to love is to turn back.

muse list: here. rules: here. penned by freckles as of may 2025.

[astrocuriosities]

( feat. muses from sk8, blue lock, jjk & many more.)

minors & personals dni. mun is 30+. triggers tagged. nsfw themes present. oc friendly. multishipped & multiversed. -> like to interact!

♡ roster found here.

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url change!

fortyninealiases -> astrocuriosities.

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so uh, apparently I am also adding makoto tachibana to my roster too. @gloomyrains said free in 2026 and I said SAY FUCKIN LESS RIGHT NOW

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( @constellaris )

Chigiri could be patient at times, but when it came to this? Absolutely not. He'd been holding back for such a long time, both of them so focused on soccer, having been pulled apart ... But maybe it was why he couldn't bring himself to hesitate any more.

A hand reached up to grasp a fistful of Kunigami's shirt, pulling the taller male down only to meld lips with his. The kiss was haphazard at best, but he hoped, if nothing else, his feelings for the other finally came through - because even if Kunigami wasn't the same as he once was, Chigiri still loved his hero dearly.

kunigami didn't have time to question the hand gripping the front of his shirt, or time to think about what about to happen before there were lips pressing against his own. at first, he didn't move. the shock had taken hold of him more than anything. he had thought of this before, yes. but actually having chigiri kissing him was entirely unexpected.

after a few seconds though, he gathered himself enough to return the kiss. his hands went up to the shorter boy's jaw, cupping his face to deepen the kiss. it was the first time since everything that he actually felt human again, and he wasn't ready to let it go.

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bluelock rping is a weird time for me because like, okay, haikyuu boys still seemed to have lives outside of volleyball. so I can throw that in and it's cool whatever. they are just dudes being dudes.

bluelock boys are just SOCCERSOCCERSOCCER 95% of the time? and because they're in the fucking soccer squid games we really barely get to see their like, normal lives? though I am not entirely sure they have any sort of normal life.

which makes rping it kinda funny because you have to like improvise their actual life outside of gay soccer squid game hell.

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adding to it, I have not interacted with the fandom much outside of rping here so im missing like the Fanon things that might as well be canon. with hq, ive been reading fanfics and stuff for it since 2017? or something like that. and like, cosplaying it and everything.

maybe I should go find some fanfics. I haven't looked yet because I need ones that aren't just smut and everything I see on the Tumblr tags is like PORN. OLIVER X FEMALE READER SMUT. like my guy, I do not wanna be *in* the fandom like that, please. I just wanna observe. let them fuck each other, not me.

[astrocuriosities]

bluelock rping is a weird time for me because like, okay, haikyuu boys still seemed to have lives outside of volleyball. so I can throw that in and it's cool whatever. they are just dudes being dudes.

bluelock boys are just SOCCERSOCCERSOCCER 95% of the time? and because they're in the fucking soccer squid games we really barely get to see their like, normal lives? though I am not entirely sure they have any sort of normal life.

which makes rping it kinda funny because you have to like improvise their actual life outside of gay soccer squid game hell.

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kunigami finds himself pushing strands of the other's hair back towards his head without realizing it, getting it out of the walkway of anybody who may pass by. when he notices, he quickly withdraws his hand and promptly ignores the realization of how soft the boy's hair is. the hand ends up falling and landing on chigiri's arm, unnoticed by rensuke. " how long does this 'floor time' last anyway? "

[constellaris]

It was such a simple gesture, something that could have easily been brushed off, but it was hard to deny the way his heart fluttered from such a gentle touch. Head turned enough to be able to look up toward Kunigami, humming softly to himself as he eventually shifted just enough to be able to prop his head on his thigh.

" As long as I wanna stay down here . What , wanna drag me away instead ? "

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the pressure on his thigh from the other getting comfortable doesn't go unnoticed. rensuke does his best not to look down though, not wanting to deal with the way staring at chigiri makes him forget about soccer for a minute; the way it makes him feel almost human again. something he hasn't felt since being the wildcard. it's better to ignore it altogether. at least for now.

" i mean, there's probably at least four other places that are better to sit, but whatever I guess. "

[ofamess]

"Forget the board, ride me." @fortyninealiases

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" cook me dinner first, " kaoru replies without even looking over his shoulder at the other. he continues pulling his hair back, long pink strands going into a messy sort of bun atop his head. " and then maybe I will. "

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" somebody's gonna step on your hair at this rate, princess. " the redhead says, but he moves to sit on the floor next to chigiri anyway, though he couldn't say why.

[constellaris]

" As if you'd let someone do that while you're here , hero . " Now that he had the company, however, Chigiri took the chance to move that little bit closer, even draping an arm lazily over the other's lap.

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kunigami finds himself pushing strands of the other's hair back towards his head without realizing it, getting it out of the walkway of anybody who may pass by. when he notices, he quickly withdraws his hand and promptly ignores the realization of how soft the boy's hair is. the hand ends up falling and landing on chigiri's arm, unnoticed by rensuke. " how long does this 'floor time' last anyway? "

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whatever you do, don't think of our ship(s) in an orpheus/eurydice situation. which of them is orpheus and turns back and which is the doomed(?) lover, eurydice? because to love is to turn back.

wait I'm comin' with you. wait for me. I'm comin' too.

[shinumeru]

Karma portraits

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oh yeah forgot to mention.

@fatealtered convinced me (not that it took a lot at like all) to add Ivan & Till both from ALIEN STAGE.

I may also add Hyuna (she's so pretty and gives me feelings). Maybe Luca (he's a biiiig maybe. he just seems fascinating).

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he raises a brow, staring down at the redhead sprawled at his feet. " what the hell are you doing? "

[constellaris]

" It's called floor time . " A slow blink up at the other, one hand reaching to almost playfully bat at one of his legs. " My back was sore , this helps a lot actually . Problem ? "

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" somebody's gonna step on your hair at this rate, princess. " the redhead says, but he moves to sit on the floor next to chigiri anyway, though he couldn't say why.

[constellaris]

He's just ... Laying on the floor. Honestly just leave him here.

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he raises a brow, staring down at the redhead sprawled at his feet. " what the hell are you doing? "

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@ofamess | you said you wanted ff and weddings but didn't specify that they couldn't be *together.* c:

the headache pounding between his eyes is enough to tell Nyx that maybe, just maybe, he should not have gotten quite as drunk as he did last night. normally, his tolerance is much higher than this. he's always been able to drink even the younger glaives under the table. " fuck, " he grumbles under his breath because holy shit, this feels like being a teenager all over again. the sunlight creeping through the shades pierces through his eyelids, making the headache worse.

he rolls over to try to get away from the glare of the sun, only for his arm to fall against the warmth expanse of --- who the fuck is in his bed? steel colored eyes peek open immediately. who the hell is she? and why is she still in his bed?

[kisaragisecret]

Lay Your Head Down || @fortyninealiases

Yuffie was exhausted. She had been on the road all day, and barely had time to rest. Her feet ached in ways she didn't think were possible. The woman dropped her bag down on the floor, before slumping onto the couch and crawling over to the male to lay her head in his very inviting lap.

"I don't care, you could be a plank of wood and I'd still want to lay on you." She murmured, turning herself inwards to bury her face in his shirt, allowing herself to wrap an arm around his waist as her eyes fluttered closed.

It was certainly an unconventional way to sleep, but it was comfy to her.

@fortyninealiases

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Prompto had spent a lot of the day training with Gladio, his muscles protesting at every unnecessary move. So he was more than content to simply be a bed for somebody if it meant he didn't have to do another push up until tomorrow.

he lifted his arms and let them hover while yuffie maneuvered around to get comfortable. her face buried into his stomach, and he couldn't help but think of how cute she looked. finally, he let his arms fall, one hand held his phone as he scrolled through mooglegram. the other arm found its way into her hair, fingers softly brushing through the strands. " as somebody who has had to sleep outside a lot in his life, I can promise you do not want to lay on wood. " his gaze flicked from his phone back down to the girl laying on him. " long day? "

[kisaragisecret]

Kiss the Girl || @fortyninealiases

Yuffie's cheeks were tinged with pink, as she searched his eyes for any sign that he was uncomfortable. She smiled, biting her lip ever so slightly before closing the distance between them. The woman tiptoed, her hand daintily stroking his cheek.

Hesitantly, she leaned in, her nose brushing his. She allowed her lips to graze his, testing the waters. The brunette didn't want to scare him off, and leaned back ever so slightly after their initial kiss, allowing him to choose whether he wanted more.

@fortyninealiases

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any thoughts he had that maybe she was joking about this faded as soon as her lips pressed to his. it was soft and sweet, just as nervous as he felt. it sent static through him, his heart beating like crazy in his chest. his own cheeks matched the pink washed across hers.

" oh, wow. I --- " god he was so nervous. prompto stared down at her for a moment, taking in the soft features of her face, a nervous smile still on his face, before he leaned down and kissed her once again.