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ew

i'm sexually frustrated

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a picture of my ass in a still unpacked room

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wasting away

is it too late to accomplish everything i wanted? i could have been great but i was washed out by the reality that others sold to me who's to say that i'll be anything less than what i dreamed to be? my dreams tho, have become much more mundane. what is the point of having a voice if you can't even hear yourself through the walls you put up? so often i write in the forms of questions. asking myself the questions i wished others would ask. forcing myself to answer or at least think of the things that others would never dare ask of me. i want expectations again, if only to push myself to do more than i have been. i've been stagnant to the point of staleness. no longer a living breathing growing human, but rather a vessel for the passage of time.

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kill me at the next antifa rally

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all i do now is consume

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didn’t take long for the depression to kick in

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killing myself

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i’m losing it, but really I'm just not getting my way?

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what have #you been listening to lately

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dissolving myself

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people really be thinking that i’m weak like that

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sometimes just a picture can set me off and keep me awake for hours

the picture of you on grindr makes my stomach ache you messaged me saying hey, could you tell it was me my photo of my drawing might have not been obvious did i ever show you that picture of the dog i met in oaxaca?

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realizing I'm an average ass bitch

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when sha’quana jokingly says “i hate anyone who’s not white”

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i hooked up with a boy last night. it was lazy and disconnected. but on the way

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just so you know, i’m not doing anything with my life

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sometimes i wonder whether the fact that my depression has never reached the point of serious thoughts of suicide is even a blessing. 

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tbh weed is such a blessing