My Dead Diary

Drink the cup of patience; there is no companion in the grave.

[ashdr007]

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[ashdr007]

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[heartsnmagic]

[museify]

[ashdr007]

They asked: "What had she done to you that you love her so much?"

I replied: Nothing, she was a piece of love itself.

[mothsfuzz]

Tbh im kinda pissed im not asleep in bed next to the love of my life in a cottage with no obligations other than watering my vegetable garden

[ashdr007]

I don’t just love you at 3am,  When I’m restless, tangled, or blue,  I think of you when I laugh out loud— a type of joy that brings me back to you.

I think of you whilst stirring morning tea, When the subway doors close, and I remain;  Your presence is felt, as raindrops race  each other down the window pane.

I think of you while crossing busy streets, When ads interrupt my show; When the grocery playlist flips  to some old tune I half-know.

I think of you as I sort the day’s mail, When matching socks or searching for a key. Memories of your smile, your hand in mine, A quiet, constant pulse inside of me. 

I think of you in the mirror flash, While changing fits and switching the view.  And a thousand tiny moments hit— And every single one returns to you.

You don’t just belong when life feels heavy— You're there when I falter and when I truly shine. You live in the mundane, in the late-night heat, in the quiet sonder threaded between each line.

You move with my chaos, you soften my peace— But you're best in the subtle scene— in the background buzz of an ordinary day, right there, rooted in my routine.

-a.e.r.d — Routine (Ghost Notes)

[sahlesummerhill]

[cyberxbattalion]

[ashdr007]

October 2025

[ashdr007]

[ashdr007]

Why him…

Because he mentioned me to Allah,

And I want to do the same for him.

[ashdr007]

I wish you knew how hard it is for me not to text you—especially when I just want to hear your voice.

Do you know how exhausting it is to stay busy, just to stop my thoughts from drifting back to you?

Do you even know how hard it is not to tell you “I love you”—when every part of me wants to scream it to the world. I love you more than you realize—more than you deserve.

The urge to take care of you is overwhelming, hold you until you fall asleep, kiss you whilst you dream, make sure you always feel safe and loved, be your biggest supporter, ensure you’re comfy, and help you achieve you.

Do you know how badly I wish to be wanted in your life the way I desperately want you in mine?

—a.e.r.d (Letters I’ll Never Send)

[thememedaddy]

[loveisforthefreakss]

"yo bro who got you smiling like that?" my delusions.

[ashdr007]

Do the thoughts of me

Keep you from falling asleep?