dear girlfriend for Kyer because i am trash,,,,,,,,,,,,,
I don’t really know what the point of this letter is, actually. I have no idea what i’m about to write or what i’m about to say - but i think i might not be too upset if it turns into sunshine and rainbows for once.
Heh. I guess that’s a little weird.
Uhm, well, thank you, I guess. For being my closest friend. For not… abandoning me when I needed you. Even if we didn’t always talk, you’ve always been, well, here. In Shadow-Tribe. And honestly? The fact that you haven’t left for whatever reason you or any other may have… it’s refreshing.
You’ve come to mean a lot to me? I dunno when exactly I first realized that there was maybe something that had me think of you as, well, more than just a friend. Maybe it was the sandstorm? When we got stuck and you and I were both freaked out but we ended up… making it through. We did it. I was so happy, so proud…
I’m really sorry everything went wrong after that. I want to say that I didn’t want to push you away but that would be a lie: Just know that you weren’t the only one i was pushing away. I was hurting - honestly, my life has been a series of ups and downs and usually just when things start to get good, that go crashing back to a low again. That was probably the biggest low I’ll ever have - I hope. But I just… I didn’t think it was worth it. I didn’t think being close to others, having friends, loving others… it didn’t seem worth it anymore.
I don’t think I can express in words how happy I was when we made amends, when we started to be friends again. You were - you are - so precious to me, and the fact that you were willing to forgive me for pushing you away is just - well I didn’t think I deserved it. I still don’t. But i won’t complain - I’m far too happy to be your friend again. To be your boyfriend more-than-a-friend.
And… Thank you so friggen much for this star-stone. It’s by far the most precious gift I’ve ever received and I swear to you I will keep it with me forever.
So yeah. I guess all and all, thank you. For everything you’ve every done and every thing you will do - even if you don’t think it’s something worth being thanked for. It is for me.
You’re kinda… really special to me Kakia.
And I won’t lie - I’m really excited to see where we go from here.
I’ll bring back a rabbit on my next hunt, I swear it.