Self indulgently I like to think of this scenario where everyone falls into a like dream state that reveals to them their deepest desires and wants.
GET READY FOR SOME FUCKING YAPPING BECAUSE yeah
While I don’t think it’s realistic, I like to think that Rurik’s deepest desire, or what he wants in life to feel his life is perfect, is ultimately for Lotus to be happy.
In this ‘scenario’ I’m thinking a lot of outside conflict and violence sends everyone (and I don’t really even know who I mean by everyone) into this constant fight for flight where their lives are just constantly in danger. Eventually everyone gets sent into their dreams where they live out their best lives; it’s an outside attempt to confuse them and their view of their goals.
In Rurik’s dream, the only real difference is that Lotus is happy. Sure, Rurik sees some faces from his military days that he knows shouldn’t be walking around, but genuinely his entire dream is just being happy that Lotus is happy. Lotus doesn’t have an scars on his body, Lotus has two functioning eyes (because my idea is that he was born with fine eyes and something happened when he was like a preteen that made him go blind in one), Lotus has big, black, fucking awesome ass wings (because my idea is that Death ‘ripped’ the out of him because he ‘didn’t deserve them’). Lotus is happy and giggly and sure he’s still teasing Rurik and pushing him around and being snarky, but he’s okay. Death is there, glitch is there, his siblings are there, and there’s absolutely no malice. Rurik’s perfect reality is a reality where Lotus is happy and safe and loved, and when he wakes up, that’s a shocker to him.
On the other hand, Lotus’s dream isn’t even that far from his current reality. In his dream he’s still battered and bruised and broken, but the key difference here is that Rurik holds him. I think in their real life, it’s messy and awkward and yes they care about each other, but they might honestly would rather die than say I love you, and yes in reality Rurik would still try and help Lotus as best he could, but I like to think the only difference between Lotus’s reality and his perfect world would be the fact that they are acknowledging of their relationship and love. Lotus would still be a broken soul, but he would no longer be ashamed of that because of Rurik’s love and compassion and comfort. He doesn’t care what happens in their lives; he doesn’t care if he has to keep running from his father; he doesn’t care that him and Rurik argue from time to time; he doesn’t care about the fighting and the violence in his world; he just cares that Rurik is with him for it.
Rurik’s perfect reality is a reality where Lotus is happy. Lotus’s perfect reality is a reality where he is with Rurik.
thank you for listening to my dumb, not at all accurate to their canon ish noncanonish selves Ted talk. This is all very self indulgent and I am very aware that they value other things. I am simply too silly and too ill and too pilled to honestly care, and Y’know what, thats okay. I might honestly to god write fics about their dreams cuz I think it’d be super fun,,,
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