Rambling

A blog i made about my autism to dont glog up my main acc and dont ramble tok much in a server | he/him | main is @kitteypwince

[autistic-michael]

Holy fuck I just went to look back at this blog and so many things I said here are so outdated and weird, yes autism is a disability and I'm disabled, why did I ever say othwrwise- what the FUCK

[autistic-michael]

Remirder! Autism and ADHD aren't disorders!

Yes, I'm aware they have "disorder" in the name. The thing is.. There's many things that makes them different from disorders! Mainly:

- Youre born with autism/ADHD, you aren't born with disorders. Disorders are developed (if you think ADHD or autism are developed.. What the fuck)

- Disorders USUALLY make you struggle more in life. ADHD/Autism gives you both struggles and positive things! And most of the struggles come from society, not the thingy itself! While with disorders, it can make you struggle even if society wouldn't treat you like you don't have those

Mostly the names are outdated and should be changed! Just how DID's old name was changed! People should understand the name isn't the excuse to make your argument valid, because things like those change

Also another thing, some people consider autism/ADHD disability and some don't, please don't force anyone to consider themselves disabled if they don't want to :( this goes to other way around to!

[autistic-michael]

Sometimes having DPD is nice. It feels like autism to me, that it has good and bad things in it

It sucks because it's hard to be independent and it's hard if you have no caretakers but.. Until you find them and they actually take care of you.. And You just feel so loved.. It's just amazing. I enjoy being taken care of and having caretakers. I will learn to be more confident, but I accept my DPD and it's a part of myself I love. Because it's important to love yourself and all things in yourself, even disorders you have

(note: this isnt about saying its good to have DPD or anything like that. It's about me accepting I have DPD and being positive about myself. I know people with DPD can be unknowgly abusive, and I'm aware I can be abusive at times too. But I want to accept aspects of my DPD that are harmless, at least in my situation, like having caretakers that are willing to take care of me)

[banditsandmercenaries-deactivat]

I really hate the stereotype that autistic people love children's media because I really do not and I'm sick of people being surprised that I, a twenty two year old adult, like things aimed at adults. I get why a lot of people like children's media, and that is so cool, I'm just not one of those people, and I hate people thinking I must be just because I'm autistic. It always feels like they just think I'm mentally a child, and I don't think I need to explain why that is harmful.

[spongebob-autisticquestions]

[autistic-michael]

I'M HAPPY STIMMING SO MUCH WHILE THINKING ABOUT MY BOYFRIEND OMG,,

[autism-fucking-rocks]

Just learned about unreliable speech in regards to autism from the.autsiticats on twitter. It's when you mean to say one thing, but something different comes out.

Like a coworker will ask me if I went and got lunch somewhere instead of eating at the workplace. The answer will be no, but I'll say yes for no apparent reason without meaning to. Then I can't take it back and correct myself because if they ask why I said yes, I won't have an answer.

To me, it feels like the wires got crossed in my brain. I hit the no button, but the signal went to the yes mechanism instead, and that's what came out of my mouth. And then I'll be left wondering why I lied for no reason.

I'm unsure if this happens for other forms of neurodivergence as well.

[autistic-michael]

Happens to me too-

[autistic-michael]

I felt really bad but I GOT A NEW STIM TOY AND THAT MADE ME FEEL BETTER

[autistic-michael]

Sensory issues are WEIRD

My parents' laugh hurts my ears/head for some reason????

[autistic-michael]

Ive happy stimmed A LOT cuz of a hyperfixation but then someone ruined my mood and now I'm sad :-(

[autistic-michael]

Is it an autistic thing that when I watch a video where a person is talking about something, like for example commentary, creepypasta, iceberg video, etc. And like.. When a person who talks in this video switches, and the different person talks, I get very confused because I'm not used to such sudden change in voice and I have to get used to it- Or is it just me?

[autistic-michael]

Realized saying "gay" and keysmashing like fmebudndjdndhdh are my stims!!

[aspergersissues]

[autistic-michael]

Having your empathy changing from very low to very high is so annoying. When i have low empathy, i dont understand people and their struggles at all- and when its high, i cant stand people's problems cuz i feel too much spry for them, to the point i feel almost as bad as them! I wish i could have my empathy in-between more often, then i can understand people's strugles and i dont feel so sorry for them to the point i cry

[theprideful-deactivated20251201]

I love this video so much. I thought I was the only person who experienced these things. this made me feel normal for the first time in my life.

to any other neurodivergent people out there: you're not crazy, or deranged, or disgusting. you're not a bad person. your intrusive thoughts are not your desires. and you are not alone.

ableists don't even make eye contact with this video.

[autistic-michael]

OMG IM NOT THE ONLY ONE???? My most common intrusive thoughts are having sex with the person im talking to or imagining them in sexual scenarios- or harming animals,,, and i hate these so much! I'm so glad I'm not the only one

[autistic-michael]

I deleted the original post because people started forcing the label "disabled" on me. Look, I don't fucking care anymore if you call yourself disabled or make posts with these tags, do whatever you want. Just don't call ME disabled. I'm autistic. It just hurts me personally, and I don't mean that being disabled is bad, it just hurts me to be called this way. Respect people and the way they wanna be called.. Please for the love of god, this was supposed to be a comfort place for me, not a place where people disrespect me

[autistic-michael]

Please stop calling me disabled, please stop. I'm autistic, not disabled, I don't mind if you call yourself this way, but don't call me disabled, don't force this label on me, I'm autistic, not disabled.