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son yoongi. 26.

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crystalcho‌:

crystal let out an affectionate laugh and nodded her head, taking a moment to look at the girls. she saw yoongi’s hand against the blanket, and something clicked in her as she looked up at him again, considering his own name. “well,” she started, returning the gaze to the baby she was holding, lifting her up slightly closer to her. “hi, madeline.” 

yoongi silently watched her as she contemplated between the names. his wide smile returned when she named the baby girl in her arms, making him look at the other baby in his own arms. “so you’re minseo.” he chuckled. “it’s very fitting.” yoongi looked over at his fiance yet again, not being able to stop smiling. “this is really the best day ever.” 

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crystalcho‌:

crystal felt like her breath had been taken away by the two little girls, and she didn’t know just who to look at. her heart ached from joy, which was something she didn’t know was possible. she looked up at yoongi at his compliment, eyes shining with happy tears. she leaned closer to kiss him gently, leaving her lips against his for a dragged out few seconds. when she pulled back she rested her forehead against his and let out a deep, content sigh before turning back to the babies. “so… who’s who?” she asked with a little giggle, having the two names picked out but trying to get a feel for who should take each one.

yoongi didn’t think he’s ever felt as happy as he did in that moment. or maybe it was a different type of happiness. he didn’t know, but it took over him. he kissed her temple when she turned back to the babies, and he looked at them too, his smile so big. “i... you know what, you can pick.” he said, laughing at himself. “we both know if i do that, i’m gonna keep changing my mind.” 

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crystalcho‌:

crystal watched the other nurse who was bringing the second baby over to her, ready with her arms out to take her. she cradled her gently and as closely as she could, just looking for a long few seconds before glancing over to yoongi, a little pout on her lips. “i want to see her too.” she ended up laughing as tears were welling in her eyes, not exactly sure what it was she was crying about. “we did a good job, they’re beautiful.” 

yoongi couldn’t stop looking at the baby in his arms. he felt a weird feeling that he hadn’t felt before. it was like him finally realizing that he was holding one of their daughters. not just anyone’s baby. but their baby. he laughed a little and stepped closer to crystal’s bed, sitting down on the edge of it next to her and bringing the baby closer to her. he looked at the two of them together, and he felt like he wanted to cry too, but kept himself together. “yeah, just like their mum.” he said with a big smile, looking at crystal again. his heart was racing. this was a lot to take in. 

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“hey, handsome.” crystal looked and sounded exhausted, eyes still heavy from the anaesthetic and the whole procedure, but she had a genuine smile when her fiance entered the room. she was sat up with the bed angled comfortably, and her fingers wiggled in invitation for him, waiting for the nurses to return from checking the babies over. 

it wasn’t long before they were back with the pair of girls, smiling at the new parents. “would you like to meet your daughters?” 

yoongi has been worried for more than an hour by now, just pacing and not being able to sit still. with everything happening and the state crystal was in, he had genuine fear that he might lose her. the amount of relief that went through him when he finally got to see her again was something he couldn’t describe. he immediately rushed to her side, taking her hand and kissing her forehead. “how are you feeling? are you okay? are you still in pain?” he asked with taking a breath in between his questions.

he turned around when he heard the nurses come in, his grip on crystal’s hand loosening. he nodded, and didn’t realize how big his smile has gotten when his eyes landed on the two babies. he really couldn’t believe they were his and crystal’s daughters. “god, they’re so tiny.” he said quietly as the nurse handed him one of the girls, and he carefully held her. 

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minanxm‌:

he let his thumb trace over her skin, just looking at her for a second before taking a deep breath in. it wasn’t a normal sight to see him nervous, and he’d truthfully never been nervous around someone else. he’d hadn’t been someone’s boyfriend since he was twenty, no one had ever stuck or made him want to get serious enough for that. “i feel like a dork right now.” he laughed, not knowing how to say it. “but did you want to be my girlfriend? officially?” 

it was a little strange to see him like that. maddie was so used to how silly haneul could be, and seeing him so serious felt so rare. she stayed quiet, a little smile on her lips as she let him speak. once he asked his question, her heart started to race, but she pretended to be calm. “hmm... let me think about it for a second.” she spoke jokingly, pretending to think so seriously. “not really, no...” madeline grinned, only to lightly squish his cheeks with one hand. “of course i do.” 

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minanxm‌:

“you were adorable showing off, i thought i’d let you have it.” he continued to joke, tapping her foot lightly under the table. he let out a breathy scoff at her question, smiling like he couldn’t believe the cheek of it. “my madeline, i can barely afford rent.” he chuckled, taking another swig at his drink before nodding. “of course i will.” he reached out to take her free hand, never caring about pda. “so… listen. i’ve got a question i need to ask you.”

“thank you, i didn’t even have to try.” she joked along, her smile wide and genuine. “awh, what a gentleman.” madeline leaned back in her seat. her heart almost jumped out of her chest, still not used to how he would casually hold her hand like that. she tried not to show it, however. “hm, what is it?” she hummed, now leaning her cheek against her free hand as she watched him with a little smile. she had a feeling she knew where this was going and she tried to stay calm about it. 

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minanxm‌:

“see, this is why coming home for the weekend is a silly idea. i have to behave.” he huffed, pretending like it was so hard for him. they headed towards the bowling alley haneul had promised to take her too, using the bargain of loser buying the drinks if they went to the bar afterwards.

he walked over to her with a pout, handing her drink over before sitting down with his own. “there you go, winner.” he smiled again as he shrugged off his jacket. “you know, i totally let you win.” he lied with a playful glimmer in his eyes.

going out together was different now that they knew how they both felt about each other. maddie was truly glad he didn’t see this as just a friends outing where they could invite anyone else to join them, and she would have to pretend she was fine with it. once haneul said they were going bowling and that the loser was going to buy drinks, she knew she’s got it in the bag. being so confident, and even showing off when she threw the bowling ball to knock down the pins. “you’re so cute thinking you could even let me win.” she grinned, thanking him for the drink before she took a small sip. “does the loser buy dinner too?” 

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minanxm‌:

“why does everyone pick on me?” haneul huffed, disconnecting his phone from the car radio and shoving it into his pocket. it made mina smile to herself, thinking about how zander was like with all their friends at that age. “you’re always welcome, maddie!” she waved them off, haneul rolling his eyes when she made a show of saying i love you and babying him just to be embarrassing. haneul then wrapped his arm around the girls waist, pulling her close to him as they walked. “you like it when i get into trouble, you liar.”

“because it’s fun.” she responded, grinning at him. maddie couldn’t help but laugh when mina tried to embarrass him. it was funny when she did it, but then her mum or dad could do the same thing and she would hate it. “hmm... yeah, i do.” she responded after pretending to this about it, now walking closer to him. “your mum doesn’t need to know that, though.”

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minanxm‌:

“if i’m so embarrassing, why do you still let me-” mina coughed from the front seat, giving him a look in the mirror. “i was gonna say hold your hand, damn.” he answered with a chuckle, then glancing over at madeline and winking. “you gotta stop chaperoning us, you’re making me look uncool.” he added to his mum as she was pulling up to where they were dropping them off. “you asked me for a lift, for one. and for two, you were never cool, baby.” his mother smiled sweetly at him. 

“shut up!” she muttered, lightly punching his arm. she usually didn’t care, but they were with his mother, and mina was definitely one of the women she looked up to the most. maddie almost responded, but mina beat her to it and she couldn’t help but laugh loudly. “you know she’s not wrong.” she grinned as she picked up her backpack and opened the door to get out of the car. “thank you for the lift, auntie mina! i’ll make sure haneul doesn’t get into trouble.” 

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minanxm‌:

“If there was a problem, yo, i’ll solve it. check out the hook while my DJ revolves it.”  haneul was shimming his shoulders as he didn’t miss a beat of 80′s hiphop track he’d put on, always the one out of his friends to play the older classics. “don’t look at me like that, uncle kit always used to play this, it’s drilled into my head. ice ice baby!” 

madeline simply stared at him, her face so expressionless until he looked at her and told her to not look at him like that. she immediately smiled and shook her head. “you are the whitest boy... it’s so embarrassing.” 

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@sonyoongi: i cant believe my own FIANCE pretended she forgot my birthday 😔 i suffered all day long, i really did 😔😔

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crystalcho‌:

“you just jinxed it.” crystal tried to joke, it was something she always said to yoongi when he made comments like that. it was teasing, but truthfully she didn’t feel like laughing at all. she was just trying to ease the tense air in the car. “i love you.” she smiled at him. 

it felt like they were waiting for forever to be seen by someone, but as soon as they were crystal wished she ould go back in time before she knew the diagnosis. there were so many medical terms being thrown at them, and all of them made her feel sick to her stomach. “so, we’re all at risk? all three of us?” she was trying to keep it together, but the nod from the doctor made her feel so nauseous that she was definitely starting to look pale. “there’s things we can do to keep you safe, i would seriously advise a c-section. otherwise there’s chance of hemorrhaging during labor.” the doctor answered, going on to explain the seriousness of that particular outcome.

yoongi always felt so confused in hospitals. it was the way they kept being directed left and right. being told to wait, and examinations, and more waiting. he really just wanted to get this done and find out that crystal was just fine. except, what they got from the doctor was not what they were expecting at all. he didn’t want to believe what he had just heard about all the risks crystal was in along with their children. he just didn’t want to. but this was real life, and it was cruel. “and there’s nothing you can do to fix it now before anything bad happens?” he asked, only to get told that crystal simply needed to rest and not overwork herself or move around a lot. yoongi held her hand tightly, and ran his free hand through his hair with a big sigh. “what the fuck...” 

the entire way back to the care after they had finished up was quiet. he helped crystal back into the passenger seat, put her chair back in the car and got into the driver’s seat. except he didn’t pull out of the parking spot yet. he sat there silently, trying so hard not to think about the worst case scenario. and a moment later, he looked over at crystal. “don’t even dare to blame yourself for any of this. it’s not in your control.” 

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crystalcho‌:

“i wanted to be able to leave quickly.” crystal defended herself, shrugging her shoulders. her body tensed like it was waiting for a cue when yoongi asked his question, and her hand was on her stomach again. “it still hurts. comes and goes. but it’s painful.” she explained as she was assisted into the car. she was silent for a moment as she waited for yoongi to get in the driver’s side, before speaking up quietly. “i’m scared.”

yoongi sighed, not knowing what to say. he was so worried ever since he got those texts from her telling him to take her to the hospital, and he had no idea how to calm down. “you’ll be fine, don’t worry. it hopefully won’t be a big deal.” he said as he started to drive again, eyes focused on the road and one of his hands reaching over to her to take her hand. “i’m right here with you.” 

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the tires of his car came screeching to a halt in front of the house, and just as he was about to run inside, he found crystal sitting outside, waiting for him. “why are you sitting here? it’s freezing!” he said worriedly as he came up to her, ready to help her into the car. “are you okay? are you in any pain?”

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crystalcho‌:

crystal smiled at yoongi’s suggestion, her heart warming at the idea. “i think that’s really lovely.” she couldn’t stop smiling, sounding as giddy as she felt about it. “it makes me feel like i’m really becoming a son.” she added quietly, cheeks turning a little pink, which felt ridiculous considering where yoongi and her were in their life together. “i was thinking about ‘madeline’.” 

his smile returned and it was even wider this time when he heard what she said. yoongi laughed and scooted closer to her, and rested an arm around her shoulders. “you are, though. and very soon it’ll be real.” he answered. “oh, i really like that.” yoongi leaned back against the headboard, thinking for a moment. “i didn’t have any in mind, but... oh wait, how about ‘minseo’?” he sat up again, looking pretty excited over the name.

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crystalcrowe‌:

crystal really thanked whatever power was in the skies above for yoongi being her life, he made everything easier for her and she appreciated it more than she knew how to express. “my super strong man, swoon.” she pretended to fan herself with her hand, a little giggle leaving her lips afterwards. “actually… i have.” she nodded, laying back against the thick pillow she had on her side of the bed, a little huff leaving her lips. “you might hate this… but i thought we could pick names with the same first letter. i have a name already, and maybe you could pick the other?”

“oh, you have?” he raised his eyebrows curiously, he sat up properly to look at her. yoongi shook his head with a small smile. “i don’t mind it. i didn’t have to live sharing the same first letter like park twins have, so i don’t care.” he laughed. “i’m okay with that. but i was thinking...” he stopped, wondering how to word what he wanted. “all of my siblings got two names, one english and one korean. but when it came to zander and i, the names got split between us so... you’re free to say you don’t like this idea, but... i thought it would be cool to do the same with our babies.”