AUdience SYStem

May be a system. (18+) I also have ADHD and autism.

[oursystemblog]

Hi I’m a newly discovered system and its been causing me a little stress that I (the host?) don’t experience blackouts or full amnesia, but then I read some of your old posts about feeling like everything’s in grayscale and emotional amnesia and was like “:0 that’s like me!”

I was wondering if you would be okay describing what it feels like when someone else fronts? That’s something I’m trying figure out for myself and maybe hearing other people’s experiences would help ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(Also all the comics are amazing keep up the good work 👍)

so the uhhh. so the person fronting never really feels like they "disappear" or get pushed away it just feels like they Change Into A Different Person . but we still Exist while not fronting but nobody remembers what that's like because w. yeah no i don't get the technicalities of how this works i'm not worrying about it too hard

[audiencesystem]

notes

Really solidifying that we are a "we" rather than a single unit.

Are all people like this in some way? I need to read the literature on dissociative disorders.

Aren't we all multi-celled organisms working in tandem anyways?

[oursystemblog]

Comic 4

H. This one doesn't have a punchline I'm just talking

[ouroborosorder]

periodically i think some shit like. "maybe i'm not actually plural and instead i just made up different assumed identities to adapt to scenarios around me and then arbitrarily decided that they'd have names." and then i think about what i just said

[ouroborosorder]

NO!!!!!

[audiencesystem]

I don't know how to get over heartbreak

In fact i can't remember all the times I've had to

[audiencesystem]

I dunno who the fux i am right now but gooooooood fucking people suck so hard yet some of them shine so bright

(Often people can do both too)

[helen-epic]

I'm not plural i just distinctly switch between a number of different states with different thought patterns energy levels and at least sometimes opinions and preferences

[helen-epic]

This post is a goddamn cognitohazard with how much it's got people questioning themselves.

[weepingwitch]

i know this means absolutely nothing to most people but basically all of the little web game things I've made recently (angels in automata, hex plant growing game, d.a.n.m.a.k.u., life music, sudoku land, the metroidvania style map editor, etc etc etc) are all entirely self-contained individual client-side html files that can be downloaded and run offline and have literally no libraries or frameworks or dependencies, because i'm an insane woman who enjoys hand coding my input handling and display code from scratch in vanilla js and having it all live in one single html file with the game logic and the page structure and the page style all just living and loving together side by side in a universal format that can be run by any web browser on any devixe. i'll even include image files as base64 data-uri strings just to keep every single asset inside the one file.

[submalevolentgrace]

the sudoku one is gorgeous and a really intuitive way to play sudoku

[greaseonmymouth]

i also really love the hexplant one

(reaching the purple aquare with the three exlamation marks is how you 'win' this game)

[weepingwitch]

this is going Around again and it is always funny to me when ppl tag it "need to try this later on my computer" babes you don't need to wait they all work on mobile too <3

[audiencesystem]

Yeah okay whatever I'm the "bad guy" yeah okay I have no impulse control and I run my mouth so WHAT fuck you

[audiencesystem]

It's like having half a dozen 16 year olds all trying to drive the meat suit huh

[alteredpanel]

emotional amnesia

[alteredpanel]

spoiler: it was more

[alteredpanel]

host complex so strong you forget how the disorder works

[semiplural]

Denial

Calling out one of us from like 8 years ago with this one (affectionately but also not, because it still does this sometimes).

[helen-epic]

I'm not plural i just distinctly switch between a number of different states with different thought patterns energy levels and at least sometimes opinions and preferences

[audiencesystem]

Struggling to figure out if I'm actually plural

Bleeehhhhhhhhhhh

[audiencesystem]

There's someone in my head just screaming

I turned down the volume on them, but it's still pretty grating