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✰ drawing is my coping mechanism ✰

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weathered boy 🍃🎐

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more valo art back from da ded woo

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a good reason

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part 2

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a good reason

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Me: "I don't like sushi."

Him: "Aw what? I like sushi."

Me: "At least this means you don't have to share your food."

Him: "But I want to share my food with you."

i still think about this convo a lot and it gets me every time

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when my pairs of pants wear out in just a few months of working 2 jobs despite me owning it all since 2020

i wore out a sturdy pair of nonslip shoes in just 4 months because of working two jobs too lol

wore out as in the soles just... popped off

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realizing ive associated resting as dangerous - something wrong, and feel guilty for doing

in other words I feel guilty for taking breaks or resting because I'll be seen as useless

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Welcome to the new year! not much has happened yet, but that's bound to change to ring in the new year, i'm gonna commit to something stupid for the hell of it — a 24 hour stream to start the year because why the hell not ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

gonna allow for some capitalistic torture as well:

for every 30 bits, i'll do 30 seconds of planking. if there are multiple (which there likely won't be) at a time, i'll have a counter to keep track of how much more time i have to plank

for 100 bits, i'll go on a 1 minute monologue/rant about the topic of your choosing, provided that it is stream safe and nonsensical, like opinions of fettucine alfredo

for every sub on this stream, the person who gifted or subbed can choose a song to force me to sing in earnest, as long as it's stream safe, regardless of if i know it. if it's not stream safe, i'll veto and and let you pick another until an appropriate song is found

on the agenda:

Valorant (1 practice round, 1 swiftplay, 1 comp)

Finishing Live A Live (currently 3/7 storylines finished)

Date Everything (reach love ending with at least 3-5 characters)

if all goes well, i'll start up Tears of the Kingdom

god this is a long text block, apologies to whoever comes across this

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been wondering why i dislike the game dispatch but then i saw a video of someone describing it as "twilight for dudes" and it clicked for me

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it's 9:30am, yknow what that mean? trying to finish a whole ass rpg in one go, apparently (hope y'all had a good holiday season!)

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it'a that time of the night again where i believe no one cares who i am or what i say or what i make and maybe i should go outside and wander and wander until i hit a pole

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being artistic while having a partner is hard because you wanna make something for them, but then you remember the sweater theory, and now i fear anything i make will result in that

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all i want for xmas is for my partner to visit me, a new toaster, and the Bert and Ernie plushies from hallmark

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drew my partner but i dont think i drew him correctly end me

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the urge to draw your partner but fearing your depiction of them will look way different than what they actually look like

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Page 94.

I cannot recall the last time I cried while reading a book. A while ago, I was reading this part to my partner - it's a thing we began doing where I read to him - and while I like to believe I don't cry easily, I did for the time. Such a simple paragraph, but I was quick to love and care for Charlie before then. I always joked he was like my son, but I think he is more like a younger me. It's like I'm reading a diary entry. Young Aster felt and experienced the same things at Charlie's age. I tried calming down and kept reading to my partner, but I was already too far down the sentimental route.

Ah Charlie. I wish I could write to you.

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line paper just hits different idk