Boys in my life: Mixed Tape
It all started out in the 7th grade
on that very first day when i saw your face
my preteen dream, a sculpture out of clay
that god formed perfectly for me to say
nothing to all year and just stare
at your awesome brown hair from my chair
2 desks behind you cause i’m shy
i sit in the back next to the quiet guy
cause i’m the quiet girl, who draws in the back
i had like two friends in the class
but i remember you, i never said hi
not that i was your type, like i said i’m shy
then you dated that one girl, i forget
she was funny and tall and blonde i guess
then you started talking to me on the internet
and at that point it was eighth grade, and you guessed
he was in another 4 classes of mine
and this time, we sat near each other… kind of
the teacher put him there cause he talked a lot
and so him and jah were in the same spot
as i was the table in the corner i chose
to be away from all those middle school hoes
so we became friends and me and mixed tape talked more
we talked every night until like fucking 4
in the morning and then we’d go to school and not say
much to each other during the day
then one day you were like hey
i said country and you died inside
then the next day in class you handed me a surprise
i went home and played the cd you gave to me
peal jam, alice in chains, tool, armor for sleep
and all these rock groups i just fell in love with
my music taste changed i became a rock chick
and it felt so right, country never really did
i found a part of myself that i didn't know existed
fast forward through a bunch of shit like that
becoming friends having class together in fact
we didn’t see each other much of 9th grade at all
then in 10th grade i kept seeing him in the hall
and i hung out with him in between class
i don't even remember how we started that
but we just started talking again
and then we became hella good friends
and i told you i liked you
and then all of a sudden we became
a “thing” a couple we went on a date
we hung out at barnes and nobles for our dates
we played uno for hours on our dates
we hung out at my house once for a date
you kissed me, my first kiss on our date
in the foyer of a book store on a date
then i got really stupid, i don't know why
for some reason i was like… never mind
and i fucked it all up and just like, said bye
and i spent the rest of the year and high school not saying
a single more thing to him since like that day
and we texted a little, we’ve talked since then
but i still look back and regret
how i handled things, and the friendship lost
but i know we cool now, i remember we talked
senior year of high school you came and visited
and we hung out for a little and it was pleasant
