|| ⋆˚࿔ INTRODUCING ME ! Welcome to my blog that’s all about reality shifting !! You can call me Hinata as that’s the name I refer to as in most of my desired realities. Here I will talk about my shifting journey and experiences through typed out stories ( kinda like ff ngl.. ) and I’m just here to yap !
|| ⋆˚࿔ FOR MY NEW AND BABY SHIFTERS WHO ARE STILL LEARNING ABOUT EVERYTHING OR DON’T KNOW THE ABBREVIATIONS ( or randoms who are curious )
CR= Current Reality
DR= Desired Reality
TR= Targeted Reality ( yes DR & TR mean the same thing basically )
Reality Shifting is the ability to shift/move your subconscious from one reality to another, it’s not lucid dreaming; lucid dreaming is becoming aware/lucid in your dream state and being able to do whatever you want. Reality shifting is within the name and it’s real. Everyone you encounter are real with real feelings & emotions and vice versa with yourself, your other reality self is real who yet again can also feel real feelings. It’s real life and for those who don’t believe in it can scroll pass this page.
|| ꩜ .ᐟ˙ ABOUT ME !!
— Hinata - 03’ - she/him/they
— Aquarius Sun, Aries Moon, Cancer Rising
— ENTP
— ULTS: BOYNEXTDOOR, STRAY KIDS, ENHYPEN
|| ꩜ .ᐟ˙⋆✶ SHIFTING !!
Main DR’s: P1HARMONY, BOYNEXTDOOR, ALT. BOYNEXTDOOR, GIRL/PARTYNEXTDOOR, Vampire , Small Town, Gilmore Girls, Haikyuu, ENHYPEN, STRAY KIDS, University, DPR, Harry Potter
— I’ve been a shifter since 2020 and I have shifted before and I shift kinda frequently.
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— desired realities masterlist
— shifting storytimes masterlist
— Hinata’s Inbox
+ FEEL FREE TO SEND AN ASK ABOUT ANYTHING RELATING TO MY DESIRED REALITIES, SHIFTING, SHIFTING ADVICE OR MOTIVATION OR ABT MYSELF !!
~ w/ Cas; This is something we have spoken about on our tiktok before that I have D.I.D which stands for Dissociative Identity Disorder. My headmates have been shifting to their own realties and this is one of them, Cas is a split from Taesan and is Taesan’s identical twin brother in his DR
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W.C 2.7k | WARNINGS/GENRES: REALITY SHIFTING STORYTIME, heavy heavy smut with small hints of angst if you squint and a dash of fluff at the end, mentions of being overworked and stressed, the idol industry is a bit hard, semi getting caught having sex on the set of But Sometimes, blowjobs are DEFINITELY MENTIONED, along w/ 69ing, major cum eating
With the sudden increase of popularity ever since our debut of BOYNEXTDOOR, a lot of things have caught me off guard. I guess I just never would’ve imagined myself to have the popularity that I do now especially with how fast it happened too and now on top of that of trying to manage all these new changes with being an Idol. The company suddenly drops that due to this sudden rise in fame and a lot of the eyes on me, many fashion and clothing companies have reached out wanting me to model for their clothes, which resulted in me now being a model for various brands.
So now I have to deal with our schedules becoming busy with our upcoming comeback and more schedules on top of everything with becoming a model as well. That being said, now we’re on set for the music video of But Sometimes, which has been nothing but stressful because I just want to be good.
“ alright that’s break ! everybody get changed into the next outfits within this break ! “ The director called out and everyone listened and followed orders, spreading out around on set.
I let out a sigh and dragged myself to the dressing room, hearing leehan behind me mumbling to himself about what needed to be done next. I looked back at him as soon as I entered the dressing room and smiled at him.
“ what are you doing following me~” I teased as I grabbed my outfit and settled it down in front of me while I began to take my shirt off.
Leehan grinned and leaned in close, grabbing at my waist with one hand
“ maybe I just want to be with you “
I scoffed and shook my head, placing my hand on his chest and pushed him away slightly
“ no but.. i’m so stressed, donghyun..”
Leehan continued to hold me regardless and nodded his head for a moment, processing what I just told him
“ I can see that you know, I just wanna help you”
I looked at him and smiled softly before shrugging and looking away for a moment
“ how would you even help me ? “ I asked before glancing back at him and suddenly everything froze between us
We stared at one another, fully drawn to him within the moment, fully drawn to me it seems.
“ you want me to help with your stress..?” Leehan mumbled while his grip on my waist tightened.
I looked into his eyes and glanced down towards where he had a tight grip on for a moment before looking back in his eyes and nodding my head. His eyes stared into mine for another moment before looking at my body up and down silently.
Leehan slowly backed me up against the door and looked into my eyes confidently
“ tell me to stop, okay ? “ He spoke out breathlessly as if he was anticipating on the next thing but I nodded my head in response
“ okay..”
Leehan nodded before his hands immediately and quickly went down to my pants, unbuckling and unbuttoning them, then pushing both my pants and boxers down to my ankles. I looked at him in pure shock at the fact this is where his thoughts had led him to.
“ you wanna continue? “ He asked and cocked his eyebrow up, trying to get another confirmation and I nodded my head.
“ yeah I do “
Leehan smiled to himself and went down on his knees to stroke me for a moment or two, gaining small moans from me and furrowing my eyebrows as I watched him in pleasure.
He got up off of his knees and began to unbuckle, unbutton his pants as well before slipping both his pants and boxers down to his knees. He quickly then turned me around and had me pinned against the door, I looked over my shoulder slightly to try and watch him and he giggled at the sight.
“ why are you trying to watch me, hm ? “ He asked while he began to spread the precum around his dick, assumingly for lube and I felt my face grow so hot watching him do this.
I shrugged and looked down shyly before he grabbed my face softly, forcing me to watch him.
“ I want you to watch me when I do this “ He spoke then paused for a second
“ I’m going to ask again—.. are..you okay with us having sex right now ? “ He asked and I smiled shyly in response, nodding my head.
“ yeah I am, donghyun..”
He nodded his head, forcing me to still watch him as he entered me slowly and I watched as his face contorted into the utmost pleasure and I know mine did too. He moaned lowly and nodded his head repeatedly but slowly
“ aw fuck.. this feels so good.. you feel.. so..fucking..good..” Donghyun moaned out and I rolled my eyes in pleasure and looked away from him
I moaned softly as well, my hands wanting to grab onto the wall but obviously I couldn’t. Donghyun slowly entered me and eventually bottomed out inside me, the both of us groaned in unison as he did so.
He began to thrust deep inside me keeping up a stable pace, I furrowed my eyebrows and moaned softly, trying to keep my moans in and quiet since we were still on set at the end of the day but I just couldn’t. It started off with a louder moan that was slightly above my average pitch the more he hit that good spot inside then quickly he caught onto what was feeling good to me and kept thrusting into that one spot and I couldn’t stop moaning.
The volume levels of my moans were unknown to me from how fucking good it felt, however, leehan wasn’t quiet himself either. He kept groaning and moaning loudly but in a lowly tone into my ear, against my skin which had me going even further. I arched my back into him and grabbed onto him, continuing to moan while I felt my orgasm sneakily approaching
“ Cas, we need to fix your out-…” I heard one of the stylist call out for me and walk towards the dressing room but heard the footsteps stop once it sounded semi nearby
“ just.. call me when you need ..!” They shouted again and then the footsteps sounded distant again.
I froze and looked back at Leehan, my face felt hot like I had just came out of a sauna meanwhile Leehan just laughed awkwardly.
“ I uh.. think we should head back.. right..?”
The rest of the set was filled with this sexual and awkward tension between leehan and I, especially with the fact that neither of us have ever done anything sexual ever and neither of us even finished either and had to stop mid sex.
As the filming came to an end for the day, the members had suggested we all go out to eat at this restaurant, however earlier that day at the other filming site, Leehan and I had already placed a planned order on a food delivery app and we were both expecting it to be at the dorms soon.
So Leehan and I declined the offer, leaving us two alone in the dorms.
I laid in my bed for awhile scrolling through my phone when I get a phone call that the food had arrived at our door step. Though, when I got out of my room to retrieve our food, I heard leehan’s moans that I heard before coming from his room. I froze and walked up to the door slowly, listening in and heard the way he moaned and called for me and it went straight to my dick, making me hard again just thinking about the fact he was actually getting off to the thought of me in his head.
I bit my bottom lip before letting out a quiet sigh, I went to the front door and grabbed the food quickly before my mind had decided to just interrupt leehan. Leehan quickly sat up in bed and pulled the covers up to hide his body, looking at me in genuine shock.
“ h-hey ! “ Leehan spoke out and I found myself closing the door quickly behind me and leaning against it immediately.
I looked down at my hands
“ I uh.. heard you moaning my name.. what was that for..” I asked nervously and I heard him scoff with the bedsheets shuffling around.
“ w-well yeah! what else do you think i’m doing !? Fuck, Cas..” Leehan muttered and I sighed.
“ I’m sorry ! I just— but why are you moaning my name, donghyun ? “
Leehan groaned and I finally looked at him.
“ Can you just let me fucking finish ?! “
I stood there as if my legs were super glued to the floor, my eyes stuck on him and he sighed, looking away for a moment before slowly looking back at me and shrugging his shoulders slightly.
“ do you wanna help me..? “
My eyes widened and I choked out a laugh, rubbing the back of my neck then looked away and acted as if I was going to leave the room
“ no-no I can’t- I shouldn’t.. I can just leave you to it if you want, I’m sorry “ I mumbled
“ Kwansu.. come on I want you to..”
I looked over at Leehan who just looked so needy again and I sighed, nodding my head snd shrugging my shoulders
“ fuck it..” I mumbled loud enough before making my way over to him, crawling onto his bed before grabbing the blanket away from him and positioning myself in between his legs before grabbing his dick into my hand and slipping it into my mouth quickly.
I fit his wholeness into my mouth before slipping it out of my mouth again, licking up from the base to the tip while looking up at him in the eyes and watched as his face contorted into pleasure again, groaning and tensing up at the feeling of my mouth and tongue on him.
I fit him whole into my mouth, all the 7 inches. I hallowed my cheeks while I began to bob head up and down on his length while I also had a hold on his thigh to keep me stable, using my tongue as well to stimulate him and humming every now and then to cause more stimulation and some vibrations
He moaned more, grabbing the back of my head and hearing him moan for me and the feeling of his hands grab me turned me on a lot, just simply knowing I was pleasuring him, made me feel a certain way too. With my free hand that I had available, I went down and began to palm myself, moaning more onto his dick, practically just grinding myself into my hand.
I guess Leehan noticed this pretty quickly however and suddenly let out a sigh then pulled me off of him and looked at me as a whole, his eyes looked at me up and down before grabbing a hold of my shirt and pulling me towards him.
“ is this making you feel horny too, just making me feel good and giving head to me ? “
I nodded my head in response as I wiped my mouth of the precum and drool, he smiled and nodded his head, ruffling my hair before biting his bottom lip which I then couldn’t stop staring at his lips.
and again, Leehan noticed because he notices everything. Leehan pulled me close to his body and kissed my lips deeply for a moment before slowly pulling away.
“ how would you feel about.. get on top of me and letting me suck you off while you suck me off ? “ He suggested and I sat there, looking at him blankly at the thought of what he was trying to say.
I nodded my head however and said yes.
I quickly found myself taking off all of my clothes and discarding them onto the floor, I guess you could say with this adrenaline that I felt inside me and the arousal I felt, I didn’t feel shy in the moment to just get into position and lay on top of him, with my dick onto his mouth and his dick resting against mine.
“ holy fuck..” He mumbled softly and then I felt him proceed to grab the sides of my thighs and grip them softly and kneed at them for a moment before I felt his warm mouth around my dick.
I moaned semi loud, rolling my eyes back in pleasure and grabbed onto leehan’s legs for support. He began to bob his head up and down on my dick, and licking all along it and I couldn’t even get myself to suck him off as well.
I whined louder than I wanted or expected to at the fact that I wanted to suck him off and have him in my mouth so bad but he was making me feel so good I couldn’t.
I found myself on his dick in no time however, bobbing my head up and down and licking all around his dick especially around the tip. I tried to stay focused on his tip mainly because that’s what is the most sensitive area on most men. My loud moans were now suppressed in my mouth and were vibrating off of his dick which caused Leehan’s moans to get louder. He released his mouth from my dick for a moment to get a loud moan out, I felt the drool and spit spill a little from his mouth and onto my dick which had me craving his mouth all over again.
I remained on his dick, determined to make him cum in my mouth though while trying to thrust myself back into his mouth to feel him again.
Eventually he put his mouth back onto my dick, and somehow with all this anticipation and excitement in me, i felt myself closing to cumming. I whimpered loudly, grabbing at his leg and tapping on it repeatedly to try and indicate that I was close but didn’t wanna let go of his dick. He pulled off of me for a second—
“ fuck me too “ he breathed out through his moans before quickly getting himself back on my dick. The both of us sucking each other off, moaning and drooling all over each others dick was insanely hot and was exactly what I needed to push me towards my orgasm.
I dug my nails into his thighs on accident as my orgasm hit me pretty hard, I moaned loudly and stopping my movements but kept his dick in my mouth as I felt him finally cum into my mouth. I slipped his dick out of my mouth and continued to moan while a little bit of his cum slipped out of my mouth and onto his dick.
“ aw fuck..” I mumbled as I closed my mouth again to try and keep his cum in my mouth before I got an idea.
I shuffled my body around to face him again and to get in between his thighs, I looked up at him for a moment and watched as Leehan looked at me with a smirk, I could tell he was swallowing my cum in the moment. I kept his cum in my mouth for a second before spitting it out slowly onto his dick then I went in again, swirling my tongue around his dick and his cum before slurping it back up into my mouth and swallowing it in front of him, watching him the entire time.
His jaw dropped and he let out a small laugh
“ holy fuck.. don’t do that again.. but do that every fucking time..” He said as he ruffled my hair and laughed more.
I nodded my head and laughed
“ oh so you want more ? “
Afterwards included a very much needed shower, then we both took the food we ordered and ate it in Leehan’s room together while talking about random things before falling asleep in each others arms.
fuck, we are definitely more than friends at this point.
cory is thinking about... leehan having a mommy kink ݁ ˖Ი𐑼⋆
inspired by an ask i received on april 21st <𝟑 .ᐟ
the first time something other than your name slipped out during sex, you paused completely.
"mm-mph! fuck- mommy-"
the moment you stopped, leehan instantly felt a pit of guilt in his stomach. you and him talked through every decision together, especially when it came to trying new things in bed.
it was good for both of you, since the pair of you had always struggled with immediate change. plus, who could ever deny that communication was a good thing?
"s-sorry, i shouldn't- i should've-"
his breathing was still strained, limbs shaking from the sensual activities the two of you had been participating in just moments prior. The feeling of your wetness still subconsciously clenching around his length wasn't helping, either.
you slapped your hand over his blabbering mouth, making his eyes widen-- "say it again."
your hand slowly lifted from his face, and he felt his adam's apple bob in his throat before speaking, "please ride me, m-mommy."
electricity shot up core and need sparked through your entire body as his shaky voice rang out. the thick smell of sweat and amber incense filling your lungs as your sank back down on his lap.
he whined, hips bucking upwards to fill you up as much as possible. you continued to lift yourself up and down, enjoying the burn taking over your muscles everytime you did so.
"f-fuck, mom-mommy--"
"c'mon baby, c-cum for your mommy." you encouraged, humming contently as he let out a high-pitch whine. his head tilted upwards as he neared his release, the rhythmic thumping as your bodies moved in unison; you were sure the two of you would be receiving yet another noise compliant soon... but that was a problem from tomorrow.
"c-close, close close close!" leehan's lashes were wet with tears as his heart quickened, "say please." you said firmly, making eye contact with your nearly-fucked out lover.
"please, please let me-" he let out a sharp whine as he felt himself grow closer and closer to spilling inside of you, "m-mommy, please let me cum!"
you ran a hand through his red hair as you gave him permission, gasping as you began to fill his warm seed ooze out, filling your insides with a comfortable warmth that only turned you on more.
"good boy, fuck, you're such a good boy for mommy." you praised as you regained control of your breathing, not caring to wait until leehan had done the same before letting your pace grow sloppy as you chased your own orgasm.
he let out a soft, surprised cry as you rode him at your own desired speed-- practically fucking him into the mattress until you reached your release.
you collapsed next to him in bed, his legs still shaking from being used.
"you're calling me that every time we have sex." you breathed, gazing up at the ceiling of your apartment. leehan's eyes widened with excitement as he nodded, happy to do whatever his mommy asked of him.
cory speak ! : i've come to the realization that i only post when i'm really depressed/anxious.... don't know what that says about me but what i do know is i <3 being a freak !!
camboy!taesan x viewer!femreader
w: smut, masturbation (m, f), switch!taesan, subish!reader, overstimulation, dick slapping, nipple play (m), pet names (princess, angel, baby), taesan calls himself a slut, reader wastes her money on taesan, mention of mcr, dirty talk, multiple orgasms | wc: 984 | might have typos | eng isn't my first language | mdni author's note: wrote this in february 😭😭
"ah– fuck–! just like that..!"
you stare gawk at the screen, face blushing at the image of the man jerking off in your laptop.
he gets a donation, making him lean in to the screen, his hoodie sliding down. "t-thanks for the– ah, fuck– the f-five dollars, elytramia.." he thanked the donator with a whimper, hand squeezing his tip, dribbling down some of his precum over his hand.
he relaxes on the gaming chair once again, throwing his head back as he lifted his hoodie up until his chest, revealing his faint abs and firm chest.
you knit your brows together, feeling like a pervert for watching him even though it was literally his job.
"shit..feels s' good, princess.." he moans, half lidded eyes looking straight at the camera. your face blush once again, feeling heat pool down on your abdomen.
his moans and whimpers are so loud you can barely listen to the my chemical romance song playing on the background.
he teases his tip with his thumb as he does the same with his nipple on the other hand. he rolls his eyes back, overstimulated as he was on his third round by now. his cum from the previous rounds slipping from his thighs down to his seat, making you clench your thighs together at the sinful sight.
you reached for your laptop hesitantly, typing on the keyboard quickly "pls take the hoodie off plsss" with a 15 dollar donation.
he chuckles as he reads the donation popping on the screen. "so desperate~" he purrs before taking off the garment, throwing it on the bed behind him.
he is completely naked now that the fabric was gone. he settles back into the chair, spreading his thighs a little wider as one of his legs rests on the arm chair.
he grabs his cock with both hands this time, twisting his wrists up and down as his mouth opens in a O shape, small whines and whimpers slipping out of it.
"fuck, angel, I'm s' close– gon' make a mess fo' you, princess." he groans out, voice cracking a little at the end.
he bites his lower lip as he tries his best not to get louder, the chat immediately filling up with comments telling him to be as loud as possible.
he smirks, lip still between his teeth, slowing down the pace on his cock, edging himself. "mm...I dunno...if only someone would donate right now..." he hums low.
you quickly type on your laptop as soon as he stops touching himself, turning around on his chair to grab his hoodie. "pls don't stop, pls make a mess" you donate 150 dollars, the highest he ever received.
his eyes widens at the number, making sure to quickly read your username. he quickly sets the hoodie aside, hand quickly coming to wrap around his throbbing dick.
"fuck, y/n, you must like me a l-lot." he moans out, a smirk tugging on his trembling lips.
you bite your lower lip as he moans your name, quickly hugging your legs to ease some relief.
he gives an experimental slap on his sensitive tip, making him buck up his hips, thrusting into his fist. "ohmygod–!"
"fuck– 'm cumming, I'm cumming–!" he whines out, a strangled sound tearing from his throat as he shoots white stripes of semen onto his chest, some dribbling down to his thighs.
his pupils are blown as he tries to recover his breath, a soft pink crawling his cheeks. he giggles softly as he sees the amount of cum resting all over his torso.
he collects the whiteish goo with three fingers, taking them to show the camera, spreading his fingers a little. he smears it on his red tip, a small squeak escaping his lips at the sudden stimulation.
he glides his cum along the side of his veiny shaft, thighs trembling. "fuuuuck.." he groans as his hand goes back to pump his abused cock.
his pace quickens up as some donations popped on the screen, encouraging him to keep going, some even calling him a slut and he obviously moaned in response.
"s-shit– yes, fuck, 'm a slut...your slut, f-fuck–!" he whimpers with absolutely no one in his mind, only his precious viewers <3
your heart hammers as you stare at the screen, a hand going under your pjs shorts, cupping your cunt and feeling the wet patch on your panties.
you pull your panties aside, slowly introducing a finger inside your pussy. fuck, you wished it was him instead.
you match his quick pace, your palm hitting your throbbing clit with each thrust, causing small whines to fall of your lips.
"fuck, baby, are you touching y-yourself?" he groans immediately as if he was watching you through your laptop's lens.
you whine in response. "fuck that pretty pussy for me, can you?" he moans, he free hand going back to tease his tip, the nail of his index finger poking his tiny slit, making him hiss.
"fuck– I wish you were here...fuck that little pussy open with m-my cock. you'd love that, huh?" he groans, a high-pitched moan coming from his lips after.
"jesus, baby, 'm close..." he moans, feeling the knot on his lower abdomen starts to unknit once again.
you feel your climax starts to build up embarrassingly fast too, the stimulation from your finger and palm being too much.
he squeezes his eyes shut as his mouth falls open, cock shooting more cum on his abs and hand.
you cum at the sight, a small whimper escaping your mouth. "fuck...taesan–!"
he lets out a small chuckle as he cleans himself with the tissues on his desk. letting out a small hiss as he clean his sensitive shaft.
you lean in again, wiping your finger on your sheets. slowly typing on your keyboard as you recovered yourself.
𓏵 ⌞ 김운학 x f!reader, suggestive/smut, 0.6k ⌝ ∘∘∘ est. relationship, dom!woonhak, degradation, dry humping
𓏵 your boyfriend keeps dodging the idea of going to sleep, and by the end of the night, your pants are (somehow) completely soaked *ੈ✩‧₊˚
ナナ’s ⦂ ty anon for requesting ♡ // sorry the title is so bad 💔 play on words for backseat gaming 😭😭
the night started simple – sitting on woonhak’s lap while he played games on his pc with the guys. but somewhere along the lines, the air turned hazy. you were slowly getting tired from how late it was, but woonhak didn’t seem a slight bit fatigued, still yelling into his headset even after three hours of straight gaming.
“woon, let’s go to sleep, please.” you mumbled, breath fanning over his neck. this must’ve been the fifth time you asked him to go to sleep, yet he excused himself each time, telling you that he’d play ‘one more game.’ but one game turned into two, to four, to what seemed like a never ending loop.
“one more game, baby.” he rubbed a hand down your back before bringing it back to his mouse, calling out signals to his teammates.
but you started getting bored of his justifications, losing your patience with him. you found yourself putting pressure against his lap, pressing your core against his and letting out soft whimpers. it wasn’t long until your boyfriend heard you and moved one side of his headset behind his ear.
more under the cut ⋆.ೃ࿔*:･
“you’re that desperate?” he murmured, a thumb brushing over your waist. “i’m gonna go, guys. y/n’s tired.” once he pulled off his headphones, all his focus landed on you, starting to get handsy with you.
“so pathetic for me, huh?” his voice cooed, vibrating against the shell of your ear. “using me like a toy? so needy all the time.”
his eyes were sharp, watching you intently as you grinded yourself against him. “keep playing, woon,” you were out of breath, voice unsteady from your movement. “don’t watch me…”
“can’t play when you’re moaning in my mic, baby.” he squeezed your ass, groaning as you put more force on him. “or do you want my friends to hear you being the little slut you are?”
you shook your head, nuzzling your nose against the crook of his neck. “n-no, just for you, woon.”
woonhak’s hands slid from your ass to your cheek, holding your face so you’d look into his eyes. “good.” he spread his legs more, giving you more fabric to find friction on. “you’re so cute, humping me when you want attention.” pulling your face closer to his head, he pressed a kiss to your forehead, purring dirty words near your ear, knowing you have a weak spot for it.
“i’m close, hak.” your movements got harder and harder, the cloth of your panties rubbing against your clit enough for you to reach an orgasm.
“really taking advantage of me, hm? didn’t even let me feel good.” woonhak pouted, bottom lip jutting out. “hold it in, i’ll let you know when you can come.”
it felt too good. your mind went foggy as you continued to ride on his clothed cock, mewls escaping your mouth. “please, baby. mngh- wanna come now…” you begged, holding his shoulders for support. “woonhak, please.”
“so clingy…” he hummed, running a hand through your hair. “come for me, baby.” as you let yourself go, you only then realized how wet you were, feeling your cum seep into the fabric of woonhak’s pants.
he moved you off his thigh, leaving you on his knees as he stared at the mess you made on his pants. “look at the mess you made, baby,” he said, caressing your cheek with one hand. “soaked my pants and everything.”
“‘m sorry, woon.” you reached toward him, wanting to hug, when he refused, gently pushing you off him.
“nuh-uh, you got me hard.” he shook his head. “fix this first, angel. then we can cuddle.”
pairing- soft-dom!woonhak x sub!fem!reader
synopsis- woonhak catches you humping your pillow so he makes you keep going ayyyyy
word count- 1k
warnings- masturbation, exhibitionism, voyeurism, praise, degradation, edging, dom/sub dynamic
everything written is consensual and between two adults !
"mmh... w-woonhak.."
you mutter under your breath. your head falls back, eyes rolling closed as you heavily grind down onto your pillow, imagining it was him underneath you, you shudder at the sensation of the pillow rubbing between your folds, staining the fabric with wet spots.
you couldn't help it, you were so horny and you missed your boyfriend so bad, you wanted him now. you grinded down harder, all you could think about was how cruel he is to make you wait another few hours. besides, what he didn't know, couldn't hurt him.. right?
you were lost in your head, barely realizing how loud you were being. the creak of the bed underneath you, the friction of your clothing rubbing against your pillow, your whimpers calling out his name...
-so loud, you didn't even notice the front door unlocking, then closing shut. or the steps of sneakers against your hardwood flooring, or even the bedroom door creaking open.
there he stood, leaning against the doorframe, staring at you with a coy smirk on his face. he was intrigued. realizing you had no idea he was even there, amused at how you called out for him while trying to reach your orgasm. he makes his way closer to you.
"such a dirty girl.."
you jump, the familiar voice becoming too real, you snap out of your imagination. there you are, paused like a deer in headlights, straddling your pillow. it was...humiliating. Woonhak runs his fingers through your hair, moving his hand to your face and pulling your chin up to meet his gaze. A slight pout takes place on his face
"you missed me that bad?"
you were at a loss for words, if you even tried to speak, you'd most likely stutter, it'd only humiliate you further. you nod your head at him. averting eye contact. he liked it, knowing you were so desperate just for him, letting yourself go just for him. and seeing how flustered you got by his presence. he felt a sort of rush go through his body. it would most definitely get to his head.
"whats wrong? don't stop now...keep going."
you heart dropped in disappointment, you didn't want to keep going, not anymore, not when he's standing right there. all you could think about were his veiny hands, his long slender fingers, how they'd feel curled up inside you. it made the pit in your stomach grow tighter, growing hungrier with need.
suddenly, your pillow wasn't enough to satisfy, you wanted the real thing- and he was standing right in front of you. that was the thing about woonhak though, he loved you, no doubt-
but he also loved seeing you like this, all pathetic for him. he loved embarrassing you, making the tips of your ears blush with hues of red, and your cheeks burning hot. he doesn't like to play nice. your first mistake was letting him find you like this, giving him the perfect opportunity to test your patience. to push you to your limit. to see just how much you can handle before you crumble.
he loves the control he feels, the power it gives him over you. knowing he can use you like his own personal play thing. every second he stared at you like this, more ideas were rushing through his mind, his imagination running wild. the bulge in his pants growing harder.
fuck, he could barely handle it either, the yearning. he grew hungrier and hungrier for you by the second. the way your doe eyes looked up at him, how submissive you were to his touch, how badly you craved him- he craved you just as bad. he wanted you in that moment. his patience growing thinner. but he wanted to see you suffer in sexual frustration even more. he loved the game, he knew it would make the ending outcome feel that much better.
"show me what you want from me, slut"
so he sits in front of you, observing what you do. watching closely how you play with yourself just for him. the way your back arches beautifully as you fuck into the pillow, how you mouth hangs open and head falls back while you moan out his name. he watches as you strip down your shorts and panties, playing with your own breasts, teasing your nipples. how you were already soaking wet for him and he hasn't even laid a finger on you.
you call out his name for him, begging pathetically for any sort of touch any sort of satisfaction. but he wouldn't cave in that easily, especially not after seeing how far he can push you.
"p-please i-”
you hump the pillow faster, chasing your orgasm. and now with the overwhelming pressure of Woonhak's presence, you felt you needed to prove yourself to him, because maybe, just maybe, he'd touch you if you did what he asked. you whimpered out, tears beginning to trickle down your cheeks as your frustration grew, he was so close to you, yet you couldn't feel his touch. and you were so close
"want you-"
Woonhaks smirk fades to a faux pout, his brows furrowing, he opens his mouth, letting out a light sigh
"aww darling... you've been bad- maybe if you were more patient..."
he trails, letting the sentence hang in the air.
"mm been a bad girl.."
you huff through heavy breaths, humiliated at the fact you'd even let him catch you like this.
"that's right, baby."
he relaxes back, observing every detail of your naked body, taking in your angelic moans. his hand trails to his erection, subtly palming himself over his pants. your whimpers of his name turning him on further. talking you through it while he touches himself to you
"keep going, good girl."
his voice encouraging you to reach closer to your limit. and with one last dragged out thrust into your pillow, your hips buckle, throwing your head back as you moan out in pleasure. your legs trembling underneath you. your cum soaking the fabric of your pillow. you fall back onto the bed, your chest heaving up and down as you try to catch your breath.
W.C 4.9k | WARNINGS/GENRE: REALITY SHIFTING STORYTIME, smut, angst, little fluff, ends kinda on a sad note, mentions of a sudden break up, mentions of isolations and the use of pleasure to distract oneself, slight mention of depression state and talking down on oneself, mentions of a threesome, mentions of loss of virginity, mentions of unprotected sex ( pls safe sex guys), getting hickeys by TWO MEN NGGH, and ending on a very much needed but sad conversation including a sad confession and many mentions of the i love you’s and missing someone and taking the blame
“ I just don’t like you anymore.”
My boyfriend, Sungho, who was now apparently my EX boyfriend, told me he no longer had feelings for me anymore. This has to be some kind of twisted joke months after April.
“ What ?! “ I laughed out but watched as I he turned around and began to try to leave my dormitory.
“ Wait- Sungho- Park Sungho- are you serious? “ I began as I quickly caught up to him, grabbing his hand to stop him in his tracks
“ What are you talking about-? You love me and I–”
“ I have to go, I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”
“ What, so we’re broken up ?! “
He looked back at me once and spoke before he left me
“ yeah I guess so.”
I spent the next week battling myself in this pathetic fight of pretending I didn’t care about the break up at all because there were other things to take care of along with the fact one of my own members was deciding on leaving the group.
I just kept myself and my thoughts busy to distract myself from the reality like I always do.
I found myself one night in Taesan’s bed, sitting up against the wall as the walls came crashing down along with the feelings I’ve hid this whole time. He sat in front of me, holding my hands in his delicately.
“ like– WHAT THE FUCK “ I shouted and let off my chest before covering my mouth in shock from how loud I genuinely was before continuing
“ I just don’t fucking get it. Is there something wrong with me-?”
“ no. “ He interrupted but I continued
“ Did I do something wrong ? “
“ no.”
“ I just think I’m just not meant for relationships at this point because what’s the point if they always fail and I’m always the one to mess it up and ruin things–”
Taesan grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him, he looked at me with a stern expression.
“ I don’t know what the fuck happened but I know you didn’t do anything wrong because he was and is lucky to be able to have you as someone he loved.”
I sat there in silence.
Was what he said true ? … he’s gone though so
It can’t be.
I also sat in silence from all these sudden actions from Taesan, now I’m sitting just inches– mere centimeters actually from his face as he spoke to me about how ‘ lucky ‘ Sungho is and was.
“ really..?” was all I could really manage to say
Taesan scooted himself a little closer and nodded his head in confidence but slowly I watched as his face softened ? his eyes darted from my eyes to my lips a few times
“ what are you doing..?” I asked, looking away from him nervously then immediately looked my head downwards to pay attention to how his hand snaked to my waist gently
“ I.. don’t know.. Is it okay ..?”
I looked back at him as he looked back at me and felt myself sucked into his gaze almost like I was entranced by him.
I nodded my head and then he began to slowly inch closer to me while looking down solely at my lips, but I was looking at his too
“ tell me to stop at anytime.. And I will..okay?” Taesan spoke out softly as if the tension air between us was able to break
“ okay..” I replied and eventually
Our lips connected and fuck. In the moment nothing and nobody could pull us apart. His hands grabbed at my body, restlessly pulling me closer against his body while my hands found their way into his hair, roughly grabbing at it, moaning into each others mouths while our bodies unintentionally began to grind against one another.
Eventually, he positioned me on my back against the mattress while he hovered over my body breathlessly and looking at me in a haze, trying to collect his thoughts, our clothes on the floor.
“ I need you but you know that, right ? “ Taesan stated in between breaths and I nodded and let out a breathless laugh
“ yeah I kinda know that “ I replied which got a chuckle from him
He nodded his head and began to scrummage in the nightstand while still hovering over me while mumbling about the fact he knows I’m on the pill but he still wants to use a condom since he knows it would be my first time.
I smiled softly but my smile grew more anxious as I tried to hide the fact that I was i actively about to lose my virginity and all the comments of people saying how it hurts when you have sex for the first time circled in my head like crazy.
“ hey, hey-” Taesan called out and I looked at him, coming back to reality
“ are you okay..? We don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.. I liked what we were doing just then with us kissing, I’m more than satisfied with that if you don’t want to.”
I let out a long sigh and shook my head, smiling softly again as reassurance to him
“ no I want to but.. I’m just nervous because people say it hurts..”
He laughed and nodded his head slowly while rubbing my waist softly.
“ well.. Yeah it is going to hurt.. But you have to trust me that I’ll take care of you “
I nodded “ well I do trust you and.. I want it to be you..”
He stared for a moment like as if he was in awe then smiled and nodded his head
“ good..”
He spoke and then leaned in and kissed my forehead with a gentle kiss
“ I want it to be you too..” He mumbled against my skin
He propped himself up with one arm while the other held his dick, slipping the condom on carefully and I felt my body tense up as I watched him begin to try and position himself at my entrance.
“ I’m gonna go in now..okay ? “ I noticed him speak shakily but right now wasn’t the time to point that out while I was feeling shaky myself
I nodded my head short and quick, propping myself up slightly on my elbows to slightly watch everything happen, my eyes darting from him and then to where our bodies would meet.
He rubbed himself at the entrance for a moment which caused the both of us to moan softly at the touch before he finally inserted himself inside. My mouth dropped and my eyebrows furrowed in at this new sensation that honestly felt uncomfortable, I grabbed onto the bedsheets and let out a small groan as the sensation got bigger and bigger and at some point was painful. I smacked my hand on his chest suddenly to stop him from moving any further and he flinched at the sudden action, his eyes widening in concern
“ holy fuck wait..” I spoke breathlessly, closing my eyes to try and adjust
“ holy shit that was a lot, dongmin..” I said looking up at him in clear, visible pain
“ I-I’m sorry– do you want to stop ? “ He asked worriedly
“ are you almost in atleast ? “ I asked with a slight laugh to ease the odd sensation
Taesan looked down and tilted his head to the side and made a certain expression that indicated he was no where near being fully inside me. I choked out a laugh and laid back
“ fuck dongmin..” I sighed then looked up at him
“ I.. genuinely.. Think.. It’s the condom that is making this worse.. This thing feels so weird and it’s NOT helping at all..” I commented and he shrugged in agreeance
“ if that’s how you feel I can take this off for you, if you want “
I laid there in thought for a moment then nodded my head
“ yeah, let’s do it “
He nodded, kissing the back of my hand before slipping out of me and I groaned loudly from how fast the asshole decided to pull out of me with the fact of the sensation I had been feeling. He gasped loudly and laughed from shock
“ I’m so sorry ! “
I laughed and shoved him away
“ fuck man, fuck me I guess ! “ I joked with him and he grinned
“ well I was trying to do that “
I rolled my eyes playfully and giggled
“ if you don’t hurry up, Han Dongmin–”
He laughed hard and nodded, grabbing the lube he had and lathered it onto his dick
“ okay, okay ! “ He said before positioning himself, looking down at me
“ you ready..?”
I looked up at him and nodded, grabbing onto his bicep, bracing for the same feeling again
“ I’ll go really slow this time..” He added and I smiled softly before biting my lip, mentally preparing again
He nodded his head before inserting himself again and slowly inching his way inside, which still felt.. Odd ? but definitely a lot better than before and then finally he bottomed out which resulted in the both of us letting out a gasp
“ oh fuck..” I mumbled, throwing my head back for a moment before looking at him again and he laughed slightly
“Fuck.. well I’m in.. and this feels.. Really good.. Fuck..” He said, mumbling and leaning in as he began to messily kiss my lips and move his hips
And suddenly pleasure was coursing through my veins on such an insane level and I could tell he was feeling the same way. Both of his hands were planted on the mattress at my sides as his thrust grew in speed and roughness while curse words were repeated under his breath along with grunts and moans.
“ are you feeling good, baby–? Ah fuck I’m gonna fucking cum..” He moaned out, trying to keep eye contact with me but kept looking down in shyness followed by another mumble of a curse word
“ wait– no– I’m not close yet– fuck-” I moaned out followed by a small whine as he hit a certain sweet spot which had me drowning in moans and pleasure
“ fuck right there m-min– “ I moaned out louder, looking up into his eyes, desperate to finally tip over the edge and feel this impending orgasm
He moaned louder at my words as if my orgasm approaching was his own, which was so hot by the fucking way.
“ fuck yes my love– cum for me– cum WITH me fuck yes “ He begged as he tapped my chin up to look up at him.
I’m not even sure how either but as soon as our eyes connected, seeing the red in his face, his hair sticking to his forehead, his mouth hanging open with strings of moans falling out of it so easily and the confirmation of being allowed to cum just sent the orgasm STRAIGHT to me immediately.
I gasped loudly, my back arching off the bed while my arms that were wrapped around him had tightened, pulling him impossibly close to my body while my nails dug into his skin, scratching him up while Taesan groaned for a second before his eyes widened and his mouth dropped open more as he moaned louder, the both of us arriving at the same time
And perhaps we arrived at the same destination again pretty quickly and more fired up than before. However, after we were done having sex, he laid down next to me while holding me in his arms as he rambled about a random topic and suddenly
“ Hey Dongmin– OH FUCK I’M SO SORRY “ Woonhak exclaimed as he walked into Taesan’s bedroom and stepped back into the wall and covered his face
I yanked the bedsheets and covered my body as Taesan laid there as if nothing happened
“ woonhak, what are you doing in here ? “ Taesan asked
Woonhak walked further into the room, his face red like CRAZY and kept his eyes down for the most part even though I was covered
“ Well..I came in here to talk to you and ask about something but–” Woonhak began to fucking ramble on some random excuse out of his ass for the next five minutes and we listened until I noticed a certain someone peak out and I don’t mean a person
I glanced down by chance and noticed Woonhak was hard. I felt my face heat up quickly and looked back at Taesan while woonhak was still talking, nudging Taesan’s shoulder subtly before glancing over at Woonhak’s boner to try and point it out without using my hands or doing anything physically
“ What ?! What is it ?! “ Woonhak called out which caused me to flinch.
I let out a laugh finally and continued to helplessly stare for another minute, fuck he was big bro what the fuck my bad I couldn’t help it but I spoke
“ Well if you wanted to join us so bad..” I began and looked back at Taesan for a moment, mouthing if he was okay with it, in which Taesan nodded in agreeance, then I looked back at Woonhak
“ you should’ve just said so “ I stated and Woonhak looked down immediately and quickly slipped his hand into his pocket to try and hide it for a moment before walking up towards the bed, panicking
“ but I never had sex before and–” Woonhak began another anxious ramble which caused me to sit up worriedly, holding the blanket up to cover myself of course
“ Woonhak- Woonhak– calm down it’s okay-!.. So you’re a virgin..?” I asked and he nodded repeatedly, his face redder than fucking ever
“ Well–.. If you don’t want to have sex with me that’s okay, I mean I was semi.. Joking anyways-”
“ No I want to–! I.. I really want to.. Have sex with you..” He spoke as his tone grew softer and he sat onto the bed in front of me carefully, his hand placed on the blanket where my thigh was
I smiled shyly and nodded slowly, scooting a little closer to him.
“ Well you know..with sex.. Foreplay is important, we can’t just have sex immediately.. I would like to start off by kissing and see if there is anything even there “ I mentioned and he nodded slowly with a small grin showing
“ I’m totally okay with that..”
I laughed hard and shook my head
“ well– I get nervous making the first move so– you would have to kiss me first “ I added on nervously
But he made his move fairly quickly after that. He leaned in, resting his hand on one side of my face as he kissed my lips passionately. I tensed up for a second at the new kiss but softened up after another minute and melted, the kiss had melted into something so messy and hungry so fast, it’s genuinely shocking. His tongue was all over me and his lips kissed and attacked my lips like a wild animal. He kissed me like he had been dreaming for this moment for a while now and at this point I never wanted it to stop but of course it did–
I flinched and backed off Woonhak when I felt a touch on my shoulder, I looked back at Taesan and noticed him sitting there with this fucking grin.
“ Well does it look like there’s anything there, is there a fire ? “ He teased with a smirk and and I rolled my eyes and grinned
“ fuck off.. “ I mumbled before letting out a big sigh of relief when I looked back at Woonhak who sat there with a grin on his face too
“ Well uhm.. Yeah I’m good to go if you are..” I said as I slowly began to slip the blanket off, revealing my body to him and his jaw physically dropped as he stared in awe then shook his head for a moment while deciding to finally take his clothes off and holy fuck the dude was huge like HUNG like WHAT THE FUCK
My jaw dropped too before I covered my mouth and laughed hard along with Taesan
“ holy fuck dude “ Taesan laughed while nudging me and I shook my head while Woonhak grew nervously quickly and groaned
“ What~ !? What are you two laughing at ? ! “
I continued to shake my head
“ You’re just really.. Big woonhak.. And my jaw dropped and it’s embarrassing that Taesan kinda saw my reaction..” I mumbled and Woonhak grinned and came over to the bed with us, sitting in front of me
He then began to look around curiously
“ Dongmin where do.. You Keep the condoms..?” Woonhak asked and Taesan made a sound of uncertainty towards his words
“ I keep them in the drawer but.. We just had sex and we tried to have sex with the condoms but it felt really weir–”
“ No. I want to have sex with a condom. I know that you’re on the pill but I just want to be safe for you still regardless “ Woonhak stated and Taesan nodded, shrugging his shoulders
“ well alright– yeah it’s in my nightstand right there “ Taesan pointed and Woonhak reached over, and VERY carefully slipping one on and before he could move again–
“ Grab the lube. “ Taesan said in a demanding tone
“ You’re going to need it, it helps a lot and it’ll help her. “
Woonhak nodded in response and listened, grabbing the lube and pouring a little bit onto his dick before hovering over me. I looked up at him with a shy smile then I looked away, biting the inner part of my bottom lip nervously.
“ so– are you just going to be here the whole time or what ? “ Woonhak commented
“ well yeah– you’re the one who walked in on us by the way and I’m going to help you “ Taesan replied which Woonhak groaned to, but he loved later on.
Woonhak shrugged and looked down at me with a comforting expression
“ you ready, you okay..? “ Woonhak asked and I chuckled
“ are you okay ? “ I asked him back with the same comforting expression he gave me and he laughed before smiling softly, nodding slowly
“ yeah.. “ He said in a soft tone before grabbing my hips with one hand as the other hand was guiding his dick towards my entrance, slowing pushing himself in
I groaned, now I have to try an adjust AGAIN because woonhak is bigger than Taesan and it’s not something that I’m used to, however my body would not even be adjusted to Taesan again if he were to come back inside me later on too
I leaned over to the side a little bit to where Taesan was and leaned in close to him, grabbing a hold of my hand tightly in his and chuckling softly
“ you got this, you just did this with me, it’s okay, you can take him..” he mumbled into my ear
I chuckled breathlessly and looked over at woonhak who pulled me away from Taesan and close to him, kissing my lips passionately and soon he was finally fully inside me and I moaned against him.
His kiss and his lips against mine felt purely like an addiction that I couldn’t get enough of.
I pulled away though sometime later, to catch my breath and laid back as I continued to moan, however, suddenly woonhak threw his head into my neck and groaned loudly
I gasped loudly and held him in my arms before looking over at him while breathing heavy as his movements came to a stop
“ did you just finish..?” Taesan asked which caused woonhak too groan again and continued to hide his face in my neck
“ shut up..”
I laughed softly and rubbed his back comfortingly. Woonhak got up from my neck and looked over my body figure laying there for a moment
“ so the condom, it feels better without it?” He spoke with a quickness
I nodded my head in response
“ and you’re on the pill right ? “ He continued to speak as if he was rushing
I nodded my head in response again
“ good.” He answered before he carefully pulled out for a second, quickly taking off the condom from his dick before rubbing his dick along my pussy making me softly as I watched him
“ Just put it in already, fuck “ I laughed out loudly, rolling my eyes joking
Woonhak laughed for a moment too before pushing himself in with shocking ease, I gasped loudly before letting out a loud moan and woonhak had done the same
“ fuck-” I exclaimed while grabbing onto him for a split moment before wrapping my arms around his neck and pulling me close to him
“ fuck-fuck- fuck yes ren “ He moaned out to me followed with a groan afterwards as he picked up the pace in his thrust and changed QUICK, his pace, how deep he fucking was, how HARD and rough he was being.
He was repeatedly hitting such a good spot which caused me to moan at a high pitch, basically screaming in pleasure. My legs that were wrapped around his torso, I could feel them shaking–
“ kiss her right here, woonhak “ Taesan mumbled as kissed along my neck, I threw my head back at the sensation and dug my nails into woonhak’s back while moaning loudly.
“ oh fuck..” I heard woonhak’s voice before I suddenly felt not one BUT TWO PEOPLE kissing my neck and I was genuinely losing my mind, I was feeling so overstimulated in every best way possible.
“ move off her bro-” Woonhak mumbled as he shoved Taesan’s head off my neck which caused me to choke out a small laugh before pulling Woonhak closer to me, his nails dug into my hips the more he fucked into me.
He leaned back into my neck for round two, sucking, kissing, and leaving all kinds of marks along my neck until Taesan forced Woonhak’s head down
“ she’s not yours.. Don’t get her in trouble. Move it down..” Taesan mumbled causing Woonhak to groan but he still listened regardless
Woonhak kissed down my collarbone, kissing and lick down my chest and right below my tits with no change in rhythm or pace, I watched him while my mouth was kept open, moans spilling out and I lowkey felt a little bit of drool spilling out on the sides. Woonhak looked up at me with this sense of darkness in his eyes. I've never seen obsession in anybody’s eyes like his, especially at this moment.
He leaned up and kissed me feverishly, holding me tight in his grip and I swear it was like the more rough and tighter he held me, the closer I was near my orgasm, it was a crazy experience and safe to say I WAS NEAR IT NOW
I whined and tried to hide my face the more and more moans but Taesan grabbed my chin with a soft but firm grip, forcing me to look at Woonhak’s face
“ look at him when you finish, baby- Woonhak she’s about to cum, are you gonna cum?” Taesan spoke in a teasing tone and woonhak groaned
“ fuck baby– are you gonna cum for me ? “ Woonhak groaned as his thrust became more sloppy
I nodded my head moaning louder
“ fuck yes–” I moaned out
“ rub her clit to get her there faster and make her cum harder “ Taesan mumbled as he respectfully pointed towards my clit
Woonhak moaned softly, his eyes switching from my pussy to my eyes back and forth while he began to rub my clit in circles at a fast pace. I gasped loudly and slapped my mouth to cover how loud my moans were coming out
“ fuck–I’m gonna cum” I moaned out and Woonhak nodded his head repeatedly
“ me too-fuck “ Woonhak groaned as he finally came inside me
Woonhak and I took a minute to take a breath before he slowly pulled out, he stayed hovering over me for a minute before he let out a breathless laugh
“ fuck..” He mumbled
I cupped his face and laughed
“ are you okay ? “ I asked him with a giggle and he replied with a nod, holding my hand in his
There was a moment of silence between us before Taesan spoke
“ are you going to clean her up..? “
“ OH YEAH– I’M SORRY”
And surprisingly Taesan allowed Woonhak to sleep with him and I in his bed that night. The next morning, after having breakfast with Taesan alone because Woonhak was already gone by the time I got up, I left back to my dorms.
AND for the next couple of weeks..maybe two months or so.., it consisted of hook ups with the both of them, individually of course. Maybe a couple arguments were stirred in the process especially from Taesan’s end with me due to the fact I was simply ignoring any conversation that led to anything relating to Sungho.
However, in my defense, I loved Sungho dearly and he breaks up with me on a random ass day to tell me he no longer had feelings for me. It was going to be pretty hard for me to even utter his name out loud, let alone even talk about the situation that happened between him and I.
With the rise of tension between the members and I, I began to sleep in my own dorm and stay at my own dorm a lot more often than before. On one shining morning… as soon as I opened my eyes and probably have only been awake for 3 minutes minimum, Taesan bust through the door and yanks the sheets off my body
“ Okay we have to go “
I lay in bed confused as fuck, blinking and fluttering my eyes to try and wake up more. I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand and run my fingers through my hair, looking around extremely confused
“ have to go for what..?” I groaned
“ we just have to go, I can’t talk about it now “
I sit up slightly, leaning against my arm
“ well I’m not going until you tell me where–”
And suddenly, I look over to see a Jaehyun rushing into my room
“ you’re not up yet-? Come on ! “ Jaehyun says as he grabs my arm and practically drags me across my dorm and downstairs to there dorm and the whole way there consisted of me, Jaehyun, and Taesan arguing with each other on WHY THE FUCK I’M BEING DRAGGED AT 7AM
We finally enter their dorm and the more questions I asked, was immediately shut down but suddenly I see very quickly that I was being pushed towards Sungho’s room. I start to complaining and push against them
“ wait- no– stop– I don’t want to go in there- I can’t–”
And suddenly I was face to face with Park Sungho. I stood there frozen, not a singular thought came to mind and he stood frozen too for a second before his face contorted into this angry confusion. He quickly stepped out the room
“ what the fuck is happening? Why is she in my room, she’s not allowed to be near me “
I stood there kinda confused now, I’m not.. Allowed..? To be near you ?
“ the manager will be gone for 40-50 minutes, right now is your fucking chance to talk to her and tell her everything like you wanted ! “ I heard Woonhak exclaim
Sungho then quickly stormed back into his bedroom where I stood frozen still, slamming the door behind him before grabbing my shoulders, staring into my eyes
“ I was forced to break up with you by the company because it was either boynextdoor or you and I’m sorry I chose them over you but there’s no other way, I can’t leave boynextdoor- I don’t want to be anything else or known for anything else. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you and I’m sorry that I broke up with you– I didn’t even want to break up with you- I promise I fought and fought and fought for you because the only person I’ve ever wanted to be with was you and is still you and always will be you– I would let you destroy and ruin me and ruin my future but.. I’m sorry I couldn’t let you take boynextdoor away from me and I’m sorry that makes me a terrible person–”
Sungho’s anxious ramble had me completely and utterly in fucking shock
“ sungho-”
“ no and I know you’re mad at me and I know you hate me but I love you so much and–”
“ Sungho ! “ I yelled as I felt my eyes fill with tears, shaking my head repeatedly
“ please stop, I love you so much.. I’ve never loved anyone as much as you and even when I’m not with you, it’s always you and I always think about you, I don’t fucking hate you and I’m not mad at you and I could never in my life hate you even if you did the fucking worse to me– I could never find it in myself to hate you “
Sungho held my face in his and held me close to him, his breathing grew heavier as he stared longer at me and the longer that I spoke, tears eventually fought their way down his face endlessly
“ I wanted to tell you for so long.. “
I nodded my head and held myself back from absolutely violently sobbing in front of him
But I couldn’t.
I shook my head repeatedly and opened my mouth as the deep sobs escaped and echoed. Sungho brought my head to his chest as his hand laid on my head, caressing it as I felt him cry against me but he was definitely trying to hold himself back too.
“ It fucking sucks.. This sucks so bad.. I want to be with you and love you again.. So. fucking. Bad..” I spoke through my sobs as I felt my tears stain and wetten his shirt.
“ I love you..”
💌; shifter’s note, I’M SORRY GUYS FOR BACK TO BACK ANGST STORYTIMES but trust me we got VERY cutesy and maybe freaky.. storytimes coming up !!
hiii for a dr where i'm a kpop idol dating one of my members what romantic/couple things would you say are big no no's at work and what things could be given a pass? i'm very affectionate and big on pda with my s/o but idk how much i'll have to restrain myself in my dr 🥀 (love your storytimes btw!!)
Hi !! First of all, thank you so much for liking my storytimes :(( I have so many storytimes that are on the way
BUT back to the big question, Honestly in my opinion, I don't really suggest being affectionate or doing PDA at the company/filming/ or anywhere involving your job.. which kinda sucks but think about this reality and going to a normal job, you want to be more focused on your job and do what you have to do, right ? At work, you have your manager who pays you weekly/bi-weekly, they watch over you and can honestly fire you at anytime if you start acting up, right? Dating one of your co-workers is usually frowned upon in this reality and in most places not only because ofc, how messy it can get, but it can also be distracting. Now, I've worked at a place in this reality where two co-workers were in a relationship and it was actually not bad BUT that is because they saved the romance and the lovey dovey for after the shift was over.
The same goes for when you shift as a kpop idol and if you date one of your co-workers aka one of your members. There is always a time and place and it is NOT the time especially if you are clocked in for the job at the company or filming somewhere because that is precious time that needs to go into your job that you can't get back if you spend it all with your s/o and including the fact if there are staff there/ cameramen, etc, you might waste their time too being distracted. On top of that, other members or even staff might be uncomfortable if you display TOO MUCH PDA so you should be careful /lh
HOWEVER, I do understand being in a relationship and being in love and like I said theres a time and place for things. I think a good pass would be If there's a small moment for a few minutes where nothing is happening backstage or anywhere and you want to be hugged up with your partner or give them a little peck or just be with them that is 100% good and okay to do or maybe even pulling them to the side or somewhere private just to have a small little moment if need but ofc again, when it's not busy. All of this is how I treat my partners in the workspace and once we are home again and clocked out, I AM CLOCKED IN AT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FACTORY.
All of this I say with much love and happy shifting <3
how is it being in poly relationship with your members while also working together? i also plan to shift to place where im dating all of my members so im curious how it is in ur experience
WELL
It’s hard work. No love or relationship is easy but especially polyamorous relationships in which you ALSO work with. Of course I love my relationship with all the members as a whole and individually but it can and has gotten complicated and messy extremely fast and miscommunication is so easy to happen. It’s very important to make clear and firm boundaries with everyone involved and everyone involved has to atleast try their best to communicate properly about their feelings/emotions, thoughts, etc. It’s also important though to make sure love is being shown and shared equally amongst everyone aka please don’t just love one member and leave another out ( duh ), trust I’m someone who can get a little too lost in the sauce sometimes with one person but if it happens just acknowledge it, apologize, reassurance, and make it up to them and show them affection and love too ( or give space if asked or wanted or needed, etc floats their boat ! )
When it comes to work related things, it’s also important to communicate boundaries on how the relationship will work in public settings but from my experience it’s better to leave the romance AT HOME/ on your own time away from the workplace.
So overall,
communication is key, boundaries are important, love equally, romance is for YOU not for your workplace, patience, and remember love is supposed to be fun sometimes don’t forget that <33
W.C 897 | WARNINGS/GENRES; SHIFTING STORYTIME, Completely Angst , mentions of depression and being in a depressive episode, feeling numb, mentions of negative self thoughts, late night wandering, woonhak tries to comfort me and succeeds?, mentions of sobbing, screaming and crying
My polyamorous relationship among the guys was actually doing fairly well, the only thing at the time that wasn’t doing well was my mental health.
I’m usually a person who promotes communication because it is healthy for the mind and for any relationship, platonic or romantic, however, I find myself becoming a hypocrite in various situations and I isolate
Like now.
I saw no point in talking about my mental health or more so, my feelings.
I had no genuine response as to why I’m sad, I just was.
It was the same usual thing that always makes me sad and it felt worthless and pointless to bring up something that had been spoken about before already.
So I dealt with it alone.
One night, in the hardcore midst of a heavy depressive episode, I found myself leaving the dorms and walking the streets nearby in silence while listening to music in my headphones.
My chest felt heavy and my throat burned as if I wanted to cry but I had no energy to cry, I practically walked in a big long circle around the nearby neighborhood hoping this feeling went away but it didn’t.
My head kept finding more and more and more things to keep me from getting up again and it felt like it was just never going to stop and I was going to have to keep walking in this neverending circle forever.
That has more deeper meaning than what you read.
I sighed out loud.
I flinched suddenly when I felt someone grab my shoulder
“ what the fuck-?!” I exclaimed as I turned around
Only to face a worried Woonhak staring back at me
“ you scared me what the fu-”
“ What the fuck are you doing ? “ Woonhak asked
I stared at him confused and slowly looked around
“ uhm.. Walking around-”
“ I can fucking see that but why ! “ Woonhak replied, stepping closer
I stood there in silence, I didn’t know how to respond even though I already had an answer
“ TALK–...talk to me.. please..I’m worried, baby..”
I couldn’t bare to look in his eyes longer for five seconds before looking away again
“ I’m fine I’m just.. I’m just walking around, Woonhak–”
“ no it’s more than that and I know that- Dongmin knows that, DONGHYUN KNOWS THAT, Jaehyun, Sanghyuk, Sungho– we ALL know it’s more than you just ‘ walking around ‘ “ Woonhak spoke with this aggressiveness in his tone but I know he wasn’t angry
He was concerned
And rightfully so
I looked in his eyes for a minute before letting out a long sigh, looking down at the ground
“ I’m..fine–”
Woonhak suddenly grabbed my shoulder with a firm and rough grip
“ NO YOU’RE NOT. STOP LYING TO ME–.. stop lying… I don’t get why you don’t talk to me.. I know when something is wrong every.single.time that there is something wrong but I know you can handle it- I know you’re strong so I let you but I know there’s wrong and that you need help-”
“ I don’t-”
“ YOU DO– FUCK..TALK TO US-TALK TO ME ATLEAST..” He caressed my shoulder and I watched as his eyes teared up
“ If you need us- if you need me please come to me.. I’m always here for you just talk..”
I swallowed and looked down slowly as he spoke to avoid crying
“ I-..I just.. I’m..I’m sad “ My voice cracked as I looked up at him and felt a tear fall
Tears ran down his face but he stood there silently, holding me close in front of him, waiting for me to speak more
“ I’m so sad Woonhak.. And I don’t know what to do- I don’t wanna be sad anymore..” My voice continued to crack as I tried to speak and not flatout sob
“ you talk to me, baby, that’s what you do..” He said before pulling me into his embrace and I cried into his shoulder, softly sniffling
“ you talk to me..”
“ I’m so sad..” I cried softly into the nook of his neck and he rubbed my back softly as he held me tightly in his arms
“ I just don’t feel good enough as an idol, I don’t feel good enough as a person, as a friend, as a lover- to be loved by you guys.. I just want to be good enough “
“ you ARE good enough, you are good enough as all of those things, I promise, I promise..baby..” Woonhak cried into my skin
“ you–.. You’re lying.. Am I ..? “ I hiccuped as I continued to cry, I felt like crying harder and screaming into his chest but I just couldn’t do that
Not in public, not in the dorm, not anywhere, not to him
He forced me off of him just a bit to the point where he still held me but where I could look into his eyes while being in his arms
“ Yes. “ He said firmly with confidence as he stared into my eyes
“ Yes you are. “
He looked around for a moment before grabbing my hand and lead us back into the apartment complex building
“ come here, let’s go home. Let me be with you properly..” He mumbled into my head, kissing it softly
I stared at him.
I stared at him and I couldn’t pull my eyes away from him ever since his first yes and
W.C 2.8k | WARNINGS/GENRES; Starts off strong with HEAVY ANGST, INVOLVES SMUT mentions of self doubt and heavy self deprecation, lots and lots of crying, sudden mention of marriage, slowly turns into warmth and lovely mixed with sexual energy, rough sex/making love, comfort sex, mentions of crying while kissing, mentions of cum eating, after care, cuddling, very cute fluff at the end
I Feel Good era wasn’t feeling as good as it should.
We had been working nonstop with tours, concerts, schedules, traveling, practicing, music and song writing,
so it was safe to say everybody was feeling a bit sensitive around this comeback time and the last time this happened was 19.99 era.
The guys and I just came back from promotions for I Feel Good and 123-78, however, during the actual live take for I Feel Good, Jaehyun messed up.
It wasn’t even that bad or even that noticeable, honestly I didn’t even catch anything when I was on stage NEXT TO HIM but that didn’t matter.
All that mattered to Jaehyun was that Jaehyun noticed it and it turned his whole day upside down.
As soon as we entered the dorm, I heard Jaehyun sniffling along with his breathing becoming heavier. I followed him into his bedroom and shut the door behind us which led to Jaehyun immediately breaking down.
His hands flew to his face as he sobbed into his hands.
I felt time stop as I stood there for a minute processing the fact of my boyfriend, crying in front of me.
There was nothing wrong with him crying, I always told him how he had the space to be comfortable and vulnerable with me whenever he needed but I had never seen him break the way he did in front of me.
For a minute I wasn’t even sure what to do. I didn’t know what to say or how to act. My mind went blank.
My body acted on it’s own
“ Jaehyun..” I spoke softly and stepped towards him lightly
“ NO BECAUSE—“ His voice cracked as his sobs broke through his speech, as if he couldn’t control the fact he was crying and his hands flew off of his face as he threw them up in the air in frustration.
“ OUT OF—“ I heard his breathing increasing and his sobs get worse quickly, almost as if he was hyperventilating while crying.
“ Jaehyun baby breathe—“ I stepped closer and grabbed his hands firmly but gently
He shook his head and tried to face away from me but failed
“ OUT OF ALL THE TIMES I COULD HAVE MESSED UP- LIKE ALL THE REHERSALS WE DID AND OUTFIT CHECK AND MIC CHECK- I MESSED UP ON LIVE “ Jaehyun raised his voice as tears streamed down his face rapidly and his face grew red, small whimpers coming out
“ JAEHYUN- Jaehyun- It’s okay-“ I comforted him repeatedly hoping my voice would make it through to his ears through his spiral ramble
His ramble continue while he looked down at our hands that were in one another’s grasp
“ Jaehyun baby please it’s okay, listen to me, I promise it’s okay.. “ I spoke as I brought my hands up to his face, cupping his cheeks into my palms.
“ it’s normal for people to make mistakes, people make mistakes all the time.. you can make mistakes too and it doesn’t change you “
He whined and shook his head
“ I don’t understand how you could want to stay with someone like me who messes up all the time and is just- such a mess ! I’m a mess up ! “
I bit my bottom lip and held back the own tears of mine that were fighting to come through. It’s hard to watch your romantic partner be brought down by something so small and beat themselves up for it especially when you see them as nothing but perfect, even during the imperfect moments.
“ Jaehy-“
“ NO I DON’T GET IT- I DON’T GET IT. You don’t wanna be with me- You shouldn’t be with me, I’m not good for you and you deserve everything in the world and more and I don’t and you give me so much and I don’t do anything for you- You’re never going to ever want to marry me as a man as I am “
The pure sadness that I felt from hearing Jaehyun talk so lowly about himself was excruciating but then I caught onto something he said.
“ Jaehyun- You want to marry me? “
“ WELL YES BUT I CAN’T MARRY YOU WHEN I’M LIKE THIS “
I don’t even think it’s registering to him that he just admitted something big.
“ Baby- okay look- I get it. I get what you’re feeling and I’m not here to throw away what your feeling because I believe it’s okay to be sad and sit with your feelings for a bit but I can’t stand here and let you be swallowed by your thoughts. You are nothing that you are saying over just a mistake you made on stage- MIND YOU I DIDN’T EVEN NOTICE IT AND RIWOO ONLY NOTICED IT BECAUSE HE IS AN INSANE DANCER AND HE MAKES OUR CHOREO. Jaehyun there’s nothing wrong with you and you are perfect for me..” I spoke firmly to him, slowly grabbing his waist and holding them, pulling him closer to me little by little
“ bu-“
“ Jaehyun there is no one else in this fucking world that I would rather be with. Do you realize that ? I want to be with you, I’m happy with you, you are my perfect person. I love you. I want you. Nothing has changed and nothing WILL CHANGE.” The more I spoke, he began to cry and turned his face towards my hands tha held his face and cried into my palms, holding my arm.
“ I love you so much, I’m so sorry..” He sobbed into my skin, his tears staining my hand and wrist.
I smiled
“ I love you too baby..” I said as I faced him towards my face and leaned in slowly to see if he would reciprocate and or want a kiss.
His teary puppy eyes looked into mine before quickly, cupping my face into his hands as well and kissing my lips passionately.
I kissed him back with the same amount of energy, my hands immediately trailed down and wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer against my body.
I didn’t pull him in to be freaky with him, I just wanted to be able to connect with him. I wanted him against my body and feel him and let him feel me too. To remind him physically
I’m there.
I’m here.
As we kissed, I felt his tears come into contact with my cheeks and it made me giggle.
“ stop crying, my love..” I mumbled in between kisses
“ I’m sorry..” He mumbled
I held him firmly in my grip as the kiss continued, I moved us further into the bedroom and closer to the bed until I felt the bed hit my leg as an indication of where we were in the room, without opening my eyes.
We stood there for another minute
or five.. I didn’t exactly count
duh..
The longer we kissed, holding one another in each other’s embrace as his tears stained my skin, I felt him grow hard against me and I couldn’t lie that I grew hard from kissing him as well
I slowly pulled away and opened my eyes. Jaehyun fluttered his eyes open and the both of us stood there lost in each other’s gaze as we tried to catch our breath.
“ How far do you want me to go.. because I know you’re having a bad day so we can just cuddle and lay here..-“
“ no-.. I want to have sex.. I’m hard you know.. and I just..” His eyes trailed away from mine
“ I just want to feel your love.. if you..know.. what I mean.. I just need you right now..okay?” Jaehyun continued and I laughed softly
Jaehyun rolled his eyes and scoffed
“ fine then don’t-“
I shook my head and slammed my lips onto his before he could finish his sentence before pulling away after a minute
“ No I want to if that’s what you want, I’m hard too and.. I just want to do anything you want to do- but I want to do it too you know.. just to let you know..”
Jaehyun giggled and nodded
“ yeah I know..” He looked down, I could see his ears were red, assumingly from shyness, his hands trailed down my shirt softly
“ Can I take your shirt off then? “ I asked him
He looked up at me then his eyes darted around the room and he let out another scoff
“ You’re very direct you know..” He mumbled
I laughed and nodded “ yeah I know..”
He stood there for a moment, pressing his lips together and looking at me with such the cutest shy expression ever before lifting his arms up
I smiled and kissed his cheek softly before grabbing the ends of his shirt and sliding it up and over his head, tossing it to the corner of the room where his pile of dirty clothes were.
I kissed down his collarbone and down his stomach, ending at his waistband of his pants. I kissed along his waist and the bottom of his stomach for a moment while staring up into his eyes. I felt his body tense up and shiver as my lips made contact with his skin and the soft exhales that escaped his mouth.
I stood up to my feet again and slid my own shit off, throwing it to the same pile of clothes from mentioned before I pulled him closer by grabbing his waistband and tugging his body towards mine. He giggled and looked up at me and I giggled as well, kissing his lips softly and feeling his body melt into mine, wrapping his arms immediately around my neck and holding me against him.
I groaned slightly as I held him against my body, leaving room for nobody between us. I felt his body rise in temperature against mine as we kissed, my hands trailed around his body and wrapped around his waist. Our lips in sync, moving against one another roughly and entirely filled with this love and warmth.
He pulled away at first and let out a gentle sigh, catching his breath again before grabbing my hands and putting it on his waistband.
“ off..please..” Jaehyun mumbled
I chuckled and nodded, listening to his words and I began to unbutton his pants then unzip them, sliding his pants and boxers off in one swipe. He followed my movements and kicked his feet out of them and kicked them towards a random direction before he quickly did the same to me.
I watched with a small smile as I watched him take my pants off of me, then I followed him as well, kicking my feet out of them and towards the same direction as he did.
After helping me take my pants off he came back to my front view, grabbing my hands and putting them onto his waist before pulling me closer against his body
“ now..” Jaehyun mumbled
I tilted my head and grinned
“ what now? “ I asked teasingly and he pouted
He huffed before responding
“ sex.. fuck me now.. I want you now..”
My grin turned into a smile and I laughed, I pecked his like for a moment before kissing down his neck and down his collarbone, then kissing his shoulder firmly.
“ of course.. “ I mumbled against his skin before turning him around, his back facing me.
I quickly grabbed the lube that was on his desk nearby, squeezing some into my hand before rubbing it along my dick. I looked back at him after doing so and he looked back at me, watching me with his eyes in awe which did cause my face to heat up from just the pure shyness of it all from him watching me in that way.
I pressed my hand against the lower part of his back and bent him over onto the edge of his bed. I kissed along his back, up his neck and kissed along his ear, biting softly as a small wince left from him.
I grabbed my dick and inserted myself into him slowly, I gasped softly at the feeling as if it’s my first time having sex with him
but it’s not
and Jaehyun’s head fell forward, I watched as his hands gripped onto the bedsheets and he held them in his palms.
Eventually, I finally bottomed out inside of him and we both let out a relieved moan/sigh.
“ fuck baby you just feel good every fucking time..” I mumbled into his ear, leaning my body into him and he groaned in pleasure into the bed
I stayed still inside him for a moment before I wrapped my arms around him, pressing against his chest to force him to lean upwards and stand, his back against my chest while I held his body against me.
He looked over his shoulder to look at me and I smiled warmly
“ hi my baby.. I’m here don’t worry..” I mumbled against his cheek where I kissed and he whimpered softly
and I took that as a sign to finally move.
I kept my arms wrapped around his body tightly while I began to thrust deeply into him. He threw his head back onto my shoulder and let out a loud moan, his hands tried to grab at my sides to try and hold onto something.
I started off with slow and deep thrust and quickly changed my speed towards fast, rough and deep thrust. I crumble under pleasure too quickly and at this point, not only am I chasing this orgasm of mine but I’m almost in a trance as I hear my boyfriend moan my name loudly just for me and I need to give him what he wants and desires for quickly.
I let out breathless moan as I continued to thrust roughly into him as Jaehyun’s moans continued to be loud, his body began to shake in my grasp and one hand of mine immediately flew to his dick, wrapping it around him and stroking him quickly at the same pace of my thrust.
Jaehyun gasped loudly and threw his head back against my shoulder once more
“ fuck yeah- fuck- cum for me baby, you can do it, cum for me- all over my hand- I want it all please baby- fuck~” I spoke in between grunts and moans, not stopping my thrust or any movements in the process
He nodded his head repeatedly, his moans becoming suddenly louder
“ p-per-permission-?” He moaned out, checking he got permission from me to release and I laughed breathlessly
“ fuck- yes baby i’m gonna cum- cum with me-“
As soon as those words were even uttered out of my mouth, Jaehyun practically screamed in pleasure and my hand rubbing his tip repeatedly making him arch his back off of my and squirm around.
I came shortly after him with a loud moan, throwing my head back, thrusting myself deep into him and burying my cum into him.
I slowly came to a stop and slowly let go of Jaehyun who fell forward onto the bed, bent over.
I chucked breathlessly and grabbed a wet wipe, wiping all the wetness from his thighs then with a towel to dry it off with one hand before leaning over him, licking all his cum off my hand
and he watched in admiration.
I hummed happily before cleaning myself up quickly, then going back to Jaehyun. I laid him down on the bed carefully before laying down next to him and throwing the covers over us
“ they heard us..” he mumbled, laying on me
I laughed and nodded
“ I mean- yeah probably, neither of us even tried to stay quiet.. especially you “
Jaehyun laughed loudly and pushed me
“ Don’t say that ! “
The both of us laughed and I held him close to me again as he laid on my chest and his words echoed in my head
“ You want to marry me ? “ I asked
He shot his head up in my direction with a shock looked and then covered his mouth in realization
“ I said that didn’t I..” He said into his palm and I nodded my head with a smile
“ you did- is this going to be a pattern of you surprising me with things like this suddenly? It’s how you confessed to me too a year ago, remember ?”
He laughed hard and nodded
“ yeah I remember! .. but..” Jaehyun spoke
“ I uh-.. did.. mean it.. you know.. I want to marry you..”
I laid there and stared at him before I melted into a big smile
“ I would like that too if you’re okay with that..”
Jaehyun nodded and smiled sheepishly, laying his head on my chest
“ BUT THATS NOT OFFICIALLY US GETTING ENGAGED, RIGHT ? “ Jaehyun shot up again
I laughed “ NO not at all “
He sighed in relief and laid down
“ okay.. good..”
“ because I want to be the one to ask you and give you the ring..”
