Ash🌙

Photophille|Traveller|Low key writer| Engineering Student

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Loyauté et bosculade 🌹

Like a rose it is hard to be both

No matter how much you try

You end up being a thorn

Your loyalty is questioned

And your hustle is destroyed

Yet you bloom beautifully

No matter how hard it is…

~ Ash 🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Mixed soul ✨

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Overthink

I thought way too much I lived too much in my heavy mind Honestly, It’s really hard to make decisions Talk with people Express your feelings Do your duties and Most importantly tell your close ones  how you actually feel 

                                             -Ash🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Uncle, I still miss you :( (An open letter to deceased uncle)

Hey Rabindra uncle,

Life without you has been really hard. You were always there for me when I needed you to be and you somehow always knew how to convince me that everything was going to be OK when things were tough. Every day for the past few days, all I can think about is the fact that you deserved way more than 59 years on this Earth. You should be here with me. Being able to laugh and love as big and loud as you want to. It hurts me to think that you won’t be there for a lot of milestones that my siblings and I will reach. I hate the fact that you didn’t get to see me graduate high school and attend college 9740 kilometres away from where you lived. I can’t believe that you won’t be able to attend my wedding or my college graduation. Although there will be many things that you will miss, I can’t help but to remember and cherish every moment that we had together.

Rabindra uncle, you were one of the badass among the family members. Your Vegetarian Szechuan dish is one of my favourite dish. You always used to make those dish for me. You always treated me like a daughter and loved me unconditionally. You were my pillar of strength. You gave me the reason to follow my dreams. Things used to be tough still you manage to send me motivational messages to keep me going. On university application to Visa application you were always there for me. You were my mentor and that’s the reason why I used to ace on computer science. Your love and passion towards underprivileged people was the reason why people loved you. At times, you used to be pricky yet everyone adores you to the most. One thing I hate about you is that you can’t control consuming alcohol and cigarettes.

Your heavenly departure have created a void in the lives of many who have come across in your life. By the time when I return for my holidays I won’t be able to meet and hug you. I won’t be able to share my Australian stories and most importantly I won’t be able to have those special dish of yours. Uncle I know you found peace within but your absence shall always be felt.

Your death has changed me in many ways. But I just want to thank you for being such an amazing role model for me. I strive every day to be a little more like you, and I only hope to be half of the amazing person that you were. I love you so much more than you will ever know. I miss you endlessly uncle and hope to meet you on the other side.

With love,

Ashrey

12.08.2020

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Is your love true?!

Maybe there are some that lives in the love

The ones that loves you truly never gives up

Sadly the world is venomous

It’s filled with selfishness

They use you for their good

Once this is over they will

Set you free and shattered

And then you are broken

You are shattered

You get no ways

To be the old you

-Ash🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Poništiti

Wanted to pour something out

Something I felt,

But somehow

the feeling remained silent.

And couldn’t have explained

anything better anymore.

-Ash🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Make Life Better & Struggles

We all were taught to struggle in order to achieve something which we have been dreaming since childhood. We have been taught that struggle identifies us and our work which is pretty true. But as you grow, come out of your comfort zone which is pretty much amazing and sad at the same time, you realise that struggle isn’t the identity. We all should struggle to thrive for our lavishing future but they are not the totality of what life entails us for. We all must remember the other ways to make our life worth living. And whatever you are struggling hope it’s worth living and yes everything will be alright.

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Memories

It’s been a long time since we parted our ways

But the memories are same no matter what

Today I saw us in the dream

And I was talking in the dream

Waking up I realise it was a dream

Man that hurted me to the most

I cried for a minute

And played Arthur Gunn’s song

And slowly it healed me

Still I miss the trio

We had this golden moment of our life

I really want to move on

Feels like I’m stuck

Because that friendship

Meant a lot to me.

-Ash🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Equality, where the hell are you?! Thoughts part 1 (Tribute to Nawaraj BK)

If loving a person is a sin then why people love?

If loving a person costs you a life then why to love?

Honestly hearing a news about untouchability infuriates me to the most and now killing someone just because Dalit fell in love with a higher caste that made me numb and speechless.

Nawaraj lost his life just because he loved a girl who belonged to higher caste. Why? Isn’t he a human. He has skin, we all have skin, his blood is same as us. Simply why? Just because he’s a Dalit(lower caste) and doesn’t have right to love someone he adores! Where are the human ethics and norms that we all address in the speech and rallies? Love has no boundaries, no caste, no color, and no religion. What the fuck is wrong with the society, the world have moved ahead learned to accept imperfections.

So if I fell in love with someone who doesn’t even belong to my community, will you kill me and somebody who loved me unconditionally? Killing someone who belongs to lower caste gives you justice then you are totally wrong. Today it was Nawaraj, tomorrow it might be somebody and it might be you as well. Wake up people. Speak before it’s too late and you might end up loosing your loved ones.

Rest In Peace Nawaraj. I hope you’ll get justice. May you find peace. Abolishing untouchability should be done. After all we are human with same skin, blood and lungs.

[ashbutnotashleigh]

All I want from you

Is your honesty

Your compassion

Your humour and

You staying at my side

singing a song …

-Ash 🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

Mental health

No one is born to be perfect. Stop pressuring if they don’t meet your expectations. Be there as a friend and support them, as their life matters. Sharing your problems isn’t bad after all. Share your problems with your loved ones. Depression isn’t a disease. Reach out to your loved ones. Mental health matters after all. Don’t judge just support. Your love and support plays important role for that person to live another day. Because I myself want to live in a peaceful mind in order to live another beautiful day. So why not you? Keep your people close and respect their decisions because your judgments and wording will kill them to the most.

[ashbutnotashleigh]

When you found a right person in your life, from that moment it is always a Valentin!

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osjećaji 🌹⚡️

Is it a jar Where you see nothing Yet you feel something Is it a water That indicating The chaos and void Or is it a air That tells you To remain calm and composed

                                            -Ash 🍕

[ashbutnotashleigh]

L;ve

It’s funny when we talk about love right? Love can’t be measured, it can be valued. Love can’t be seen, it is felt. Love has no age, caste,  race and gender. They say love is love. The word itself can be abbreviated in different ways, according to different situations. For me Love is a feeling where I think it is Listened, Overcomed, Valued, and Everything. For me loving someone isn’t just a sex or holding hands or posting in social medias. It’s all about trust, honesty and respect. Love is lived and live is love. There are various kinds of love we need in our life; physical, mental, spiritual and emotional. But hey isn’t that great to get these type when you meet someone who really cares about you and you care about them?

I may not be the perfect human, but I know how to love them too. Just wander around when it’s fostered and grown. When there’s no were to be found, just leave but don’t hurt someone. We all are deserved to be glut with love like it’s the last thing on earth. Just let your love be so pure that no one dares to touch that innocence love of yours… 

                                                -Ash🍕