i am so grateful that i have to opportunity to say i know my grandparents. i get to know and understand a culture i dont think I'd otherwise have access to. i know my mother wouldn't travel back to russia frequently if her parents weren't still there. i am so thankful for my mother and the opportunity she gives to actually know my family and my heritage and what wonderful parents she has. i am so thankful to have such a witty, kind, thoughtful, smart grandmother who raised the most important person in my life. women have impacted my life the most, feminine energy is where i feel safe and seen. i look up to my mother, i look up to my sister, i look up to my grandmother. taking care of a person that is dying, each day, is one of the most emotionally brutal things one can do. particularly if they are a loved one, and you know them as they Were. the love and effort they poured into this year was exhaustive. i care for them so much, i want them to feel as they make me feel. my grandmothers death left me thinking of all the times i could have chosen differently, chosen to be present and take time with her. i feel dislike towards myself, sometimes, because i can only remind myself to take care and be present with those i love more than anything else. please take the time to find moments to explode with love, kindness, thoughtfulness. sit and listen, actively be there. you need this.
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germansingergirl
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