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[ask-enderberry]

⋆.˚✮˚.⋆about me⋆.˚✮˚.⋆

this acct is SFW

Name: Enderberry or for short Ender

I go by: he/it/they(/proxy/slime/goop/cicle, but I only let people that I know more personally use these)

I'm a teenager BTW

I have autism, ADHD (specifically the inattentive type), depression ,social anxiety ,dyslexia ,dysgraphia and OSDD

My sign out - 👾🎥

And this is the system

these are the tags!

Straw page , quotev and tiktok

Dni

alter hashtags

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

zaze

I love how each time I am on here on host's account our lives are A: either going absolute dog shit B: our mental health is deteriorating because we think everybody hates us or C: it's just boring, meanwhile, on my end from being your typical persecutor I am very well known on tiktok Twitter and I have gained so many friends. on both platforms it's crazy dude. for example, if you're on Wilbur Twitter like I am, you would know I follow a certain account and I consider that certain person to be one of my very best friends. carrotinnit, I love you. hell, I have even befriended ZaZe. yes, that Twitter user that constantly talks about pissing on Wilbur, it's crazy like I told you. I love all my friends and mutuals equally, even if their content talks about pissing on Wilbur, I love all of them.

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

the best thing I could say about this video I have a love-hate relationship with it

I absolutely hate this video I'm cringing so hard yet I'm loving the chaos like yes Tommyinnit teach a children's channel about how to use guns yes

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

I'm too lazy to put who is fronting at the moment so you guys will have to guess okay so I'm writing currently my FanFiction and I'm working on episode 6 tell me why and I shit you know I accidentally pressed a button where it translates the fanfiction into my native language and when I try to translate it back to English it completely fucked up the whole text and I am too lazy to fix episode 6 at the moment so future me will have to suffer with the consequences of current me

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

ughhhhhhhh

currently pissed off because an ex friend of mine who is a friend of host rejected them from playing Roblox together because he was in VC. now let me set the scene for you, host has been friends with that guy for a couple of years and he has recently been recovering from being a problematic person which ticked me off because that's a red flag for me, like recovery is good don't get me wrong I personally don't want to recover but recovery is good and basically host was after a zoom meeting and he wanted to play Roblox so he asked one of our closest friend. which I approve of by the way if they want to play and they said they can't since they're currently at a friend's house reasonable and then we asked that ex friend of mine, AKA one of other hosts best friends if he wants to play Roblox and he said he's in a VC, which makes me piss number one you don't have the right to reject your best friend I'm sorry and he has been feeling distant recently so this makes this rejection worse, so yeah, I badly want to block him on every social media we have :D -@jirai-dream veen!

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

quiz

a few hours ago I had my therapy session with my therapist, and while in the session while I was showing her my drawings she said that she should get a quiz soon where she will get a paper where she could write down if I do have symptoms of osdd or d.i.d. I am hyped and nervous about that quiz, because finally we might be able to seek help. also, we're nervous that something isn't going to come out right and we might not be a system at all.

not only because of people doubting us in our lives for this, but also because we have Alters to specifically the prosecutors, cough cough George cough cough that do not want to heal.

and we're heavily scared of facing the truth and what happened to us

[f4y3w00d5]

Apparently Tumblr had a UI change again or something

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

yeah and it's currently being a pain in the ass because I could no longer write other people asks without approving my email which is total bullshit by the way hiiii f4y3 been a couple of years :3

[f4y3w00d5]

OMG HAIIIIIIIII HRU :D

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

I've been doing better how about you? :3

BTW I'm finally socially transitioning :3

[f4y3w00d5]

ups and downs!! going to a gig soon :)) miiiight be transmasc but not sure? maybe im just genderfluid and i just have phases of leaning more into one gender??

also thats soso cool :DDD

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

I'm so happy for you I hope it goes well and have fun exploring your gender :D

[babybird-agere]

It's not fun to take care of yourself

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

never watched a life Series or hermitcraft in my life but grian looks so sad :( the baby the baby no no!

[f4y3w00d5]

Apparently Tumblr had a UI change again or something

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

yeah and it's currently being a pain in the ass because I could no longer write other people asks without approving my email which is total bullshit by the way hiiii f4y3 been a couple of years :3

[f4y3w00d5]

OMG HAIIIIIIIII HRU :D

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

I've been doing better how about you? :3

BTW I'm finally socially transitioning :3

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

scary vid put me to sleep :3

me me can't sleep so watching vids of smokeebee with jellybean minecraft horror mods

[f4y3w00d5]

Apparently Tumblr had a UI change again or something

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

yeah and it's currently being a pain in the ass because I could no longer write other people asks without approving my email which is total bullshit by the way hiiii f4y3 been a couple of years :3

[t-rannysaurusrex]

Thought I'd contribute

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

absolutely loving this trend feel like if I was actually little I would watch this

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

genuine question do you guys also struggle sending asks because recently I've been unable to send people asks and I know it's probably because of my email but listen I can't fix it because apparently I'm using my main email on some other account and I don't know which one it is and I'm not willing to delete it

like I'm sorry I can't create emails due to my parents restricting my internet access

and my mom hates the idea of me having a completely different email

the thing that is bombing me out the fucking most is that I ran out of storage on that email and it's saying that I need to delete a bunch of Google Images but I don't know what the fuck it's talking about

the thing that is bombing me out the fucking most is that I ran out of storage on that email and it's saying that I need to delete a bunch of Google Images but I don't know what the fuck it's talking about

[ask-enderberry-speculating]

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being a teenager and suspecting of having osdd is the most frustrating thing on planet Earth they tell us "you could open up to me" but then when you do they dismiss it as being hormones or already existing disorders your diagnosed with. "when you're hurt you could just tell me", but when you do they sound so aggressive and threatening it's hard. "I would always be your loving parent no matter what happens". then be loving when your child is opening up the things you never heard happened to them. "just know if you go through the same thing as me I'll be here for you", but then suddenly when your kids does show signs of their disorder, you're absolutely disgusted. "if you feel like I'm pressuring you you could always tell me", but when you actually do, they say you would never survive back in the day with their parents.

[the-io-collective]

"this disorder is hell and no one should think it's a fun time, we're severely traumatized and this is difficult to live with" and "i'm going to make silly jokes about the fuckers in my head" are two truths that should be able to exist together.

[toyboxpuppie]

my real reaction every time i get a tumblr notification

[cuddlybabyxx]