and yes, my expectation came true: you moved to a bigger place, expanding your wings. All the best and congrats.
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and yes, my expectation came true: you moved to a bigger place, expanding your wings. All the best and congrats.
Hey you. Yes, you
You updated your fan page though it is not understandable for me - are you moving to a new place, or do you rent a space?
ah, dunno... but at least I know that you still keep going on. I don't understand your realm, it's a whole different world, not my cup of tea.
But when one day I go there for real, at least I have acquired some background knowledge about you. Ah, perhaps you'd think it's useless but who knows we will interact for real?
Nothing beats the excitement of preparing a new chapter in your town. Even though my days will be full of painting my own canvas, but there will be a huge possibility to meet you someday.
Hey you. Yes, you.
I think you have a kind of mainstream face for a person your age, of your nationality. Therefore, wherever I go, there's a chance for me to see people who look like you. And it reminds me of you, too.... in a stressing way.
Because you know sometimes I misbehave.
But what if it's really you? I haven't seen your most recent photo in years.
Ah, what did I say?
Happy belated birthday, LF.
Happy belated birthday, OP.
I once felt this way, but....
It was 24 years ago when I wore that scouting uniform on a gloomy Saturday morning. My dad picked me up from school, and we went to a computer repair shop in my town, approximately a 10-minute drive from my home. I didn't know you also live in that area, perhaps in the other alleyway.
I still remember the feeling.
A primary schoolgirl sitting on a sofa, staring at her dad talking to the repairmen, working on her dad's CPU that he used for working on weekdays - and for her gaming on weekends.
Never did I know that decades later, when I pursued my MA, I would virtually discover a man who gave me the vibe of accompanying my late dad in a repair shop. Although my olfactory memory was dominated by cigarette smoke, it recalls my childhood days.
Knowing where the man now resides, my willingness to pursue a higher degree grows stronger. Finally, I discovered that this man is connected with influential figures in this nation and those who hold structural positions in my neighboring universities.
Man, really, I HAVE TO PURSUE A Ph.D. in YOUR TOWN.
There comes the following year - when I was in my final year of MA. I was startled and jumped out my bed when I found out that he was in my town, reunited with his true love - and had a gathering with his friends, the aforementioned influential figures, the qualified leaders in his circle... GOSH.
Sufficient to say that I need to be in the top tier to be noticed!
I also found some photos of him gathering with some old chums - back in your teenage years, perhaps? - in a now-disbanded café near my home. I don't know why, but it gave me a vibe I hadn't felt before. I felt like hanging out with mothers getting their kids ready for a camping session at school.
Ah, OP. I do not mean anything by finding out many facts about you, but I am encouraged to pursue a higher degree in your town so that LF will melt and finally forgive me. Let her blessing be my guiding light for my PhD.
YOU'VE BEEN IN MY TOWN FOR MORE THAN ONE MONTH!!
I heard that LF went to Korea as an invited speaker at an international conference last April. I also heard that in August, LF will be in Korea again for another chance as a plenary speaker at another prestigious conference. What a blessed life LF is having now, being in Korea twice this year, even though that means she will miss her opportunity to have a flag-hoisting ceremony commemorating our independence day.
My purple mommy told me that it's LF's second honeymoon. I assume that you are joining her in Korea. Yes, you are, and you've been in this town for more than one month. LF's elder sister is my purple mommy's neighbor, and she told her so.
BOOM
I exploded and I hit my room's ceiling!!
Oh, OP, it all happened on August.
I first found your Facebook account on 25 August 2018. I directly stalked EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVERYTHING and found your community group. I discovered a lot of funny memes that helped boost my mood during my thesis writing.
I discovered on 16 August 2019 that you had gone home for a while and had a dinner feast with your friends, with LF, too.
20 August 2023 was the day when I had this chat with my purple mommy:
PM:
LF is really happy for having her second honeymoon in Korea.....
Me:
Wait, so she's with OP?
PM:
Yes, it turns out that OP has been in this town for one month. Now he's accompanying LF in Korea. I heard it from her sister, who's also my neighbor.
Me:
OP's sister? (In my L1, third person singular, whatever gender, is referred to with the same pronoun. that's why I misunderstood OP's sister with LF's sister.)
PM:
LF's sister. OP is an only child.
Me:
Just like you?
PM:
Yeah
Me:
Wow, how wonderful OP's parents are. They let their only child move to another country. It's all by God's perfection.
PM:
Both of them are no longer with us, Pink. Me:
To God we belong and to God we shall return.
.....
Flashback on.
In fact, I had known earlier that your parents had both passed away, dear OP. One day, when I stalked your Facebook, I discovered a status update from 2010, announcing your mom's demise.
And in 2018, when I discovered your community's Facebook group (which is now set private, sadly!) I found an album of you commemorating your father's demise..... in my religion's way.
I got startled. We are of different faiths, and seeing you hold it in my religion's way makes me wonder, but… Ah, whatever. I know nothing about your life aside from what I see on Facebook and what my purple mommy told me.
Flashback off. Let's see what happened on August 21st, 2023, when I rode my motorbike in front of my campus. Well, my campus is well known for its location, which is across two big malls. I was riding on my way to a photocopy stall when I suddenly saw the car I rode with LF 5 years ago. I REMEMBER EXACTLY THE REGO. It went down the same road as me and took a U-turn to a mall. I rode behind that car to see who was driving.
IT WAS YOU, OP!!!
You were heading to the mall, but I decided not to follow you inside because I am not a fool. I have much more important things to do in a photocopy center.
I remember what song I played through my TWS when I saw you while riding.
It was Pusakata's song "Ruang Tunggu," which I planned to sing at my department's grand reunion, but I could not reach the tune.
When I wrote this post, I didn't know if you are still here or you've came back overseas already. But the thing is that I DO REALLY WISH THAT I CAN MEET YOU IN PERSON, THUS YOU CAN HELP ME RECONCILE WITH LF.
I admit that I did wrong to her, I hurt her deepest feelings, and I'm still finding out how to make it up to her.
Dear OP, I hope you are still here. I'm not sharing this blog with anyone, but I hope it will open the door to LF's forgiveness.
and you set it private.
what have I done?
Wow, OP....
I just don't realize that you finally made this decision, OP. I did nothing but stalk you, with a second account that only God knows about. I didn't even accidentally press a button.
I know, your group hardly ever updates anything since The Meme Maker left your town, as well as those other friends from that era, perhaps. People come and go, but you stay there, OP, as a connection between generations. I appreciate that, OP. One thing is for sure: my wish to be officially in your group still lingers. Of course, it will happen later if I enroll there. I want to know you in person and interact with you like the others. Moreover, I know LF quite well, which will be a good start for our interaction.
OP, I even forgot what your last post was. When I discovered your group in 2018, I happily dug the treasures really deep until I discovered a lot of facts about you. I laughed really hard when I discovered some photos of you with blonde hair.
I know, OP, I have nothing to do with your interests and the central niche of your group, but knowing what people do in your community motivates me to run faster and climb higher to reach my dream. Perhaps, one day if my dreams come true, I can join your group, going on adventures.
OP, I still can't believe you do this, but..... well, who am I to protest?
I stalked your group using a second account, and I didn't like any single post, even though I accidentally did. Did you find out that I stalked you? Or did you hear from someone else that I exist in this world, and I met you by coincidence when I stalked a Facebook page of a cultural festival?
OP, did I do any harm? I didn't make jokes about you, humiliate you, nor write an obscene fiction about you and LF. I never talked about you with anybody else because I kept this excitement to myself. Seriously, OP. I don't know why, but.... yeah, this is your right to do anything you want with your group, and I am just a stalker with a pseudonym, who's most likely out of your sight.
And I'm still hoping to find a chance to know you in person, thus, you can help reconciling me and LF.
Sincerely,
aTArAShiiSeKAi
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WHY DO YOU LET THEM GO?
Wow, finally, you fly south after 2 years holding your longing.
Pretty exciting, huh? You want to heal yourself by indulging in his embrace.
Hopefully, you feel totally relieved after being showered with his sper...... love. Until finally, you let go of those kids who rely on you, who put their trust in your shoulder. Why? Even your colleagues and leaders do not know why.
Why are you changing? after you confront the girl who loves you as her own mom,
and after the huuuuge responsibility of holding 3 big events in one,
now you let go of all your kids.... Ah, perhaps because I’m just seeing everything from afar, I do not really know what’s really going on.
All in all, dear you....
I wish you a total mental recovery if you are struggling with one.
And hopefully, you will realize that you have hurt a girl with her purest love, who dreams of studying at your alma mater, who loves you unconditionally, who backs you up when you fall down, and who defends you when people talk bad about you behind your back.
This moment shall make you realize.
you are loved.
I was not sent from your womb, but let me love you as if I was
atarashii sekai
While you are there
I miss you, dear LF. I regularly log in to my second FB account and check that automotive group, whether or not an event is made. I’m really curious about OP’s new hair color. How’s your reaction when you see him with it? Hahaha, I remember laughing until my stomach hurt when I saw that blonde hair.
LF, I just made a big bowl of fruit punch and Jelly and put it in the pantry. I wish you could taste a cup of it. And I plan to make popcorn, too, when you come back later. Hmmm.
LF, I love you so much.
Enjoy your honeymoon, LF. I wish that you would carry a baby inside your womb when you come back here. Love you, smooch smooch.
No, I'm not going to snatch him from you, darl. I'm just.... excited!
Atarashii Sekai