sunshine

"If I have learned o n e thing in this life, there is n o shame in failing. The only shame is in n o t giving things your b e s t shot." - Robin WIlliams

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can’t take my eyes off you...

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aidxnisms‌:

aiden can’t help but notice the relief that stumbles from her lips, a sudden feeling of guilt settling in his chest since he had been taking up so much of her time. there were a lot of people who barely managed to successfully finish one major and aiden was basically making areum take two. if anything it made him feel a little disappointed in himself for still not being able to understand all the matter on his own as well as ungrateful for not making a bigger effort to repay her kindness. “ah, you got me!” but the chuckle that falls from his lips indicates that he’s merely joking. “would i really be asking you to grab food with me if i was?” it’s a rhetorical question, brows quirking up in a playful manner though they feel stiff from all the frowning he had been doing earlier. “i’m starving so a meal sounds perfect actually.” stuffing the last couple of pens and pencils in his pencil case, aiden finally stands up from the table. “wow, i guess it couldn’t have gotten it more wrong. it’s starting to sound a lot more like you just can’t get enough me.” he really can’t help it. he had been sitting still for too long and the pent up energy and frustration was surfacing in the weirdest of ways. following areum’s lead, he slings his own bag around his shoulder, adopting a more serious stance now he’s gotten all the jokes and giggles out. “but yes that sounds good. no more questions i promise! and i’ll agree to tteokbokki on one condition.” aiden pauses, holding his finger up into the air to add to the dramatic effect. “there will be absolutely no talking about academics for as long as it takes us to fill our bellies. so when i ask you how you’re doing i want to hear no complaints about your professors, classes or the workload you have waiting for you after our meal. deal?”

she tapped a well manicured finger against her chin, humming lightly, “well coffee and a snack which are pretty quick things, maybe you’re trying to be polite?” the brunette knew it wasn’t a proper question, one that really shouldn’t be answered but areum decided to anyway. a wide smile spread onto her lips as she stood up, stepping to the side so she could push the chair back in. a quizzical look spread on her face, raising an eyebrow at his words, “oh yeah? and what makes you think that? or maybe you’re projecting, hoping that i’ll agree with that statement for your ego? or maybe something else?” at this point, she’s teasing him, trying to get a rise out of him the same way he seems to be trying to get a rise from her. “you can always ask me questions, it’s what i’m here for.” which was the truth, she’d always answer any questions he had but there was only so much time she could dedicate to just him and his studies when she had her own to study for. when the male brought up conditions, her interested was piqued by that. areum laughed slightly, “sounds like a deal to me,” not thinking or discussing academics was more than alright with her while they shared a meal. “but you might want to fix your hair before we go,” the female slowly backed away towards the door as she motioned for him to fix his hair that was in disarray from when they were studying earlier.

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aidxnisms‌:

aiden had not realized the ache that had settled in his back, the stiffness of his neck as he sits with his entire upper body bent over his books and lecture notes. his hair looks like a complete mess, pitch black strands going into two different directions due to the amount of times aiden had ran his hands through them in frustration. areum had been tutoring him for a little while now but sometimes it felt like he had made absolutely no progress at all. long sentences were still complicated, vital information slipping through his desperate fingers no matter how many times he reread the paragraph. who knew third grade math would be this complicated? aiden was good to go for another few hours, determined to finish the chapter he had just started, but he could tell areum was in need of a break and not just by the pleading look that twinkled in her eyes. “yeah sure we can call it a day.” aiden sniggers, stretching out his legs underneath the table as he started gathering his books and notes. “do you want to go grab a coffee or a quick snack? or was this your way of telling me you have somewhere else to be and i’ve been taking up too much of your time?”

when the male agreed, she let out a small sigh of relief, glad to finally be able to rest after being on the go since she woke up. part of her wanted to go home and collapse in bed, resurface in a day or two but there was no way in hell that was going to happen with everything that she had to do. her ears perked up at the mentioned of coffee and food, normally she wasn’t one for caffeine but desperate times called for desperate measures. areum rolled her eyes, “it sounds like you’re the one trying to get rid of me and not the other way around.” there wasn’t anywhere she had to be, but she did need to focus on her own studies as well and tutoring didn’t exactly allow her to get into study mode. “but i am game for some caffeine and food, not a snack but definitely a meal.” the female patted her stomach a couple times, drool forming in her mouth thinking about what she was going to get for her meal. she snapped out of her reverie, returning to earth, “we can study again afterwards, if you want? but i would have to study as well, so more of a study session than a tutoring one if that’s alright with you?” the brunette reached for her messenger bag that was under the table, by her feet, grabbing it quickly before putting the strap on her shoulder. areum was ready to go, ready to feed herself and ready to relax before jumping back into academics. “can we get tteokbokki? i’m craving it.” once again, she used her eyes to beg, hoping that he would fall for it at least one more time.

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ofharlcy‌:

             in  order  to  pass  the  time  ,  the  investor  begins  to  check  ,  and  respond  ,  to  various  emails  ,  scheduling  a  handful  of  meetings  for  the  following  week  .  it’s  something  she  can  get  lost  in  if  given  the  chance  (  she’s  a  textbook  workaholic  ,  though  she’d  never  quite  admit  to  it  )  ,  so  she’s  thankful  it  doesn’t  take  long  before  she  hears  the  familiar  voice  ringing  throughout  her  ears  ,  her  friend’s  figure  suddenly  standing  in  her  peripheral  .  harley  quickly  stands  and  thinks  about  reaching  forward  to  embrace  the  other  ,  but  decides  against  it  .  she  knows  better  than  to  do  so  without  warning  .  despite  their  (  somewhat  )  similar  experiences  and  their  close  relationship  ,  she  seemed  to  deal  with  everything  much  differently  compared  to  areum  ,  but  she  respects  the  boundaries  put  in  place  by  the  other  regardless  .  ❝  hey  there  !  ❞  she  greets  ,  ❝  you  didn’t  have  to  rush  like  that  ,  you  know  …  you’re  always  worth  the  wait  .  ❞  finally  ,  the  elder  steps  back  ,  eyes  carefully  taking  areum  in  .  ❝  you  look  good  !  you  been  doing  alright  ?  ❞  before  giving  the  female  time  to  respond  ,  she  reaches  for  both  of  their  belongings  and  points  to  areum’s  arm  ——  they  can  play  catch  up  after  they’ve  settled  down  .  ❝  i  appreciate  you  so  much  ,  and  i  thank  you  for  the  offer  ,  but  i  can’t  let  you  go  get  everything  by  yourself  ,  so  i’ll  come  with  .  sitting  inside  might  be  nicer  ,  too  ,  given  the  weather  ,  but  before  that  …  mind  if  i  link  arms  ?  ❞

areum can’t help but shrug, the same bright smile permanently etched into her face whenever she was around the other, “as much as i’m worth the wait, you’re worth the rush.” which was the absolute truth, the sooner that she got to see harley the more time they would be able to spend together before they had to inevitably part ways and return to their own lives. a laugh bubbles out from her throat, how like her to get down to business after giving her a compliment, giving the girl zero time to respond to her friend before there was a switch in topic. “thank you for the compliment, i’m doing alright. just stressed but what else is new?” the brunette stopped talking for a moment to shrug her shoulders once again, being stressed was pretty much her norm and she doubted that would change until she graduated university. “ok but i’m paying everything and there is no ifs, ands, or buts! alright?” if her smile could possibly get even wider, it did, her heart glowed every time harley was respectful about her boundaries. not that harley needed to be, in fact she was one of the few people in her life she would allow to hug her randomly and not completely melt down because of it. maybe it was because her friend could understand where she was coming from, not something many people could truly understand, that made her so respectful when people normally weren’t. “how about i do you one better?” she jokingly raised one eyebrow as she spread out her arms, physically communicating to the other that it was okay to hug her if she so wished.

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jkymi‌:

↳ open.

KAY: You know it’s impolite to stand someone up, right? KAY: I got all dressed up for you. KAY: Made sure my bra and panties matched and everything. KAY: If you’re not here in ten minutes I’m leaving.

AREUM: honestly, if you wore a matching set for me i would be honoured... AREUM: buuut i think you have the wrong person? AREUM: who would be stupid enough to stand you up?

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for a brief second, areum managed to sneak a glance at her watch, her arms resting on the table as she leaned forward to help @aidxnisms. her eyebrows raised in shock, it definitely did not feel like she had been spent two hours tutoring the other. the brunette leaned back in her chair, she interlocked her fingers together before raising her arms above her head and stretching her arms for a quick moment. “i think this is a good spot to leave off for now or do you want to continue?” she prayed that he would agree with her, as much as she enjoyed helping the other one out, there was still a lot for her to do before the day was done. plus, at the very least she needed a break before jumping back into academics, whether they were his or her own. her eyes begged please as she looked at him, once again putting her forearms on the table and leaning forward in her chair.

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If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

“i would like to change how afraid i am, i let my fear dictate my life. how i think, my actions, how i interact with people, how i interact with the world. it’s something that i took a long time to come to terms with and i am slowly starting to try and change it because i am sick of living in fear. but it’s hard to change something that has become my normal.”

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hijinae‌:

JINAE: um. that’s weird, i suddenly can’t read … anyway :))))) JINAE: you do. you really do. JINAE: in my defense, i didn’t have much time for the internet in the past JINAE: and then, when i did, i mainly just used it for marketing purposes

AREUM: if you don’t know how to read then how do you form sentences? AREUM: how do you not have time for 6 second videos?? AREUM: ok, understandable. i wouldn’t want to use it if i was using social media for a job

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hirofm‌:

          “ sorry ,  i  wasn’t  looking  where  i  was  going .  daegu  gets  really  busy  at  this  time . ”  a  genuinely  apologetic  look  appeared  on  his  face .  “ no , no ,  i’m  okay ! don’t  worry , ”  he  reassured .  as  he  looked  towards  her ,  he  noticed  the  way  she  kept  her  distance  and  as  first  he  thought  it  was  because  of  him  running  into  her ,  but  she  really  didn’t  look  like  the  type  to  hold  a  grudge  over  something  like  that .  then  it  hit  him  that  it  possibly  was  because  of  the  first  time  they  had  been  in  the  same  place  on  the  train  and  not  because  of  that  current  situation .  could  she  have  seen  him  taking  glances  at  her  every  one  in  a  while ?  hiro  could  only  imagine  how  that  could’ve  seemed  and  that  didn’t  sit  right  with  him .  as  soon  as  the  thought  crossed  his  mind ,  he  knew  he  had  to  do  something  to  clear  things  up .  “ by  the  way ,  do  you  happen  to  remember  that  time  a  few  days   ago  when  we  were  on  the  train  at  the  same  time ?  something  tells  me  you  may  have  seen  me  looking  at  you , ”  he  began ,  taking  a  breath  before  continuing .  “ i  know  it  may  have  seemed  weird  and  i  apologize  for  that .  i  really  didn’t  mean  anything  weird  by  it ,  it’s  just .. ”  he  paused ,  trying  to  find  the  words  to  explain  it  all  so  that  he  could  clear  everything  up  completely .  “ well ,  you  see ,  i’m  an  artist .  drawing  is  a  hobby  of  mine  and  when  i  saw  you  on  the  train  i  noticed  that  you  looked  really  beautiful  and  i  just  got  this  wave  of  inspiration ,  i  guess ?  and  i  kept  looking  at  you  because  i  was  trying  to  draw  your  portrait . ”  he  said  it  all  in  one  go ,  avoiding  her  gaze  the  whole  time  he  spoke .  it  was  a  lot  to  reveal  at  once ,  but  he  wouldn’t  feel  right  if  she  didn’t  know  the  truth .  “ i  didn’t  mean  anything  odd  by  it ,  but  if  you  want  me  to  i  could  throw  it  away . ”

“i wasn’t looking where i was going either,” she lifted up the sketchbook in her hand slightly to show what had her attention, “i apologize for running into you.” areum gave a respectful, small bow as she apologized. there was a moment of silence between the two of them and areum wondered if she should use it to excuse herself and head on her way. they were both traveling in opposite directions, places to be, possibly people to see. but before she could open her mouth and do so, he started talking, admitting to staring at her on the train a few days ago. the brunette instinctively crossed her arms over chest, gripping tighter onto the pen and sketchbook in her hands. she only nodded at his question, yes she did remember, yes she did see him stealing glances at her, and yes it was a bit weird. areum only softened after his explanation, she had been there before, the need to draw after being inspired. it was the reason they had gotten into their current predicament in the first place, the female had done just that, minus the consistent staring. and the way he avoided eye contact as he practically spilled his soul to her, was kind of endearing? “so you think i’m beautiful, huh?” the corner of her eyes crinkling as she teased him, trying to lighten the awkward aura that had been surrounding the two. areum uncrossed her arms, feeling a little more relaxed around the man but still maintained the distance. just because she was relaxed and didn’t get stalker vibes from him didn’t mean she trusted him either. “i’ve never been someone’s muse before, did i do a good job for my first time?” the female shook her head, she definitely didn’t want him to throw it away, she wanted to see it, to see how other people saw her. “actually, would you be willing to show me?”

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ofnevas‌:

NEVA: the kind where i will die if you don’t bring me them asap NEVA: i’m kidding NEVA: i have an appointment to check out this dance studio but i’ll be late if i have to stop by the store first NEVA: so i was wondering if you could buy me lunch and meet me there NEVA: i’ll pay you back

AREUM: i think you missed your calling in acting....  so dramatic AREUM: you’re so lucky that i’m getting off for my lunch break soon AREUM: is the studio near the boutique? AREUM: neva, no need to pay me back just love me lol

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so you regret anything ?

she couldn’t help but ponder this question, chewing on her lower lip as she tried to come up with an answer. there were a few moments of silence before areum opened her mouth, “i don’t think there’s anything that i have done where i feel regretful of my words or actions…. but i do regret situations i was put into.” the female takes a moment to pause, she hates to even think about her past and the pain that came from it. areum shakes her head, trying to stop herself from dwelling in her thoughts and feelings. “but why dwell on such a negative thing? we can’t change the past so all we can do is push forward and make sure whatever decisions we make now, we don’t regret in the future.”

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nocvil‌:

for @arxum .

         ` + * ⋅﹒、with  very  few  female  friends ,  or  friends  in  general ,  bogum  found  it  awfully  easy  to  figure  out  who  to  go  to  about  certain  things .   he had a very important business meeting coming up and it was one that could influence his future jobs . he wanted to dress the part but he did not know what to wear . now , areum had not been to his apartment but once or twice before very briefly , so inviting her over for longer would be a change . still , he did so , wanting her to help him pick out a business esque outfit though he had no really clarified the reason . he trusted areum ’ s tastes more than his mother ‘ s , too . so after tidying up a few more things and putting his mother down for a nap , he sits on the couch and waits while pretending to watch the news .

when areum had received the invitation to come over to bo’s place, shocked was an understatement. she had been there maybe twice but it always had been impromptu or a quick meeting place before they went out and did something together. but an invitation to come to his house, with no other plans to do anything afterwards? if dying of shock was a thing, the female felt pretty close to it in that moment. but now, as she walked closer to his place, the brunette felt nervous, her stomach flipping itself over, sideways, inside and out. it was unusual, was everything alright? there had been no reason as to why he invited her over to his house, which made her a lot more nervous than she should have been. it takes a couple more minutes before she reaches his place and at least another minute to knock on her friend’s door. areum absolutely hated any type of confrontation with people she cared about and her mind kept jumping to the worst, trying to see if there was something she did wrong. when she finally got the nerve to knock on the door, she had pushed all her thoughts to the side, after all there was no proof there was going to be any type of confrontation. all she was doing was making herself sick with nerves with all the overthinking, overthinking situations which more than likely would never come to fruition. she took a step back from the door, waiting for her friend to open it for her.

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ofharlcy‌:

             the  friendship  shared  between  the  two  women  was  easily  one  of  harley’s  favorite  things  .  sure  ,  life  and  dreams  had  pulled  them  apart  for  awhile  ,  but  that  never  seemed  to  change  the  dynamic  between  the  two  ——  something  the  investor  was  more  than  happy  about  ,  so  when  @arxum  reached  out  for  a  coffee  date  ,  she  didn’t  hesitate  to  accept  the  offer  .  with  a  bounce  in  her  step  ,  the  woman  carries  herself   though  daegu’s  foot  traffic  towards  her  destination  ;  she’s  left  her  guards  ,  and  the  car  ,  back  at  the  office  in  order  to  ensure  the  pair  had  time  to  themselves  to  catch  up  .  the  last  thing  they  needed  were  people  crowding  their  space  and  harley  wasn’t  sure  how  the  other  would  react  to  their  presence  ,  so  she  figured  it  best  .  upon  arrival  at  the  cafe  ,  she’s  pleased  to  notice  a  lack  of  patrons  and  plants  herself  at  a  table  outside  before  retrieving  her  phone  to  send  a  quick  i’m  here  text  .  an  uncharacteristic  smile  graces  her  softened  features  ,  ❝  and  now  ,  we  wait  .  ❞

areum couldn’t help but practically skip as she got closer to the cafe where they had arranged to meet. areum had always been close to both the joo sister’s and even though she was closer in age with kay, she had always found herself only slightly more drawn to harley. even if she wanted to explain there was no big reason as to why this was, it had just always been like this. maybe there was a small part of this friendship where areum’s want to have an older sister was fulfilled but it wasn’t the biggest or most prominent reason. a buzz coming from her jeans caught her attention, quickly bringing it out of her pocket to look at it. the text prompted areum to jog towards their meeting spot, considering she was only two or three blocks from it. the smile that had been etched onto her face for the last hour only got wider when the cafe came into view and so did her friend. the brunette sped up her pace a little bit, reaching the table where harley was sitting in seconds. “hey!” her tone was a dead give away for how excited she was to spend time with her friend. areum noticed that her friend hadn’t ordered herself a drink yet and dug her wallet out of her purse before putting her purse on the chair across from her friend. “what do you want to drink today? it’s on me! do you want any snacks as well?”

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ofdaeseong‌:

       “look who it is!!” daeseong playfully called out as he spotted areum, his arm slipping around her shoulder. they had only met a handful of times through various friends, but the few times he had spoken to her, he enjoyed himself. he liked to think he was a good judge of character, so the fact he wasn’t getting any red flags from the younger woman was a sure telltale sign that she was decent. she was good. dae wished he could be the type of person that could see someone, wave at them and go on with their day – or even completely ignore them and pretend they weren’t seen at all. he just couldn’t. he knew that alone would rest on his conscience and that was something he certainly wouldn’t be able to deal with. “how’re you? how’re things?” it all came out like word vomit, but it was because he was genuinely happy to see her. “you look as pretty as usually too!!”   @arxum

her attention was given to her phone when she heard a familiar voice which caused her to bring up her head to find the source. a smile went on her face when she saw daeseong, someone that she had started to get to know from all their chance encounters. when he wrapped his arm around her shoulder, the genuine smiled that had appeared on her face disappeared, giving way to a fake one. quickly, she slipped out from under his arm, something she had gotten used to doing throughout the last few years. they weren’t even friends, just strangers who kept bumping into each other so areum hadn’t snuck in the ‘please don’t touch me unless you ask and i consent’ to him quite yet. but maybe now was a good as time as any? “uh-- pretty good.” nodding her head as she pushed some of her hair behind her ear. “you know, keeping myself busy as usual. what about you?” one hand went to the other, playing with the rings on her fingers, “thank you, daeseong. you look handsome as always.” her tone polite but detached, her mind distracted with how to broach the touch subject.