Coming to this decision, has been the most difficult for me my love, yet it is one that shall be made out of nothing but sweet bliss and passion.
I will no longer pursue you in this lifetime, for I fear that these visions of mine are leading you down a dark road love and I will not allow you to sacrifice yourself again in this new lifetime of ours.
The red rose that was once so full in bloom, has now withered and died upon its stalk.
Ne'er to bloom again come spring, for there shall never be springtime without that beautiful smile of yours to fall upon my sky and I will ne'er feel those tender hands of yours upon my skin.
The warmth of your body heat against mine, or your voice calling my name once again.
All of that shall be nothing more than distant dreams, ne'er meant to be- for I refuse to allow you to suffer any longer and I am taking control of my fate.
The universe speaks not for me another moment in time.
I am the one in control now and I dare say, it should have been something I chose back then my love.
I should have stolen you away into the night with Victor and kept you safe from harms way- regardless of our babes being back in Ireland.
I am making the right choice this time and I will not falter, nor shall I regret this decision of mine.
I am being stripped of every possible dream I had of us my love and I am giving all of it up in this lifetime, so that you may survive.
I am giving myself the freedom of being selfish and I am choosing you over any kind of spiritual contract or the like.
The only place for me now is to live with the ghost of you and what we used to be back then.
Maybe we will meet in our next lifetime my love and I do hope so- because I want nothing more than to have you in these arms of mine once again.
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Let this be the letter that I never send to you ~














