a place for the self

han. she/they. a catalogue of my masters research of unmasking through movement 🙂‍↔️

[authenticfalsehoods]

✨hello!!✨

My name is han and I am currently a master's student in Dance Leadership and Community Practice. As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD, I have become aware of how pervasive masking is for me and I began to realize that I felt most myself, most unmasked, when I was dancing. This account is just here as a catalogue of my personal practice, session journals, and creative writings as part of my research into unmasking. Through an exploration of identity and public facing persona, this research aims to explore the presence of masking in public life for all neurotypes and the possibility of using movement to deconstruct that mask. If you're at all interested in the research (or even just watching me wiggle around in the studio) I'd love it if you gave this account a follow! x

[authenticfalsehoods]

movement journal, beauty queen, nov. 2024

so I'm soft because no one likes me sharp and I'm scared of myself what if by letting myself be sharp I shatter? recently obsessed with this song by Vienna Vienna your beauty queen if you'll have me, han xx

[authenticfalsehoods]

movement journal, someone new, march 2025

what is it to be too much and not enough 

but too much too much tooooooooo much 

to feel the spilling pouring surging with no substance behind it? 

as the title says... a movement journal from March 2025 as a part of MFA research. I don't own the music!

[almyranpine]

really good tiktok

Transcript:

Girl, just do it fat. Don’t wait until you’ve lost enough weight. You’re worthy of taking up the space that you fill. Live your life now. Don’t wait for some future version of yourself that you think will be more deserving. You have every right to pursue your passions and dreams just as you are today. Your worth isn’t tied to a number on a scale or the size of your clothes; it is inherent in who you are. You’re allowed to be seen, heard, and celebrated in whatever body you inhabit right now. Don’t let anyone or anything convince you for too long. So go out. Do it fat! Wear the clothes you love, pursue the opportunities that excite you, and live unapologetically. There’s no reason to put off living the life that you want, waiting for a moment that you’re not even sure will come. You deserve to be happy and fulfilled just as you are, and the world needs you exactly as you are today. Everything good that has ever happened to you, happened in this body. Girl, just do it fat.

[authenticfalsehoods]

movement journal, help herself, mar. 2025

partially (or entirely) inspired by my current hyper-fixation on @bbnotumbl but of course using the sad vibes because would it really be me if I didn't go for the sad song...? you can never beat the hyper-fixation so you might as well join it? apologies for the squeaky socks... enjoy?

apologies for the squeaky socks... silhouettedly yours, han xx

[hannah-han-lenefan]

movement journal, no pressure over cappucino, jan. 2025

Does anyone else like to play in sadness??

Playing in sadness like playing in the mud.

I’ll make a potion of moodiness just to process these feelings.

So February was rough but here we are in late March with a video from January??

Yours,

han x