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kasia - 25 - leo ☉ & ☾- aries ⇡- she/they - (icon by amandaherzman)

[leosuncancervenus]

i love u so much

public announcement I love kasia astrolanguini so much

[saltoncity]

here’s how natasha pierre & the great comet of 1812 can still sweep

[leosuncancervenus]

I gave up on fundraising for a car bc it didn’t go anywhere but it is urgent as in we need a car right now 4/27/26

Donate to Reliable Car for Young, Queer Black Couple, organized by Arianna Richardson

My name is Arie, and me and my partner of 3.5 years desperately need a c… Arianna Richardson needs your support for Reliable Car for Young,

We were driving a very old and torn up like genuinely disintegrating all over Volkswagen Beetle with a bent frame, which causes a lot of problems and safety issues. Our tires are misaligned and shredding from the inside out until they explode. There is nothing we can do to stop it, we’ve been continuously replacing the tires. One blew while my gf was otw home from work Saturday and her parents brought our spare but!!

The rest of the tires will explode soon too, and a car like this has very specific and convoluted requirements for umm. Everything. There is a key needed to change the tires which got lost in the chaos Saturday, sooo we cannot put new tires on and are essentially car-less!

We are exhausted. We’ve made do in this thing with no safety, no reliability, no space, minimal hot air and no cold air at all for 2 brutal Michigan winters and summers. My gf is in school and working 2 jobs, one of which is a 30 min commute. Rides back and forth to mine would run us $50 a day if we’re lucky, $100+ for hers. We don’t have options. The mental toll is overrrly high. We’re trying our hardest, especially my girlfriend, and we need your help.

We don’t need something fancy or expensive. If we can even get to 2 or 2.5K maybe we might be able to make something shake? My personal shit, as always, is heartemojie on cashapp and venmo + 13thead on PayPal. Thank you so much

(Us in a market 5 years ago the first time I visited her and this city / us this year in our home 🫶🏽)

Just for funsies, screenshot from when our gear shift collapsed earlier this month as an example of the disintegration, every part of the car is doing this:)

[leosuncancervenus]

BHM is still on and me and my gf (black nonbinary wlw) still need a car :(

Hi everyone I finally made the fundraiser. I'm not sure it'll go anywhere but I have to try. Tbh ever since I cut my racist mom off all I hear from my (non-Black) little siblings is how she's giving them hundreds of dollars and paying for their cars and it's making it too difficult to ignore how much I'm lacking familial support due to racism (she abandoned both of her 2 black children at 16 and ceased supporting us completely), so I am ready to ask for help after trying & failing to recover on my own for 2 years lol.

For the unfamiliar: I was almost finished paying off my car when it broke down and the dealership found a loophole to refuse to honor my warranty to cover the damage to the engine. I couldn't get to work anymore bc I was living in a very rural ndn village & had no help so I had to quit my job and fly from NC to MI with my partner months before we'd planned to. Really fucked our savings and our start to our life together tbh :(

My gf's car is a family friend's very old car which is literally deteriorating. It is often not safe to drive, there is no AC and minimal heat- I was sick at work all Summer bc I couldn't take the heat on the drive in. I'm hoping we can replace my car so we can both work more and either try to fix her car or get a safer one

Donate to Replace Our Totaled Car, organized by Arianna Richardson

My name is Arie, and me and my partner of 3.5 years desperately need a car! Mine broke down… Arianna Richardson needs your support for Repla

I'm still heartemojie on cashapp & venmo and 13thead on paypal if anyone prefers that over gfm!! Thanks so much for sharing i love you to death

[astrolanguini]

i feel like i’m flipping back and forth between the two extremes rn of feeling like im having important revelations about friendship that will help me change and do better and be better and like uhh. well i feel doomed and awful and s*icidal as well. is it too late for me? what if i screwed it all up already. i’m anxious. i havent been taking any of my meds consistently for a while and i actually. don’t remember the last time i took any of them at all rn. but im unsure if thats a bad thing? i think i probably need them my therapist thinks i need them. i cant sleep. i probably need them. but i also feel such a sense of clarity rn yk? everything feels bad but i feel like im seeing it all so clearly. it doesn’t feel good i feel sad i feel scared but i feel like what if thats because its true? yk?

[astrolanguini]

i think probably ultimately i do post absolutely fucking everything in my worst moments ever to instagram bc it makes me feel like i’m being vulnerable and reaching out for help or connection or whatever the fuck without ummm actually doing that :)

[astrolanguini]

the problem is my whole life most of my best friends have always lived far away :/

[astrolanguini]

one fear is alleviated and another steps in to take its place.

[astrolanguini]

i can’t sleep i’m freaking out. can’t stop thinking about arie dy*ng or my mom dy*ng or my brother or sister or any or all of my friends. help. i miss my grandma. how are you supposed to live meeting people and loving them and knowing that everyone you love is gonna leave your life one day unless you leave first. i’m scared my mom is so tired and stressed i can’t stop thinking about how mad ill be if she doesn’t live at least as long as her parents have. i’m so scared. who else knows me? when my mom dies? if arie? i don’t know what id do. i dont want to think about it but i cant stop thinking about it. arie is right here next to me sleeping and warm. but i cant stop thinking about if something happens. before we lived together even when we were just friends i used to worry about. well what if catastrophe befell our states and the power was gone and there was no postal or cell service. what if something happened to my best friend and id never know? never see or hear my friend again? i used to be so sick about it i thought about how i would need to make sure i had the address memorized so i could find my way down there. just in case. and now we live together and we want to build a life together and i worry. i cant imagine never seeing arie again i feel so sick thinking about it. but i cant stop. when i was little i was often randomly Struck like this. imagining my mom dying and not being able to stop in the middle of the school day. crying until my mom had to come get me. it happened all the time as a child so ig it feels almost childish to me to worry about right now. no sense worrying, my mom would say. but i cant stop :( it wont stop. i dont know what to do rn i still dont know how to get myself out of this

[leosuncancervenus]

As they say. Bark like u want it (no pronouns)

[astrolanguini]

ARF ARF ARF

[astrolanguini]

perhaps i am the worst person perhaps im the man with the knife im the enemy even

[astrolanguini]

it’s fall and i had to work on my grandma’s birthday and the day of the last time i saw her is fast approaching and every day all i can think of is all the regret i have. i left dinner early that night. i was supposed to bring her breakfast soon. i should have done it sooner. i lied to her and i took too long to come clean. both of my grandmas held me in their laps my whole life and i still didn’t trust them like i should have. now i’ll never get to. what is wrong with me? i miss them. i felt safest with them even now in my head when i need to feel safe i go back to being in their arms. on the couch with my grandpa playing piano in the living room. why didn’t i trust them ?

[astrolanguini]

how do people do this how do people do anything

[astrolanguini]

this has been one of the most difficult years of my life i think tbh which is awful to think abt considering how bad some of the other years have been and that im mentally preparing myself for when my parents and tatu d*e too. like those haven’t even happened yet. and im functional more than ever yay wow i have had 2-3 jobs at all times for the past three or four years and now im in school as well and sometimes i dont even hate it. i live with someone i love and dont have to be afraid of. i even Like going to work at one of my jobs. why then im still so fucking sad. why im still so fucking lonely. i feel more emotionally closed off than ever to the point i don’t really recognize myself rn and it’s freaking me the fuck out. i miss my fucking grandmas. one year without grandma soon and this year is three without madear. and i lied to them and now i have a life i wish i could show them and i will never ever be able to even talk to them again.

[astrolanguini]

post abt wanting to kill yourself on instagram and you will soon have something new fresh and exciting to want to kill yourself over :)

[astrolanguini]

i love posting smth crazy on instagram and running away and then coming back and seeing people have seen it and then wanting to kill myself bc of that

[astrolanguini]

haha does anybody else ever get scared that people are assuming the worst possible thing about them at all times