warnings- male reader x Vernon, mentions of SA (reader talks about it), kissing, hickeys, arguing, alcohol, clubs, being depressed
Part 1: https://www.tumblr.com/aurawae/817879545270206464/18-vernon-smut
Part 2: https://www.tumblr.com/aurawae/818172943412723712/18-vernon-smut
SUMMARY: You guys have been dating for about a year and 6 months now, you guys stay together in a penthouse but still have your own places just because.. you know if anything is needed or anything happens. Your dream to debut has fallen and you are now working as a stylist for amazing people and some people in the k-pop industry, so you can be with Vernon at work sometimes, you also help produce music for SVT and Vernon. SVT knows about you and Vernon’s relationship and absolutely loves you.
‘I see the lies on the tip of your tongue’
You and Vernon had a huge argument about him getting overwhelmed with work since his Unit debut (V8) and Comeback for SVT was starting pretty soon and he shut you down emotionally for awhile which he didn’t intend to do, he also doubted the relationship and so did you. The argument was very heated, all you can remember is screaming at him, “GET OUT! VERN- I CAN’T EVEN SAY YOUR NAME GET OUT!” He left the penthouse and you guys haven’t spoken or seen eachother for about 4 weeks.
You began to spiral, not checking socials, ignoring everyone, drank a lot, cried tons of time where you would have to wear sunglasses 24/7, never did laundry etc. You constantly got messages from your friends including SVT… and Vernon.
Please answer we are getting very worried
Are you doing good? Answer me please, I’ve called your friends.
Hey I know you aren’t doing well but please let me know that you are okay.
Please tell me your alive
Do I need to talk to Vernon in order to get you guys better? Or do I need to fight him?
Call me if there is anything you need, please.
I know you aren’t doing good but let us know that you are okay please if not I’m texting your friends
I’m going to talk to Vernon but please tell me you’re alive?
I’m so sorry this is happening, please call me.
What’s going on?? Can u at least tell me you are doing good
Babe, please answer. I fucked up and I know I did but I don’t want to talk over the phone, I’m going to check up on you no matter what happens between us.
You didn’t feel depressed, just hurt and cried so much that you have no energy to do anything because who would. Those messages kept increasing, they even messaged your friends and told them what happened which made them worried as well. You didn’t plan on telling them.
You hear a knock at the door and you jump, not because you are shocked from the knock. It’s because you stayed at the penthouse all this time from how hurt you were.
“Y/N! It’s us!” At the door is Dahyun, Kai, Jihyo, Hyein, Hanni, Danielle, Hayden, Gabi, Austin, Hyunjin and Aniya, basically your whole friend group.
“We know you're there, open the door please” Jihyo asks
You get the energy to open the door and you see them with food, drinks, and flowers. You immediately burst into tears and they all come to hug you, everyone is now sitting in the living room and you spill everything on what happened and what you have been doing.
“I have no clothes, I can barely get up to walk, my eyes are swollen and I’ve been making easy food and door dashing food, if I get up it’s to shower and then lay back in bed” Crying and Jihyo hugs you.
“You know what would be a great way to get your mind off this? Going out… we can go to the club and we can dance and drink there” Gabi says
“That doesn’t like a horrible idea”
“Yeah?” Jihyo’s eyebrow frowns
“You should have something there’s no way!”
“Looks like we are going to the clubb” Hanni says out of excitement for you
You head into the room and look through the clothes, Jihyo and Hyein follow you, Hyein pulls out a hoodie “what about this hoodie?” You look at it.. (it’s the hoodie Vernon had you wear to sleep when you guys went to the club on your second date and he took care of you after you were super drunk, aka your favorite hoodie that Vernon gave you) “That can work” and Jihyo finds a pair of jeans for you to wear. You know for a fact tho that you aren’t going to the club without sunglasses because your eyes are still very swollen.
Meanwhile, Vernon has been staying with Seungkwan and was in the same place as you, haven’t left the house, crying etc. Seungkwan still motivated him to workout, eat and at least walk up and down the block. Vernon is filled with regret and knows he hurt you and is scared to even think about apologizing or seeing you because he knows he fucked up, Vernon truly does love you and never meant to do that to you. He stalked your socials daily to see what you were up to and still nothing.
Let’s go out, I’ll come pick you from Seungkwans house.
Vernon agreed to go out and it is about 6:00, Your friends came at the house around 4:00. You guys end up leaving at 9:00.
“Now that I’m thinking about it, going out actually seems nice” you say as you guys walk to the club
“Doesn’t it? Just have fun and clear your mind, meet new people and dance!” Gabi says putting his arms around your shoulder. Everyone is laughing and having the time of their life, Vernon gets picked up by Mingyu and they head to the club.
Everyone is at the club now and Danielle says something, “I’m glad he’s dancing and meeting new people, even if they don’t break up it’s nice to see him be out” looking over at you, “He’s a few drinks in too”
And Hyein looks over, “Oh my god- Guys?”
Everyone walks over to Hyein, “What’s the matter?” Austin says
They both see Vernon and Mingyu at the exact same club as you. Vernon is looking around and tells Mingyu he’s getting a drink, you are dancing… but it’s next to the bar.
“If Y/N sees him, he’s going to flip” Jihyo breaks out
“Someone go grab him!” Hayden yells
Vernon orders a drink and looks over, he sees you.. dancing with other people
Vernon bites his lip watching you dance. Not sure whether from jealousy or missing you, probably both.
“He’s looking at him, what if he approaches?” Aniya holds onto Hyunjin for support.
Mingyu comes over, “Oh- fuck-“ looking back and forth to you and Vernon, “You know that’s my hoodie he’s wearing?” Staring at you. “He probably didn’t have clothes, I mean he didn’t answer to anyone and probably stayed home. And he probably didn’t expect to see you so that’s why he didn’t care to wear that hoodie, he’s here to have fun and so are you Vernon.” Mingyu says looking at him
“Looks like he’s having too much fun.” Tapping his glass and glancing at you
“You caused this whole issue Vernon, you doubted the relationship and shut him out, Y/N can 100% handle himself whenever you guys argue but it seems like you hurt him with this one quite bad, you guys haven’t spoken in four weeks.” Vernon turns around and looks at Mingyu with frustration because he knows he is right but he also can't handle that you are dancing with a crowd.. not even the actual "crowd" you are dancing in a whole different circle with 4 boys and 6 girls.
Vernon now feels a type of jealousy towards this and he isn't having a good time, girls and boys approached him to dance and just asked how he was doing and Vernon didn't interact with them. He is away from Mingyu and glances at you from across the crowd.
"Where Is Y/N???" Danielle and Hyein freak out, they find you away from the crowd crying on the floor with a bottle in your hand you downed, "Jesus! Are you okay??! what's wrong?" , Hyein tells Danielle to text the group chat
Danielle- Guys come upstairs and we are next to to the third bar up here, Y/N is crying and we are trying to figure out what happened. Hurry.
Everyone comes up rushing to see what was going on.
"WTF HAPPENED?? ARE YOU OKAY??" Gabi grabs your shoulder
"I saw Vernon- and the people I were dancing with said that he kept glancing at me and I just can't get over the fact that Im wearing his hoodie and now Im in the same club as him... My mind was really cleared but now it isn't anymore."
"How long have you been up here?" Jihyo asks
"Yo what's going on? where is Y/N- are you okay??"
Everyone starts pushing this person back.. it's Vernon. "NO! NO- GET HIM AWAY" "DUDE LEAVE"
"Absolutely- not-" You grab the bottle in your hand and stand up, Hanni holds you
"Baby- babe- please just let me talk to you-"
"I WILL FUCKING HURT YOU- THE AUDACITY TO CALL ME YOUR BABY-???" You pushed your way through Hanni but she took the bottle out of your hand, you get in Vernons face, "DON'T YOU EVER- EVER-" Yelling at him, "Y/N please-" Your fingers are In his face and Vernon holds your hand, "Listen to me-" You push Vernon and slap him across the face, Jihyo grabs and holds you. Mingyu comes running up the stairs and saw what had just happened, tears are dripping down your face and Vernon's face is red. "Don't you fucking dare Vernon." Pointing at him, Mingyu grabs Vernon and they walk back downstairs, you end up crying even harder and they place you down onto a couch. Dahyun and Dani go grab tissues for you and the boys talk to you, you see Vernon & Mingyu going down the stairs. You can tell your friends hate to see you like this, you're embarrassed and feel horrible. You even feel horrible slapping Vernon, he didn't even drink that much because he wanted to talk to you but you are so drunk you obviously didn't want to see him because you knew you were going to become emotional and obviously he came over to check on you.
Even if you were sober you would act the same way because you've never felt so in love before.. nor hurt.
Vernon Ubers to his place and the group takes you back to the penthouse and puts you to bed on the couch because you couldn't make it to the room. They leave and say they will be back the next day to check up on you.
You wake up and feel sober, you must've drank a lot of water when you came back. You stretch and head into the room to change into shorts and keep on the hoodie that you wore last night, you get back into the living room and put on a movie. Once the movie starts you cut up some fruits for you to eat and get some water then you sit down and enjoy your movie and breakfast. 40 minutes into the movie you hear the front door unlock, you don't bother looking because you know who it is.
"Hey.. I didn't know you would be here, you don't have to respond or anything Im just here to look for something." He looks at you and you don't even look at him a single time
He "finds" what he needed and comes over to the couch and sits, "Past Lives, a great movie" You still focused onto the movie. "Look- baby- im so sorry please let me have the chance to talk." You still don't answer, tears start dripping down Vernon's face, "Im begging you please- just listen to me." He is looking up at you now and you start tearing up as well feeling emotions rising but still keeping contact with the movie.
"Vern- I don't even want to say your name. You doubted our relationship, I was always overwhelmed with work and never shut you out or worse, doubted us. You killed me-"
"Im sorry. I’m so sorry and I truly mean it. I never meant to hurt you and I know I did, I love you and I can't get over this. I fucked up" he holds your hand
You grin at him, "I would never expect It from you, from me? Yeah and it fucking hurts because I miss you- b- but- what you said fucking hurt." Vernon gets in front of you on his knees crying harder now.
"There is nobody else in the world I want to be with but you, I promise. Hurting you ruined me because I couldn't get over what I said and I didn't know how to approach you."
"Really? so you're telling me you weren't working out? eating? going out? at all- because you look bigger-“
"Thats because Seungkwan made me do all of that in order to still stay healthy and looking at your pale skin makes me feel sick because you had nobody to help you." Vernon cuts you off and holds your hand
You look into his face and see his pained eyes filled with jealousy and sadness
'매일이 별다를 것 없던, 기억들이 변해가는 것 같아, Where are we?
우린 어디쯤인 걸까 가끔은?' (Memories of unremarkable days, Seems they're changing, Where are we? I wonder where, sometimes)
"Watching you dance with other people hurt me too because I think you are moving on and I still love you. I messed up so horribly." You pick up his face and you cry even harder. "Y/N…” Vernon says
"Vern-Vernon, you hurt me, I was ill to my stomach. You really meant what you said or was that out of frustration? You really doubted our relationship and think that it would be better off going separate ways?"
Vernon cries out, "No- I can't imagine my life without anyone else- Look where we are-" He lays his head into your lap, "Im- Im so sorry" Your legs are shaking from crying and he grabs your hand and kisses it gently, "You don't have to forgive me but please just know Im sorry, I missed you so much and I can't take it anymore. I think about you all the time, you're always on my mind." He looks up at you and now has this soft-puppyish eyes to him.
He wipes the tears off your face, "And what, you're going to prove how much you missed me? I fucking hate you- " Another tear drops down your face as you laugh at him, Vernon picks it up with his thumb, "I can prove so much to you Y/N, you don't understand how much I miss you, you are everything to me” You bite your lip with your teary eyes, "Then prove it to me."
Vernon grabs your face and kisses it, he holds it for a while and pulls back. He goes down to your thighs then he kisses it... the next you know he's sucking onto your thigh, "Vern-" You grunt, you put your hair through Vernon's hair. He goes down to the other thigh and repeats the process, Vernon then sits on your lap and you guys go back to the mouth, this time Vernon has his tongue in you and you hold onto his forearms as he lays you back. You guys reposition yourself and Vernon doesn't let you go or catch your breath for a second, he must've really missed you. You enjoyed watching Vernon beg on his knees crying and seeing him jealous even if you were hurt because you know he's never going to screw up again, him seeing your affected so much kills him deeply
He goes into your neck, he bites you and you moan squeezing his biceps. You put your hand under his hoodie and feel through his abs, you make your way to his back and rub your finger up and down scratching it. Vernon gave you a hickey on your neck and thigh and he has scratches all over his back, you both got the worse of it. "Im never going to mess up again I swear baby." You look into his eyes, "I can tell" Vernon grabs your hand and kisses it, Vernon's phone is vibrating on the table repeatedly
Your moans in Vernon's ear makes him want to go further, he even moans with you. "God you did get super big.. what were you being fed and working out on" Vernon smirks, "Maybe you were my motivation" Whispering into your ear flipping you over and putting you on top of him, you life up his sleeves. You squeeze his biceps and lay your hands on his pecs once you find your way through his hoodie, then you bite his lip making it bleed. "What was your favorite line in black eye? Put a muzzle on me, I'll spit in your mouth?" Vernon's pupils dilate and you spit into his mouth, he then pulls you over and does the exact same.. you guys both swallowed.
He picks you up by the thighs with the both of you making out endlessly and you guys head into the room to grab a blanket and head back into the living room with him still holding you, his biceps and abs are hardening and pulsing, you can see his veins popping. He places you down softly and he heads into the kitchen to make drinks and looks around the kitchen to make something snack worthy, "If you are thinking about making snacks Im right here", His head moves up and realizes your right, "What you don't think Im a snack? After all that begging for me and saying you miss me, needed me, wanted me" he walks over to you, "I think your everything, we have each other as a snack"
He lays beside you and you put the blanket on top of him, You lay your head onto his chest and he puts his hand over you, all you can feel his is warm body , Vernon puts on a movie. Mid-movie, Vernon says something, "You know, I really am sorry. I didn't mean anything I said, I could never doubt our relationship because I really can't see life without you, shutting you out was horrible of me and I could understand why you were hurt deeply because I would feel the same way if that happened to me. I am not going to lie tho that slap was very hot.. anyway, I had to leave after that because seeing you like that hurt me knowing that I was the cause of it and never seen you that type of way before, I cried the whole ride back to my place." Playing with your hair, you don't respond, "I never want to hurt you again." he holds you tight.
His hands lead to your neck and into your mouth, "Vernon.." You say as his fingers enter your mouth, "Do you love me still?" He's getting a bit worried now that you didn't say anything thinking you're mad. You suck onto his fingers and Vernon moans out loud, "You don't think i've shown you enough love Vernon?"
"Yes- yes....?” You get up on top of Vernon and choke his neck while grinding on him, Vernon grunts and holds onto your waist, "Is this better?" You start to grind faster and take your hands off his neck, he catches his breath and you lift his hoodie up, his hardened abs are all you see and you get down to lick his abs. Vernon lays his head back and moans your name.
Vernon lifts his head back up, he grabs your hand and looks at you
"Baby.. your pale, cold skin actually sickens me, Im so sorry that nobody was here to help you. C'mere" You lay on top of Vernon and rest your head onto his chest again. "I will never never make you feel this way again, my gosh Im a horrible person." You look at him, "See maybe Im not dramatic, You did make up for it but you still have to earn the best of me" Winking at him,
"I'll order us some food." Vernon orders Jajangmyeon, tangsuyuk and mandu for you both, he puts both his arms around you
You put your hand up on your face and start crying, Vernon jumps “what’s wrong? Y/N- Y/N, are you okay?”
“I’m a mess. I’m embarrassed, I mean look at me. I look ugly right now, I feel bloated and feel horrible, All I needed was a genuine apology to make me feel better from you and yet I still feel like- like a horrible person, I even still feel a little horrible slapping you-“ you cry harder, chest moving up and down
“Shh.. shh… it’s okay, it’s okay, you’re going to be okay. I’m here now, all you need to do is eat and then hit a nice deep sleep. I’m with you” you groan and still hide your face
“Baby.. please don’t hide your face from me, you look amazing even when crying. Your face is cute like this, I honestly like seeing you this way"
“I was being honest-“ you punch him in the chest
Vernon takes the blanket off him and he sets it aside so you can sit on top of him while the blanket is over you both. “You’re going to be okay I promise, the food will be here soon and we can nap out here tonight” whispering into your ear, “don’t hide your face from me like that again” you can tell him seeing you like that made him a little teary eyed. Vernon has always been a soft person but when it comes to you, his feelings get even softer.
The doorbell goes off and you head off Vernon to go grab it, he pulls your body down immediately so he could go see who it was instead. As he walks away, you remembered that your friends said they would come to check on you.. you think to yourself 'Fuck..' Vernon opens the door and it's the food thankfully, he starts unpacking everything and laying the food onto the table. He doesn't let you help one bit
He sits next down to you and you put on a movie, you guys are eating and all of suddenly he puts a finger on your jaw so you are looking at him and you still have these teary eyes (Probably because all of that crying) he feeds you a piece of tangsuyuk, "Like that?"
"Mmm, yeah it's pretty good" You look away to focus on eating & the movie, you can still feel Vernon looking at you.
You guys finish eating after a while and it's about 1AM now, you guys stayed watching movies and cuddling. Right now Vernon has his arms around you as you both are laying back while your head is on Vernon's shoulders, he turns over to look at you and your eyes are heavy.. you are getting pretty tired .
Vernon turns off the movie then lifting you up gently so he doesn't wake you up entirely he takes you to your guys room and lays you on the bed.
He thinks to himself, should he stay the night or go back to Seungkwans, he's doubting himself which is the better thing to do because what if you dont like that he didn't stay or what if you didn't like that he did stay.
He sits beside you where you legs ended and touched it up and down, you looked at him, "Are you going to stay?"
"I can leave if you would like, I'll do anything for you"
You look at him in confusion and get up a tiny bit "Uh- I would like for you to stay.”
"Okay" he gets over to the closet and starts changing out of his sweats because its a little toasty.. or maybe its just him but he puts on a pair of shorts
"Did you really mean what you said"
"No I swear on my life, what I said was out of frustration. I love you, I really do"
"No- No not that, you would do anything for me?"
"Give me all of you then" Vernon turns his head back to you as you smirk at him halfway asleep, "Donne-moi une raison de m'endormir." (Give me a reason to fall asleep) He immediately runs to you
"God I love when you speak French, you're going to be the death of me" As he's on top of you and all you can see is his face and warm body it's making you feel a little nervous because the tension feels different this time
"Tell me about it" you say looking into his eyes
'You turn the rain into sunny days, you take the clouds away, Baby you're the one'
He kisses you gently on the lips, he then gets down to your thighs and kisses it multiple times. He comes back on you, "I love you In this hoodie"
"Brings back a lot of memories huh?" You say laughing
He kisses your neck and starts sucking, "Wait- Vern- I have to work tomorrow"
"And you stayed up till 1AM and deal with me?"
"I only decided to go into the building tomorrow so I can get out of the house"
"Well that's too bad" He gets back to work and you squeeze his biceps, it honestly hurts because he's sometimes either biting you, sucking, or licking but it feels good and you can tell Vernon missed doing this
You both run out of breath and Vernon flips over to the other side, he's been doing that for the past 30 minutes nonstop while he was on top of you and really gave you a reason to sleep, you get up from the bed and stand up to stretch and get a water, Vernon stares at you and slaps your butt. You turn around and look at him as you walked away, you come back with a water and sit on the bed to drink it, you hear the blankets ruffling as Vernon is behind you wants some, you pour the water into his mouth and he stares into you deeply until you stare back.
You both start getting comfortable in the bed and your face the other way from Vernon, he grabs you by your waist and pulls you closer, "What's the matter? are you in pain from your neck?"
"No I'm fine, just tired" Turning around to face him, he plays with your hair
"You're still embarrassed aren't you? It’s okay" It breaks his heart slightly that you still feel this way. He rubs your back and is thinking of ways to make you feel better in the morning and will make it up to you, he kisses your forehead and pulls you to his chest. You both fall asleep right there.
You wake up and start getting dressed to head into work, you don't care to cover up your hickey because you have your own space to work in and its a Sunday so you don't think you will run into any of the members or groups under Hybe. You walk to work with headphones in and once you get there you go to the cafe to get a coffee, and of course you would run into someone.. that someone is Seungkwan. He looks at you in shock that you are here and he comes over to you
"Hey Y/N! it's good to see you"
"You too, I didn't know you were working today"
"Yeah I'm helping with some content" He looks at your neck realizing the swollen, bruised mark on you
"Oh-Oh... Im going to assume that has to do with Vernon’s doing...?"
"Correct. He's still in bed right now and I didn't have the time to cover it up but I also didn't care to because I didn't think I would run into anyone but here we are"
"Jeez, Y/N that looks pretty bad" You roll your eyes, 'I know"
Vernon isn’t actually sleeping, he’s taking you to go eat and bringing you flowers and ice for your neck. He wants to make you feel better, he knows it’s little but he also knows that you are grateful for anything especially when it comes to Vernon. It’s been about 2 hours and you start cleaning up your area to leave work, you put your headphones back in and walk to leave the building, once you enter the doors to leave you look up and see Vernon sitting on the bench. "Hey baby"
"Aww Vernon" You go up and hug him, "Im taking you out to eat, where do you want to go?" He hugs you back
"Can we go to that new Sushi spot that opened up?" He nods
"How did you know I was leaving work at this time? Or have you been sitting there the entire time?"
"I looked at your calendar" He giggles, "Makes sense"
You guys get to the resturaunt
You both catch up on work, plans for V8 and what's he's cosplaying for their 11th anniversary etc. The food comes and you guys have a good time laughing, feeding each other, flirting. You both missed this.
The bill arrives and you put your card on the tab
"I don't think so" Vernon says taking your card out, you look at him in annoyance and he ends up paying for the food
"Do you want to do anything else after this? We can head home or go out still, it's up to you" You want to head home so once you guys leave the restaurant, you both walk back to the penthouse.
When you get home you change your clothes into pajamas and head back into bed immediately, Vernon is confused because that's not something you usually do.. even when you have a bad day at work you don't just go immediately go to the bed unless you ask him to come with you so he comes up to you when he finishes changing, "Hey.. are you okay?"
"Im fine" You turn the other way
"Y/N you aren't fine, what's going on?"
'Something don't feel right, Lies in the eyes of love'
"Are you not telling me something? You can talk to me"
You turn back over making eye contact with Vernon now, you start crying. Vernon looks at you in confusion but his eyes tell you that he's getting worried and wants to help.
"The night of the club, this boy and girl sexually assaulted me. That's the reason I was crying, not because I saw you there. It didn't help that you were there so of course I did cry because of that too but the moral reason was that. You've been doing all these nice things for me and I'm so appreciative of it, my emotions weren't being faked when you did those things, I promise. It just hurts me because I am embarrassed and never knew how to tell you."
"Baby- baby what... are you okay? did they hurt you?!"
"No.. they must've just got me really drunk and might've put something In my drink but thankfully I was okay enough to push them off."
"Oh my god- my poor-" Vernons heart shatters, he starts crying and you pull him to your chest
"Im okay I promise, it-its just been on my mind and I didn't want to you to know but gosh of course my emotions take over" You rub Vernons back as he cries into you, "Im sure karma will get to them, Im okay Vernon"
"How could I let this happen to you. This is all my fault"
You push him back and hold his face, "No it is not, don't you ever say that. Those people are just horrible. You have been loving on me ever since our argument and I love it, you still put a smile on my face when all of that has been on my mind. You are the most amazing boyfriend I could ever ask for."
"That's why I seem like iI'm in a mood, after we get intimate I think about how that could've happened to me with two other people and I remembered deep down I kept whispering to myself, just imagine Vernon, just imagine him. Do not blame yourself for this."
"But- It is my fault, if I never took my stress out on you then-"
"NO! It is not your fault, do not piss me off, you are not to blame of what happened to me" You cry out
You pull Vernon into your chest and lay back, he's on top of you crying out. He feels heartbroken because there's nothing he could do since you asked him to not do anything, you also dont remember anything about them but believe karma will get to them. One hand is rubbing Vernon's back and the other is in his hair
"Babe you can't just cry here the whole day"
"But I can tho, I have nothing else to do" He muffles as his face is buried in your hoodie
"Baby I love you but you really can't cry on me the entire day"
"Because you just can't, come on" You pull him off you and he kisses you, You reposition yourself, Vernon lays his head on your thighs
"Even you still thought about me"
"I wasn't about to do that and not think about the love of my life, anyway, enough about me. How is-"
"Im so sorry this happened"
You roll your eyes and hold your tears back as he brings it up again, Vernon kisses your thighs with his watery eyes, he kisses the spot where he gave you hickeys gently. His hands intertwined with yours, his hand being slightly bigger compared to yours. You lift his chin up and see his watery eyes, he grabs your hand and kisses it. You run your finger through his hair and he lays his head on your thigh, seeing him like this honestly breaks your heart. He comes up next to you in order to lay beside you, Vernon wraps his arm around you and you face the opposite way so all you feel is his chest on your back, he kisses your head and squeezes you tight. He brings the blanket and puts it around you guys and you both fall asleep right there.
Vernon feels absolutely hurt that you went thought this and will haunt him for a while knowing that if he just controlled his emotions and talked it out with you, this wouldn’t have happened. He wants to make you feel so much better, Vernon will blame himself forever when it comes to this. Whenever you guys would argue Vernon knows that you could handle yourself because he knows you are someone who can handle himself.. and you did, you were able to distance yourself and never cried during an argument, but again this was different because never once any of you guys doubted your relationship nor shut eachother out with a deeper feeling to it. You also never got physical with Vernon in a situation like that, slapping him was shocking to you both, he knows that he hurt you super bad because he’s never seen you act like this before, NEVER.
Both of you guys had been sleeping for a while and Vernon woke up before you after your guys 4 hour nap, he got up and decided to clean the house for you and cook dinner. He didn’t want to wake you up so he closed the door as he left and gave you a kiss on your head, Vernon heads into the bathroom before cleaning the house and breaks down. He cries and covers his face not trying to cry loudly even though he wants to let it all out, he didn’t want to wake you up or for you to see him like this, he knows that you told him to not blame himself but that’s all he can do right now. He washes his face and looks in the mirror to put a smile onto his face because that’s exactly what you would’ve done and he knows that you wouldn’t want to see him like this and would’ve told him to smile, whenever something inconvenient to you there was always still a smile on your face that was genuine and not forced because that’s the type of person you are.
Vernon cleans the house and it’s nice and neat now, he looks in the fridge to look for something to cook for you but it might be loud so he goes back and fourth on either ordering or cooking for you. You’re in a deep sleep and you are a light sleeper but because you finally got that secret off your chest and snuggling with Vernon made you fall into a space where you just needed to be at that moment, it’s something you cherished and took in because you needed that and haven’t gotten something like that in awhile.
While you were sleeping the argument played in your head.
“I don’t understand why you are acting like this? Are you a child?!” Yelling at Vernon
“Maybe we aren’t right for each other! If you can’t understand me and I can’t understand you then what are we both doing with our lives huh?!”
You stood there and paused, your eyes aren’t filled with anger anymore but Vernon’s eyes are. Looking at his face and reading his body language, the way it was.. made you feel that what he said was serious
“Excuse me? You fucking shut me down when I tried to help you when you were stressed! I fucking comforted you and you ghosted me, you can’t speak up to tell me if you are okay or not and even then when I asked, you said it’s fine but clearly you weren’t because you kept being a bitch!”
Vernon laughs mockingly and stands up getting off the couch matching your aggressive energy, “Then let’s go! Go! You can’t understand that I don’t want to tell you something about how I feel and you still bothered asking? Are you okay?? Genuinely okay?”
“THATS NOT MY POINT!!!” Yelling at him with tears running down your face, “YOU TURNED ME AWAY BECAUSE OF WORK AND YOU WERE STRESSED, WHEN HAVE I DONE THAT TO YOU? HUH? EVEN IF I DON’T TELL YOU SOMETHING ABOUT HOW I FEEL I NEVER HAVE SHUT YOU AWAY IN SUCH A WAY”
“THEN MAYBE WE NEED TO GET AWAY BECAUSE CLEARLY WE BOTH AREN’T MEANT FOR EACH OTHER”
“ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS???”
“GET OUT! VERN- I CAN’T EVEN SAY YOUR NAME GET OUT!”
Vernon left the penthouse and you guys didn’t speak for about 4 weeks, he messaged you here and there from that time on and you never responded. Even when you guys get into arguments you always answered to tell him you were okay but you completely ignored him because you spiraled and spiraled.
You wake up with your eyes being a little watery from that argument playing in your head, you turn over and see that Vernon isn’t there. You get up and stretch as you realize the door is closed and open it to see Vernon in the kitchen with an apron on cooking.
Vernon is cooking one of your favorite meals, vodka pasta with chicken cutlets. He looks up and sees you coming out the door, “You’re up!” He smiles at you.
“Yeah I am, I had a pretty good nap” You say as Vernon giggles at you
You look at him in confusion, “Wait what are you doing? Isn’t your 11th anniversary live in like an hour?? I need to be getting you dressed!”
“Yeah but I thought you should get a nice meal while you watch me on the live”
“That’s very sweet of you, I was just going to order out” you shrug and walk to Vernon pulling him by his waist giving him a kiss, “You look cute with an apron on” Vernon blushes “Now let’s head to the building so I can get you ready Mr. Frost” winking at him
Vernon starts packing your meal so you can eat it while you watch him. You order an uber for you guys and Vernon opens the door for you and once you both are in the uber he puts his hand on your manspreaded thighs while staring outside the window. You guys arrive to the building and immediately head into the dressing room so you can Vernon ready putting on his wig and contacts, he changes and comes out to let you see his fit
“Aw you look so handsome” Vernon smiles and blushes shyly, you pull his hand close to you and fix his hair a little bit, he stares at you and you can feel it as you are managing his hair. He couldn’t help but kiss you softly, you smile at him.
“Looks like you’re ready Jack Frost, I’ll see you in a bit okay?”
Vernon nods as you walk away from him and he looks at you the whole way until your body reaches the door to leave. You walk to the lounge area where the staff is as well and you all enjoy the anniversary watching it together, everyone is talking, laughing, and eating including you. When Vernon pops up in his Jack Frost outfit everyone looks at you and you can’t help but cover your face, you enjoyed the food Vernon made for you. When the the anniversary was over you both went home and snuggled in bed
“Tonight I’m dealing with Jack Frost or Vernon?” Vernon laughs and he pulls you closer to him poking your sides making you giggle. Both of you guys slept that night and ever since.. Vernon never hurt your feelings again and knew to not fuck it up again because he really does love you and wants to be with you forever.
THANK U FOR READING I HOPE U ALL ENJOYED THIS SERIES!! I LOVED WRITING THIS <3
