Running with the bulls

i go in at nine am in neww york

its goin to be around six am here

> You scoot closer to him why is he moving away

its goin to take four hours or so but eri is comin so you wwont be sittin there alone

oh, oKAY,

sHOULD i GET THERE, a LITTLE EARLIER, tHAN THAT, oR,,,

> You move to take his hand.

i DON'T REALLY, kNOW HIM SO WELL, bUT, eITHER WAY, i DON'T MIND THE WAIT,

> He’s asking to go with you to the hospital oh shit. You were afraid he wasn’t going to ask.

yeah id like that

> You can’t keep the relief from showing all over your face.

a lot

here ill givve you the coordinates for the hospital

> It’s time to sit with him. You unlock your phone and pull up the coordinates on the screen

there

> Instinctively you scoot over a bit to make room for him when he comes to sit on the couch with you.

tHEN i'LL DEFINITELY, bE THERE,

wHAT TIME, dO YOU GO IN,

> You ask as you copy the coordinates from his phone onto yours.

> You watch him without sitting with him.

wwell thanks for that at least

> Part of you wants him to explain more, but you’re mostly skeptical as to whether more explaining would actually help.

you can start bein around more then since you havvent been doin anythin

> You nod.

yEAH,

i CAN START, wITH TOMORROW,

> You think it's safe now, so you bring yourself to look at him, keeping your head slightly bowed.

tHAT'S IF, uH, yOU WANT ME TO BE THERE, fOR YOU,

> You thought about asking him last night but you didn't have enough courage to do so until now.

yeah that wwould be fuckin appreciated

> You squeeze him back before finally letting go.

wwhat do you keep runnin off to do anywway

> You have been trying your best to not jump to conclusions and wait for definite answers, instead of all the shit you did when you were younger.

> When he lets you go, you go to sit on the couch. You keep your head bowed slightly, gaze on the floor as you quietly mull over the answer.

i WISH THAT, i COULD SAY THAT, i'VE BEEN DOING SOMETHING IMPORTANT, bUT,,,

i HAVEN'T BEEN DOING ANYTHING AT ALL,

> You don't dare to look up.

i FEEL LIKE, iF i JUST GO INTO IT FURTHER, tHAT IT'S GOING TO LOOK LIKE, i'M COMING UP WITH, eXCUSES, rATHER THAN EXPLAINING,,,

aND, tOMORROW'S A BIG DAY FOR YOU, aND i DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOU UPSET, oR ADD ANY MORE STRESS, oR ANYTHING, eSPECIALLY WHEN, i'M SUPPOSED TO BE, dOING THE OPPOSITE,

> You’re quiet for a moment as you think of how to respond.

yeah a little but thats fine since i miss you too

> You haven’t stoped rubbing his back.

> You're not sure what to say next. You're afraid that there will come a time when he doesn't miss you but you won't voice that. Apologizing again might be too much.

i WANT TO BE AROUND, fOR YOU MORE,

> You give him a light squeeze.

yeah

it should happen more often

> You opt for rubbing his back a little. He’s warm, but not any warmer than you in your human body. The lack of a difference is a little weird.

dEFINITELY,

eSPECIALLY SINCE, i MISS YOU ALL THE TIME,

> You mimic his movements without noticing, rubbing his back as well. Every time his hands brush against your wings they flutter a little.

iT'S PROBABY SILLY, fOR ME TO SAY THAT, sINCE, i HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND, aS MUCH AS i SHOULD,,,

yeah im a little better

> You’d had a talk with Terezi last night about all the stuff you were thinking regarding your surgery, so you’re not lying.

> Hugging doesn’t need to stop anytime soon. You could hug for a lot longer.

i'M GLAD,

> Your smile is genuine but fades quickly as you start to lightly bite your bottom lip. You want to bring up a certain subject, but you're not sure if it would be okay to.

iT'S, uH, aLWAYS NICE TO BE AROUND YOU, lIKE THIS,

> You relax a little after opting for a safer topic.

a course i look good ivve been takin a supreme amount a care a myself lately

> You mumble this into his shoulder while hugging him back.

i'M GLAD, tHAT YOU HAVE BEEN, tAKING CARE OF YOURSELF, tHAT IS,

oTHERWISE i'D GET WORRIED,,,

> You wonder how long you should stand there hugging him before it became awkward.

i HOPE YOU'RE FEELING, bETTER TODAY, tHAN LAST NIGHT, eVEN IF IT'S ONLY BY, a LITTLE BIT,,

hey

> You wave a little because it’s been a long time since you’ve seen him too. Should you hug him? Should you keep standing here?

nice to see you again tavv

iT'S NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN, tOO,

> Instead of standing there not knowing what to do with yourself, you decide to take some initiative for once and move to embrace him.

yOU LOOK GOOD, aS ALWAYS,

yeah

> You input the coordinates and pop over, making an effort to not look as nervous as you feel. You have a lot of things on your mind.

> You rush to pick up before he arrived, opting for the quick shove everything into the closet and your drawers method. You want to make sure that everything is at least somewhat presentable for him since you can't remember the last time he was in your space.

> You grin sheepishly when he arrives.

hEY,

ill come ovver there since bein on alternia as a human sucks

oKAY, nO PROBLEM,

sEE YOU SOON,

attenuatedtaurus replied to your post:“hEY eRIDAN,”

i WAS GOING TO ASK YOU, tHE SAME QUESTION,

im ready noww

tHAT'S GOOD, bECAUSE, i AM ALSO READY NOW,

wHERE EXACTLY, dO YOU WANT TO MEET UP,

wwe could do somethin tomorroww maybe

hangin out or somethin

oKAY, sURE,

hANGING OUT IS SOMETHING THAT, i CAN MOST DEFINITELY DO, wITHOUT A PROBLEM,

the bad kind

oH,,,

iS THERE ANYTHING THAT, i CAN DO TO HELP, mAYBE, bECAUSE IF YOU THINK THAT, tHERE'S SOMETHING i CAN DO, aNYTHING, i'D LIKE TO KNOW, sO i CAN GET ALL UP ON THAT,

ovverwwhelmed

dO YOU MEAN, tHE GOOD KIND OF OVERWHELMED, oR, tHE BAD KIND,

thats good

im glad youre eatin healthy

i'M TRYING, aT LEAST,,

hOW ARE YOU FEELING, tONIGHT,