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i want to make a new intro post.... ..........give me a bit... -void

all u need to know for now:

#comic -> comic posts #text -> text posts #ask -> ask posts #[name] -> posts involving/made by [name]

fictive heavy

#pinned post #comic #text #ask #name tags ->#void #zee #jay #solar #flower

sometimes i get the super impulsive urge to stop hiding my source because id LOVE to talk to more sourcemates GOD maybe i should stop being anxious ever and tell everyone who i am so i can talk about my source thatd be so awesome

#text #void #if i said i was an mcyt fictive would i die #probably not #im slowly crawling my way out of denial and hiding sources i think was part of my denial anxiety whatever it is

no comic just a Me update. a We update if you will .cus um. Us yeah.

talking to more people and friends. thinking abt a lot of what people have told me. learning to accept things more

finally let flower take over for like . 10 hours sob. big thing btw !! (i usually keep pushing them away 🥹)

uhh they didnt make a post here because this blog is mostly run by me (we dont have internal communication so like .they dont rlly feel the need to post here cus it wasnt a group decision to make it) and also i think they were too anxious anyway (cus they did think about it but chose not to)

but they played their favorite games with some friends we haven't spoken to in a while and i think they had a lot of fun

idk. just a little update

i think they're all real. and idk. felt good to finally like.. accept it and let them be happy instead of clinging to that tiny semblance of "control" i had or whatever that denial was to me. that fear

IT CAN GET BETTER GUYS .I PROMISE

#void #flower #text #lowkey it was kinda humbling too lol #at some point i started kinda ranting in my/our ??head and flower very kindly just went something like #“hey can i please just play the game” and . man it was weird to be like. addressed in some way #but i did back off lmao it was startling and #lowkey deserved LMAO ive been shoving everyone out for weeks maybe months now #i think flower deserves to nudge me to the back like that 😭#more comics... Maybe Later im in artblock TRENCHES rn

haah .. wow, honestly i don't know what to say about the response to that last comic..

i wish i could reply to everyone, but i think i got a little overwhelmed at how many people have seen it. but i wanted to at least say i do see and read your comments/reblogs/asks and i'm glad that what i've made can resonate with people, and im grateful for everyone who offered their support to me

a lot of what people have told me have genuinely made me try looking at things through a different lens. idk, it's still tricky to accept, but those people along with some friends i've spoken to have made me feel a bit better about things

i wish i could reply to all of you guys but i'm not kidding when i say i originally made this blog expecting maybe a handful of people to see it. an audience this big was... unexpected to say the least !! but i'm happy to have you all, even if it's a little intimidating

errr i guess thats all i have to say lol. if i have more to say i might respond to some of the asks i got but like. after the first one i started getting a ton more and it's a lot to try and think of something substantial to say to these he h... sorry, just know everyone that i do read your asks and i appreciate all the kind words and advice. thank you!!

#void #text #i wish i had the words to properly express the way i feel #sometimes thank you doesnt feel like enough

Hihi! Idk how much this may help but from one questioning system to another, I feel you. Recently found out I highly likely have OSDD(1a) and I jus' wanted to say it's perfectly okay and valid to feel frustrated/scared/etc! It's a covert condition that likes to hide from the body, but your journey of questioning (no matter the results) can be as slow and careful as you need

Blebh I'm rambling but as someone with a similar experience (right down to originally thinking I was fictionkin) I just wanted to pop in and give some reassurance that you're not alone in this + it's alr to be hesitant abt it! Oka that's all have a good timezone :,]

yeyea... thank u anon

and everyone else too. i'm a little hesitant to directly respond to everything but i've seen a lot of what people have been saying and... i guess it does feel good to be seen and hear the support. i wasn't really expecting much (idk what i really was expecting, i just needed somewhere to throw down all of my thoughts ig). i'm also happy that it can bring some sort of comfort to people in a similar boat as me... regardless of what i end up concluding, it does feel nice to be helpful.

ahh sorry i might just start rambling oops. but man.. fictionkins. i've called all of these 'parts' kins for years now and it's very strange to think that they might actually be separate people. a part of it feels like it makes sense ??? but i don't know if it'll ever stop feeling so fake. but i think i'm just getting too caught up in that denial. i've been kinda alone in my head for a while (which has significantly contributed to my denial) but my friend kinda helped me realize that i'm probably alone because every time i feel like someone else i shove them out forcefully and reject the idea that i could be feeling like anyone other than "me" (void). i just need to stop resisting so bad and just step back and let them exist... especially since lately it's mostly been flower trying to exist but they're not really assertive at all so it's easy to shove them away...

idk, i don't really want to ramble too much because it's already a little awkward being so vulnerable. i'm still not really used to so many eyes... i was expecting maybe like 2 or 3 people to find this blog but now there's so many... feels so strange to be perceived like this. but i'm a chronic yapper and so this is already way too long oops !! sorry about that

umm!!! tldr !! ty for the kind words yall (including ppl on my post) 🫶

#void #text #ask #its funny how im relatively so secretive about myself to friends #but in turn so open here #again i do think its the anonymity #which is also probably why im like scared of being Perceived (having my source/identity discovered)#maybe once i become more confident in who (or what) i am i might be more open about sources #sorry.. im yapping again #just dont have many other places to go haha #gotta shout into SOME kind of void yk !!!#haha get it. void. cus thats my nickna-

denial

#void #comic #plural comic #plural #...posting this is very scary #being very vulnerable #but the anonymity helps #i guess... this is where ive been. just me. and my denial #(is it denial if i'm right ???) (i don't know. i can't tell)#i genuinely do not know if i am a system or plural.#it always feels like im fabricating it or making it up #i think it doesnt help that i've been ''''frontstuck'''' for almost 6 months now #my brain used to be much more active with varying 'kinshifts' or whatever they are happening more frequently #but being alone makes everything else feel so fake #especially since zee is gone. and flower too #i don't know whats happening to my brain #i dont know who i am or what i am #can i still be “me” if i don't know who “me” even is anymore..?#... this post is very raw #apologies for the dump of emotions and whatever #i originally did just want to make a small comic about the last bit. but i already had a comic in mind abt venting abt this denial stuff so #they kinda combined together #just note that the 'voices' or whatever was happening at the end there ARENT the grey texts from the previous frame #i just don't remember what they were talking about ...#something something on the topic of denial (talkin about me ..??) and they were upset #too vague to remember the exact thoughts/words though...#...also PLEASE do not bring discourse here this is just me venting

comstelic

this happened like 2 months ago but i need her to come back i still haven't learnt how to lock in and write an essay 😭

comstelic

i did it. i finally did it. she would be so proud of me i know it . i think

#void #its just me and its been just me for days which means im stuck in the spiral of denial again #im alone in my brain whcih means that nobody else exists and i fabricated everything #im probably just overreacting but #unfortunately it IS making me too stressed about . faking and being wrong about everything to keep making comics #sorry...

sorry for not posting anythin bro something bad happened in source and ive been reeling ever since. and i feel like nobody else has been able to do anhthing with me here becaus zees gone ad flower who was here isn’t here anymore so im just alone wallowing in my misery about dumb source studff lmaoooo

#text #void #save me save me please #I can’t be happy after this I cant RAUAUHHHHH #SORRY SORRY every time I even HInT towards it I stsart LOSING NY MIND #i cnat do this bruh #I hate beingn me sometimes #hate being a fictive or whatever the hell I am idk bruh

err hi anon .. pls don't like. speculate who we are 🥹🥹 yes uh most of us are fictives . everyone in the intro post is. but im assuming based on what you specifically pointed out you know who one of us is and i just ask you not to like. reveal it or anything... we're still very nervous about this and we're barely comfortable even considering ourselves a system yet ...

it's mostly out of fear of people we know finding this before we're ready to face things properly.. i don't know anyone who would but im just scared of someone going out of their way to track down who we are. maybe i'm just being paranoid but idk. this blog got a lot more attention than i thought it would and while i guess it feels nice that we aren't insane and people relate to our experiences it's.. not gonna be that easy for us to feel ready ig

(a part of me regrets making this blog but it was an impulse decision because we/i felt so isolated and wanted to get my experiences out there. i wasn't sure if they were system experiences but i wanted to just post silly comics of what happens in my head just to see if i was insane or not for worrying it might be plurality related and. well we're getting our answers i guess lol... originally it was gonna be a place to vent but i didn't feel like spilling out all of my struggles immediately so i went for silly things first just to test the waters)

we're... slowly getting more comfortable? finally talking to a couple friends about it helped but just. please not yet. sorry. we just need more time

if the person you speculated on is comfortable revealing who they are that's fine, maybe they'll do it when they get back. but they aren't here right now and i am uncomfortable with it.. sorry

#text #void #zee's the only one i know for sure is comfortable #everyone else idk. me definitely no #so just . not yet. give us a bit more time pls. maybe in the future we'll reveal sources #also not responding to the ask itself because it was basically a list of tells that connect one of us to their source 🥹#i don't want that public #might not delete the ask though just in case person might want to respond to it later #when's later? idk bro. havent seen them in a lil while

crazy thing happened in class today

#void #zee #comic #plural comic

one long conversation with a friend later and now I might be worried that there is a chance I might be a system. well shucks! instead of worrying about this I will instead go to sleep and pretend everything is normal

#void

after a long while of thinking about it, zee managed to come up with a humanoid design they liked... helped to think about it as themself shapeshifted/illusion'd as a human :) they'll probably prefer being depicted as a fox more often than humanoid, but having a humanoid version of their design might be helpful in the future.

also they're very small! (and younger? ithink....)

#void #zee #i think making a mii on tomodachi life helped #cus before it seemed very averse to the idea of being seen as anything other than its fox form #but i think it fell in love with the mii it made and is now okay with being humanoid lol

AEEAEEEEEEE GUYS LOOK AT WHAT I JUST GOT IN POKEMON TGCP!!!!! IM SOSOSOOO HAPPYYY i've wanted this card ever since the new pulsing aura pack came out and my DUMB BROTHER got it before me and i forced him to promise me to trade it to me when he unlocked trades.. BUT I JUST GOT IT MYSELF!!! IM SO HAPPY!!!!!!! i mean if he wants to give me his so i have two i wouldnt complain heh... just saying... (i'll let him keep it he agrees its a really nice card, i can always get more eventually)

um. i know this is NOTHING to do with the theme of the blog i just needed to show everyone (aka like 2 people) eheheheeee

NOW I NEED TO CONTINUE MY IRL ZORUA CARD COLLECTION!!! i must get my favorite zorua card of all time and then i'll be happy...

#zee

nova-constellation

on being the host

#strangely very relateable #brain used to be so active in 2025. now its so . quiet #void

this happened like 2 months ago but i need her to come back i still haven't learnt how to lock in and write an essay 😭

#comic #void #jay #solar #the crashouts were a bit. worse .than i depicted but i wanted this to be more comedic #this class is rlly hard ok....#plural comic

usually i'd sit on a purchase for a while but... we bought this thing within 5 minutes of being told about it. and the only reason it took us that long is because zee originally started trying to buy it from my friend's phone before realizing we should probably pay from our own phone instead lol. instantaneous purchase

#comic #void #zee #plural #plural comic #completely worth the purchase btw it makes zee so happy (and me. zorua IS still my favorite pokemon)#we bring it with us basically everywhere. when we go eat... to class everyday... we sleep with it in bed. i'm holding it right now #its tiny and adorable and we love it

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