Excelsior

Hi! I'm Austin. Comic books, food, family, and friends are my passions.

[austinscotsman]

Why do I always end up feeling like an outcast

[psych2go]

21 Ways To Tell if Someone Is Suicidal | Psych2Go (new video march 11)

[nerdiest-nerd-herd]

This is so important

[donutmesswithme]

This can save a life

[kadiikoy]

This is so heartbreaking to watch, but important.

[jkh-2001]

Also please only watch this if you are in the right mindset

[waiting-for-fridge-charming-blog]

Please learn these signs..

[austinscotsman]

So much pain! Just make it stop!

[austinscotsman]

Crying myself to sleep every night is starting to seem normal.

[austinscotsman]

I don’t even matter

I could end it all tomorrow and very few people would be affected but not for long. The people that I think care about me probably would brush it off as nothing. I’m tired of the pain. I’m tired of the calling out for help with no response. I know I should seek help but I have no drive to do it. I often sit at home contemplating how I could end it and that scares me enough to start crying and eventually sleep. Sleep seems to be my only escape but even then I have night terrors. I just want someone to show they care what happens to me. A person can easily say they care but not mean it with the same effort. I see them showing the care I desire to others while I would watch and suffer. I often lean on those I consider close but end up becoming a burden and have them push me away. I’m not really sure why I am even posting this. It’s not like anyone will even read it. No one actually cares.

[babyanimalgifs]

HE’S SO SMALL

[austinscotsman]

Not sure if I will make it to my 22nd birthday

[austinscotsman]

I wish I could be a better version of me. I wish I knew how to improve my self esteem and learn how to be happy. I honestly have no idea how to be happy. I have moments where I think I feel happier but it seems so foreign. It makes me feel wrong. I hate faking it because it hurts and I really don’t like lying like that. I wish something in my life help me learn how to truly be happy.

[austinscotsman]

I guess I'm not a good friend

[slaughteringbunnies]

[spicygay]

2017 mood

[fistophercolon-deactivated20211]

[gameraboy]

Take me, Garth

[austinscotsman]

If a girl ever shows interest in me this is how I will react.

[babyanimalgifs]

this loaf of bread is sneezing

baby animals blog

[austinscotsman]

It’s hard to think that about 2 years ago I almost ended it all. I still have those struggling moments but I have people around me that keep me going. I really wish I knew how to thank those that saved my life when I was at my lowest.

[comicbookartwork]

[austinscotsman]

For the past couple months, I have been trying to get past this painful feeling that I don’t really understand. I feel empty and as if something is missing in my life. I’m not sure if it is loneliness, regret, or something else but I’m not sure what to do and hope I figure it out soon. It is getting harder to hide it every day.

[egotisticalraptor-blog]

im not sure im ready to go there with you mario

[butt-berry]

[milliondollarnigga-deactivated2]

me and my goons dapping it up when we meet