zato strikes a really particular chord with me. ive always had these nightmares, or moreso bad dreams in where the world is ending and i only a short amount of time to live. in each one, i spend that last minute, hour, day learning to accept it, by saying my final goodbyes to my family, and taking in the world- but just when i begin to accept that it’s over, that my wonderful experience of life has come to an end, i wake up. i knew, maybe from when tosya showed up, or maybe from when asya started running through the street, that the story was ending. i knew, as they were making their way through the research centre, that these were *her* last moments, minute, hour, day, her last hug with mom, walk through the hallways, sleep in her childhood bed. she doesn’t try to “make the most” of her last moments, going through every inch of the city and touching every door and seeing every view for the last time because she doesn’t need to, she’s seen it all before. maybe it would have hurt too much.
i know that feeling well. you have to keep going forward, even though you want to get that last look you feel like you have to take it all in one last time but has much really changed? it’s still the same place, the only difference is that its ending.
but she was able to find joy in that ending, even though she was losing her memories and didn’t even remember why she came up there in the first place, she still achieved everything she could have hoped to but most of all she learned to really accept herself as apart of the universe and love herself along with it.
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