tw: familial loss. tldr: i have been, am currently, and potentially indefinitely will be on hiatus from the rpc and from coding. any further coding requests will not be responded to. i also briefly address reports i've been receiving of ripped content. additional warning: i'm still a very wordy human, my apologies.
hi friends,
i really appreciate all of you who have been so worried about me and have been reporting a certain site to me as having ripped some of my content. i will look into it when i have time, but i'm secretly also hoping that this post will work as a means to persuade them to remove it before i have to reach out directly or do anything further.
i know my lack of response was taken poorly by some and i just want to apologize. the truth is, since april i have been dealing with some very heavy real life things and they have kept me offline for the most part, or at the very least without any muse. i've said a few different places what these things were but, for any who did not know, both of my mothers passed away sixteen days apart on april 24 and may 10 of this year. following that i also had a few health emergencies that have led to a bone-deep fatigue i haven't quite figured out how to deal with, much less shake off to get anything done.
i'm sorry i haven't posted anything / been around in quite some time and that requests for my assistance or other messages to me have been unanswered, but i just truly did not have the spoons. life happened and, for quite some time now and probably a good while longer still, i left the rpc in total.
i have barely functioned as a human being for months and am just now beginning to again, so i ask for your understanding and compassion with this. i don't mean to let anything go missing or have long response times, it's just where my life is at right now.
i am sending my love to all of you, but this post is a notice of my former, current, and potentially indefinite hiatus. i wish i could offer more, but i just can't right now.
the few who i had discussed coding things with prior to, i have reached out to about still doing those things if needed, but otherwise i will no longer be available for any coding requests. i will still make time as i have it for coding help, but that will be more easily requested via discord than here on tumblr.
if i find muse somewhere, i might post tidbits here and there, but i will largely be moving into solely working on personal projects for fun as the mood strikes. i had been working on a few things to offer the community and if i get the muse for it maybe i will finish them but also maybe i won't. i will not be making any promises about anything further coming from me, because the truth is i may never share anything again and i may drop four things tomorrow, i just don't know. i will keep what i have offered up and the rules of its usage will remain the same but otherwise...
i guess this is, at least for now, a means of saying goodbye. thanks for allowing me to be a part of this community and for the support i've received over the years, from all the coding conversations, to the design discussions, to the debates over best practices as they served the roleplay community, and so much more. you all were what made it worth still doing, even with the negatives that came as well and the hate that was thrown my way over the years.
honestly, this was my favorite hobby, and while i hope one day i will be able to find that joy here again, i just have to finally acknowledge that i have lost it, at least for now.
any coding requests that come in after this message will most likely go without response, and that isn't to be rude or leave you hanging but i just don't have the spoons right now. i really do wish i did.
for what it's worth, i still think there's something really special and beautiful about the rpc, about the coding community, about all of it. i'm really glad i got to be a part of it for as long as i have, in a more public/community wide way than i may ever be again. i send my love to all of you.
thank you, for everything,
athena
