autumnleavesfallingofftrees

I like to write poetry and i also love the season of the witch!

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

People a know a bit about I don't know what to feel anymore so i let it bleed out by its own I have a lot of friends but still i feel so alone If they are my friends, why do they talk in such a tone? I hope they are my friends but i've been known I wanna talk with them, they're busy but all they are doing is sitting on their phone. I’m just happy when I reach home. but it hasn't been my home for awhile.  I am happy, I do smile. but it crawls on me and all of a sudden everyone feels hostile.  Sometimes they hate me, sometimes they don't… or maybe my brain just isn't versatile. had to change myself for the better and it worked but for how long do i keep this up. Sometimes i just need to shut up but i'm weird if do, if i am quiet  but they never liked me at my highest they wanna know all abt me even if its private so what? so you can laugh me out. but maybe that's not true and they just like me  maybe it's too much of a doubt  or maybe they're just people i know a little bit about 

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

I've gone quiet,

And I need it.

I have to become myself again.

I've gone quiet,

And it helps me.

I have to become happy.

Again.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

The snow glitters,

Oh the snow glitters and so does it shine

A snow angel made from mine.

My heart imprinted in the snow,

That leaves a beautiful glow.

It's time to really show,

What you want from me.

What are you waiting for?

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

I wish all the lights were blue,

Wish I could stay with you.

that I didn't have the need.

To mold myself for people filled with greed.

At the end of the day I regret it all.

Creating a world from me.

It's not what makes me happy

not naive i'm just selfless,

I'm tired of it.

I just need two people,

Two feelings,

Two hearts,

And maybe an alarm system

That beeps whenever I miss them.

I'm not naive, maybe I just miss them.

I'm not naive, maybe I just need them.

To be me.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

can’t you see, that what belongs to me, wont make you happy. it's mine.

Just look with your eyes, you can't take anything from me.

Stealing stuff from me for your misery.

It doesn’t work like that, You gotta accept that.

If you are jealous of me just wait and see.

what the summer will do to me.

I'm young and free.

Stop copying me, it'll never make u happy

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Something to look up for

I felt wind for the first time in 3 months, It felt lovely and I'd like to feel it again. Always sitting in the dark, it has to change. Went outside to go buy a book, read it page by page. Step by step I walked to the river, and saw the way it headed. felt it walked with it, I threaded. Across daily life, There is something to look up for. whether it's a daily chore, or walking step by step. Was drowning in the ocean, wasn’t even scared, I felt no emotion. Got saved by my lover, Who I share to my devotion. There's always something to look up for like flowers and the daily wind.  Just keep it in mind.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

My swan song

i threw flower petals in the pond to find myself a swan, that will love me more than you do. I thought you loved me but I had no clue, I would look at you with sparkly eyes and fireworks that reach to space. you were my swan song. Told me that I would miss your face. I know you didn’t mean to hurt me, but it did. You did it wrong and now you feel like a disgrace. Looks like you and I will never work. you really are my swan song, never need someone ever again. I should’ve followed my heart and listened back then. But now i’ve fallen into the lake, so just take my heart out with a stake. There’s no more I can take. Our relationship was fake. It was fake, fake,  fake.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

I saw an angel

Saw an angel and it was scary, Thought it would be more heavenly. Took away my misery,  humming a lovely melody. Took it as something that would empower me. Showed me what I wanted to be. No need to look in a mirror, it wont get any clearer. Took away my sorrow and let happiness fall down to me. So that I could finally be happy, but something else is growing inside.  Told me I had to run and hide. Distance myself from the happy growing tree. What it wanted to show wasn’t me. Is it fixable? Or do I cry till death wants to see?

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Suicidal Angel,

she was a suicidal angel.

Everyone wanted to be like her.

no one knew how she felt, they just knew how she looked and it got them all hooked.

But she was more than that.

it was dangerous to say but they said it anyway. 

they just wanted to chat,

and now she's gone.

She was fragile in every way but how could you be if you were her,

wanted to step in her shoes but they were uncomfortable heels.

no one knows how she feels, Till now.

Till she’s dead.

She had an empty heart.

and they were the ones that took it.

I just wish people were nice enough to care, but they couldn’t.

Not with her.

and there we were, i stood as an amateur.

but you don’t know how people feel, so just be nice.

it'll suffice.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Who do you think you are?

Have you ever cared about me?

Or was it just cus you wanted something to say?

How was your day? But you dont really want an answer, you just want me to say that it was okay.

I can see through you and i wish i couldn't.

But I can now, and I never wanna talk to you ever.

Going after my friends? You think you're so clever.

just get out of my life, because your not here for me.

Your here for what I have and that doesnt make me happy.

I have not missed a sight of you at all.

I hope you die, I hope you slip and fall.

I never feel hatred, I'm actualy very nice.

But with you thats just not possible

Talking bad, who do you think you are?

You're surely not my friend,

So me and you is always going to end.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Fall, autumn Leaves falling on me from trees, grass that's no longer green, flowers can no longer be seen, Everyone fell into a deep sleep. It’s fall, pumpkins to carve and keep. rabbits jumping and doing a big leap. the best season of the year, It’s autumn.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

hold me, Hold me, please I don't wanna be alone. I hate being on my own. I need a hug. But words can’t come out of my mouth. I don’t wanna sound desperate but that's just how it is. i'm not asking for a kiss, not at all. I just need someone to hold me before I fall. that's just all.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

What is this about? I write it down and down, but all the words feel wrong to me. I don't know what to think. I have no memory. I took a sip of my drink, but it tasted bitter. I used to be creative, I used to be a thinker. But now my brain is empty and I don't know what to do. What should this be about? to who and how to feel it through? I got nothing left to wonder but a bed to fall under. I’ll find something eventually and I'll always get my way. Maybe that’s what this poem will be about. To bring my mind back, to not let it get away.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Why can't you see it?

Why can’t you see it? From my perspective? From all the others? Do you ever wonder why everyone hates you? You just have to see it in a different way than others. That's how I got the happiest. Think about our sisters and brothers. don’t let anyone ever have to feel that way maybe thats why your girlfriend didn't stay now you know how it felt to not be okay Now you know how horrible it is to betray anyone. Now you can see it.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

It's more than that,

Palm trees, and honey. bald eagles, and feathers. Feeling the breeze of the summer wind, I know it feels right. Cold hands and ghosts, Fear that has me shook. My heart that he took, I know it feels right. On and on, it never stops. I know you need a break , but it’ll never stop. Theories and significance. The color yellow and the color green. as grass that’s how it's seen. But it’s more than that. Life is more than that.

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Will it ever be okay?

Will it ever be okay? Sometimes i wonder if i'm ever the problem, if what I do is wrong? I just wanted all my friends to get along, I wanted to create a happy environment. But I'm not god, so why do I give myself that role? It’s sad seeing everyone stray away. But I'm not glue, so why should I beg people to stay? I’m always the one who has to answer, but not today. So, will it ever be okay?

[autumnleavesfallingofftrees]

Nothing ever goes right,

Why does it always rain, when i want it to sun? Why when I wanna pick flowers are there none? I just wanna be happy, wanna have fun. But all the pretty starts have lost their shine, and thats when you know you dont got much time. I tell them all "yeah I'm fine.", but if I told you thats a lie would it be a crime? Don't wanna go home, nature is my bed. Where i'll sleep until im dead.