It’s 8PM and I just got back home. It’s been a long day. A long day of analysis, tests and other stuff. And, I just realized that, I need to take care of my life now. It’s complicated but, my new life is starting soon and I have a lot of things to care of. One of these shouldn’t be this Tumblr, the daily questions I answer, and Ashley. Whatever happened between us, it’ll forever remain between me and her, and we’ll always have our own sides of the story to tell. I just realized that sharing more stories would be useless. I already wrote and showed what I had to say, and I don’t wanna keep doing this any longer. If people believed in my words, emails, photos and whatever I posted in here, it’s ok. If they didn’t, it’s ok, too. People are always going to believe what they really want to believe, so, I could share a thousand stories with proof and evidence, yet they would find something wrong about each story and everything I tell them. So what I want to do is just: move on. Yes, maybe I realized it a little too “late”, and maybe this sharing my stories publicly was a way for me to relieve the pain I had, and still have, inside. But now I really want to close this chapter and start working on a whole new book, called: my life. But before I do that, I want to thank everyone. The people who hate me, and the people who love me. The first helped me get better and improve myself over the years; while the second made me realize that I actually did something good for so many people all these years, and I’m proud of that. If some of you would like to stay in touch with me, you can definitely send me a private message/anonymous question with your socials usernames and I’ll share mine with you, too.
AshleyTisdale.org may be closed and no longer active, but the experiences I’ve had and the people who I loved working for (all of them), will forever remain in my heart in a special place that no one and nothing can ever replace.
those fans who know that Ashley have a team on her social networks are happy for a fav/rt or answer but not if is the only one Ashley Tisdale, they just want if it's from her verified account hypocrites they don't care too, perfect rolemodel = perfect fans. and bad from Ashley who again is using her fans for ad's
Not the best English, but I still got what you meant and you’re right.
So I just read your post on how you became Ashley's official fan site, and it almost seems like the decision they made was only based around the fact that Miss Tisdale wasn't active anymore.. Like they weren't even taking notice to all of the hard work you put into the site and how dedicated you were. [...]
When I read the emails and stuff, it just seemed like they had their sights set on Miss Tisdale first, and they just wanted to make sure that they were really inactive and that there wasn't a chance on them possibly coming back. Which to me, if I were you would have made me feel horrible. No disrespect to Miss Tisdale or anything because that was the first fan site I really knew about and went to on a daily basis, to get all of my pictures and information on Ashley from.. [...]
Until I found out about you guys. One more thing confuses me as well.. Ashley can't interact with her fans over social media, but she can set up dates to meet with Team Tisdale without a problem? How does that even make sense?
TeamTisdaleNYC @ClippedTBS yay!!!! So excited to have part of Team Tisdale there ;) make sure I know which taping so I can get u backstage
OH MY GOD, BIG YES!!! Thank YOU for pointing that out!!! I honestly didn’t even think about it but, as you said, it really doesn’t many any sense after what I was told by her team (the whole “she doesn’t use her socials to privately interact with her fans” etc.).
And yes, I also agree with you about everything you said on the emails thing. People have no idea what I’ve been feeling like...
I really thought the 7th anniversary video came naturally from Ash. I had no idea that she didn't want to do it. It's sad to think that her social media team asked her to do it instead of her doing it on her own without someone telling her about doing a video for you guys. That's messed up. I never knew the story behind that video. I just thought she did it to be nice and genuine but I guess not. That sucks, man :(
And that happened for so many other things... Someone might ask me “why you kept asking/fighting for stuff then?”. I gave my all for her, so it was sad to see that she didn’t naturally do stuff for me most of the time. I wish she was more caring... and open... and that things came naturally. Who wouldn’t want that.
Just read your post about becoming "Official". I'm actually surprised that the whole decision came down to being about Miss Tisdale's fansite. For the site having slowed down and wasn't updating it's surprising that it was even an issue to think about. Your site has been #1 for a long time. For as long as I've been keeping up with Ashley it's always been your site as my go to. The fact that they even had to think about another site is a little sad.
Yet, people thought the 7th anniversary video came from Ashley just naturally as a surprise gift. And what you read about that story is just one of the many times where I always had to prove something, fight for something, go get something myself. I really wish Ashley cared more...
Sometimes you have to give up on people... not because you don’t care, but because they don’t.
No, obviously not, that happened early last year. It’s one of the many. And, as you could see, it was a long story. Just imagine how long it’d take for me if I had to write all of the stories I have to share. This is mainly the reason why I need time and am sharing stuff day by day, and not all together.
The following is a really long story on how I actually became Ashley Tisdale’s official fan site.
Thanks to xjillxvalentine‘s last question, she reminded me of the reason why I once wanted to leave the site and quit. Long story short, it was at the end of 2013/beginning of 2014 and, after 7 long years of having our fan site up and running, and all the things we had done for Ashley and the fans, I thought maybe I could’ve had a chance to become an official fan site? I obviously couldn’t ask something like that after only 2/3 years of running a site, so, I thought that after 7 years, I could’ve put forward a proposal.
So I asked her manager, and this is what I received at the end of 2013 ‘til early 2014:
After discussing with Ashley about my proposal the previous night, Bill had a Skype session with me the day after (January 15) as the email above also shows. I remember we talked for a good half hour and he basically told me that everyone on the team (manager, publicist, social media team - and Ashley included) had to agree on my proposal before I could become official fan site.
What are the pictures that I attached to him? You will see them later...
Other fan sites = Miss Tisdale. Bill clearly told me that during another Skype session that we had in February. I don’t know if you remember but, starting from 2014, Miss Tisdale was kind of dead and didn’t post stuff regularly as they used to. Their staff, originally formed by 4/5 members, went down to only 1. So things went slower for them, and you could clearly see by how inactive they were all the time on the site and socials. I don’t even know why they also asked to become official, since they obviously didn’t have the time to run the site. And this kept going on for months ‘til summer 2014, when they shut their site down for good.
Back to our story... Bill was still trying to get the whole team together, so they could talk it out and decide what to do with my proposal:
He previously tried to reach out to me on Skype on February 4 and 6, but I didn’t see any of his messages. We then talked on February 21, as the following pic shows:
What he told me was that, the only part of the team that slightly disagreed about my request to become official fan site was the (former) social media team, because they were worried that, by naming me Ashley’s official fan site, this would bother Miss Tisdale in some way. But having noticed that Miss Tisdale was very inactive back then, Bill was more on my side and suggested me to send an email to each member of Ashley’s team, telling them why I had good reasons to become her official fan site. So this is what I did.
I sent the same email to each member of the team. This one was for Crystal at Fanology, who used to be Ashley’s social media team/the person running her Facebook, and sometimes other socials, in 2013-2014.
The attached files 001, 002, 003 and 004 (which are the same that I sent to Bill in the January emails, and that helped me show to the various teams that I was really supported by the fans, even by the ones running their own local fan sites/clubs) are the following:
Not to mention this one, where fans made us trending worldwide on Twitter:
So the whole point of my email (with the attached files) was to show to the various teams that so many fans (even the ones with their fan sites/clubs) supported us and that, if only one or a few didn’t (like Miss Tisdale), this shouldn’t stop us from becoming Ashley’s official fan site. My email was sent on February 24, 3 days before our 7th anniversary, and what Bill told me was that the social team still had to think about whether to agree or disagree on my request. I obviously wasn’t that happy, just think about it... All members of the team agreed, but the final decision depended on the social media team only. And only because they were worried about another fan site (again, Miss Tisdale) that, no offense to them, was absolutely inactive and kind of absent all week, every week. For months. So there were obviously days where, it’s not like that I wanted to leave the site but, it just felt that everything had to be a struggle. A “show me this”/“show me that” kind of thing. Nothing natural. Nothing like, “oh, damn, this fan site has been working their ass off for years! Maybe they really deserve this”. No. I always had to fight for the things that I wanted/deserved and, on the one side, I was proud of myself for not giving up and always being so driven and dedicated but, on the other side, I just hoped things were more natural and easier, sometimes.
So it was finally our site 7th anniversary and yet, I didn’t know if I really felt like celebrating. Just because I didn’t hear back from the social media team about my request. But then I got this email from them:
Did you really see what happened or do I have to explain this? Ashley didn’t want to personally surprise me at all. The social media team, after receiving my email on February 24, had obviously asked Ashley to do a video for me, so they could’ve sent it to me on the day of my site 7th anniversary, on February 27, and let me celebrate. Yes, it was still a nice surprise, but it was from the social team.
I didn’t write this whole post with photos, proof, evidence and stuff, to show you “Ashley’s bad side” (as some are telling me) or the fact that she’s uncaring. No. It was just meant to make you realize that a LOT of the things that she did for me have their own stories behind, and that they’re not as they seemed to be and as you thought they were. I bet many fans probably thought “aw, it’s their 7th anniversary and she made them a video where she named them her official fan site! She’s so sweet!” but this post showed you that it didn’t actually go that way. And the same it’s for many of the shout outs/things she did for me and the site throughout the years. So when I hear people saying “they shouldn’t even complain now, Ashley did so much for them”, they should stop for a second and realize that, yes, she did those things, but what really matters is to know how and why she did those things.
i feel like her latest youtube videos 'would you rather' were very forced 'big personality' kinda seemed fake / over the top. hm or maybe just some of her "sassy" answers made me feel like she changed.
I feel like she does a lot of things that fans hope would last a little longer... these WYR videos (which, I think, are not coming out anymore); the fashion blog (which she updated only for a couple of months); and so on.
A few years ago, I (hand)made a scrapbook for Ashley's birthday. I collected pages from other fans all over the world that they'd made, dedicated to her projects, her characters, her friendships and so on, and I bundled them all together so they became a big, bright book. I still have photos of the pages, actually. I was so proud of it. It was my little 'something' for Ashley, a gesture of my love and adoration for her--love and adoration that I still feel as strongly, if not stronger, today.
At the time, I had a friend who was in contact with Bill, who passed on a delivery address and a contact email. So, I posted it to Ashley from here in the UK a couple of weeks before her birthday and frantically checked up on its status on the days leading up to it. A couple of days after July 2nd, there was an email from Bill saying that Ashley had 'received and absolutely loved the scrapbook'. I was ELATED. Like, I've spent the past six years still elated that I was able to reach out to her,
albeit in some small, distant way. And now I'm sat here like, 'did she even really see it? Did she even really like it? Did she even LOOK at it?' My love for Ashley can never and will never waiver--even in the midst of all this drama (which I fully believe and support you in, by the way)--she's one of the brightest lights in my life. BUT it just saddens me that doubts have no crossed my mind, about something which brought me so much joy.
ANYWAY, I don't know why you needed to hear all this, but I felt like sharing it with you, I hope that's okay! I hope you do what's right for you in all this confusion and that you don't carry the hurt you're feeling right now with you for too long. x
I've been there too... Thanks for sharing your story x
So, you don't like SOME of the song or you don't like headstrong or guilty pleasue at all? The same with hellcats, the suit life or even alians in the attic? Super fun night and the crazy ones? *She was sharpay in the crazy ones like no joke*
I like some of her projects and work, I just didn’t see her only as an artist. I knew she was a person, and I respected/liked her for that, first.
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