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he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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“IT IS TRUE THAT IN THE PAST 12 YEARS, I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO RISE ABOVE THE CIRCUMSTANCES OF MY BIRTH AND BUILD A LIFE THAT I TRULY LOVE. BUT NO ONE SHOULD HAVE TO MAKE SUCH A HERCULEAN STRUGGLE FOR SIMPLE NORMALCY. EVEN GIVEN THE HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS I NOW ENJOY, IF I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND MAKE THE CHOICE FOR MY MOTHER, IT WOULD BE ABORTION.” — Stole this from your blog Nat :)!
I WISH MY MOTHER HAD ABORTED ME by Lynn Beisner
Fuck Forever :) <3
Its one and the same, one and the same oh, So whats the use between death and glory? How can you choose between death and glory? Happy endings, no, they never bored me Happy endings, they still don't bore me But they, they have a way They have a way to make you pay And to make you toe the line Sever the ties Because I'm so clever But clever ain't wise Fuck forever If you don't mind Oh fuck forever? If you dont mind, dont mind,i dont mind,i dont mind Oh whats the use between death and glory? I cant tell between death and glory? New labour and Tory Purgatory and no happy families Its one and the same, one and the same No, its not the same Its not supposed to be the same You know about that way The way they make you pay And the way they make you toe the line I've severed my ties Oh, you're so clever, you're so clever But you're not very nice So fuck forever If you don't mind Oh I'm stuck forever In your mind, your mind, your mind But have you heard about that way, To make you feel I should soon make you pay And to make you toe the line, line I Sever my ties Oh well i never Sever the ties And fuck forever If you don't mind See i'm stuck forever Oh i'm stuck in your mind, your mind, your mind I never played this on the radio Oh they never played this on the radio.
The Good Old Days - Dedicated to someone who will probably never read this blog.
If Queen Boadicea is long dead and gone Still then the spirit In her children's children's children It lives on If you've lost your faith in love and music Oh the end won't be long Because if it's gone for you then I too may lose it And that would be wrong I've tried so hard to keep myself from falling Back into my bad old ways And it chars my heart to always hear you calling Calling for the good old days Because there were no good old days These are the good old days It's not about, tenements and needles And all the evils in their eyes And the backs of their minds Daisy chains and school yard games And a list of things we said we'd do tomorrow A list of things we said we'd do tomorrow The arcadian dream has all fallen through But the Albion sails on course So lets man the decks and hoist the rigging Because the pig mans found the source And theres twelve rude boys on the oars
LOVE <3
Why go to Tiffany’s for a wedding band when you have one grown from your own bones? That’s what five British couples did this spring, starting with a trip to the hospital for a quick jaw biopsy to retrieve bone cells. The idea - a romantic experiment dubbed biojewelry - is the love child of Tobie Kerridge and Nikki Stott, design researchers at the Royal College of Art, and Ian Thompson, a bioengineer at Kings College London. The trio used a four-step process (below) to coax the cells into skeletal symbols of everlasting devotion. It takes months. In September, the jewelry - plus still photos and a time-lapse video of the process - will go on display at Guy’s Hospital in London. After that, the betrothed get the rings for keeps. “I love the idea that it’s precious only to us because it is, literally, us,” says Harriet Harris, one of the participants. “It’s almost worthless to anyone else.” You can’t say that about platinum.
I'll run out and do that straight away.... WTF
#The Girl Who Became Three Boys
“This film tells the chilling story of Gemma Barker who invented and impersonated three different boys, and under these guises went on to seduce two teenage girls”. So I’m now on my 3rd viewing of this Channel 4 documentary “The Girl Who Became Three Boys” aired last night at 9pm. No matter how many times I watch it I cannot understand the victims Jessica and “Alice” (who preferred not to be identified) naivety in the whole thing. Gemma Barker a insecure 18yr old who was supposedly scared of “losing her younger friends” created 3 male alter egos on the social networking site Facebook to become their perfect boyfriends. The Facebook accounts (Connor, Aaron and Luke) had no ‘real’ friends and used pictures stolen from other boys accounts. Everything on the profile was done at the same time (Large numbers of people added as friends at the same time, pictures all added on the same day). All 3 boys wore hats and/or hoods that partially hid their faces and NEVER removed them. One alter-ego never spoke and used his phone and a series of text messages to communicate when in the presence of his girlfriend Jessica. HE NEVER SPOKE?! Are these girls really that thick? As for sex… both girls managed to lose their virginity to someone who was fully clothed using a gigantic pink dildo. Even taking into account that it was their first time and they were probably nervous and a little scared.. I as a female cannot understand how they would not notice something like that??? Gemma Barker in no way went about this intelligently… she isn’t a seasoned con artist.. After a psychiatric assessment it was discovered that she in fact has borderline learning difficulties and I think she was diagnosed as being on the autistic spectrum? She didn’t have surgery or use anything that any other teenager does not have access to, yet she managed to trick two CLOSE friends. Why did these girls not see that the “boys” looked like Gemma?How did they not realise it was a dildo and not a penis?Did they not wonder why they never removed their hat?Why did they not realise the profiles were obviously fake?WHY DIDN’T THE PARENTS/GUARDIANS REALISE? Where were they? ONE OF THE BOYS DIDN’T EVEN TALK WTF? I honestly don’t think this is a case of Gemma being a highly intelligent criminal mastermind but more of a case that the victims were borderline brain dead. Especially Jessica who showing no emotion happily told all in the documentary explaining in all-too-graphic detail being sexually assaulted by Gemma Barker. The icing on the cake? What did young victim Jessica learn? Absolutely NOTHING.. Her new boyfriend she also found on Facebook.. he said he was a boy as did their mutual friends.. and he has boy parts..! What I don’t understand is where are the parents/guardians of these children? Young girls seem to be more naive and clearly far to trusting now then when I was their age. Why was Jessica allowed to have her boyfriend stay at her house in HER bedroom at the age of 16? I think hope that this is just a very extreme case.. and not the norm but it does highlight how some peoples common sense and intelligence goes out the window when it comes to the internet. I am a female in my early 20’s.. I had access to the internet from the age of 13 (AOL - Dial-up woohoo). I use Facebook and Twitter and have been a member of several online dating sites ;) I have made some AMAZING friends both male and female from the internet.. Some of them have become big parts in my life and most are closer to me than friends I made at school or work. I will never knock the internet for that. *HEAD IN HANDS* - MY BRAIN HURTS.
This CONSTANTLY happens to me on nights out.
This is so me!!
Photoshop for this evening :)
I'm safe up high.. nothing can touch me.. but why do I feel this parties over? No pain inside your like perfection.. but how do I feel this good sober?
Skills 4-21 - THANK YOU
So today... I'm feeling a little stressed. I haven't had any full time work for about 3 weeks and nothing on the horizon from any of the temp agencies I've joined up too.. Partly my fault for currently residing in the land of no hope (Callington) with no driving license so I'm having to rely on public transport which costs far too much and won't get me where I need to be or by the time I need to be there!
HOWEVER... I'm a lot less stressed then I was this time last year. This time last year I hadn't worked for 2 years (AT ALL) , I'd lost all my self confidence and firmly believed there was no hope.. that I was useless, worthless and that I would never have the things that I wanted nor the things that I needed.
TODAY... I know that I'm capeable of working within an office enviroment or any other working enviroment. That I'm more than good enough to do a "proper job" and that I'm just fighting a battle with the other 100's of people applying for the same job.
I want to get up in the morning, I want to make something of my life. I want to work.
I owe thanks for my new found confidence and recent temporary employment to: Skills 4-21 (Skills for the 21st Century)
• A 2 week programme - 5 day week -9 a.m. to 4 p.m. • Run from City Business Park - Stoke - Plymouth • Get work experience & learn new skills • Mock interviews • Create/update your CV • On completion you’ll have a portfolio to take to interviews • A friendly mentor to work with until you find work
I was referred to Skills 4-21 from the job centre *sigh* and to be honest.. hated the thought of having to spend two weeks from 9am to 4pm with a load of strangers and people telling me how everything I was doing was "wrong".
The first day of the course I turned up in a pair of jeans and a hoody.. hair up , no make up.. I found a desk right at the back in the corner and sat nonchalantly hoping the next 2 weeks of my life would go quite quickly.
How quickly my demeanor changed... The course is ran by Alan Jones ( I believe he's a business co-ordinator? - He knows everything.. and if he doesn't he'll know by the end of the day!!!) and Sue Grant (Manager of the City Business - a force to be reckoned with!). They are both very confident hard-working people who will tell you exactly what they think..they're not mean.. just very straight forward.. which I really respect.
Alan & Sue both understand the challenges young people come up against when trying to find work and help you to overcome a lot of them.. but they're also happy to tell you what a potential employers impression of you will be. I for example turned up in a hoody a pair of jeans with a look of "I don't want to be here, I don't care". The 2nd day of the course... I was wearing smart trousers , a blouse , make-up and my hair down.. People almost didn't recognise me!
The course is run in a room at the City Business Park, It's filled with several desks (set up exactly like an office). We were each given a laptop to use installed with the latest Microsoft Office software, provided with tea and coffee making facilities.. it was really a mock work place.
The best thing about the course for me was the individual attention they provided us with.. Confidence was a big issue for me and they helped me to realise it and over come it. I was found a placement with a graphic design business Neovirtua which I did real work for.. it was printed and used!! I met several potential employers and I know several people on course 1,2 and 3 found work because of this course!
I personally since the course worked (paid) for the City Business Park (Graphic design and admin) and I've also worked for Plymouth Community Homes for 3 weeks as an admin assistant for technical and building services.
The continuous support I recieve when I need it, I'm so grateful for.. I attended course 1 (16th January 2012 to 27th January 2012) and just last week I sent an email asking for help with finding a job AND help on trying to start my own business (something I've always wanted to do but had no idea on how to start). I recieved a reply within 2 hours from both Alan & Sue.. I had contact with Princes Trust and Working Links.. THEY REALLY DO WANT TO HELP!!
If you're aged between 18-24 , on JSA and really want to find work.. this is really the best thing I've ever done.. The job centre see so many people everyday/week/month they can't help you.. and to be totally honest you get the feeling they don't care.. your just a number.. At Skills 4-21 your made to feel like an individual by the end of the course they know you and they will do anything they can to help you.
So here it is:
THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!
“You can only become truly accomplished at something you love. Don't make money your goal. Instead, pursue the things you love doing, and then do them so well that people can't take their eyes off you.”
Current Hair Products.. after bleach.
Hiiiiiiii!
As you can see from my previous posts I went through some pretty harsh chemical processes with my hair to get it to a blonde / orangey colour. So now I'm trying to build up the strength of my hair and tone some of the red/orange out.
Currently using these products:
TRESemme - Luxurious Moisture
I think this cost me around £4.99 for each bottle so a bit expensive for me at the moment (Temp work.. unemployed - constantly) but was definitely worth purchasing.. Has definitely made my hair feel and look a lot softer. After about 24hrs my hair starts to get quite greasy though.. It doesn't bother me!
John Frieda - Sheer Blonde - Tone Correcting
This was a bit of a impulse buy after I lightened my hair with the XXL Live Absolute Platinum.. I thought this may help... I have FAR too much red/brassiness for this stuff to make a massive difference.. I was quite disappointed with it at first because this was quite expensive!! £5.95 each. HOWEVER I've been using it every other day (instead of the TRESemme) and my gingerness has lightened around 2 shades so I will continue to use this until I can find a cheaper "Violet based" shampoo.
Note: For those of you who didn't know violet based shampoos such as the one above and I think there is a brand called touch of silver? (I can't find it) help to tone out the brassiness in blonde hair.. so if you do have a bit of brassiness I've found these really do work!
TRESemme - Heat Defence Styling Spray
If you don't know by now... YOU SHOULD BE USING HEAT DEFENCE SPRAY ON YOUR HAIR BEFORE USING HEAT TO STYLE IT!!!!! - I'm coming across as a bit of a TRESemme fan at the moment - I'm not I actually do own quite a few heat styling sprays that I've either bought or "Collected" from family members... I don't see any difference in any of them apart from the smell maybe?
I WON'T USE A HAIR DRYER OR STRAIGHTNERS WITHOUT THIS STUFF!
Herbal Essences - Beautiful Ends - Split End Protection - Intensive Mask
I've used this a few times now.. I haven't really honestly seen a difference in my hair it cost a bout £3 maybe a bit more.. You can't repair a split end these products just "glue them" back together until your next hair cut... the packaging looks nice though LOL.
Schwarzkopf Gliss Hair-Repair Leave In Conditioner
I've used this a couple of times now.. I needed a leave-in conditioner well I wanted one .. I love the pearly look to it.. so I bought it. I've tried using it on clean damp hair and I've tried it on hair after I've dried it... Not a huge difference but it does seem to keep the frizz at bay which for me makes it well worth the purchase.. I have decent conditioner anyway! Ohh and if you have tangly hair this REALLY HELPS!! Has a really sweet smell to it also.
Henna Treatment Wax
I found this recently at Trago Mills .. I remember my mum having a tub of this when I was a lot younger - she has LOVELYYYY SHINY HAIR! So I thought I'd give it a go since the Herbal essences one kinda sucked.
Unlike most Henna products this will not COLOUR your hair! It's really for bleached/permed hair .. hair that has had a lot of damage. Wash your hair as usual... whack some of this stuff on put a preferably warm damp towel on your head do something else for 30 minutes and then wash it out.. If you enjoy baths - this is a lot easier in the bath you won't need to cover your hair because the steam from the bath will activate it.
I've used this once since I've bought it (Last week) and from the very first treatment my hair feel so nice - it hasn't gone greasy and my frizz is all but gone. I will never run out of this stuff!!
SMILE!!!!
Going Blonde.. Part 2/3.. Lightener and Dye...
Absolute Platinum
I used:
XXL Live Absolute Platinum
Around 24hours after the application of the JoBaz Max Strength colour remover I decided to try and lighten the orange parts of my hair using the most extreme blonde colour I could - I'm not the platinum blonde type of girl.. so I wasn't trying to get platinum coloured hair!
I had to use two boxes of it … you don't get much at all out of one!
I followed the instructions and got this:
So... now I look rather stupid.. Platinum blonde roots with carrot (although lighter than it was orange)... I'm all for weird and wonderful hair colours but... Meh I no likey!
Natural Light Golden Blonde
I used:
Well.. I sent my other half over to Tesco to get me a hair dye .. I asked for 102 Nice and Easy which is a natural light ash I believe - Ash should help tone out some of the red... well he comes back with 102G which I didn't realise till I'd put it on my head that it was Light Golden Blonde - So yeah It didn't get rid of the RED but my hair does look MUCH better than it did before:
Everyone who has seen it says that it suits me and that it looks like it's been done on purpose.. almost like Hailey Williams the lead singer of Paramore?
In fact I actually LOVE my hair at the moment and I know I've majorly stressed it out in the space of 3 days.. so my current hair routine is as follows:
Tresemme Hydration Shampoo & Conditioner alternated with John Freda's Blonde Toner Shampoo & Condition (Supposed to get rid of 'brassiness!!) Once a week I am doing a Henna wax treatment or using Herbal Essences Split end repair mask thingy?
My plan is to get my hair feeling soft and looking healthy.. allow it to recover from all the chemical processes i've done to it and then around a months time do a bleach bath/ soap cap to see if I can reduce any more of the red!
VERY HAPPY! ^_^
Going Blonde... Part 1.. Colour Removal
** I'd like to dedicate this blog post to Elis Bond who I know will thoroughly enjoy lol'ing at my orange hair **
Left Photo: About 2/3 Inches of roots showing through (I a have very dark blonde almost light brown hair naturally)
Right Photo: The colour of my hair before I started the process
My Hair History:
When I was born I had very light - almost white blonde hair up until the age of about 11/12 when it started getting darker and darker.. I started highlighting my hair at about the age of 13/14 (I'm now 22). At 16 I dyed my hair several different shades of brown.. then finally stupidly went BLACK around 18/19. I redyed my roots black because the colour just wouldn't fade.
20th Birthday... decided I'd had enough... used a lightener (I forget which brand), It actually did take all of the black out and I HAD NO ORANGE!!! Then I made the mistake of dying my hair BRIGHT RED (XXL Red Passion).. anybody that has dyed their hair red will know how wonderful it looks but how quickly it fades MEH :-/ I kept this hair colour up for about 5 months? I then started dying my hair a purple colour (xxl Ultra Violet) for around 3 months... Then I decided I wanted blonde hair again..!
I use a hair dryer (sometimes)
I also use Ceramic straighteners (occasionally)
I have been known to use shampoo with high silicone content
I have LONG, THICK, WAVY Hair
SORRY FOR THE LONG BORING HAIR HISTORY.. BUT YOUR DYE HISTORY IS MASSIVELY IMPORTANT WHEN USING A COLOUR REMOVER!!!
What I used:
JoBaz (extra strength)
XXL Live Absolute Platinum x 2
Nice & Easy Natural Golden Blonde (possibly a mistake!!)
Why Jobaz? - JoBaz is exactly the same as ColourB4 just in different packaging! It's A LOT CHEAPER (I got mine at Trago Mills but you can find them in SAVERS) for about £4.99 ... ColourB4 is £12.99!!
I used the MAX STRENGTH version because as you can see I have A LOT OF COLOUR BUILD UP!!! - It's important to note that my previous hair colours have mostly been from Schwarzkopf XXL Live Range which are full of silicone (That's what makes your hair look lovely and shiny and gorgeous!).. If you use Heat on your hair which I have - The silicone will melt into your hair apparently making it nearly impenetrable ... which means the colour remover might not work... I have also used red dyes which will probably of stained my cuticles - Colour remover will not get rid of cuticle staining!
You can find more about JoBaz Hair Colour Remover from: http://jo-baz.com/
I'm not going to go into the step by step of using the hair colour remover because it comes with VERY detailed instructions but a few hints/tips:
Read instructions thoroughly and follow them to the letter!! (it's really important... this isn't just like sticking a dye on your head!)
As soon as it's mixed up start applying to your hair straight away – it loses it's potency the longer it's left mixed.
IT STINKS
The warmer this stuff is the better it works I covered my hair with a Tesco carrier bag... gave it a blast all over with a hairdryer on the hot setting and then put a beanie hat on!
stand under the shower to rinse because you have to rinse for a minimum of 10 minutes and your neck/shoulders will not appreciate being stuck over the bath for that long!
Remember while rinsing your hair... what comes out will be clear.. don't be alarmed it is working!
After you've finished with the colour remover your hair will feel terrible - mine felt very dry and knotty - but don't panic that's normal!
I towel dried and then blow dried it this is what I was left with:
Photo: Exactly what I expected .. light closer to the roots as this is was the hair with the least amount of dye build up... but OMG so orange on the bottoms (which I also expected.. combination of silicone damage and cuticle staining)
I personally LOVE this product and it is a lot cheaper than Scott Cornwall's ColourB4 and does exactly the same job. I would highly recommend this to anyone who wants to get rid of the colour build up they have.. It creates almost a clean canvas to dye your hair again.
Some notes:
It's recommended that you don't use a permanent hair dye or bleach for about 2 weeks after the colour remover application because there is a chance that it will re-oxidise (bring back your old colour). I used a lightener the day after and it didn't re-oxidise... BUT when I tried ColouB4 I used a lightener straight after and my hair did re-oxidise so please think about it!!
You can use a temporary colour straight after though!
