Who was once thought to be dead, returns to blood and family to work together against the odds.
The rain had barely stopped when Vex stepped off the transport helo, boots hitting the tarmac with a dull thud. After sixteen months embedded in deep-cover operations, the base felt foreign—too bright, too open, too loud.
She adjusted her gloves and headed toward the hangar entrance, fully intending to slip in unnoticed. But then she froze.
Someone was standing in the shadow of the doorway.
Tall.
Still.
Sniper posture—weight on the toes, ready to pivot.
For a heartbeat, Vex reached instinctively for her sidearm.
Then the figure stepped forward, letting the overhead lights spill across her face.
Silver eyes.
A familiar scar slicing beneath the left one.
A smirk that hadn’t changed since they were seventeen.
Vale.
Her twin sister.
Her other half.
The ghost she’d spent years imagining and trying not to imagine.
The world narrowed to the sound of her own heartbeat.
Vale blinked once, slow and disbelieving.
“…Vex?”
Vex swallowed hard. “Took you long enough to show up.”
Vale huffed a soft laugh—half relief, half disbelief—and closed the distance in two steps. She grabbed Vex’s shoulder, gripping it like she didn’t trust her eyes.
“You’re real,” Vale whispered. “You’re actually—”
Vex didn’t give her time to finish. She grabbed her twin and pulled her in, arms locked tight around her. Their helmets clattered to the floor, forgotten. Vale buried her face in Vex’s shoulder, shaking with a breath she’d been holding for years.
“I thought you were dead,” Vale said quietly.
Vex’s voice cracked. “I thought you didn’t care.”
Vale pulled back just enough to meet her eyes.
“Vex… I cared. That’s why I left.”
Vex flinched. Anger and relief tangled together in her chest.
But before she could answer, Price’s voice echoed across the hangar:
“Sinclair!”
Both heads snapped up in unison—twins reacting as one.
Price stood with a file in his hand, watching them with the rare expression of someone who knew better than to interrupt but had no choice.
“Vex. Debrief in ten.” He held up the file. “And you’ll want to read this.”
He tossed it. Vex caught it one-handed, though her eyes were still locked on Vale.
Vale gave a small smile—shaky, fragile.
“We’ll talk later?”
Vex nodded once.
“Count on it.”
Vale turned and walked off toward the armory.
Vex only moved when she was out of sight.
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TRANSITION — Vex Reading the File
Inside the briefing room, the lights were dim, the air cold. Vex dropped into a chair and opened the file Price had thrown her.
On the first page was a name printed in sharp black ink:
“SINCLAIR, VALE — OPERATIVE PROFILE”
Vex stared at it, breath catching again.
Years apart, and now her sister was a dossier in her hands.
She flipped the page and began reading.
⸻
FILE — VALE SINCLAIR
(as if Vex is reading it silently, absorbing every detail)
Simon Riley moved through the corridor with practiced ease, boots silent against concrete, rifle steady. Bodies lay where they shouldn’t—clean, efficient takedowns. Not his work.
Someone else was inside.
He slowed, tracking the absence of sound more than the presence of it. No alarms. No radio chatter. Just a faint shift of air behind a doorway that should’ve been guarded.
Ghost cleared the corner—and stopped.
A figure stepped from the shadows, hood up, suppressed SMG angled but not raised. Her movements were precise, controlled. Not startled. Not aggressive. Steel-gray eyes flicked over his mask, his stance, his weapon, and settled.
Assessment complete.
Neither of them spoke.
For a split second, they stood there—two ghosts colliding in the same kill zone. Then she lifted two fingers in a brief signal, pointing down the hall. Hostiles. Incoming.
Ghost answered with a single nod.
They moved together without discussion. She slipped ahead, silent and fast, clearing the path before he reached it. Guards dropped without a sound. When it went loud—because it always did—she didn’t panic. Her breathing stayed even, her shots deliberate.
The mission unraveled fast. Intel compromised. Someone had sold them out.
Extraction was delayed.
They fought their way toward the fallback point, back to back, instinctively covering each other’s blind spots. When shrapnel tore past and caught her along the jaw, she barely reacted—only tightened her grip and kept moving.
Ghost noticed anyway.
When the evac window shrank and command ordered a pullout, he ignored it. He grabbed her arm and hauled her through smoke and debris, dragging them both clear as the compound burned behind them.
They were the last two out.
On the tarmac, medics rushed in. She shrugged them off long enough to look at him, eyes sharp despite the blood.
“Vex,” she said finally. A name, not an introduction.
“Ghost,” he replied.
That was all.
By the time he looked again, she was gone—disappeared into another unit, another file, another layer of redaction.
Months later, when Price attached a new operative to Task Force 141, Ghost didn’t need the briefing.
Captain Vexia Sinclair stepped into the room, scar faint but visible, expression unreadable.
Their eyes met.
Same silence. Same understanding.
Same unspoken truth—
They’d survived the same hell, and now they were fighting the same war.
The operation was off the books, buried beneath layers of redaction and deniability. A blacksite in Eastern Europe. Minimal footprint. One objective: extract intelligence before it disappeared for good.
Simon Riley was already inside when he realized someone else was moving through the compound.
No radio chatter. No missteps. Just the subtle absence of guards where there should’ve been resistance.
Ghost tracked the movement the same way he tracked everything—slow, patient, lethal. He expected an enemy.
Instead, he found her.
Vexia Sinclair emerged from the shadows like she’d always been there, hood low, suppressed SMG steady. Steel-gray eyes flicked to his mask, assessed, and dismissed the threat just as quickly. No surprise. No fear. Just recognition.
They didn’t speak. They didn’t need to.
The mission collapsed minutes later.
Intel was compromised. Friendly assets went dark. Someone had sold the operation before it even began. Extraction was delayed, and the blacksite turned into a kill box.
Vex took a hit covering an evac route—shrapnel carving a thin line along her jaw. Ghost stayed with her longer than protocol allowed, dragging her through smoke and concrete while the building burned around them. When extraction finally came, they were the last two out.
Most of the team didn’t make it.
The operation was erased. Files sealed. Names removed. Vex disappeared into reassignment. Ghost went back to Task Force 141 like nothing had changed.
Except it had.
Months later, Price attached a new operative to TF141 for a high-risk infiltration. No ceremony. No background briefing worth a damn. Just a name.
Captain Vexia Sinclair. Callsign: Vex.
Ghost recognized her immediately.
Same controlled silence. Same measured movements. Same scar, still angry beneath pale skin. She gave him a brief nod—acknowledgment, not familiarity. Whatever they were that night stayed buried with the mission.
Now they operate together, wordless and precise. Ghost covers her blind spots. Vex clears the path ahead. Neither asks questions the other won’t answer.
They don’t talk about the blacksite.
They don’t talk about the dead.
They don’t talk about the moment Ghost broke protocol and refused to leave her behind.
They don’t need to.
Vex doesn’t believe in heroics. Ghost doesn’t believe in ghosts.
But on missions where silence matters more than firepower, Task Force 141 knows one thing for certain—
W.C 3.9K | WARNINGS/GENRES: Reality Shifting Storytime, ANGST?? , enemies to lovers core, some mentions of arguing and anxiety/nervousness, suggestive/little smut ? , TONS of flirting, mentions of ENHYPEN’s Riki, public showers, fluff, falling in love ???
I had fully intended on shifting to my 2nd ZEROBASEONE reality but the more I experienced this new reality, I wasn’t complaining.
It’s the year 2024, August. My name is Nishimura Asuka and my brother is Nishimura Riki. At the age of 21 I decided to go back to school as a college freshman and impulsively decided to go to a Boarding School like university instead of a normal college, why not?
The night before my first day at Boarding School, my family and the other family that we’ve been friends with for almost the entirety of my life, wanted to hang out with me and my siblings before we headed officially to boarding school the following day.
My family and I quickly arrived at their house, the first floor being a store that was filled with household items for the interior and exterior while the second floor was where their actual house was. We walked inside and greeted everyone, taking a seat in the lounge area my family made for moments like these when we get together.
They always spoke about their second oldest son who was my age but he was never around when I came over. His mother said he liked to keep himself busy often and wasn’t home often except during the morning and night time. At some point during the conversations we were having with one another, my best friend Jasper came by who also knew of the family, only through me of course. She’s more of the introvert type, didn’t reach out often to people and wherever I went, she went.
As the night continued with endless conversations with various topics and many laughs, a guy walked in, holding a duffle bag. My eyes flickered over to Jasper and back at the man who glanced back at me as well.
“ You’re finally home, how was your day?” His mother asked and his smile was small but warm
“ Had a decent day, I caught up on some reading I’ve been meaning to do and went to the gym for.. two hours-“
“ I’m sorry but- who- who is he-? who are you?” I questioned as I looked over at my younger brother and my mother before looking over at the guy again
He looked over at me and his expression suddenly changed upon hearing my question
“ you’ve known my family for so long and you don’t know me ?” He questioned back with a little attitude in his tone
I rolled my eyes and shrugged
“ It’s not like your here- like ever- how am I supposed to know who you are ?” I asked him as Jasper sat down next to me as the conversation started to grow a little heated, glancing over at me with anger in their eyes.
“ I’m Gunwook. It’s not my fault you’re not here when I’m around “ He spat as he took a seat across from where I was sitting, his hands folded over his chest and looked at his phone
Our families laughed awkwardly before finally changing the subject
“ I heard you’re going to that boarding school right? Jasper, Asuka, Riki ? “ His mother asked and I smiled warmly, nodding to her question in response
“ Gunwook is going there too ! I’m so proud my son got into a good school especially with someone that he knows so he’s not alone ~ “ She continued and I glanced over at Jasper and Riki with widened eyes for a moment before looking back at her and laughing along sarcastically.
“ Well isn’t that.. some news !” I spoke, trying to sound excited but how could I ? I’m supposed to be buddy buddy with this guy who seems like he hates everything?
I could not handle any more seconds, minutes or an hour with Gunwook who glared at me and said no words. When Jasper decided he was leaving, I quickly got up along with her and decided to leave as well.
“ I’m gonna head over to Jasper’s house for the night and we’ll go together tomorrow to school “ I stated as I said bye and night to everyone, making my way out of the store
As soon as the door closed behind me I looked over at Jasper and they had the same expression on their face as I did.
“ That was crazy wasn’t it-? I’m not crazy right ?”
“ Who does he think he fucking is ? “
We spoke out at the same time and I groaned, standing there in place in front of the glass entrance doors.
“ it’s okay if i spend the night with you right? I have everything with me already and I just don’t want to deal with more of.. him..”
I asked while glancing back at him through the doors before looking back at Jasper who laughed and nodded her head
“ of course you can, you’re always welcome to my house “ They stated happily before I dropped down, crouching on the ground
“ I can’t believe we are going to the same school as him- AS GUNWOOK? You think I should just ditch school-? Maybe drop out suddenly?” I rambled on about my concerns and thoughts towards Gunwook. before they grabbed my hands and roughly picked me back up to my feet
“ One- no you can’t leave me there alone at school, two- we are right in front of their glass doors and in front of their house- shut up dumbass” Jasper said in a joking tone as they brought me over to their car.
The following day came around, an hour long drive spent driving to the campus with Jasper and I. The hour being filled with 50% deep conversations on life and the other 50% being filled with saying the randomest things that came to mind and laughing so hard our stomachs hurt and we cried. As I stepped out the car when we finally made it on campus, I closed the passenger car door, stepping out the car and finally stretching my legs and arms. I let out a long relieved sigh and a breath in of fresh air, my eyes scanned around the area of which was going to be my new home.
Him.
Park Gunwook.
Our eyes and his lips formed into a grin. I rolled my eyes, turning my back against him as I proceeded to get my belongings from the back seat. Jasper started to head towards the campus and I followed behind, kinda farther from where they were but still in eye sight.
“ What a coincidence that we show up at the same time , huh ? Unless you are keeping track of me ?” I glanced over at him with obvious annoyance in my face as he spoke in a jokingly flirtatious manner.
“ Right, in your dreams. Why would I wanna keep track of you anyways ?” I replied, shaking my head and rolling my eyes as I continued to walk across campus, following Jasper.
“ You don’t like me ? “ He asked with a laugh and I laughed as well, shaking my head as a response
“ No, especially not after how you acted last night- I have things to do Gunwook, i’ll see you later, okay ?” I stated before quickly catching up to Jasper and letting out a groan
“ nobody told you to talk to him “ I glanced over at Jasper with darkness in my eyes for a moment and he laughed
“ nobody said I wanted to talk to him..”
“ you still did though, kept up a whole conversation too “ Jasper stated looking over at me with a smug grin.
“ what are you trying to say?” I said as I stopped in my tracks looking at them with a similar grin
Jaspers eyes looked around avoiding mine for a minute as they shrugged their shoulders then looked at me again
“ I’m just saying~ I wouldn’t be surprised if you ended up with Gunwook “
I gasped dramatically and jokingly
“ I’m just saying-! He seems like your type “
Oh they were being serious. I let out a laughs and I shaked my head.
“ You’re actually crazy- like insane actually “
We eventually stopped roaming around the campus due to the fact we had a deadline to find our dorm building and meet our roommates. We headed towards the main building to find the dorm roster where everyone’s names were labeled, it shows your name, what dorm building you were assigned and how many people were going to be in your dorms.
Luckily, I was assigned a two person dorm. I didn’t have to deal with too much noise. Hopefully.
“ what dorm did you get-! fuck.. that’s not my dorm”
I said with a frown and kicked the air jokingly and jasper did the same
“ this is the fucking worse- we aren’t even in the same dorm- this is madness “ Jasper added on and I sighed
“ well I know where you live so, i’ll just see you often it’s okay “ I said as I parted ways with Jasper and made my way to the dormitory.
As I walked through the walls, looking around at the bedrooms, the very pretty and nice lounge areas inside the dormitory, the dining hall. This wasn’t too bad after all- not that I ever thought it was bad to begin with. I finally made it to my floor and found my dorm room, I stood outside the door for a minute, growing nervous on who my roommate could possibly be.
I had every right to feel nervous. Yet again, my eyes were met with his almost immediately as I opened the door.
“ You’ve got to be in the wrong dorm “ I leaned against the wall looking over at him who sat on the bed laughing hard.
“ How am I in the wrong dorm? I got here first, I should be saying that to you “ Gunwook stated as he got up and stood in front of me in the doorway
“ Well- I’m not in the wrong dorm- look at my keys it has the dorm number on it ! “ I stated as I quickly shoved my keys upwards for him to see
He did the same, same number. We both looked at each others keys and nodded slowly at the same time, acknowledging the reality.
“ We.. live together, we have the same dorm “ Gunwook said in a softer tone, kinda in disbelief, stepping back from the doorway finally letting me into the room.
“ when did they change the rules to have unisex dorms ? “ I asked curiously as I looked up at him
“ They changed it over the summer, just in time for our class ” He said as cocked his eyebrows up.
I laughed and placed my luggage besides my bed before going back to him, crossing my arms across my chest .
“ It’s like they want us to fuck “ I stated in a jokingly manner
“ Are you trying to tell me something, Asuka ?” He said with a fucking grin.
“ Definitely fucking not “ I said looking up to meet his eyes with a blank expression on my face
“ I think.. you want to fuck me ?” He questioned, he egged on as he crossed his arms across his chest too
“ I THINK- you’re trying to do that reverse psychology shit and you’re trying to tell me that YOU want to fuck ME” I said with a laugh as I turned around headed towards my bed, stopping in my tracks when he spoke
“ What if I do ?”
My breath hitched hearing that line. I stood frozen for a second, just for a second before placing my bags on my bed
“ well- this is my bed” I stated as I sat down on it
He looked at me confused as he sat onto his bed
“ You really want the window bed?” He questioned me with a chuckle.
“ Yeah actually- I’m assuming we are gonna leave the door unlocked as normal dormitories do for easy access in between classes and other things meaning you have to deal with people barging in and waking YOU up. Not me” I said with a grin before he quickly got up from his bed towards me.
He placed my bag on the floor quickly before he wrapped his hands gently around my ankles as he tried to drag me off the bed. I flailed around, the both of us laughing while kicking my feet softly to not hurt him as he held onto me. When his attempt failed he grabbed my waist, still trying to drag me off the bed as I swiftly put my arms up, grabbing the headboard of my bed with a strong tight grip, which was quickly slipping away due to the fact he was incredibly strong but I held on long enough for him to give up. He suddenly jumped onto the bed, hovering over my body as he tickled my sides and started to play fight with me
“ JUST GIVE ME THE BED, IM YOUNGER YOU KNOW !” He jokingly started to complain as the play fight continued
“ I CLAIMED THE BED FIRST, ITS MINE- GET OFF OF ME, LOSER” I laughed loudly, fighting him off as I pushed against his chest not too rough.
I grabbed at his shirt suddenly when his hand slipped and he was suddenly very close to my body. My eyes widened along with his and silence filled the room quickly, my face heated up in an instant. My eyes fluttered as I looked at him closely, he’s really.. pretty.. he’s handsome.. kinda hot actually.. I felt my core heat up the longer we stayed in this position. I looked down at my hands which were still on his chest, which.. felt.. strong?.. My hands trailed down to feel his clothed abs along with my eyes , my legs subconsciously rubbing against each other for a moment before suddenly pushing him off.
I sat on the edge of my bed, looking down at the floor as I placed my hand on my cheek for a minute to feel how hot my face was at the moment. I laughed awkwardly before getting up and rubbing the back of my neck
“ I have to unpack- YOU have to unpack too- we have things to do and that’s- that’s not one of them” I mumbled the last part as I grabbed my luggage, starting to open it to fill my drawers and my closet with clothes.
“ I’m sorry-“
I looked back at him confused as I sat on the floor in front of my things.
“ Sorry about what?” I asked him genuinely and he laughed, rubbing the back of his neck.
“ For.. that.. I didn’t mean to.. slip.. “ He said as he started to fidget with his hands, sitting on the floor in front of me.
I smiled softly and I patted his leg comfortingly
“ It’s fine- I didn’t.. mind anyways..it’s not like that was your intention anyways “ I said before getting back to my clothes, putting them into the drawers first
“ So you do like me ?” He asked, but this time I couldn’t tell if he was serious.
“ Huh?” I asked looking at him confused about the tone in which he said it in
“ Do you like me, Asuka ?” He asked
I looked down at the floor confused at the question before looking back up at him.
“ I can’t tell if you’re being serious “ I said in a softer tone, feeling slightly embarrassed by how bad my social cues can be.
“ I’m serious “
I nodded my head slowly to think about the question again and I looked away
“ I.. I don’t know? As a friend you’re cool.. but I don’t.. know you like that yet you know..? “ I said shyly, continuing to pack my belongings away as I spoke
“ Do you think.. that you ever could ?”
Why did he keep asking? I had to think. I bit my lip as I folded my clothes, my mind racing with millions of thoughts.
“ Honestly? I think.. you might be someone I could fall for ? “ I said in complete honesty, which made me feel a little embarrassed.
“ I do find you attractive.. and you’re pretty funny, I think i’m gonna like having you around” I said with a smile, glancing over at him as his cheeks were pink.
He got up and went to his clothes, unpacking them as well into the drawers and his closet.
“ Same. About everything you said “ Gunwook replied
I glanced back at him confused
“ Like.. you could fall for me too ?” I asked
He stopped in his movements for a moment before nodding his head shyly and continuing his task. I watched him for a moment,
I’m not falling for him yet. Am I ? No. I just met him.
Moments went by as we talked about everything and anything that came to mind. It was our first day together knowing each other and there’s always the most to say about everything.
Nighttime fell. Hours of conversation flew by and felt like seconds.
“ You wanna head out to the dining hall and get something to eat? We can come back and watch that show you were telling me about “ Gunwook suggested
I sat there in thought for a minute and shook my head.
“ After ! I take a shower.. which there are the.. public bathrooms.. “ I spoke out in a softer tone, looking down at the floor
“ I can shower in the men’s public bathroom and you can shower here ? “ He suggested and I shook my head again.
“ That’s a nice offer I might take tomorrow but.. I feel like I should atleast try it out, you know ? “ I said as I looked up at him, who was also in deep thought about the public bathroom showers
( imagine zoey 101 )
“ If you’re really okay with it then that’s fine for today” He said as he got up grabbing his pajamas and everything he needed for his shower.
I got up and grabbed my pajamas and everything I needed for my shower too. I opened the door and stood, frozen with anxiety.
“ what’s wrong ? aren’t you gonna go ?” He asked behind me
“ Im nervous !” I exclaimed with a laugh, quickly coming back into the room, pacing around the room
“ that’s a public bathroom! public ! people are gonna be naked, they are gonna see ME naked ! I’ve never showered in public before ! “ I continued to ramble as I continued to pace around
He laughed loudly and shook his head
“ sure it’s a public bathroom but i’m sure there’s walls in between and a curtain to hide your body from other people walking by “
“ well.. you’re right.. they probably do have that.. it would be weird without it-“
“ very weird..”
we both shivered in disgust thinking about it.
“ just go it’ll be fine, stop overthinking it, idiot “ Gunwook said with a comforting smile
I looked at him with dark eyes playfully before heading out again. I began to walk to the public women’s bathroom, I stood in front of the room and looked around anxiously before running back to my dorm room a third time.
I barged in suddenly and slammed the door behind me.
“ FUCK- OKAY COME ON.. you scared me-..” Gunwook said as he suddenly turned around to look at me who was against the door
“ what are you doing, go shower already “
I whined and stomped in place playfully
“ I’m nervous ! “ I exclaimed before sliding my back down the wall and sitting on the floor.
He walked over to me, grabbing my hands as he picked up from the floor
“ it’s like what you said, you’ll be living here now and you should try it, and if you don’t like it, you don’t have to do it again, and if something happens, call my name” He stated, looking me directly in my eyes as he gripped onto my shoulders
“ Okay fine- I got this..” I said mainly to myself before I walked out the room again.
Only to find myself frozen in the hallway right outside the door. I quickly opened the door again to find Gunwook standing there with his arms crossed against his chest looking directly at me as if he knew I would come back
“ Okay.. can you come.. with me..” I spoke in a soft tone, looking down at the floor and he laughed
“ are you serious? “ He asked, I looked up at him as he smiled at me
“ NOT IN THERE but.. just.. wait outside for me..? “
I said as I fluttered my eyes to try and convince him somehow.
“ really..?” He asked, kinda confused
“ yes really.. I would.. feel.. safer.. if you waited outside for me..” I stated as I found my finger in my hair, twirling it around my finger as I grew embarrassed from my request.
“ .. yeah i’ll do it, let’s go “ I looked up at him with a bright smile and nodded my head
“ cool let’s go !” I said as I grabbed his hand and went down the hall to the public bathroom again
I froze before going inside to look over at him who stood with his back against the wall
“ you better wait here Park Gunwook.. I want you to be here when I come out..” I said with a pout and he rolled his eyes playfully
“ go already before I change my mind “ he said with a grin which immediately caused me to go inside quickly.
It was kinda nerve wrecking, I walked through the bathroom nervously but found women taking showers freely and casually. Curtains closed of course for the most part and some of the women being confident enough to walk around revealing their body which I was happy for them but interesting to see on my first day. I went to the back of the bathroom like a shy girl, I entered my shower area and closed the curtain, looking around my area to see everywhere was closed off by walls. I smiled softly to myself, feeling kinda secure before I started to take my clothes off and placed them in a dry area of the shower before washing myself.
It didn't take long, especially since I was nervous. I didn’t wanna stay in there for too long anyways. After I turned the water off I grabbed my towel, drying my body off before slipping into my under and pajamas. I stepped out of the shower and looked around before heading out feeling proud of myself that I actually accomplished actually taking a shower in public which was SCARY.
As soon as I reached the entrance of the bathroom I grabbed onto the edge of the wall and whipped my head around the corner to meet Gunwook and my younger brother Riki’s faces. I smiled big and Riki laughed as I stepped out the bathroom officially.
“ You really asked Gunwook to wait out here for you while you take your princess shower ?” Riki said as he laughed and Gunwook stood there, his cheeks were softly pink and he smiled warmly.
“ It wasn’t a princess shower, I didn’t even take long- RIGHT GUNWOOK?” I said looking over at him and he shrugged his shoulders
“ felt like 2 hours to me” He said sarcastically.
I laughed loud and hit his shoulder as he laughed loud along with me
“ I'M KIDDING ! It really wasn’t that long ! “ He said as he continued to laugh
“ Well thank goodness it wasn’t as long as you usually are at home- anyways i’ll see you guys later “ Riki said as he finally parted ways.
Gunwook and I headed back to our room.
“ You actually waited for me?” I said as I looked over at him with a growing big smile on my face
He glanced over at me and smiled back, shaking his head and rolling his eyes playfully. We reached the door to our room and he leaned in close to my face, his cute smile still on his face
“ I didn’t have much of a choice, did I ? “
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ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓙iwoong ﹙𝓴.﹚ㅤ
tries his best to be domestic with you
Being in love with Jiwoong is like something out of a fairytale. He is truly such a genuine and innocent person that your well-being and happiness is always his priority. And with those things in mind, it’s almost second nature for him to be domestic with you, at least, to the best of his abilities. Princess treatment to him is pampering you to the fullest and making you feel like you might as well be married to him already. Nights where he’s cooking while you’re sitting at the counter watching as he does his best to make you both a meal are a must. He’d have romantic jazz playing in the background and of course, he’s going to pour you a drink without you even having to ask. Jiwoong will do all the chores you don’t want to do: laundry, the dishes, etc. Even if you don’t live together yet, he’s constantly trying to show you why it would be such a great idea for you both to share a space. As if you don’t already know how great it would be, because he loves you more than anything else and wants to be around you all of the time.
only takes you on romantic dates
This version of princess treatment you weren’t even aware of until you were both lounging on the couch and Jiwoong says something along the lines of: “We haven’t gone on a date in a while”. And you look at him confused because you had just gone to Barnes & Noble together for practically a whole afternoon, only for him to say: “That’s not a real date”. Jiwoong only considers it a date if you’re being spoiled by going to a fancy restaurant or doing something romantic like having a picnic on the beach. While it’s nice to have little hang-outs now and then with him–going out to lunch together or running errands together, he genuinely will only have the best for you, and that includes thought-out and thoroughly planned romantic outings.
helps you get dressed
If you’re in a relationship with Jiwoong, he does not want you lifting a finger. While he’s sure you love having your independence, he can’t help but want to consistently do things for you. Including helping you get dressed. If you ask for his opinion on an outfit, he will give you it without sugarcoating. If you want him to pick out an outfit for you, he will be on his feet and picking out different things for you to try on and piece together with his help. But his favorite is without a doubt zipping up your dresses. Something about the small gesture is so intimate to him. The way he brushes your hair to the side and lets one hand rest on your waist while the other pulls the zipper up with him finally leaving a soft kiss on the nape of your neck… It makes him feel like he’s doing a good job caring for you. And the fact that you want him to do something that’s a part of your everyday routine, even if it’s getting dressed, genuinely makes him feel so included and involved with your life.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓗ao ﹙𝔃.﹚ㅤ
will try / do anything or activity you want to do
Getting princess treatment from the princess himself is the highest privilege you could receive as his girlfriend. And necessarily, the things he does as ‘Princess Treatment’ are things he just thinks any good partner would do. So when you come running to him with a craft on TikTok you want to try or a new place you want to visit, he’s never going to say no. I think that despite being an introvert he really does enjoy trying new things and his favorite thing to do would be to try new things with you. Even if he honestly doesn’t really want to / think it doesn’t sound fun in the beginning. There have been times when you’ve mentioned something you’ve done with Hao to the other members and they’ve been in shock that he was willing to do it with you despite him saying no to doing it with them the previous day. He may pretend to complain a little, but he will ultimately do anything to see you happy.
compliments all day every day
Hao has concluded that if you’re dating him, you must love attention as much as he does. You at least have to know that you’re just as pretty, if not more, as him. He wants to see you blossom, to see your confidence grow when you’re with him, so he gives you as much of his attention as possible–and that includes compliments upon compliments. They start small so he can get you used to receiving such a large amount in a day, but once you’ve gotten past the stage when you blush shyly and muster a small “Thank you”, he’s praising you in practically every sentence he speaks. Whether he's saying that you did something well, that he likes your hair that day, or randomly mentioning how funny or kind you are–he’s making sure you know how special you are. In fact, he’s started challenging himself to see how many synonyms of Beautiful he can use on you every day.
loves doing your makeup and skincare, lets you practice your makeup skills on him too
It’s no secret that Hao loves taking care of himself, making sure that he looks his best every day. So when you began dating him, you honestly weren’t super surprised that he extended that trait to you as well. You feel like his little doll at times, with the way that he’ll sit you on the bathroom counter in the mornings after you’ve brushed your teeth and gently push your hair back to do your skincare routine. He just wants the best for you–is what he claims as he buys hundreds of dollars worth of completely new products for you to use, saying that he knows what’s best for your skin and what will enhance your appearance the most. He’s right, of course. And if you ever tell him that you miss doing your makeup (jokingly, because who wouldn’t want him to do their makeup every day?), he’ll sit in front of you and have you do his makeup. Kind of a big deal! But even if it looks bad, he won’t tell you, because you’re his princess and he knows that you did your best :P
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓗anbin ﹙𝓼.﹚ㅤ
treats you like his wife
Everyone knows that Hanbin is the greenest flag of a man to walk this earth and when you started dating him, it was like you both completely skipped the dating stage and went right to being a married couple. He is so committed to you, it’s actually insane (once again, normal basis of a relationship, but it’s Hanbin so). I’m talking doesn’t even look at any other woman, spends the majority of his time with you, is talking about you to his parents–all of it. You are his future and he makes that clear to you. Sometimes you feel like you’ve already started along the path of becoming that rich wife who goes to pilates classes and has two well-behaved children and doesn’t have to lift a finger because with Hanbin and the way he takes care of you, marriage does seem like the only option. Your relationship is the most important thing to him, and he doesn’t hesitate to put it above everything and make sacrifices for it. Hanbin also always makes sure to check things with you first. Your opinions on his decisions matter because he already sees you as the person he wants to marry.
HUGE on flowers
When Hanbin asked you out, he brought you flowers. When you went on your first date, he brought you flowers. The day after your first date, he sent you flowers. You could honestly open a flower shop with how many bouquets he gives you on a weekly basis, not that you’re complaining. He’s the type to get you big bouquets for every date you guys go on and it’s a different flower every time. He knows your favorite flower of course, so even if the bouquet is a completely different flower than that, he’ll at least include one of your favorite flowers just because he wants to make sure that you know that he hasn’t forgotten. Hanbin also makes sure you know what each flower supposedly means, just because he thinks it’s cute. At some point, you have to ask him to tone it back a little, because he’s been getting you flowers every time he walks past a flower place and you’re worried about how much he’s spending on you. He’ll tell you not to worry because this little action he does is a way for him to express how much he loves you.
makes sure you’re safe 24/7
Your safety is something that’s always in the back of his mind. He knows you can protect and take care of yourself, but he thinks that you shouldn’t have to worry about that–that you should only be worried about what will make you happy. And you can leave everything else to him. I’m an enforcer of the ‘Hanbin buckles your seatbelt for you’ agenda because he loves taking care of people and I think that small things like that just make sense for him. It gives him peace of mind to know that you’ll be safe. The sidewalk rule is also another thing that he makes sure he does. He wants to eliminate any possibility of you being in danger and that includes watching your purse while you guys are at dinner to make sure nothing gets stolen, making sure your windows are locked before he leaves your apartment, always holding your drink, etc. Anything that may slip someone else’s mind will never get past Hanbin.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓜atthew ﹙𝓼.﹚ㅤ
he’s the best active listener
It’s no secret that Matthew loves talking, so he knows how discouraging it can be when someone isn’t actually listening to you. And when you get comfortable around him, you don’t stop talking either. He wants you to feel comfortable, he doesn’t want that aspect to leave your relationship, so he never makes you feel bad or annoying for yapping. Matthew is genuinely happy that you feel like sharing things with him, even if it is your obscure little thoughts and he wants you to know that. He’s amazing at making you feel heard. He’s always asking small questions or making comments to show you that he was listening to everything you were saying. Even his body language–Matthew is nodding along and maintaining eye contact and actively reacting to your words. The point is, he wants to make it clear to you that your words do matter, and that you should feel comfortable talking his ear off.
has you both send little daily updates to each other
Both the updates he sends you and the ones he asks you to send him are for you. He wants you to know what he’s doing, not that you don’t trust him, but Matthew wants you to see that he’s constantly thinking about you. That you almost always have all of his attention. Plus, he likes receiving little comments from you about what he’s doing. He thinks it’s adorable. And then for you, he is truly interested in everything you do and wants to be involved. Matthew saves all of the pictures you send him (the ones you’re in) and has a little folder in his photos that’s reserved for your daily updates. Lowkey you both have separation anxiety, but he’ll never admit it. Matthew will just say that he’s giving you the attention that you deserve.
always is touching you when y’all are walking
Matthew likes physical affection and will take any scraps of touching you he can get. Including when you guys are just simply walking together. Holding your hand is nice, he likes the feeling of how small your hand is compared to his and it gets the point across to other people that you’re taken, but I think that there are other forms that he likes more. Honestly, I can see him wanting you to link your arm with his, making you feel like a princess while he carries your bags or something. He’s able to hold you closer to him and have a tighter grip on you that way as well. And he likes the feeling of you feeling up his arm even if you think that he doesn’t notice it :P He’ll guide you around with his hand on your lower back too. Steering you away from people who might get in your way and softly rubbing on the area to make sure you know that he’s there. Piggyback rides and literally just carrying you are things that he likes doing as well. In his opinion, you should be carried everywhere, so he’s happy to do so.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓣aerae ﹙𝓴.﹚ㅤ
prioritizes you no matter what
Kind of already touched on this with Hanbin, but I feel like it fits Taerae so well. He always wants you to talk to him and feel comfortable with him because I feel like when he does fall in love and get to the point where he trusts them with everything, a lot of his life will revolve around you. Even if you don’t notice it, he’ll do all of these little things with you / for you / to you that he does for no one else, which shows how you’re the only thing on his mind. Whether that’d be clinging to you at all times, letting you talk even if he’s in the middle of explaining something, keeping the things you like and dislike in the front of his mind… Basically, his thoughts revolve around making sure you’re happy and comfortable whenever you’re with him. You always make sure that he’s both of those things, so it only makes sense that he makes you his top priority.
never lets you feel embarrassed
As mentioned before, I think that comfort is a huge part of any relationship Taerae is in. He has a hard time trusting people, so establishing that trust requires comfort and when he feels comfortable, the pampering for his partner is quick to follow. That being said, if there’s ever an instance where something happens to you in public, like you spilled something on Taerae that’ll stain or you let out an embarrassing noise, he WILL say that it was him and or cover for you. “Oh yeah, I spilled this on myself, I should be more careful”, “That was me! Sometimes my voice can get really high”, etc. He would do anything for you, and that includes maybe feeling a bit of embarrassment for you. As long as you’re okay, then he’s okay with doing anything. Sometimes he lovingly teases you, but all of his efforts are lighthearted, and if you ever appear embarrassed by his words, he’ll say that he was joking and that all of the words he’d said were made up. And god forbid someone else tries to embarrass you. Taerae has no problem with speaking up and calling people out, especially when it comes to you. He’s your number one defender and anyone that says anything bad about you or to you will end up being the humiliated one.
you’re his passenger princess
We’ve got our passenger princess victim. Willing victim, at that. Maybe I’m just obsessed with the fact that Taerae can drive, but him driving in Camp ZeroBaseOne lives rent-free in my head T-T Anyways… when you’re in his car, you’re not lifting a finger. Don’t bother with trying to open the car door, Taerae will do that for you happily, making sure you’re comfortable and your seat is the way you like it before he gets in the driver’s seat. Even before you get in his car, he’ll have already gone to get you a drink, and if it’s not the drink you wanted (which is rare because he has your drink order memorized), he’ll gladly go get you the drink you wanted no matter how much you protest. The aux is yours, he likes listening to your music more anyway, and he wants you to leave your things all over his car. Whenever anyone else gets in the passenger seat, they aren’t allowed to move your things around (hair clips, spare makeup, little knick knacks you’ve accidentally left, etc.) or Taerae will probably make them sit in the back. He wants to let everyone know he’s taken. In fact, you could probably carve your name into the passenger seat. Bro does not care!
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓡icky ﹙𝓼.﹚ㅤ
always treats you gently
Ricky is already a soft-spoken person around most people, but he usually gets louder when he’s with people he’s comfortable with / with his friends. And of course he has those moments with you, but usually, he’s treating you like you’re the most precious thing in the world. You bring out the side of him that feels the need to protect and take care of no matter your age or any other difference. He’s so so patient with you. Whenever you don’t understand something, no matter the scenario, he’ll take his time to explain it to you so you don’t feel left out, confused, or anything else. But he ALWAYS makes sure that you don’t feel like you’re bothering him by asking questions. He’s happy to help you and take care of you. And his friends have never seen him act the way he does with you around anyone else. Even though they tease him for it, they think it’s genuinely sweet how he leans closer to you and speaks in a soft voice so you’re the only one who can understand him, and how he sticks by your side with a hand gently placed on your lower back to guide you.
is TOTALLY okay with being your accessory… supports it 110%
Ricky knows that if he’s with you out and about in public, he has to look his best. Not for his own sake (kind of his own sake, he wants you to always find him attractive), but for your sake. He wants to look like he’s good enough to be your partner and he wants you to be proud that you’re dating him. Obviously, you are, and you never hesitate to tell him that, and he believes you, but he can’t help it sometimes. You know those TikToks where it’s the girl in the front of the video and her boyfriend’s standing behind her and everyone’s like “omg he’s literally your accessory”? Yeah, that’s Ricky. And the funny thing is, he’s so proud of it. He’s honored to be your “accessory,” even though you would never call him that. He insists that he’s there to make you look better, that you both look so good together that it’d be impossible for others to not look at you both and get just the tiniest bit jealous of your relationship.
surprise dates surprise dates surprise dates
Random acts of affection are important for him. They’re one of his favorite ways of showing you how much he loves you because I think Ricky is someone who believes that actions hold more meaning than words. It’s become routine for him to text you in the morning, telling you when he’s picking you up and how nice you should dress. He’s actually really good at planning things out. Ricky keeps track of when you’re free or knows what kind of date he should take you on / not take you on (how much time he has, if you have to be back for something, etc.) At first, you hated how he would surprise you with them, but eventually, you got used to it. And now, you look forward to whatever date he’s planned without the smallest amount of worry and the largest amount of trust. This ties in with Ricky’s love for being the one taking care of you, and he knows you, so he knows what activities you would enjoy and what you wouldn’t. You don’t have to lift a finger if Ricky can help it.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓖yuvin ﹙𝓴.﹚ㅤ
takes quiet moments together
You get to see every side of Gyuvin and he gets to see every side of you. So in the moments where you don’t want to talk, needing to just sit in silence, he makes sure that you both enjoy those moments as well. And enjoying each other’s presence is so important to him. He knows it brings you a sense of peace, so he’s happy to hold you as you lay your head on his chest–scrolling on your phone or reading a book, or simply just laying there. Gyuvin can tell when you need to recharge your social battery, and therefore he’s gotten good at getting you out of situations so you can be by yourself. Or, more like be by yourself with him. He never forces you to talk to him or makes silence feel awkward. And if you don’t want to talk, but don’t want to sit in silence, he’ll just talk about random things for you to listen to. These quiet moments are important to you, but they’re also important to him, and he never hesitates to study your behavior and determine if that’s what you need right in that moment.
shopping sprees
I firmly believe that Gyuvin is the one who will take you on shopping sprees literally for fun (for him). He LOVES spoiling and spending money on you even if he doesn’t act like it. Whenever you mention you’re going shopping, he’s up on his feet in an instant and saying that he wants to come to keep you company. But then, when you actually start the shopping, he’s the one picking out clothes and jewelry and stuff for you. “Oh this would look so good on you” / “You don’t have to get it, I just want to see you try it on” / “We can keep some of these clothes with me if you don’t have the closet space”. It’s like the concept of money doesn’t exist to him when it comes to you, so be careful so much as even glancing at something because Gyuvin will be picking it up and carrying it around until it’s time to check out for you even if you insist you don’t want it. Sometimes he doesn’t even mean to get you so many things, he just thinks you look good in everything and anything and the rest of the world should be as blessed as him to see you in the clothing you try on. Also, he definitely gets you like 30 presents on your birthday.
is always posting you on his social media
Gyuvin has multiple albums in his photo app just for you: date nights, holidays, mornings, etc. He likes to go back and look at them and the pictures of you just make him so happy that he can’t help but want to share them with as many people as possible. Imagine how surprised you are when random Instagram stories or posts of you come up. You always think it’s the sweetest thing that Gyuvin wants to share your relationship with his friends through social media and that he wants to document some things in that way, but more often than not, they’re pictures you weren’t even aware he took. None of them are ever bad though? It’s a way to show you how he sees you through his eyes. The pictures are always so beautiful, and he tells you that he doesn’t even have to try to get such pretty photos–you’re just that naturally beautiful.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓖unwook ﹙𝓹.﹚ㅤ
brags about you to everyoneeee
You being his girlfriend is one of Gunwook’s best achievements. And EVERYONE knows it too. The topic of you pops up at least once in every conversation he has, whether you’re there in person or not. He gets so proud of everything you do, no matter how big or small. In fact, you could literally wake up in the morning and he would deem that something to share with people. You can do no wrong in his eyes, and sometimes, he gets so excited over the fact that you’re his that he has to share it with people. His friends might get a little annoyed because of how often he talks about you, but he can’t help it :( He could talk about you and how amazing you are for hours and not get bored. Gunwook hasn’t told you about his love for bragging about you, but the way he looks at you when he prompts you to tell other people about the things you’ve achieved or done recently, you still get a good sense of how proud he is to be yours.
carries things around for you
This is in the sense of always having things like hair ties for you, extras of the perfume you wear in his bag, if you have some kind of medicine he has that in his bag too… It was a habit that slowly built as your guys’ relationship progressed. Gunwook would always hold things for you whenever you would go out on dates (your lipgloss) and eventually, his pockets weren’t enough for the things he would request to take from you to free up your hands to hold. So, he started carrying a bag around. It was helpful for him, sure, but he did it for you. Now, said bag is full of items that you might need on a day-to-day basis. Miniatures of your makeup, snacks that you like, everything mentioned before, and others! Gunwook loves carrying things around for you–it’s less for you to worry about and he enjoys taking care of you, even in the smallest ways.
lowkey is always matching his outfits with yours
Okay, I don’t know if this qualifies as princess treatment but… I can just see Gunwook asking you for an OOTD and then showing up in a similar outfit to yours, saying “woahhh that’s weird :3”. He loves matching with you in the smallest ways: matching jewelry, the same color scheme, the same style of pants, the same shoes. The list goes on. It’s a really easy way to let people know he’s taken and he thinks it’s just the cutest thing ever when you guys match. Matching outfits is a pretty common thing between couples and Gunwook just wants to do couple-things with you :( He’s always wanting to show you off that’s all and wanting to relate every part of his life with you. Also, the matching of the outfits happens unintentionally a lot too, which only makes him even more giddy.
ㅤ ⎯⎯ㅤ 𝓨ujin ﹙𝓱.﹚ㅤ
you’re the only one in his eyes
You are the only girl to exist in his eyes and he makes that clear. Sometimes, you have to remind him that he can actually talk to other girls without one-word responses and looking like he’s about to cry. But he’s just such a loyal person and you receive the majority of that loyalty. Yujin’s talking to everyone about you and asking for help with anything that he doesn’t quite know how to do. He just wants to make you happy (“Hyung, what should I get YN for her birthday?” / “I found this cute place to take YN, what do you think?” >.<). Anywho, he also will most definitely let you know in every way that you’re the only one for him / the only one he’s interested in. Yujin doesn’t believe in talking stages, he’s the kind of boy who’s learned from the romcoms and will get straight to the point of telling you he likes you. Because if he likes you, then that’s kind of a big deal with him, and he’ll not want to keep anything from you.
subconsciously picks up after you / cleans up after you even if you try to help
Yujin is constantly following you around, like a second shadow, a puppy–whatever you want to call it. He copies your movements sometimes, but more often than that, he’s cleaning up after you. It’s become a second-nature kind of thing to him. If you leave a wrapper from a snack you’re eating on a counter, he’ll get up and throw it away for you without you even noticing. And if your room is a little messy and you both are hanging out, he’ll get up from your bed and just begin to put things away while he continues talking to you. It’s sweet the way he knows where everything goes and how you like your belongings. That doesn’t mean that you just let him pick things up for you, though. Obviously, you can take care of yourself and clean up your messes, but if Yujin is around, it’s rare for you to actually be able to help. In the beginning, you tried your best to insist on helping him pick up after you both had made a mess in your kitchen while baking, but instead of accepting your help, he’d told you to sit at the counter so he could still talk to you while he worked. Yujin just likes being helpful, and maybe a part of him wants to show you that he can take care of you too.
buys you anything you want
I feel like this is something he would learn from Gyuvin, but Yujin wouldn’t be as obvious about it. If you mention wanting something, he would act like you were begging him to get it for you (“Are you really gonna make me get this for you?” / “I can’t keep buying things for you, YN”) even though you hadn’t even said anything about even buying it in the first place. Much less having him purchase it for you. Literally gives the “fine, *eye roll*, whatever” energy, but in a teasing way. Yujin doesn’t like making things easy for you, one of his love languages is teasing, but in the end, he wants to make you happy. And that includes the little things and pampering you by getting you small gifts. This treatment is most common with food or drinks. He would get you a snack before seeing you and then pretend that it was completely a coincidence: “They just happened to have your favorite drink at the vending machine too. Super weird” even though there’s only one convenience store that has that beverage so you know he went out of his way to get it for you :,)
me arriving in my dr and seeing my s/o, ready to devour him alive (in reality, i’ll be too shy to talk to him, because i already get embarrassed just lookuing at his pictures here in this reality, imagine seeing him in person
-I'm American (Alabama) so my southern accent may also come out when creating posts (im sorry)
-I like shifting (obvi)
-I'm a bowler and aspiring photographer.
-I think I'm rather creative. I unfortunately don't know how to express that creativity into words.
-I also like video games a lot as well as reading, webcomics and music.
-I have anxiety and ADD. Questioning if i have ARFID or something similar (mentioning this because it could be mentioned in posts)
-I can be a bit of a perfectionist when doing things
Video Games:
Wuthering Waves, HI3, Punishing Grey Raven, Cyberpunk 2077, Tears of Themis, Love and Deepspace, Snowbreak Containment, Assassins Creed, The Witcher, COD, Astra: Warriors of Veda, Overwatch, Farlight 84, Roblox and ZZZ
Books:
Black Dagger Brotherhood, The Lunar Chronicles, AGGGTM, TGCF, The Bone Collector
Webcomics:
The Villainess is a Marionette, The Villainess Reverses the Hourglass, Mercenary Enrollment, Serena Serenity, Roxana, Hero Killer, Hand Jumper, Your Throne, Schoolbus Graveyard, Black Knight, GHOSTBLADE, I will Fall with the Emperor
haiqin/nation for my drs
Question | HAIQIN / Haidyan / Haizari
history of HAIQIN | masterlist
language of HAIQIN | guide
map of HAIQIN
the 10 provinces of HAIQIN | masterlist
-daily life by provinces (examples + basics)
higher families of HAIQIN
national symbols of HAIQIN
social dynamics of HAIQIN
society of HAIQIN
economy of HAIQIN
culture of HAIQIN | the arts and social norms
culture of HAIQIN | foods and cuisine
culture of HAIQIN | fashion and jewelry
religion in HAIQIN | part one
religion in HAIQIN | part two
celebrations in HAIQIN
military of HAIQIN
international relations of HAIQIN
government of HAIQIN
law and order of HAIQIN
legal ages of HAIQIN
education of HAIQIN | structure + resources
education of HAIQIN | curriculum + subject Integration
education of HAIQIN | inclusivity + access to education
education of HAIQIN | education + economic mobility
education of HAIQIN | cultural development + community
healthcare of HAIQIN | basics
healthcare of HAIQIN | education, preventative healthcare + mental health
WC 2.8k | WARNINGS: Reality Shifting Storytime, Smut w/ fluff at the end and some at the start too ( Minors DNI )!, mentions of overthinking, mentions of crushing and embarrassment, in love and shy, mentions of his real name ( dongmin ), mentions of making out/lots of kissing, LOTS of dry humping and grinding, marking up, groping, some clothes on, needy sex, body worshipping, riding him
Don’t get me wrong, I was over the moon to finally be in a relationship with Taesan. However, I’ve known him for 5 years and now being in a relationship with him, I didn’t know how to act around him.
I was suddenly like a little boy all over again, feeling a bit too excited over small interactions, not being able to maintain eye contact with him, getting shy when he spoke to me. How did we go from openly being affectionate and constantly teasing each other to suddenly I can’t even touch him without my skin burning up.
Needless to say, the first two weeks of being in a relationship with him was.. awkward.
All I wanted to do was be near him, I wanted to be around him all the time, every second, every minute, every hour. I just couldn’t. As bold and confident I act, when it comes down to it all, I crumble up and fold.
It was around midnight as I laid back on my bed, alone. I rested my arms behind my head, looking up at the ceiling as my thoughts mindlessly wandered. All the thoughts leading towards nowhere, I rolled over in my bed onto my side while letting out a sigh.
All I want is him.
I gripped onto the bed sheets below me and imagined his touch. My mind wandered again, thinking about the way his body engulfs mine when we cuddle and the way his arms hold me against him.
I groaned, shaking my head. You need to pull yourself together, he’s your boyfriend and your best friend. If you want to be with him then do it. Get yourself a glass of water, relax, and go to him, I spoke to myself.
I nodded my head, lifting myself up off the bed, ruffling my hair to shut the nervous thoughts down. I let out a sigh, grabbing onto the door handle of my bedroom, opening it to find Taesan standing right behind.
My eyes widened as I looked up at him, his eyes filled with something I’ve never seen from him before, filled with some sort of darkness.
“ w-what are you doing here?” I asked, stumbling over my words, clearly being caught off guard by his sudden presence at my door.
He let out a scoff while glancing away for a moment before looking back at me “ am I not allowed to be here anymore ?” He asked with a grin, tilting his head to the side
“ well n-no I didn’t say that I just..” I started to speak, trailing off as my eyes went everywhere, avoiding his gaze.
As my eyes ran everywhere else from his eye contact, my eyes caught a glimpse of the tent that had been formed in his pants. My breath gets caught in my throat, letting out a cough, I blinked, growing flustered at the sight of him. My eyes immediately looked away, looking back into his eyes again. He cocked his eyebrow up and laughed when we made eye contact again
“ my eyes are up here, you know ? “ He teased, I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms across my chest embarrassed.
“ I know that ! I know.. it’s just you know.. I..” I replied, my eyes avoiding his gaze again as I spoke and catching another glimpse of his tent.
He caught me and I had no rebuttal, I was caught red handed. I felt my face heat up as I looked back up at him with doe eyes, extremely embarrassed and shy. I nodded my head and brought my hand up behind my neck, rubbing it nervously
“ Fine, you caught me..” I admitted.
He stuck his tongue inside his cheek, his eyes wandered and scanned me up and down. His hands suddenly grabbing a hold of my waist, pulling me closer against his body
“ come here.” he muttered before connecting our lips together into a kiss that has been long wanted. He entered my room, closing the door behind him before his back hit the door while our bodies pressed against each other.
My lips, my mind and body melted under his touch as his hands roamed all along my body, holding me tight against him as we kissed, grabbing a hold of my waist before his hands quickly came up to my face and for a moment his fingers trailed up into my hair before his hands grazed down my body again like a wild animal, I felt my pants grow tighter. The way he held me against his body caused friction between the both of us and sent my head into a frenzy, my skin burning up all over again as small moans escaped into each other's mouths. His hands lingered all over my body as if he was overwhelmed with need. My hands wrapped around his neck, my fingers trailing up and tangling into his hair, tugging on it softly to pull him even closer to him if that was even possible, quickly the kiss grew more rough. His lips kissed mine as if he longed for this connection for years. his tongue grazed along my bottom lip asking for approval to enter, as I accepted he let out a low groan within the kiss, he held me tight in his grasp as he started to back me up and lead me onto the bed.
My mind was completely emptied by him, everything that I was nervous about before and wanted to talk to him about, was gone in an instant.
He pulled away from the kiss for a moment, I fluttered my eyes open as I looked into his eyes that were completely and utterly lost in me. His lips were a dark red and wet, bruised from the kiss and his hair was so messy. We could feel each other's breath onto each other's skin as we continued to look into one another and tried to catch our breath, which sent shivers down my spine.
We both let out a breathless chuckle before he grabbed the back of my head gently with one hand while the other hand held my back as he laid me down onto my bed. His eyes wandered my body for a moment and stopping, I followed his eyes and noticed as he stared at my hardened dick within my pants, I looked away from him and covered my eyes with my arms, letting out a soft laugh out of pure shyness. I felt the bed shift below me and his body above me move closer to my body, suddenly I felt his lips attacking my neck. My mouth dropped open as I let out a loud moan at the feeling of his lips onto my skin, my neck had always been a sensitive area, and he knew. As shy I was about the noises I was making, I couldn’t stop them, I covered my mouth as an attempt to muffle the sounds but Taesan quickly caught on and grabbed my wrist.
“ t-the members.. “ I spoke through each breath
“ They aren’t home right now, they are downstairs..” He mumbled against my skin before wrapping my arms around his neck, my fingers instinctively found their way into his hair once again while his arms held onto my waist as his lips then trailed up my neck and onto my lips, kissing me again with the same amount of passion and fire from before but with a sense of deep loving.
The more we continued to kiss, the more my body wanted- needed him. His body pressed against mine all I could feel was the heat radiating off of his body and his hardened clothed cock causing friction against mine as well. I needed some sort of relief soon. I started to move my hips against him and instantly felt pleasure shoot and run through my body. At the same time we both moaned into each other’s mouth, his hands quickly sneaked under my shirt and gripped onto my waist yet again, digging his nails into my skin as he reciprocated the feeling, grinding himself against me as well. The room was filled with heavy breathing, the sound of our clothes against each other and the sound of wet noises coming from our lips.
I pulled away from the kiss, unable to keep up with the kiss and with grinding our bodies against each other with the amount of pleasure that was coursing through me. I threw my head back, trying to catch my breath, another loud moan kept escaping my mouth and filling the room as Taesan’s movements never stopped or even slowed. I looked up at him for a moment as his eyebrows were furrowed in, focusing on pleasuring the both of us and focusing on the rhythm he currently had been maintaining, his mouth hanging open as soft, low moans uncontrollably spilled out.
My hands sliding down his shoulders and digging into them the more he continued before slowly going further down his body, feeling his clothed abs underneath his shirt. I grabbed at the ends of his shirt, I tried to speak up and ask if I could take it off of his body but ended up moaning more. Taesan looked down at my hands and where my eyes were on and immediately listened. He stopped his movements, a whine leaving my mouth immediately but was quickly stopped as I watched his hands delicately take my hands off his shirt and threw his shirt off over his head and onto the floor. His hands slowly grazed up my thigh and up my body, along my clothed abs. My body shivered under his touch as I let out a soft giggle from the sensitivity, I nodded immediately, knowing what he wanted.
“ please..” I breathed out and his hands moved quicker than his mind as he quickly helped me take my shirt off and also threw it onto the floor along with his.
Taesan bit his bottom lip, his hands gliding along my skin, causing me to shiver once again. He looked up at me as his cheeks were a dark shade of red.
“ very pretty..” He spoke out as he grabbed my waist and flipped our position. He sat onto the bed, his feet on the edge of the bedframe and placed me onto his lap, my knees on both sides of him. I gasped at the sudden movement and smiled softly at the compliment
“ thanks.. you look.. pretty too you know..” I replied and he laughed, looking away from me from embarrassment.
“ fuck.. you make me want you all the time..” He mumbled as he leaned into kissing my lips once again. His fingers digging into my skin again as he started to grind his clothes hardened cock against mine, I pulled away from the kiss immediately, throwing my head back and moaning in pleasure. He grabbed the back of my head as he pulled me back to him again and kissed me passionately, his tongue finding its way inside and danced along with my tongue perfectly as if we were made for each other. He started up his movements again more roughly and at a faster pace, moaning into one another. I couldn’t help but to finally match his movements as I felt my orgasm slowly approaching, feeling that familiar sensation growing inside me.
The closer his orgasm creeped on him, the more the rhythm of his hips became more sloppier and more rough, more intense. Both of us crazily chasing after our orgasm together, the closer it came to the both of us, as if we were synched, we pulled away from the kiss at the same time, feeling his hair stick onto my forehead as I rested my forehead against him. Our moans and breath hitting each other’s skin
“ p-please.. please..” I fluttered my eyes when I heard his pleas to meet his begging gaze digging into my body. His eyebrows furrowed in still, both of us having the same expression on our face, I watched his eyes as they glanced down at our bodies grinding helplessly against one another before gripping my body suddenly, his eyes shutting closed and my body responded the same way right after.
“ f-fuck d-dong-m-min- i’m-“ I moaned out to him, he moaned loudly as a response, quickly shutting my eyes tight, my hands gripping onto his body as I felt my cum shoot out and start coating and staining my underwear and seeping through, making a growing wet stain on my pajama pants. I continued to grind my hips against his as he did the same, riding through our high, he held my body close against his and he moaned into the nape of my neck. Slowly, I started to feel wetness grow underneath me.
My body convulsed suddenly as I was starting to become overstimulated. I grabbed onto his shoulder and motioned for him to stop grinding against me and he listened automatically. He pulled away from my neck and looked up and with half lidded eyes, his cheeks burning red, his bangs sticking to his forehead while his hair looked like an utter mess and I assume I looked the same as I looked back at him.
“ that was.. that was really good..” He spoke out in between breaths as we sat there trying to catch our breath. I nodded my head in response, my cheeks heating up even more, growing shy looking at him under me in such a way i’ve never seen.
“ don’t.. hold back from me again.. it’s okay to be shy.. but don’t avoid me..” He said as he looked into my eyes, his hands caressing my sides and I nodded again as a response
“ I won’t.. but you can’t solve everything with this you know?” I said with a breathless laugh, finally catching my breath
“ But you liked it didn’t you?” He teased, leaning in and kissing my lips softly
I leaned in and kissed his lips softly back before pulling away
“ I did but-“ I spoke as he leaned in kissing my lips again, His lips, everything about him was a drug to me. I melted into the kiss again for a second before pulling away again and he laughed loudly along with me.
“ Dongmin !” I said as I laughed and he nodded his head as he continued to laugh
“ Okay I know ! I just can’t help it, I like teasing you”
He said with a smile before the both of us looked down at our bodies, seeing the wet cum stains that were on our pants for a moment before we heard the sound of the front door alarm that the members were back home along with following noises of footsteps quickly coming towards our room and their voices.
Taesan and I quickly got rid of our pants and threw them onto the floor before quickly scrambling underneath my bedsheets . Taesan grabbed the bedsheets and made sure to hide my body specifically before holding me close to him. I looked up at him and smiled widely at each other before the door to my bedroom suddenly opened.
We both looked over to the door to find Sungho at the door. He leaned against the doorframe and looked at us with a confused look
“ I was going to ask.. I’m going to make some beef.. would you guys want some ..? but.. you guys are good now?” Sungho asked as he rubbed the back of his neck
“ yeah ! we were just cuddling and taking a nap but we’ll take some?” I said curiously as I looked at Taesan who nodded and agreed
“ yeah we’ll definitely have some, we are hungry”
Sungho got off the doorframe and walked into the room and noticed the articles of clothing on the floor
“ why are your clothes on the floor..” He asked as he slowly looked up at us and his eyes taking a notice to how Taesan was currently shirtless and my whole body being hidden under the bedsheets
“ YOU GUYS DID IT ?”
I sat up quickly, covering my body with the blanket quickly and keeping taesan’s body covered as well
“ NO- not- exactly-“
“ i’ll tell you if you want but don’t touch the pants our cum is on there “ Taesan stated as sungho laughed out of pure shock and quickly stepped out the room, slamming the door closed.
I laughed hard and looked over at him
“ you didn’t have to say all that..” I mumbled embarrassed and Taesan shrugged
“ I would rather tell him than have him touch it”
I thought for a moment and nodded in agreement
“ that’s very true…”
Taesan leaned in and kissed my cheek softly and he rubbed my sides against lovingly, kissing the top of my head a few times.
“ let’s go shower and then eat then.. sleep with me, Okay ?”
WC 630 | Warnings/Genre: Shifting content, Mentions of wounds, Briefly mentions Depression + Anxiety + D.I.D, Selective Mute, Trust issues, etc. And very poor writing!
Beginning
I never put much thought into how this would work out. I never expected to get this far. In fact I expected to be thrown out to the dogs as soon as I showed up. Suddenly I'm in TF 141 marked as a sharpshooter with a K9 whose senses are better than anyone's ever seen. My call sign is Vixen. Apparently everyone thinks it's perfect for the kind of person I am. Whatever that means. I'm the only girl in this unit, surrounded by men who act like walls because of how tall they are. At first I wasn't close with anyone. As a matter of fact, I refused to speak at first. I had a hard time trusting people and it really showed. Soap and Price tried really hard to get me to warm up to everyone but it was like they were talking to a brick wall.
Mental blockage
I kept a mask up, both figuratively and literally. I never let them see my face. Even on missions where we'd have to camp out, I always wore the mask. It was like my own protective shield from being vulnerable. I struggled with a lot of mental issues due to battle. I was severely depressed, anxiety was brought upon me due to my upbringing and subtle signs of D.I.D. were very much there and I sure as hell wasn't going to let anyone see it.
These mental problems caused me to be distant from the group. I chose not to talk to anyone. At first it was a problem but soon they learned to communicate with me in other ways such as sign language and just writing things down on paper. Every now and then I'd get a glimpse of the wars I've been through. I'd ended up disappearing randomly only to have Ghost find me in the corner of the training room alone. I never told him what was wrong, and I was thankful that he never even questioned it. He would just sit with me in silence.
Warming up
Eventually I finally warmed up to everyone on the task force. Price became like a father to me and Soap is like an annoying brother to me. Me and Gaz had an understanding. We both didn't like to talk and I think that's what made us bond more. With Ghost it was a bit more complicated. Our stories weren't alike at all but we were still similar. Different sides of the same coin. I always told myself.
Getting my dog
I didn't get Bandit until my third year of being on the task force. She was a German shepherd with blue eyes, which made her stand out. At first I really didn't like being around animals because I was so worried about losing her on the battlefield. Soon enough I grew attached to her, bringing her everywhere I went. I protected her and she protected me. We had a bond stronger than anything else.
Me and Ghost
Me and Ghost really didn't get along believe it or not. Because we were so similar we butted heads a lot. There was always some sort of competition. We were rivals at heart. We had our moments where we would just sit in each other's company, not looking at each other. But other than those moments we never even stood in the same room unless it was absolutely necessary.
Later on me and him eventually became one, still rivals but we worked together so perfectly that our movements were in sync. We were one person in two bodies. Everyone always murmured about us. Rumors about what we were to each other. No one ever guessed that we didn't like each other. At least that's what we kept telling ourselves.
Thinking about how all my romantic relationships in my separate DRs are oddly similar. Thinking about how really the only thing different between all of them is the person. Thinking about how maybe soulmates are real. Thinking about how maybe I have one true love and their soul finds mine across every single reality. Thinking about how maybe my soul finds theirs too.
WC 2.1k | WARNINGS/ GENRE: Reality Shifting Storytime, Angst w/ fluff at the end, Lots of mentions of self doubt, mentions of crying, mentions of arguing and pushing, mentions of sadness and overwhelming thoughts, lots and lots of overthinking, self-isolation, drawing & listening to music as an escape, lovey dovey at the end, falling in love, mentions of Taesan’s real name ( Dongmin )
Weirdly enough, Taesan always seems to know me. Everything and anything that revolves around me, he knows and as someone who feels as though nobody understands them; it’s weirdly comforting
but also a bit scary.
I’ve noticed in my other K-Pop realities, promotion time and in between filming content and preparing for a new album is always a bit more rough on me mentally and emotionally than any other time. This time was no different, I could NOT slack or fall behind at any cost. At Least that's what my head was telling me.
Not only was this our debut but I'm the oldest member, I have to prove to everyone who had their eye on us that we were worth sticking around for and definitely worth the watch. Feeling as though I'm being held to a higher standard than everyone else, it’s kinda hard to try and stay optimistic when you watch everyone else around you on the screen. My members put their absolute everything into every single stage, as good and confident that made me feel to have such a team like this, it dragged me a little wondering if i’m putting enough for them as well.
However, this wasn’t just promotion time anymore
Especially Taesan, he never fails to tell me behind closed doors how he felt about my performance. Him and I have been together for a month and a half at this point ever since June 15, we talk to each other about everything and ANYTHING, sometimes too much information..
Things have been different lately, more for me than him. Recording for the new album had me stumped, I was getting the praise for my work but I wasn’t feeling confident in myself like I should. Why is everyone telling me these amazing things and I’m not feeling it? I should believe them but I don’t. I listen to myself and see myself and I’m not seeing or hearing what they are.
After a rather upsetting recording session for our song “ Crying “, I left the studio and sat in the hallway in silence, placing the headphones onto my head and playing music as I took out my bag and began to draw nonsense. I could not pay attention to my thoughts or I would burst into tears and I can’t. Especially not at the workplace, that’s unprofessional, I can’t have staff, one of my members, or a member of another group see me in the halls of the workplace crying like a baby.
It’s been weeks since I've felt this burden on my shoulders of not doing enough, it always seems to be the same. I have people telling me about my “ amazing work in the studio “ so I have no reason to feel the way I do. I kept quiet about it all hoping that the feeling and the thoughts would drown itself out and I would just feel better one day, it’s almost never like that though. I tell people communication is important and I should take my own advice but I don’t. It’s not that big of a deal anyways, my thoughts say.
“ babe-“
I heard his voice over the music in my headphones, his voice snapped me out of the downward spiral my head was going into at that moment. I looked up to see Taesan looking at me, head tilted to the side with a look of worry and confusion. I take off my headphones to listen to him properly.
“ are you okay? I was talking to you- I asked how your recording went today, I just got done with mine”
My eyes wandered as I shrugged my shoulders “ there’s not enough time today to be in there for hours so i’m coming back tomorrow to fix it “
The room was filled with silence before Taesan took a seat next to me.
“ They said you did good though, I don’t see why you need to go in tomorrow-“ He spoke as if he was walking around eggshells, slowly over each word.
“ Well I told them I didn’t like how I sounded today so I’m going back tomorrow.” I replied as I got up to head towards the bathroom before I could even have my head start thinking again
“ What’s going on with you?” I heard from behind me and I shook my head, looking down at my feet as I walked
“ hey-“ I felt a hand on my shoulder, grab me and turn me around. Face to face with Taesan again.
“ Seriously, Tell me “
I stood there for a minute wondering if I should, but i felt the tears start to form in my eyes and I walked away again
“ It’s nothing.. I have to pee..” I mumbled trying to force the tears to go away and disappear.
Once again, I was turned to face him, this time he looked at me with frustration.
“ stop walking away-“ He paused and looked at me
“ are you okay-?” he asked
For some reason that question always pushes me off the end, Tears rolled down my cheeks and down my chin. I laughed to try and feel better or look sat though nothing was wrong, which was not working at all. I backed away from him and as an immediate response he grabbed my hand
“ Asuma.. tell me what happened..” He spoke to me in a softer tone, a soft look in his eyes as he was worried
I then began to spill out every single thought that’s been on my mind for the last couple of weeks as if he was about to set off to war and leave me, I spoke every single word in one breath as tears were non stop running and my breath catching in my throat at times.
“ I just didn’t tell you because It’s such a little thing honestly and I didn’t think you’d care-“
Taesan’s grip on my shoulders suddenly dropped as he looked at me with a blank face. I looked up at him, rubbing the tears away from my eyes and off my face
“ You didn’t think I would care?.. Are you serious?”
I sat there for a moment wondering what about that line made him so upset. I didn’t respond
“ Asuma are you-? Why would I not care? I always care? all the time, every hour, every minute, every second I care- Do I not show that?”
My eyes widened as he began to ramble in a furious rage, why was he so upset about that comment I don’t understand?
“ No you do show that but-“
“ I don’t understand why you think I wouldn’t care- I don’t think there’s ever been a moment where I didn’t care about you-“
I stood there in utter shock, not a single word could come to mind .
“ Hey”
“ What’s going on? Guys stop arguing in the halls”
I looked back to find the voices to see Leehan and Jaehyun walking towards us confused, Jaehyun being more upset than confused.
“ We cannot argue in the halls at the workplace like this, anyone could walk by- with a camera too by the way, you guys need to take this to a private room “
Jaehyun said as he began to lead us to one of the vocal practice rooms
“ What’s going on..? “ Jaehyun asked worriedly, looking between us. I stared blankly at Jaehyun and looked over at Taesan who didn’t look too happy.
“ You can talk to us, you know? The both of you, I hate to see you guys argue-“ Leehan spoke before Taesan pushed himself away
“ We aren’t arguing. I’m done talking right now- I don’t want to talk right now.” He said as he walked away from us.
I leaned against the wall and sighed.
————
It’s been a couple days since the argument, we talk only when it’s necessary such as conversations about the album or work related things. It kinda had me worried with where we were currently at, it was tearing me apart with each day with the lingering thought in my head.
Are we over?
I couldn’t think about that today though; Jaehyun, Taesan, Woonhak, and I were scheduled to film a show where we took care and hung out with 3 kids. I’ve never been a person to take care of kids, but I didn’t hate them either, I was kinda excited honestly though.
On the way to the filming site and setting up our mics, getting into position, I could feel stares from Taesan. I looked over at him once in awhile but would look away again when we made eye contact as if we were back in high school all over again.
“ You two need to interact and talk while we are filming, please try ?” Jaehyun leaned in and whispered to Taesan and I.
I looked up at Taesan and felt a bit of myself breaking even more. I let us come to this where we have to force to interact with each other for the sake of our fans and filming. I nodded my head and Taesan nodded along as well.
Filming went along quite swimmingly actually, hanging out with the kids and playing/joking with them kinda took the edge off from the thoughts in my mind and the feelings I had prior to this.
I looked over at Taesan after being with Jaehyun and the older kids, I watched as Taesan held the infant in his arms. Watching as he held her carefully and delicately, tending to her and making her feel comforted in his arms. I watched as a smile grew on his face as he lifted the baby up towards his face, listening to the small laughs escaping from his lips. I watched as he carried the baby around the room and spoke to her softly, I watched as he put the baby back in her rocking carrier and watched over her, sticking by her side like it was his own.
I felt my world come together, I felt my heart light up and my stomach being swarmed with butterflies. I felt my face heat up and my lips curl into a big smile. I felt my future in front of my eyes and suddenly everything that had been happening between us lately disappeared.
Taesan looked up at me, smiling softly and his face grew into a light shade of pink before looking back at the baby again. The shoot went on wonderfully, it was exactly the glue that stuck me and taesan back together like nothing happened.
We said our byes to the camera, getting up and taking the mics off and thanking the staff for their time etc. We went back into the car, headed towards the company building for practice and I felt Taesan’s hand pat my leg.
“ I'm still upset about what you said, but I’m worse when we don’t talk to each other. I need to be with you, I need to be talking to you, I need you.”
As he spoke to me about how he had been feeling lately, I stared in admiration, I don’t think i’ve ever felt this way before and suddenly the movies made sense.
“ Dongmin.. I.. I love you..” I stated in a soft tone
That was the first time I have ever told him. He stared at me with wide eyes, he looked around at woonhak and jaehyun. Woonhak laughed in shock and blinked, watching the scene unfold as Jaehyun smiled, shaking his head and also watching everything unfold.
“ fuck.. you make it impossible to be mad at you, asuma.”
Taesan stated as he rolled his eyes playfully then leaned in, he took my hand into his and smiled, looking away from my eyes and looked down.
“ I could never stay mad at you, it sucks doing that anyways.. “
He stayed silent for a moment
“ I love you too.. “
I smiled and looked away out of pure shyness
“ hey but look at me-“
Taesan spoke as he grabbed my chin softly and made me look at him
“ I care. I always care. I will always care. Talk to me even if you think it’s dumb. You’ve been doing pretty good lately with.. everything carrying everything and everyone and recording. Stop thinking so much, leave that to me”
Woonhak gagged in the backseat along with Jaehyun, Taesan groaned and smacked the air in front of them playfully before rubbing the back of his neck
“ Just trust me? I would never lie to you”
I nodded my head and hugged him, leaning my head on his chest, leaning myself against his body as he wrapped his warm arms around me, welcoming me into his space again as he rested his head onto mine.
— THINGS I’M LOOKING FORWARD TO. ( IN MY HOGWARTS DR, a VERY condensed list )
˚ ✦ . . ˚ . . ✦ ˚ . ★⋆. ࿐࿔
ib @dreamyshifts go check out her post it was so cute :^)
⋆˙⟡ magic, duh. my life becomes a whirlwind of breezy convenience and a raging wildfire of discovery and knowledge, a key turned in a lock that frees the possibility for endless learning and skill
⋆˙⟡ spending time with my little brothers—little enough that they still come running to meet me when i return home and throw themselves at me, they’re not old enough yet to think that’s embarrassing
⋆˙⟡ quidditch games !! not just screeching until my throat goes raw for the Slytherin team, but for cheerleading. all of our hard work culminating as we parade around in our skirts and put on a show with our star-glitzed green and silver pom-poms. (not to mention seeing the boys after the game. either on the high of winning or pissed from losing—sweaty either way)
⋆˙⟡ the kind of sugar-coated and syrup-dripping food that will make my teeth positively fall out. roast chicken drenched in garlic butter and mashed potatoes as creamy and light as clouds for dinner every night
⋆˙⟡ not just attending disgustingly opulent galas, but attending them with my friends. zipping into our gowns, fixing the boys’ ties, muttering to eachother about which pureblooded families are going to be nuisances that evening. shooting sidelong glances to eachother throughout the whole night, slipping away to sip champagne and watch the stars as early as we can
⋆˙⟡ all of the beauty potential—the makeup onto flawlessly smooth skin, the perfectly tailored and seemingly endless array of miniskirts and sweaters and gowns, the potions to smooth out my flowing hair. i just know i’m going to lose my mind when i see it all
BRING BACK STORYTIMES EVEN IF YOU HAVENT SHIFTED YET
shiftblr has become a negative cycle of people complaining about not being in their drs (valid) and the same five shifting tips being recycled and repackaged. BRING BACK ROMANTICIZING.
i have like one more advice post for my complainers but after that ill be strictly posting about my drs and shifting‼️‼️‼️
they're here. fucking fuck they're here and there's already misinformation being spread. we need to hide.
𝒊'𝒎 𝒌𝒊𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈.
welcome, shifttokers! we're glad you could join us, and we're happy to teach you anything you want to know! however, the community over here is a bit (vastly) different than it is on tiktok. so a few rules:
1: if you don't like it, scroll past it. if you notice this person on your dash a few times and you still don't like them, block them. there won't be hard feelings. you just don't like them. it's that simple; we're mature enough to handle it.
2: no one's d/r is 'wrong'. you can script anything at all into any universe at all. if you believe that someone can imagine a whole reality, build a d/r or w/r from scratch, but you don't believe they can script 'unnatural' stuff, like a loved one being alive or a pet living forever, then you need to reevaluate your opinions.
3: we listen and we don't judge. sometimes, you'll see people 'judging' each other, but that tends to be between friends (i.e. me and @shiftingwithmars about anything with ethan or me and @zipper-is-ranting anytime i mention the person i like in this reality). yes, some of us have hooker or sugar baby d/rs. some of us have severely traumatic d/rs. and it's not your place to tell another shifter what they can or can't do in their d/r. it's their d/r. you don't have to go.
4: learn about loa. please, please dedicate a little time to learning about the law of assumption, it's so so helpful when you're shifting.
having said all that, i really do hope that you can enjoy your time on shiftblr! it's a lovely community, and i really do think you'll enjoy yourselves here.
Affirmation list for that one subliminal i made myself, with a weird dead poets society edit (also made my me) which basically turned every dialouge in that movie shifting related.
I had always thought about posting it here, since I've been so secretive about what subs I use, but then again, posting a random subliminal on your blog always felt like opening a pharmacy without any prior permit, crushing and mixing herbs and selling them off as medicine.
But I listened to it before I shifted.
Lmk if you either want it, or need it.
Or, like, if I should post it or not.
My brain is rotting because I've spent mindless hours on playing sims 4, because I have nothing to do other than that.
Also, sorry to everyone who sends me asks. You all are valid and deserve a well put together answer, but I'm slow and my brain lags a little when you ask a question regarding mechanical structure of shifting, I will get to them though, i have a baby's brain which need to excited by fun stuff first.
I also haven't recovered from popping out the grave either.
