An important note from the other side of the situation
Okay YES I am back on Balmung big deal. No i am not bothering anyone i am going about my day trying to have fun in a game i love very much. Yes I did contact someone recently but I was told people knew my new discord so i’d assumed this person did as well. I had stopped using Arty for a time and used Pheonix for a bit so i’d introduce myself as her not Arty because i wanted to leave the past behind me which i thought wouldn’t be an issue but i guess it was so i apologize for that. I’d like to address a few things in this new note I've seen going around.
First. That “Trigger me Elmo” screen shot literally was a joke a friend of mine told me I was confused as to weather it was supposed to be funny or not So i went to FC. I can even get a screen shot of this person admitting it was their joke if need be.
Second. I didn’t realize my puns were offensive because people laughed at them weather it be in voice or in LS/chats etc. If people were uncomfortable with the jokes/puns they could have said something and i would have avoided them.
Third. I also did not realize my attitude was “Diva” because my FC said that they came to support me whenever there was an event i was involved in, I had people tell me I was performance famous because people knew my name and while that’s cool I never really saw it but i ALWAYS made sure to say thank you to anyone who came to the shows I was a part of because it meant a lot to me to have these people come support me once again thank you to all who did at that time.
Fourth. I did not realize until after i’d left Balmung I had a light I believe that is it though i havent looked through my retainers hard from <<NOX>> I would GLADLY give them back as i really did not mean to take them I just still had them from when i was redesigning the basement as i still hasn’t gotten the storage thing down yet but again i am 1000000% willing to give them back
Fifth. Again in regards to the Rock Show, I’d let my leader know to start decorating for the event. I’d been going through some pretty stressful things and hadn’t been doing well mentally So i skipped one show i’d planned and had planned to keep the rock show, two days before the show I went to map things out and the basement was dismantled and yes it scared me so i’d just planned to cancel the show but had some WONDERFUL people help me fix things, at the time i hadn’t realized he’d planned to move it and completely take over that was bad communication completely. I’d went to a friend and yes i’d stated that i was hurt over what happened i’d thought he’d just kind of forgot everything and redesigned things but that part i was wrong about I again didn’t know he’d planned to take over everything. I honestly and truly didn’t know people were coming after him, I was never shown logs, or told anything till the day of the show it was a surprise to me and i was actually pretty pissed to hear people were going after him because despite the miscommunication he was still a friend and i was not angry with him.
Sixth. I’d like to address the “trans phobic” thing which was stated I am in NO WAY trans phobic and i have no clue what i might possibly have said to make them think that. i’ve dated a couple trans people and was completely in love with one, and one of them still being a close friend and i love her she’s a fantastic person and always has been before her transition and now during it. Though one thing i do however recall saying is that I HATE when people just fake it because I know someone personally who jumped and said “Hey i am trans” because they weren’t the center of attention and it was honestly and completely a lie they are not trans nor ever planned to be this was something that was found out afterwards so yes THAT bothered me.
Am i completely innocent? No that is not what i am saying no one ever is. People say things out of emotion sometimes and yeah I've done that before I think everyone has whether it be anger, sadness or whatever yes I've most definitely said some wrong things. And as much as i like to write, sometimes the way i type comes out wrong I can always put my feelings to stories but have a hard time when it comes to real feelings this i will not lie about
Have i lied? yes I have but who hasn’t? I’m not innocent and i’ve lied this i will admit. I will however say that some things I believe were handled the wrong ways a lot were said by a lot of people but things were not taken into account by talking to me, it was all attacking, I believe that if there were issues starting to arise that the officers of these FC’s should have spoken to me about them but I was not spoken to until it was too late.
I’ve probably missed a ton of things i’ve wanted to say but honestly this is turning into a witch hunt and it’s getting ridiculous if you have things to say or have concerns come directly to me instead of hiding please
