Just...hello I guess?

This user is 34 years old. This blog is multi fandom, will have hyperfixations for weeks on end then will go dead silent for months

[askopalhypno]

Why are so many people afraid to talk about their deceased loved ones especially WITH the person/family that lost them? I mean, as long as you aren't personally being disrespectful/gaslighting/or abusive in regards to the deceased or toward their living relatives... we -really- don't mind talking about them. That's how we keep their memory and stories alive by talking and sharing them to the newer generations.

[krossan]

90's nostalgia

[krossan]

[krossan]

when you leave a gummy in the sun

[soymoss]

Lil damselfly 🪷 they remind me of little fairies on my walks, everywhere but also impossible to capture on video !!

[nonaferatu]

This would have had me crucified on tumblr 10 years ago but maybe we are ready for this conversation now:

If you are a socially anxious person, you have to socialize. Your panic/anxiety attacks will only get worse and trigger more frequently if you constantly avoid contact with The Public. Not saying that you need to be a social butterfly- but there is a genuine problem with not being able to order your own meal at a restaurant. And it cannot be solved by always having someone else do it for you.

This is a PSA to about 3/4s of the Portland Youth populace

[nonaferatu]

everyone who reblogs this and is like "I ordered my own tea this week" or "I only barfed once when I had to give a presentation'- you are doing amazing sweetie. Have patience with yourself, you are relearning a skill so difficult that people get 4 year degrees to do it professionally.

[mayadile]

Okay, I just need everyone to read this because tired.

So, I didn't get enough so I would have to go outside and it's awful outside. From going back and forth outside and in somewhere briefly is starting to make me numb. I'm trying to be strong with all of this and think positive, but my brain feels like it's about to turn off, I'm burned out.

I know I ask for a lot of help but what can I do? I tried calling and asking for help by many people to be ghosted, scammed and bailed on. I'm tired, this is never going to get better for me.

The heatwave is going to hurt me, it happened already where I couldn't breathe, I get dizzy, I sweat, I throw up and I faint. And with my asthma I could literally get harmed, it feels like my heart is about to burst. I don't know how serious I could make it sound for people to see that I am just tired of it all, mentally and physically.

If it helps I want to get a goal around $800-900 so I can have weeks in the hotel room. I'm just tired packing up and dragging my heavy bags. So please help me.

PAYPAL 0/$900

[marti-lizzard]

fluffy

[vanessagillings]

Wanna be my friend?

[dailyrandomwriter]

Day 955

Because I have a really long wish list in terms of video games, and very limited time due to having other hobbies, I rarely buy a game that has gotten mixed reviews. If I played a game, I would like to know that I enjoyed it.

However, The Old City: Leviathan, which was released in 2014 and was the only game of the developer PostMod Softworks on Steam, was fascinating to me. From the screenshots the game looked beautiful in the abandoned way that post-apocalyptic games tended to be. It also, from what I managed to gather, ran well. There weren’t any bugs, or major glitches, or clunky game mechanics, it was just… not engaging to people. A lot of people found it boring, unengaging and probably more than a bit pretentious in design.

But there were an equal number of people who found the story interesting and the concept interesting. And on both sides, the game was hailed as being beautiful despite the fact it was made in 2014. As a result, it was very obvious the issue was how the player engaged in the game itself.

Well, someone who finds such a thing interesting, I couldn’t help myself. It helped that it happened to have been on sale at the time I had bought it.

It should be at this point that I point out that this game is a walking simulator, a full walking simulator, that is, it has little to no other mechanics other than the fact you walk through the game world. There are not a lot of games that are true walking simulators in the sense that you have very little dialogue, or narrative. These types of games heavily rely on environmental storytelling, or a particular aesthetic to peak the player’s interest.

In fact the most popular walking simulator was released only last year in 2024, which makes this game kind of unusual for its time. I had been told there were games like this in the 90s but they were more proof of concept of what a video game could do than anything else.

At any rate, I played it last night with @wereah watching me play. Often when I find games that have a particular art style or vibe genre that I think Were-Ah would like, I invite her to watch me play and we would voice chat with each other. This was probably… the best idea I had.

It turned out this game is, to lack a better description, a philosophical visual novel that has religious parables in it. And that is important because without Were-Ah’s input I would have missed a lot of context. Like I’m not familiar with the story of Jonah and the Leviathan, nor am I familiar with the writing style of Solomon. I’m also not familiar with most philosophical ideas, though I am enough of an English major to at least be able to follow along (somewhat). 

Having Were-Ah there with me, not only provided context, but her presence gave me someone to talk to aloud what I was experiencing. It allowed us to have an open conversation about what the world was presenting to the player, and what it meant for the narrative it was trying to provide.

Which resulted in a fascinating reflection for me as I write this, because I realize this game has a large knowledge barrier. Specifically, the level of one’s literacy skills, which is not something I would think about in a video game.

And when I say literacy skills, I don’t mean just the ability to read. The game requires you to be able to take what the narrative is telling you and form your own opinion on what is happening to these characters. This includes the ability to recognize if a character is an unreliable narrator, either from due to some sort of flaw in their character, or lack of knowledge. The ability to question either the character or the people around that character. It is the ability to take a narrative that is never going to tell you what has happened out right and decide for yourself what has happened.

If I’m going by GenericArtDad’s definition of literacy levels in his short What It Means “The Average American Reads at an 8th Grade Level”, I’d say you would probably need a 12th grade reading level to really appreciate this game.

This doesn’t make it a bad game by the way.

In fact I had a lot of fun talking about this game with Were-Ah and she had a lot of fun watching me and contributing to my knowledge. That being said, I also recognize that both Were-Ah and I have a 12th grade reading level, at least. I had gone to university as an English major, but college level literacy skills is something I haven’t actively practiced in many, many years. So I don’t think that is something I can do without guidance.

However, Were-Ah and I, love talking about narratives and perspective in both what we create and what we consume. So those are skills we have continued to practice over the years, which was probably the other reason why we liked this game.

If you do, decide to play The Old City, for whatever reason, I do recommend playing it with someone who would enjoy taking apart a narrative with you. Even if you don’t exactly have a 12th grade reading level, having someone as a soundboard can help direct how you read the text. And if you find you don’t enjoy it, that’s fine too. Don’t treat this like a game, treat this like a book, a very weird book.

[ramshackledtrickster]

Not sure what to call this au yet, but I love Halloween specials and monsters so I’m combining that into my current fixation!

A seasonal Halloween update on the dateviators is supposed to give your dateables cute new appearances to match the season, but it’s bugged out and instead turns the household objects into monsters as part of the glitch.

Scandalabra would have had an aristocratic werewolf theme to his dlc skin as a reference to the Beast of Gévaudan (a legendary 18th century French werewolf) but instead the update turned him into this thing. He lacks sentience in this form and has no memory of his former self, but enjoys constant noise and finds it soothing. He often times paces and shakes and drips hot boiling wax everywhere, which can be dangerous… and is easily frightened and agitated. He also has an uncanny talent for mimicry and echoes back phrases it’s used to hearing or formerly speaking without understanding the words.

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[ramshackledtrickster]

Dorian got voted to be next designed for the corruption/halloween dlc au (which I’m calling FEARpatch au now)!! Next two have already been decided, and I’ll go and make some more in depth sheets like this for the ones I’ve already done!

And here’s some normal Dorian head studies bc I felt it fair to learn to draw him first somewhat before making his design for the au

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[ramshackledtrickster]

Hi so sorry for not posting much I’ve just been terrible with posting 😭 I’m still planning on doing more date everything art though the fandom died down a bit apparently from what I’m hearing but!! Love the characters and designs. Also preparing a lot of stuff for October so yk. Anyways Vaughn :]]

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[cookiesart]

STARTING THE ANNIVERSARY WEEK OFF RIGHT-thought I’d redo jams sheet! I like to think I improved quite a bit! ❤️🍓<33

[cookiesart]

The thumbnail for this is horrifying but I promise it’s just jam and nightmare-

[blignick]

[smallpwbbles]

I like to think unabstracting isn’t without consequences and a person brought back from it could go in and out of it when in distress

[juanmaodepp]

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