, my little boy. He shouldn't see anything else, he doesn't need to. -- )
( Sunky, my beautiful boy and my sweetest light in my life- I've seen you grow up so much. I've watched you learn to dance, play games and sing- you're doing incredible. Please, regardless of how you may feel- do whatever you can to keep making friends. You shouldn't be alone when you're upset, you deserve all the company you can get, kiddo. Don't let that light dim, burn strong- burn stronger than anything, because that's the amount of energy you deserve to keep. You're a star, something beautiful- don't ever dull. No matter what happens, I will always be so incredibly proud of you. Whatever you do will be amazing, I know it. Please, stay you.)
( And Freax. I'm sorry. I am sorry for every fight or brushing of shoulders that ended up ruining your day. I am aware I have not made things easy for you, and I'm aware I have caused much friction and struggle in your life. I don't think any apology can properly reflect how terribly I feel for causing you trouble. Please, there is so much more for you than me- you have others. W.K- you have friends and you have company that would let you in with open arms. Live on, please, because there's more to you that has yet to be born- there is so much more to you than just what has been. You can grow, and I'm going to be so proud regardless. I'll be there in spirit by your side, always. I promise, I promise and I beg you- you will have so much more to live for and so much to be, do not give up. )
( I am sorry I am not here anymore, I'm sorry for what I may have done that I've yet to make up for- )
( But when I'm gone, rest assured- )
( You all will be much safer. He'll never come back. )
( I love you all, and once more-
