Hyperfixation Hell

Welcome, here we psychoanalyze works of fiction because our brains demand us to, kind of like a worn down factory ~

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

some people will be like “I wonder why fanfic writers don’t share their works anymore😔” and then this is them when a writer is kind enough to share something they write — as a hobby, for their own enjoyment — with them for free.

some people really don’t realize how privileged they are that they get fanfics for free. imagine having access to something for free because someone is kind enough to share it with you… and then being rude, entitled and an ungrateful pos to that person who was kind enough to share their creation with you for free

“almost 1 year is a lil too much for me” fuck off. fanfic writers don’t owe you anything. one of my favorite fics was updated after 13 years, and what I did is that I thanked the author for choosing to continue the work, I didn’t act like a spoiled toddler by asking why they didn’t update sooner. and even if a writer chooses to abandon their fic permanently with no explanation, that is their choice, their hobby, their decision. they don’t owe your entitled ass anything.

you people let tiktok rot your brains to the point you see everything as content farm and engagement. not a piece of art created by the artist’s love and passion. it’s dystopian.

[arsdivisus]

maybe if we got real answers to destiel related con questions we’d stop asking them >.>

just saying

[rosewhipped22]

[arsdivisus]

Starting a lil series of posts to introduce my silly headcanons for SPN Angels, since they really weren’t fleshed out enough in the show!

These are just my own thoughts and ideas, and are in no way confirmed canon within the universe of the series, so just enjoy however you want or feel free to completely ignore!

Also, if anyone wants to feed off of these feel free to add on to the post in comments or reblogs with your own ideas! And if it happens to inspire any writers out there, pls tag me so I can read and gush about your fics! <3

Ars’ SPN Angel Headcanons

Angelic Fledglings (PT 1):

- Newly created angels are called Fledglings, and are at their smallest, youngest, most vulnerable state at the beginning of their existence, much like corporeal creatures birthing young.

- Fledglings’ true forms are actually able to be perceived by the human eye due to their celestial energy being much thinner and weaker, manifesting into its deadly radiance only after an angel has existed for a few millennia.

- This is also why fledglings are not allowed to leave Heaven — not having a good range of control over their powers and forms means that if they were to slip into the perceivable dimension they could risk coming into contact with humanity (and thus become “tainted” or “corrupted” by human emotions or beliefs).

- Fledglings often sound like wind chimes. Due to their inability to maintain a presence within only one plane of existence at a time, this can be heard even if there is no sight of them, making it nearly impossible to conceal their presence.

- Fledglings are incapable of flight, wings still covered in fluffy down feathers that will fill with grace as they age.

- Adolescence sees their first true flight feathers growing in through a process similar to avian molting; quills push through the surface of their being as their essence continues to expand, silvery blue grace filling the wicks akin to how earthly quill shafts fill with blood.

- A Fledgling’s crying can cause strange phenomena within the earthly plane, similar to a grown angel screaming or experiencing pain; foliage bursting into flame, weather distortions, animals acting out, etc. Although the radius is on a much smaller scale.

[hymaziie]

[arsdivisus]

Lets get a few things cleared up here:

Yes, SPN has extremely misogynistic messages throughout the entire series.

Pretending that Cas’ confession was anything other than romantic is in fact extremely homophobic.

Actors are allowed their own interpretations of things, but that doesn’t mean those are any more canon than the fans’ interpretations.

They are playing characters. Only the characters truly know how things canonically were supposed to happen, because we as humans often try to project our own biases into our works.

Enjoy your interpretation of things, because when you don’t let biases get in the way of a story, you can often see the most intimate version of it - some stories are stronger than the people hired to portray them.

[irreparableteacup]

i only like enemies to lovers if it’s gay because i think men who are mean to women don’t deserve to live

[pbeeanjay]

i still pray to you

[dejectednesss]

thinking abt how often ppl reduce castiel to a prop for dean/destiel, and how much it flattens what is actually one of the biggest arcs in supernatural. mind you, i’m a HUGE destieller, but we have to recognize that cas isn’t introduced as a character built around romance—he’s brought on as a soldier of heaven whose entire worldview is rigid/hierarchical—absolute. and what’s so compelling abt him and his arc is watching that very set structure begin to collapse. like…early cas doesn’t even rly conceptualize “self.” angels function as instruments and obedience is to them, identity. so when he starts questioning heaven—when he chooses humanity over the orders of heaven—that’s a MASSIVE existential shift. it’s not just, “cas fell for dean,” it’s cas realizing the system he was made for is corrupt and that moral agency might actually matter more than obedience…

it’s sad how ppl overlook how traumatic that transformation is. cas loses literally everything: heaven, purpose, certainty, belonging, etc. angels who deviate are punished by getting their memories wiped and their core reprogrammed. so his arc is abt disillusionment/reconstruction of self, next to his tuning into more human feelings like care/compassion. he has to build an identity from scratch—values, loyalties…even the concept of choice!

so that’s why the take that cas “only exists for dean” misses the point. cas repeatedly shows he forms attachments beyond just one person—he cares abt sam, (overtime) abt humanity at large, and abt individuals he bonds w along the way. his loyalty and empathy expand outward as he learns what it means to CHOOSE ppl rather than simply obey heaven. and it’s important to highlight that sam is absolutely is part of that too; cas protects him, believes in him, ultimately taking on sam’s madness to spare him the torment (after having broken sam’s wall). and during that period when his mind is fractured—his bond w meg becomes especially clear. meg stays w him, watches over him, and cas responds to that devotion w real tenderness, finding her desire to care for him especially comforting (even while being a demon) saying: 7x21: “Will you look at her? My caretaker. All of that thorny pain. So beautiful." there’s genuine care there, not just humor/flirtation…

so cas’ capacity for attachment isn’t singular or one-directional; his arc is abt slowly learning how to feel—how to care, desire to actually trust, and ofc, to love at all. i’d even argue he shows signs of sexual attraction long before he fully understands romantic attachment, bc feeling itself is smth he has to develop over time! that gradual awakening—to connection and loyalty, even affection across multiple ppl—is a huge part of what makes his trajectory so compelling!

destiel can be an interesting lens, absolutely! but it’s not the foundation of cas’ storyline. the foundation is cas choosing humanity over heaven over and over again, even when humanity fails him. this is rebellion born from empathy, smth extremely foreign to angels who aren’t meant to feel at all, but learned from watching sam and dean! it’s an angel realizing morality isn’t dictated by heaven!

so yea, just want to stress that cas isn’t a prop and he deserves to be unraveled separate from dean. he’s a being who dismantled the ideology he was created and programmed to uphold, and tried to become something new in its ruins. that arc deserves to be read on its own, not only in relation to dean…

[witchesgetstitches-18]

The fact that the CW’s hit TV show Supernatural has been condensed to “It’s about two brothers who hunt monsters” is insane to me. There has never been a show like supernatural and there never will be. Unparalleled media viewing experience. When someone asks what it is about I spiral until I finally reach the sentence “It’s about two brothers who hunt monsters” because without having watched the show you could never grasp the true concept of what supernatural is. It’s about gay love that pieces through the veil of death and saves the day. It’s about a lost shoe. It’s about pudding and pie and beers and guilt and fear and love. So much love. It’s about brothers but it’s about friendship and it’s about being able to forgive yourself and it’s about the gray area between good and evil and defining what good and evil really are. It’s about breaking a cycle and free will and blind obedience versus breaking the mold and daring to be different and how far someone will go for what they love and what happens when someone kind loses everything and what happens when someone broken gets the chance to heal and everything in between. And somehow all of that simmers down to “It’s about two brothers who hunt monsters”. Mind-blowing.

[arsdivisus]

Okay but Cas was a menace by angelic terms-

Stepping on the fish that would one day be mankind ???

Having set a record amount of lobotomies ????

Telling humans to stick their hands in boiling water ??????

Falling in love with the Michael Sword ?????????

Freeing and then eating their long lost eldritch cousins ??????????

Just so he could fist fight an archangel as a foot soldier ??????????????

And then molotoving THE FIRST ARCHANGEL MICHAEL while calling him an assbutt to his face ?????????????????????

WHILE LUCIFER WAS WATCHING ????????????????????????????

And that was all just his first few seasons on the show-

[arsdivisus]

Dean and Cas getting into an argument in one of their shitty ass hotel rooms they’ve rented while on another shitty ass hunt in the middle of nowhere, and Sam left to get them food awhile ago, leaving just the two of them; except Dean decides they’re done talking and reaches for the tv remote, only to have it disappear from his hand and into Cas’, and now he’s pissed because his only way of ignoring this conversation is now gone, and he’s stepping up to Cas in challenge, reaching for the remote, Cas holding it up and away from his grabbing hands, and suddenly the two are grappling like petty children and their balance is lost and they’re falling- the remote is suddenly forgotten as they lay on top of one another with the hotel mattress beneath them, and theyre stuck, trapped in each others eyes, and they cant remember what they were fighting about, something stupid probably, something Dean was running from most likely - he can’t keep his eyes from darting down to Cas’ lips, which the angel has habitually moistened with a swipe of his tongue - and Cas hasn’t moved to push Dean off of him, he can feel his chest rising against his own, thinks he must be heavy, but he doesn’t even try to get up; they’re staring, staring, and losing themselves in each other’s faces, desire heating between them like a carefully stoked ember that peeters between going out and sparking into something so much bigger - so much more dangerous - they’re leaning in like moths to the flame, unable to fight against the inexplicable pull they’ve both warred against since they met in that barn (since they met in hell)- and then the hotel door swings open and Sam looks up from the paper take-out bag in his hands and trails off mid-sentence - Dean wasn’t listening - he’s too busy fighting his body up and off of his angel, his best friend, his… something, who is still staring after him from the bed with those bright blue longing eyes. And the moment is over. Over but not forgotten. And Sam is left glancing between the two of them as though they’d been caught naked, so Dean snatches the food from him and tells him not to catch flies with that loose jaw, Sammy. Cas picks himself up off the bed and straightens his trenchcoat, his rumpled suit underneath, and just like that the room returns to its usual energy and conversation.

Over, but not forgotten.

[arabella-s-arts]

Scenes/Things in Supernatural that genuinely don't make sense to me if Dean was straight:

The confession booth scene.

Sam just rolling with the fact that Dean's siren is a guy while still thinking sirens infect people through sex.

Dean being flustered by several men: Gunner Lawless, Aaron, Doctor Sexy, etc.

All the parallels between Destiel and other couples. (A big one being "last night on Earth" bc how do you do that accidentally.)

Having all the gay jokes be on Dean instead of Sam.

Paralleling Sam meeting his childhood celebrity crush with Dean meeting Gunner Lawless.

The boner Dean got when Cas cleaned up.

Dean gulping after Cas does an impression from a Western movie.

Charlie, a lesbian, calling Castiel "dreamy."

The way Mary looks at Dean and Cas when they hug.

Dean wondering why everyone assumes he's gay, while Sam not caring.

The logic that Charlie can't flirt with guys because she's only attracted to women, but then having Dean flirt with the guy for her.

Dean seeming disappointed when learning that Aaron's flirting was fake.

The amount of time Dean and Cas spend staring at each other.

Dean canonically having an orgy with Crowley.

A woman saying that she knows when someone's pining for someone else to Dean, just for us to learn that Dean was never in love with Amara.

[destiel-is-real-idgaf]

Dean not only knew there was a gay club in Miami named Purgatory but he compared it to his actual experience in actual purgatory

How many police officers does this man need to flirt with? (i.e. my boobs are real, you're awesome twink rookie, tiny handcuffs for tiny paws, etc etc)

Men hit on him literally so often. Guys are practically throwing themselves at him (i.e. you're a virile manifestation of the divine, we had eye magic, YOURE PRETTY 2X!!)

He's seen Lost Boys 1000 times. 👀

The nuns

"What's it like settling down with another hunter..." he had that much needed conversation with elder gays shout-out to elder gays

Sam asked if Dean was "strictly into dick" after he went on a rant about Dick Roman. Pause. That was the funniest joke Sam could have told to someone who's sexually fluid and it was in his pocket locked, loaded, and ready to go. And the best part is🤌 Dean 🤌 didn't 🤌 answer 🤌 him.

All of his best friends (people Dean said the words "my best friend" about) are gay.

Spanky the demon, the one that uses too much teeth. I don't have anything else to add.

Multiple characters believe that Dean crossed a sexual line with Castiel and that's why they're so close. They have, with a straight face, said "he's your boyfriend" and "he's in love with you".

Benny saying Dean humped his soul to the other side. Sir. Lower your voice.

That scene where he winked at a bartender, messed up his hair in front of him, and then hustled a bunch of college boys out of their money like he was Megan Fox in Jennifer's Body.

If he could swap bodies with any other person, it would be a "hot cheerleader". He doesn't want to date a hot cheerleader, he wants to be a hot cheerleader.

He rode Larry.

Lee and the mysterious orgy they had.

[found--family]

[wellofdean]

Plus, big structural things:

John and Sam are 'called to adventure' Joseph Campbell style, Dean is forced to it by obligations of the heart = the hero's journey, queered.

The deep liminality of their lives on the road, never really part of anything, living in motels, a motherless family, two fatherless boys, fighting monsters = family, American Dream, the very idea of heroism queered.

Dean is named for Dean Moriarty, who is a queer character from On The Road based on actual bisexual Neal Cassady. THAT'S WHY HIS NAME IS DEAN. Interestingly, Neal Cassady's wife wrote about him as being "the archetype of the American Man". He had a sexual relationship with Allen Ginsberg on and off for 20 years.

Monsters as queer allegory, and the very blurred lines about who the actual monsters of Supernatural really are = elements of queer theory 101.

Dean's role in his family is essentially feminine; he is John's partner, Sammy's mother, and he's the emotional heart of the family = masculine family role queered.

Sam gets Ruby as a supernatural helper, Dean gets Cas. Sam has a sex story with Ruby and raises Lucifer, Dean has a love story with Cas and togethe they invent free will. Again, a queered hero's journey.

Dean's complete inability to be at home in the straight world -- meaning, the world where everything is normative as shown in his Djinn dream, his relationship with Lisa, etc. Dean is not ok in normative spaces. Because Dean = QUEER.

There is no Abel in the Cain and Abel story and they invented Collette and then explicitly paralleled her with Cas as the person it would break Dean to kill. Like, that is just... that was crazy man. Bible stories queered!

The way Dean suffers when Cas is gone, moves his trenchcoat from stolen car to stolen car the whole time he's gone. The way he spent a year refusing to leave purgatory without Cas. The way he gives that fucking coat back to Cas?!

The fact that the entire last season of the show is structured around the emotional beats of the love story between Cas and Dean, right up until the fucked up end.

The fact that in the end, the only thing that's real, and the only thing that can save the world is fundamentally non-compliant love. Love that will not bend to 'god's will'.

There is so much more!! Dean's queerness is such a deep and undeniable feature of the story, and believe it:

IT IS A FEATURE, NOT A BUG.

[arsdivisus]

Adding onto these lovely points with a few extras:

- Dean making reference to him and Cas being Thelma and Louise sailing off this cliff together (who are lesbians and do so while kissing).

- Dean knows two things: Bert and Ernie are gay, and Cas is not going to die a virgin.

- Dean telling the fanfiction play actors for himself and Sam to “take a sub step back there ladies” while not making any corrections regarding the S-E-X or nature of Destiel in Act II.

- Sam teasing Dean by making up ship names for Cas and himself instead (but doesn’t act the least bit surprised by the scenario), to which Dean tells him to “do that thing where you just shut the hell up, forever.”

- Male Villain: “Get on your knees” Dean: “Well, I’m flattered really”.

- Beaten bloody, on his knees, unwilling to fight back, “I need you.”

- Performing the Hunter’s Funeral for Cas by himself.

- “Nice peach fuzz” *playful face tap*.

- Lucifer disguising himself as Cas while trying to trick Dean; Lucifer only ever appears as the target’s lover in previous examples.

- Dean making a Led Zepp mixtape for Cas to parallel the exact same way his parents fell in love.

- “Don’t ever change.” *gives him the fondest look in existence*.

- Cas being unable to locate them via angelic powers due to rib carvings; Cas also being able to locate Dean after Purgatory due to feeling a person’s longing.

- “Y’know what, blow me Cas.” “Cas, not for nothing, but the last person who looked at me like that—I got laid” *winks*. “Cas, get out of my ass!” “I was never in your….” *confused looks x2*.

- Dean being suicidal after Cas’ death, then suddenly hopeful again once Cas is revived; “I said I needed a big win; we got Cas back. That’s a pretty damn big win.”

- Rowena doing couples’ counseling between him and Cas. “What am I picking up from you two? A wee tiff?” “Boys? Fix it. I don’t have many regrets, but the few I do still haunt me…Then one day you die…and you can’t make it right. So fix it!”

- Naomi’s office changing to the bi flag colors only while Dean is begging for Cas to break out of her mind control.

- Mary asks how long she was gone, Dean replies “33 Years.” Cas asks how long he was gone, Dean replies “Too damn long.” It was about two weeks-

- Cas getting the Colt from under Dean’s pillow-

- Dean’s fetishes being doctors and cowboys- then Cas dressing as both throughout the show-

- Dean’s reaction to Cas dressing up as a doctor being a husky voiced “Doctor” in greeting, while making bedroom eyes at him- and yeah previous post already went over the cowboy one >.>

[arsdivisus]

Alright, I’m finally doing it - I’m writing fanfic that will be posted to the public.

I’ve read fanfic for half my life but never had the balls to write and post for myself for fear of the quality being infinitely inferior to the works of absolute art I have devoured by the poets of the net - but I think I’ve finally learned that it doesn’t even matter, because at least it’ll be something real, not AI or lacking effort, and honestly some of my favorite reads have been run on sentences with no punctuation or capitalization and misspelled words but the flavor was there - the idea was there, and so was the magic of imagination, and thats what makes a good read in my opinion.

So for anyone else who has been too nervous to start or too scared to post - its okay, go ahead and write, go ahead and post, because I promise you that rambling you hate so much every time you reread it is the fic that someone is returning to consistently with giddy joy because the magic was seen, and thats all they needed <3

[trainsgengar]

dean is allowed to want his mom btw. like "just try and be a mom" doesn't mean "be here and baby me" it means "i want you here and i want your support" and parental support is a normal thing to want, even as an adult.

[thefantasyvoid]

As a major destiel shipper, here is my contribution:

I love you my Sastiel baddies. i see you and you're doing amazing. I even read Sastiel fics a lot of the time cause damn.. ya'll can WRITE. And the ART???? Don't get me started. I completely see the appeal and would honestly be indifferent/happy if it was cannon, they're so cuteeee and the dynamic would be so interesting.

So from a Destiel shipper to the Sastiel community -> I love ya'll

[wanderingcas]

horny grace eating coming to ao3 maybe tonight if i'm not too tired to write the rest after my trip to costco (inspired by this post)

[wanderingcas]

oh and if anyone wants a tag when it posts holler about it