Ash Goodwyn

[hunter-adkinson]

It’s a lot of observing, like I thought that it would be.  It also goes into a lot of safety and protection, for both wizards and muggles.  It’s also really hands on, so you need to be prepared to be willing to do all the camping and everything.  And really, it’s a lot of being outside and with the animals, and I love doing that.

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

That sounds like I imagined it. I’m not all that big on hands on stuff. So there’s that... But if you like that then that’s brilliant that it’s what you expected and wanted.

[hunter-adkinson]

Yeah, it’s definitely not for everyone.  But I’d already been leaning in that direction, but this pretty much confirmed it.

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Well that’s good then. What did you learn about the career?

[hunter-adkinson]

Well we did some stuff with diricawls, which was pretty awesome.  And most of it was just really getting the general idea of what it’d be like to work towards magizoology careers, and pretty much confirmed that’s what I want to do.

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

That sounds so fascinating! Though, I’m not sure I’d be too interested in learning about a career. I’m glad you’ve figured out what you want to do though.

[nadyalovel-deactivated20221122]

“I’m sorry, I was reading about planetary alignment for the eighth time. I think I stopped retaining knowledge about three hours ago. Please, distract me.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“Er... I could distract you with another book? Maybe something more interesting,”

[hunter-adkinson]

Yes the trip was amazing.  I’m so glad I got to go.

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

I’m so jealous... I just had a normal weekend at Hogsmeade. What did you get to do?

[theyoungravenclaw]

4 Little Words | Ash and Fletcher

[theyoungravenclaw]

“Am I though?” Fletcher whispered in response still looking at his hands. So much in his life had changed, and so rapidly, it was if he was staring at a whole different person with a whole different life sometimes. His mother and Father were a part of an organization that potentially murdered his Headmaster and Care of Magical Creatures teacher. His Aunt and Uncle were not in an accident but instead were murdered for being part of said organization. He had the beginnings of a fucking anxiety disorder now because of it, not to mention he liked boys. Like ‘liked-liked’ boys. Like ‘wanted to grand slam, home run, steal all the bases’, liked boys. Feeling Ashes hand in his though Fletcher calmed a little, glancing up toward the other. 

“It could though Ash.” He replied serious, even though he knew the other boy had just been teasing. Because this was a big deal, and he’d seen enough rom-coms to know that it almost never ended well. “And I’m already enough of a loner as it is. I don’t need to cull my friend count from 4 to 3″ He continued with a shake of his head.

 Scrubbing a hand down his face though Fletcher sighed. He knew a lot about risk taking, and he knew a lot about what happened if you didn’t take the risk, starting with never ending regret. Which was why he found himself softening to the idea a little more. “Alright I’m not saying no.” He said pausing a little  “I’m saying. Lets. Just go slow ok. I still need to check some things with Hunter and I don’t know. Just breathe a bit I guess. Figure out a few things about this stupid double attraction thing before we get ourselves into a mess. Or rather I get myself into a mess and drag you in with me.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Ash nodded. “I think you are,” he said. He knew that Fletcher had been distant recently, and had assumed it had been because of their kiss. But it might have dealt with something else that Fletcher hadn’t quite yet told him. “You make it sound like I have extra friends to lose,” he pointed out with a small pout. “And... I told you that I want to do it okay? So why not just... take a risk?” Ash never really took many risks. But this was one he did want to take.

Ash smiled a little bit when Fletcher finally conceded. He nodded and his smile grew a bit wider. Slow was good. Things had gone too fast with him and Quinn and that didn’t end well. So now going slow was something he wanted. He didn’t want to lose his friendship with Fletcher. “Okay, we can do that. And you can figure things out. But I want to help,”

[theyoungravenclaw]

4 Little Words | Ash and Fletcher

[theyoungravenclaw]

Listening to Ash Fletcher could feel his frustration mounting. He understood what the other boy was saying, about how he had to make these decisions for himself, but part of him, part of him was just so confused. And he just wanted answers. Nice simple plan answers, with nice simple plain labels, something that was concrete, that he could touch and research. Not this pile of mess in his brain that felt like it would take ages to untangle. Ages that he didn’t have right now, especially with Ash coming to sit next to him, bringing everything closer. 

“The thing about it is I don’t know what is best for me anymore.” Fletcher replied with a shake of his head, voice on the verge of wavering “I don’t even know who I am anymore Ash.” He said looking up at the other boy “See thats my problem. And I don’t want to make that your problem too.” He averted his eyes to the ground again wary about what the other boy might say. Because thats what this was about right, Ash wanting something that Fletcher was unsure if he could actually give him. And it sucked knowing that while you’d love to go for it, someone was bound to get hurt. Hurt real bad. 

“I don’t want to hurt you.” Fletcher whispered in response wishing that Ash had just, swallowed a sock or something and not said everything that he said. Wishing that he wasn’t making this harder for him. Because as much as he liked kissing Ash, he like his friendship more, and it would absolutely break his heart to lose him that way. 

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Ash saw that Fletcher was still frustrated. And to be honest he was a little frustrated as well. Frowning, he looked at his friend. “You’re still Fletcher,” he said softly. Hesitantly, he reached out and took his friend’s hand in his and gave it a squeeze. “Either way I’m going to help you through it. Either as a friend or... more,” he said, trying to choose his words wisely. 

“You’re my closest friend here,” Ash said after a moment of silence. He didn’t want to lose Fletcher in any way, and doing something more could cause that. Certainly he didn’t want to hurt Fletcher, and he couldn’t help but blame himself for his break up with Quinn. What if the same thing happened to them? But for some reason Ash didn’t think that would happen. At least, hopefully they could just stay friends if something happened. 

“I want to help and I think i want this too,” he said with a shrug. “Besides... do you think a break up would really end our friendship?” Ash asked his voice teasing, though he knew it was a real possibility. “Sometimes it’s worth the risks.

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

[Hufflepuff Party]

“It would have been nice to have won at least. Even if I don’t like Quidditch that much,”

[theyoungravenclaw]

4 Little Words | Ash and Fletcher

[theyoungravenclaw]

Looking over at Ash Fletcher tried to gather himself, the words he had been practicing coming to the forefront of his mind. But every time he opened his mouth to say something he couldn’t bing himself to do it, all the phrases he rehearsed seemed, well. Wrong. But standing there looking at Ash’s expectant face he knew he had to do something. “I don’t know what I’m doing” he blurted out mind at a loss for words 

“I mean,” he started taking a deep breath “I like kissing you. I like that its easy to be around you. But i’m just.” He paused again legs beginning to pace up and down the length of his bed of their own accord as he tried to figure it all out in his brain. 

“Im used to knowing things Ash, and if i don’t know it I can usually figure it out. But with this, with this whole thing, and own stupid fucking brain. I can’t. I just. I don’t know. I don’t know anything, am I straight, am I gay? Am I bisexual? Pansexual? I mean do those things even mean? Really,” He questioned hands gesturing towards the other incredulously.

“I mean do I like Daphne just because she was the first to take interest in me sexually and maybe a little romantically, or do I actually want to be with her.” He started again leg back to their frantic pacing in front of the other. “Do I like you because I’m actually attracted to you, or do I just want desperately to fit in that I will throw myself at anyone, even my best friend. And why do I like two people at once. Is that even normal. What is even normal I don’t know anymore.” Stopping Fletcher scrubbed a hand down his face the weight of his confusion dragging the ever restless teenager down to the edge of his bed. Sitting there looking down at his toes though fletcher sighed. “And I just dumped all my crazy on you. Good plan Fletcher” He whispered almost like it was an after thought. 

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Ash wanted to say something when Fletcher didn’t talk, but he waited. Because he didn’t know what to say, and Fletcher was the one that was avoiding him anyway. But then Fletcher started talking, and he kept quiet, listening as his mind raced with the information that Ash was giving him. 

“I like kissing you too,” Ash admitted once Fletcher had stopped his rambling. He moved to sit down next to Fletcher and his bed, leaning against him slightly. “It’s... different than when I was with Quinn. Easier, better...,” he replied with a small smile. But he was confused about this too. Was it just easier because he was already so close with Fletcher?

“I don’t... I can’t help you decide who you are,” he mumbled softly. Ash ignored the part about Daphne and the pang of jealousy he felt in his chest. “You have to do that you think is best for you,” Ash mumbled, biting his lower lip and scratching the back of his head. 

“But... er... I missed you this week,” he admitted, shifting slightly and looking at Fletcher. “And... um. I liked kissing you,” which he had said already and was internally berrating himself for. “So maybe we can sort of... see what happens?”

[newt-lacy]

“But it’s experience and knowledge that you don’t care about, or you would have taken the class. They’re traveling to learn about magical creatures to which you haven’t shown any major interest. So the ploy is either that they’re traveling or that you’re jealous that other people get experiences you don’t, even if you don’t care about the topic.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“It’s not that I don’t care about it, it’s that I am interested in other things. I can have interests that I don’t take up for study. I’m not jealous other people get experiences I don’t. It’s something that they were interested in and should get the opportunity to experience. I would simply like to have had the opportunity to go because it seems to be a rare opportunity,”

[luka-caito]

Shhh.

[luka-caito]

“Have you ever met a crazy first year? What does age have to do with it?”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“I don’t know. I imagine most of us were a little crazy as first years,”

[luka-caito]

Shhh.

[luka-caito]

“This kid could be actually crazy or something. I don’t want to get on his bad side.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“I’m surprised you’re afraid of a first year...,”

[newt-lacy]

“What difference does it make if you don’t care enough about magical creatures to take the class? It’s obviously not an educational experience that’s important enough to you unless they get to travel for it.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“No, not at all. I’ve got a full schedule and that’s why I didn’t take Care. There were other classes I was more interested. It has nothing to do with the traveling, it’s the experience and knowledge they will get there. I don’t really care much for travel,”

[gabrielle-gardener-blog]

“That’s because they like very few humans, regardless of if the person likes them at all. They’re picky like that.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“Oh are they? Well I guess I don’t feel as bad then,”

[theyoungravenclaw]

4 Little Words | Ash and Fletcher

To say Fletcher may have been avoiding Ash could be slightly an understatement. And it wasn’t that he didn’t want to talk it was more like, well he did’t want to have this talk. But Fletcher knew deep in his heart that his avoidance tactics wouldn’t work forever, and sooner or later he’d have to just rip the bandaid off and do it. So this was how he found himself, downing his entire vial of calming potion for the day before turning the nob to the dorm he hadn’t really been in for a week or so. Walking through Fletcher wordless threw his pack on the bed, turning around to face the bed before him. 

“So. We need to talk.”

@ash-goodwyn

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Ash hadn’t seen Fletcher for quite some time now, and it was an odd feeling. He wasn’t close with many people, but Fletcher was his closest friend. So not having someone to talk to, even about stupid things, was odd for Ash. It was even odder just to not have Fletcher in the dorm room with him, even if they weren’t talking. Looking up when the door opened, Ash’s eyes brightened slightly, watching silently as Fletcher dropped his bag.

“Er... right,” he said, slightly nervous as he put his book down. “We probably should,”

[theyoungravenclaw]

Aggravating Acronyms with Fletcher

[theyoungravenclaw]

Umm. It’s ok. But um. I have to go. Like im not ignoring you by any means, cuz i think that we definitely need to talk, I just don’t think that now is a good time for me. But i do think we should do that soon. That ok with you?

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

Oh... er. Right, of course. Yeah. Just... You know where to find me.

[amirkakkar-archive]

“I’m alright. I miss my sisters but that’s nothing new.”

[ash-goodwyn-blog]

“Oh... I’m sorry. Are they not here?”