I am hard to deal with.
I’m confusing and contradicting.
I am right and I am wrong,
sometimes I have to argue and over react just for me to get along
and get over it.
I need to be mad.
I need to show you I’m mad.
and I will.
I’ll probably make you question why I’m even upset over the littlest things
but please understand that I just need to feel.
I will love you in an hour.
I’m an emotional tornado,
constantly swirling around
and random feelings come flying out.
I’m not under control.
I have no leash.
I’ve never been the greatest at talking things out and
sometimes I need you to be okay with me not wanting to speak.
just hold me.
I will apologize in the morning.
my head is all screwy and I’m not the greatest at holding it together,
please understand that I’m trying to get better.
I will probably text you that I need your help, I’ll probably ask you to save me countless times
from my bathroom floor and my razor blades,
please tell me I’ll be alright.
recovery is a treacherous path that I’m just learning to walk,
I’m learning to try every day
instead of trailing off.
the darkness calls my name
so vividly and loud.
but if you ever find me there,
I’ll telling you now to drag me out.
I won’t do it myself.
I’m not easy to be with
because I’ve gotten used to being dependent
and though I’m trying to fix it,
I will probably still rely on you for things I shouldn’t
please remind me that I’m strong enough to do it on my own,
but don’t leave me alone.
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