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[mx-rian]

To anyone dealing with apathy in life.

Trust me. 

It is never too late.

Get out of bed. Wash your face. Brush your teeth. Put on some makeup. Change clothes. Make up your bed. Clean your room. Do the hoovering. Throw your clothes in the wash. Wash the dishes. Read something interesting. Do some of your uni work. Write a paragraph in your diary. Eat something healthy. Put on your favourite song. Sing it badly. Call an old friend. Message a new friend. Go outside for a short walk. Take some pictures. Go to a cafe. Make a cup of tea. Think about something deep, or something trivial. Adopt a pet. Book some plane or train tickets. Paint your nails. Plan your day tomorrow.

It doesn’t matter what you do. It doesn’t matter how many of them you do. It doesn’t matter if you do none of the above.

What matters is that you’re doing something. 

There is no magic key to becoming excited in life again. Its just not that simple. But you should never underestimate the power of action. The power of movement. The power of living. 

Action will mean different things for different people. Some people do these things everyday, but need to try something new. Some people struggle to do anything, which makes every action a big deal. Some people will need to challenge themselves to be around people, others will find they need time alone. Some people will need to come out of their thoughts, others will need to give time to their thoughts. Some people will need to do something small, others may need to do something big. 

No matter what you’re struggling with, just remember it is never too late to do something about it. Don’t wait for motivation. Don’t wait for a spark of creativity. Don’t wait for your depression, your anxiety, or insecurities, to go away. 

You are not merely a puppet in your pain’s hands. You are not simply a victim to apathy. You are so much more. 

You are a force to be reckoned with.

[littlelostalotgrateful]

depression feel

i want to talk to u but i dont care enough

i want to talk to u but i cant think of anything worthwhile to say

i want to talk to u but i dont want to talk

[aki-13-blog]

But even though anxiety is such a powerful emotion, not all of the symptoms it causes are as filled with energy. In fact, one of the most common symptoms of extreme anxiety is apathy.

calmclinic.com

yeah - emphasis on that last line, so quit with the ‘lazy’ accusations, the constant reminders that I’m ‘not doing enough’, the dismissive ‘that’s cos you don’t get enough exercise’ comments when I mention my arms and legs start spasming after so much as lifting a couple of boxes of DVDs.

(via aki-13)

[pinkorangepink-deactivated20170]

-Paulo Coelho, Adultery

[intothefrisson]

#Me irl. New response image to everything.

DA/FB/IG

[sizvideos]

Last surviving 9/11 rescue dog has the best day ever for his birthday

Video

[assmun]

i’m having those gross ‘i don’t mean anything’ feelings again. the ones where i wonder if all the effort i put forth is ever worth it because i won’t be as important to people as they are to me. i can feel myself growing more isolated and i want to fling a hand out to grab onto someone, but i don’t want to be a burden. my friends shouldn’t have to comfort me or deal with my mental issues, but sometimes i wish someone would take the time to reassure me. i wish someone would tell me i’m special, that i’m talented, that their life would be dull without me. i need to know i mean something so i have a reason to stay. i don’t want to be an attention whore but it’s okay to want a little attention. i don’t want to feel guilty for asking for a little attention.

[guardians-of-the-food]

Lazy Cookie Bars

[romyyao]

One night I couldn’t find sleep I realised hogwarts bathrooms were never described (and I was craving onsens because since I discovered them I’m obsessed) and I was thinking onsens would super fit hufflepuffs ! Then I tried to imagine the other houses’ bathrooms … So here it is ! It was a great exercise for me as I never design backgrounds ! (uh tumblr presentation is shitty ;_;)

[wordsnquotes]

You get tired, sometimes, of wit and intellect; everybody’s little display of genius.

Michael Cunningham, The Hours

[wnq-writers]

How disheartening it must be for this poor girl to hide every time she exposes pieces of her soul. The chaos she must endure as she drowns in her own secrecy, hoping to shine but too afraid to leave the shadows behind.

A.L. Nash (via wnq-writers)

[abravemansaid-blog]

Disney + tumblr

[twloha]

“I have beaten myself up for feeling too much and for thinking that feeling too much was a sign of weakness.” - Anies Castillo, “Knowing Depression Isn’t Weakness”

[twloha]

There is nothing braver than living through these days with the curtains drawn tight around your chest and these nights where every candle you own couldn’t emit enough light to help you find your way. There is nothing braver than living through these feelings. You are a warrior in an unsuspecting body, fighting every day just to be.

Fortesa Latifi, “Promise Me Tomorrow”

[brehatano]

When sadness curls itself at the foot of your bed. When grief finds home in the basement of your chest. When your heart’s garden swears it cannot grow here. When the day feels too heavy. When the balcony is a thieving distraction. When the drawers in the kitchen siren to you. When the night is as heavy as an anchor and you cling to your own shore. Remember: you are the ocean. A single drop 
in a child’s hand that can hold up a ship. When you make a mistake. 
When you misstep or misspeak. When you find yourself underneath 
the stains of your human (because 
you ARE human). When the heavy of it all 
calls to you like a wailing animal. Remember: there is nothing wrong with you. There is everything significant about you. From your shoulders to your shins, from the galaxies in your irises 
to the orchestra in your throat. When the friends seem so few. When the phone doesn’t ring. When it does but you are too afraid to answer—too afraid you are too quiet or take up too much space. Remember: your name does not begin or end in silence. Your story is not over. There are still chapters in this book. There is still time to fall in love. To fall out. To shatter and mend. To forgive and be forgiven. Keep reading. Crown your failures. 
Scream “I Am Worthy” until the stars 
collapse upon your brilliance. Know if depression is the verse, 
then hope is the chorus. Allow yourself to exist in this melody
 even when the instrument of your body 
is tired of playing. Self-love is not selfish.
 It is the mantra of someone who 
recognizes where they have been 
and where they need to go. Find your love in the lake. See how it ripples. 
How it continues. It is the Earth’s way of saying “you are important, you are endless.” Be good to you. Tell yourself I deserve the keep. I deserve to love and be loved. I deserve the whole show, the encore, the darkness that falls like a curtain and the morning that will always follow. We will be the voice that sings behind you. The receiving end of a phone call “no, you are not alone” “no, you are not broken.” We will run forward to greet you and together, we will dance like wild fire because there is reason to celebrate. We will be. We will finally be. I will see you tomorrow. I will see you tomorrow. We’ll see you tomorrow.

Sierra DeMulder & Tonya Ingram

[veronikelly-mars-deactivated201]

I wrote about the lies depression told me for the amazing @twloha community last week. This was such an incredible opportunity and I’m grateful for being able to share my story.

5 Lies Depression Told Me

[twloha]

You are helpful, and you are loved, and you are forgiven, and you are not alone.

John Green