i know i haven't been around here a whole lot in the past few months and i've been carrying around a lot of guilt over it (and my lack of updates).
real life has been super busy lately despite the fact that i've actually been home with no long stretches of travel since late may, and as a result it's been almost as long without any productive writing. and while nobody's gotten on my case about it (thankfully), that doesn't mean i'm not mad at myself for it. i keep telling myself that it's okay to take a break and i'll get back to writing when i find the time and some peace of mind, but the guilt unfortunately remains.
so i think for the time being i'm going to take a full step back from fandom as a whole (which includes tumblr) and try to get my shit together and start writing for me again. i still love hellcheer, i think about them all the time, but the thought of actually sitting down to try to write just fills me with crippling anxiety and i hate that.
love u guys and i hope to see you soon π
