From the Greek word for spirits of the constellations, astrothesiai.
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About the Mundane ✶ Mage/Star/Schuriscloa ✶ 30+ years old ✶ Tired Soul
About the Blog ✶ Private, Selective ✶ Mutuals’ Only ✶ Independent Multi-Muse ✶ Multi-Fandom ✶ Roleplay
Consists Mainly Original Characters & Some Canon Characters
Crossovers Highly Welcome
Series ✶ Fairy Tail, Fandomless, Fate/ franchise, Final Fantasy XIV, Gundam Wing, Honkai Star Rail, Katekyo Hitman Reborn!, Love and Deepspace, Obey Me!, One Piece, Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon, Shin Megami Tensei III: Nocturne/Lucifer’s Call, Trigun/Trigun Stampede, Wuthering Waves, and more!
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I do not condone certain actions, decisions, and choices of my muses.
I am here to write a story.
Updated ✶
October 26, 2025
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Tertiary -- Semi-Active/Semi-Inspired
Secret -- Testing
Request -- Least Active/Least Inspired, but will write as them still.
#abyssaldesire ～❥ a indie, highly selective, mutuals only, 21+ , multimuse roleplay blog featuring muses from Love & Deep//space. Low Activity. Blog is in no way associated with In//fold, nor does it support the latest drama. Heavily Based On Mun's Interpretation of Lore from game and by self made head canons. OCs/MCs, LIs, Crossovers are welcome. Replies can vary between one liners to multi-para. Various Verses Available.
Personals / Non RP Blogs DNI.
Portrayed Lovingly by Pandora/Mya. 31. CST timezone.
This blog operates under DEAD DOVE: DO NOT EAT. Don't like? DO NOT FOLLOW.
Remade 7/1/2026. Promo Credit.
I’ll be writing descriptions for my friend on my fandomless oc’s with her and figuring out my new rules. I will be retiring some characters.
They might come back except for others. I split time here and on discord.
For now:
30+ Mun. I go by Mage. You must be 18/21+ to write with me.
Please don’t get too attached to me. Friendships take much longer for me with some of you than with others.
I’m here mainly for friendship and writing.
I am few-ship multi-ship. And I ship with chemistry.
I split my time here and on Discord.
If you ship a character with me, you will have let me know.
I do write spice and dark content, let’s discuss some boundaries first.
I am rusty with paragraph roleplay.
Will take time off for self care and irl. It isn’t you, it’s me.
I don’t try to be intimidating. I do want to get along.
Please tell me if you want to cease shipping with me.
I am not affiliated with the creators of various canon characters or companies. Particularly, In//fold. Please don’t assume I am.
I am an artist and writer before I am a roleplayer.
If you’re looking for my LaDs Server, it has a new owner. Due to the current incident with Infold, I’m hesitant to make another. Sorry.
Just because I write people with questionable morals and opinions, does not mean I agree with them. While I might not have much faith in humanity at this time, it might change in the future because I still have hope people will prove my cynical heart wrong.
I don’t really know how to write this without feeling embarrassed, so I’m just going to be honest.
A while back, I came to Florida (i know, disgusting) to be with someone because I didn’t really have anywhere else to go after my mom was evicted. That situation happened suddenly and without her really telling me what was going on. It threw me into a manic episode at a time when I wasn’t thinking clearly and hadn’t been diagnosed with bipolar yet.
I’m not saying that to avoid responsibility. I made the choice to come here. I’m owning that. I'm the fucking dumbass in this equation.
But I was also scared, unstable, and trying to survive with the options I had at the time.
The person I came here for is not the same person I thought I was building a life with. The relationship has changed in ways that feel unhealthy and manipulative to me.
Right now I’m trying to make a safe, realistic plan to relocate / get back closer to home / get somewhere stable again. I don’t have the car I came with, I don’t have family or friends who can take me in, and I’m trying very hard not to make a panicked or impulsive move.
If anyone can help with resources, signal boosts, women’s resource centers, job leads, transit-friendly cities, rooms for rent, relocation advice, or even a few dollars toward transportation/moving costs, I would be really grateful.
At this point everything is going towards me leaving this asshole. The initial shock has worn off, but I’m so out of it mentally because he keeps trying to egg me on about packing and asking where I’m going and I’m about to spiral so bad.
The resources I’ve found in Florida I don’t qualify for since I’m currently living somewhere. I’m trying to find jobs out in the Midwest where it’s cheaper to live. I’m not going to be staying in FL. I’ve applied for like 25 over the weekend alone.
Meanwhile I’m working and trying to stay awake. I went to the ER AGAIN for angiodema. They gave me Atarax (hydroxyzine) this time which also is an anxiety medication. I’m super tired.
This shit isn’t easy peasy pumpkin squeezy pumpkin pie motherfucker.
I’m still cleaning the house, but things are getting back in order.
Somewhat.
I hope everyone is doing well, and hopefully I should be back to semi regular posting.
it’s been a roller coaster ride since March 2026 and I’m very sorry for that. I don’t know if I can come back, it’s been a long time, but I’ll do my best.
There’s probably gonna be a lot of changes, and especially with how I run this blog. I grew a few vertebrae segments. The next six months might not be easier either, but that’s been anticipated.
(( I haven’t been here for the better part of two months? I’m really sorry for that. My previous primary gmail was compromised along with my discord. It was incredibly scary for me, and I needed time away from anything having to do with emails, passwords, and other things.
in the middle of the fiasco, I lost my new primary gmail. However, I couldn’t retrieve the account until mid April. I lost a lot of accounts, potential friends, and my rp server. So, I had been grieving.
I should be returning to tumblr in the weeks that come by. It’ll be a slow process. I’ll write up my muses’ birthday wishes. But first I’m going to roll some more for this current hot spring banner. ))
The last days were spent scrambling to save my accounts from being compromised by a scammer. This morning I couldn’t log into my new email account only to find out Google suspended it. I’m asking for an appeal, but I’m pessimistic.
I tried changing the email of this account but it won’t budge. I don’t know if it’ll get shadowbanned from me stress typing my password.
I’ve also screwed up in other areas of my life, so I kinda need to stay quiet. I took photos of who I followed over the several years I was astrxthesiai. I’m thankful you followed me here. I think I’ll have to switch accounts earlier than I initially thought.
I’m here, I’m trying to stay strong. There’s a lot to update you all but maybe at a later point when this is hopefully behind me. To shorten the story, I’m dealing with a hacked email. I was able to save my tumblr account, but I have lost a good portion of my accounts. Anything I wrote to you after March 7-8 is the hacker’s words not mine. Leave the servers you joined with my previous Discord account for your own safety. I made a new Discord.
Replies are on hold for now until I’m more confident in my online presence. I think I’ve aged a good deal because of this incident. Message me for my new Discord, because I will not publicly drop it.
I'm going through some really terribad shit right now. My gmail account was hacked, and the person who hacked me wants money. I don't have the money and google seems to have a bad reputation of not helping people.
I'm going through some really terribad shit right now. My gmail account was hacked, and the person who hacked me wants money. I don't have the money and google seems to have a bad reputation of not helping people.
It's shark week, so I'm usually tired, melodramatic, and nostalgic.
I've gotten up late and been mostly watching Youtube videos. Mostly recaps of manhua and manhwa. My computer memory wiped itself again, and it has been frustrating. I have also been second-guessing myself, and my brain has been incredibly mean lately.
I have been lurking and working on character profiles. And I really hope that once I successfully written/updated the profiles, others will find interest in those characters.
I will be quiet and lurking, but I am here trying to write and draw. I have some asks from December around the holidays, so I'll work on those.
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I will be away Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Tuesday I have a wake. Wednesday and Thursday I have appointments.
3: Are there any people you’ve been too afraid of approaching?
Yes, everyone I follow on my various social media. I want to be friends in some capacity, and I also want to write with you. But I've also been burned in the past, have shaky mental health, and my habits at maintaining things are atrocious. When something works in my favor, I can't believe it's happening, and I'm afraid of success. When something doesn't work in my favor, I blame myself and ruminate.
There are a lot of people that I'm scared of approaching. I love all my mutuals, but I'm afraid of approaching people first because I haven't really thought of a good thread. I don't want to be seen as too much or too desperate. If you haven't really heard from me, and it's bugging you, chances are I'm not sure how to approach you. I want to, but I am not sure how I should introduce something to you, and I'm scared my ideas are not that interesting.
I have had people in the past plan with me, but then they don't go through with it. Some have even gone quiet in the middle of the conversation, and I'm not sure if they were bored with me or if they put my conversation on the back burner. I have done my share of that as well, and it's not out of disinterest, it's more or less, I get invited to something and forget I was going to reply back to the person. In the early to mid 2010s, I felt deeply hurt, and it was hurtful, but as I experience it now in the early to mid 2020s, it's more or less that the other person forgot or was also conversing with another person. It's not always about disinterest. I try to keep that in mind and give people a grace period before I try other things to get their attention.
And if you want anything to go forward with me now, I will tell you that you will have to be on top of things. Tumblr Messenger isn't competent, and Discord has its share of notification problems. I have ADD, and I follow the beat of my own drum. I know that is awful, but it has made me more empathetic towards others' possible situations when we start planning. I also have bad social anxiety, and I don't really like initiating things either. But I also don't want to be annoying people when they're really not feeling something either.
In the past, I've been a people pleaser. I'm learning not to be that anymore.
I generally like to sleep as it helps me regulate my mood, but I generally stay awake so I won't ruin my schedule.
I like listening to music, playing games, creating original characters, writing, reading, drawing, and binge-watching shows. I generally cry inwardly when I know I don't have much time in a day to do everything I want.
Am I coming back most importantly? Yeah, trying to, unsuccessfully, but I will come back.
I've taken a nosedive in mental health, so I've been taking a break. From my Lads rp server, Lads, and tumblr rp. I've also been spending my time trying to regulate myself and maintain a better schedule, despite hating routines. Little things have also piled up, which I won't talk about. Except for my computer problems. It keeps restarting itself after putting me on a temporary profile. Having it deadlock and restart on me has been a de-motivator for things rather than a motivator, and that includes drawing, gaming, and writing. Three things I really enjoy doing. I ran diagnostics and tried making a new account for my desktop.
I'm just hating life and its annoyances. I'll try coming back and writing what I owe. I want to be writing and roleplaying, honestly. It's an escape for me. From a world that wants to fall apart. I want to be positive, happy-go-lucky, and professional all the time, but that really doesn't sound feasible right now, nor is it authentic.
Am I coming back most importantly? Yeah, trying to, unsuccessfully, but I will come back.
soo this is the counter to physical touch. uhh. maybe you have some...issuess...that you uh...need to work on...(get therapy) woah who said that!! must have been the wind haha. no this is just jks im sure you're not actually violent?? unless you are?? in which case... stop?? bru idk get me out of her
Tagged by: @braveryhearted (Since Mei/Sailor Phoenix is an idol.)
